come close to me hold me

It was getting late, and An Xun also returned home after a day's work.When I opened the door, I saw that the house was dark, and my footsteps stopped, and I couldn't help but panic.

I only sent the little girl to the station in the morning, and I didn't feel anything unusual during the busy day. I comforted myself countless times that it was only a few days, thinking that there would be no gap if I made my expectations, why my heart was still empty.

She lied to Jiang Yien. During the two days between 31 and [-], she didn't have any shifts at all, and the shift schedule was arranged half a month ago.Facing the next two days of vacation and the New Year's Eve concert tickets booked in advance, she was really at a loss.

So far, she has spent 13 years getting used to being alone, never thinking that the little girl's intrusion made her forget this habit in just half a year.

In addition to being disappointed, she wanted to see how much food was left at home, after all, she didn't want to go to the supermarket alone to make things worse.Unexpectedly, as soon as I opened the refrigerator, I saw a plate sealed with plastic wrap, and there was a post-it note on it:

"Sister An, don't be lazy. The food for two days has been prepared for you. If you don't fry it, it won't be fresh until I come back! Tonight's rice has been washed and put in the rice cooker. Just turn on the power and it will be fine! "

On the plate, there are some chopped vegetables, and in the bowl next to it, there is also a small portion of marinated meat.

An Xun looked at the crooked words, imagining the cute and playful tone of the little girl, and there was a bit of warmth in his empty heart. On his mouth, he still refused to admit defeat, and said to himself:

"This kid's handwriting really needs to be practiced."

Even so, he took off the post-it note, took it to the study and carefully stored it in a notebook.

Being taken by Jiang Yien to eat dinner for a few months, he has actually developed a habit, at this point, he is indeed hungry.She simply used all the ingredients that the little girl had prepared for her, thinking that it would be a big deal to eat the leftovers tomorrow.

Soon, there was the sound of hot oil sizzling in the kitchen. An Xun, who was used to the little girl helping him, felt a little powerless at the moment. He forgot to put chili and soy sauce for a while, and his usual orderly appearance was completely gone. , A few heads are busy, and it actually makes me look less lonely.

It was the first time that I took my own dinner seriously like this, and my heart was really full after a long absence.

As for Jiang Yien's day, it was like riding a roller coaster.

From seeing the radiant grandma to the time my aunt prepares a table of good dishes without onion, ginger and garlic, it is a fast uphill.So she also willingly took out the gift that An Xun had prepared for her, and as expected, she made her aunt so happy that she could not close her mouth from ear to ear.

But it didn't take long for that sincere heart to fall at an extremely fast speed and was smashed to pieces.

"It's so difficult for you to contact your brother's graduate tutor? At worst, let's spend some money!"

Hearing her aunt's words, she finally realized that the opportunity to go home this time was not a gift, but a grand feast.

But she didn't know how to refuse so as not to make her aunt angry. My cousin is a sophomore this year, and his college entrance examination scores were not satisfactory. He went to other provinces to barely attend a medical school. As a graduate student, it is really hard to compare to the sky.

But whether it is academic or medical skills, there is absolutely no tolerance for sand.This is the consistent insistence of Grandma Chen and Sister An, and she will never allow herself to waver.

Fortunately, Jiang Yien, who came from a family of doctors, has a sensible grandmother.

"Xiao En, don't listen to your aunt, just read your book carefully."

15 years ago, when Sun Meifeng saw the old lady bring the young Jiang Yien into the house, she felt displeased, saying that Jiang Yien was living under someone else's roof, why was she not.The family of three lives in the old house of the old lady. Although she is the housekeeper on the surface, in fact, the big and small things all depend on the old lady's face. With the addition of a precious granddaughter of the Jiang family, she is more like an outsider.

It was hard to bring Jiang Yien up, the old lady is getting older, and she is not as strong as she was in her early days, Sun Meifeng rarely enjoys the freedom of a family of three, so naturally she doesn't want Jiang Yien to come back to disturb her.

Today it is said that she is "going courteous for nothing, either adultery or robbery", and she also admits it.

"Oh, mom! I'm also doing it for your grandson..."

"It's useless to study by yourself. What's the use of thinking about those crooked ways? Xiaoen is usually too busy studying to come back during the Chinese New Year. If you come back rarely, you will add trouble to her."

As soon as the old lady spoke, Sun Meifeng immediately stopped the words, with a sullen face, and gave the two useless men beside her a blank look.

Jiang Yien's heart paused, his eyes full of doubts: "What? Didn't my aunt say..."

Before she could speak, she was interrupted by Sun Meifeng repeatedly: "Yes, yes, every time I called you back before, didn't they always say that the school asked you to go to the hospital to help! Come on, don't talk about those unhappy things, eat a piece of your favorite sweet and sour pork ribs."

Jiang Yien was speechless, her heart dropped violently as if losing weight.

In the past few years, every time she wanted to go home and was rejected, she held a little hope. She knew that as long as grandma spoke, her aunt would have no way to prevaricate, but every time she expected grandma to help her, she always ended up disheartened.She once thought that grandma didn't think of her that much either.

I suddenly realized it today, but I could only bite into the sweet and sour pork ribs silently, without any taste, only mixed feelings in my heart, full of sadness.

It's not the lowest point here yet, my cousin has heard a lot about Ren Zhuo from some friend, including the gossip between her and An Xun, and he has mercilessly told the whole story up to this point.

"I'm useless. How can an old lady be promising? Being able to have an affair with the deputy director is really for the sake of the future. The doctor even blocked the knife for someone! I risked my life, but I can't do it. "

Jiang Yien was so startled that he almost dropped his chopsticks.

She didn't know that the story between herself and An Xun would be misinterpreted like this one day. At this moment, she seemed to suddenly realize that An Xun's worries were not groundless.

"Stinky boy! What are you talking about?!" Sun Meifeng was probably worried that the old lady was still there, so she didn't dare to make her unhappy anymore, so she stepped on her son's leg hard regardless of 21.

"You don't believe me? Tell her to take off her clothes and look, there must be scars! There is also the news about the female star's surgery some time ago, isn't the intern mentioned is the old lady?"

The old lady's radiant complexion suddenly became serious.

Jiang Yien lowered his head and remained silent. The scar behind him that he was so proud of became the evidence of his crime. He was afraid that he would be stripped naked and just sit there motionless.

She felt that she was as cowardly as a deserter. At this moment, she dared not speak up for justice for her love.

Sun Meifeng knew that the old lady was partial to her granddaughter, and she always hoped that her son would be more competitive and please the old lady, but she never got her wish.Right now, seeing that the old lady's complexion was not good, she quickly winked at her wimpy and useless husband who didn't fight or snatch.

The man who had been silent all this time had no choice but to chime in and say, "Do you believe what is said on the Internet? If you can focus on your studies, would you still be in this ghostly state? You still don't shut up? You forgot the rules of eating." ?”

Uncle stern words, cousin finally shut up, seeing grandma calm, Jiang Yien also breathed a sigh of relief.

The first meal back home finally broke up, and Jiang Yien could already see from the look in her aunt's eyes that she wanted to drive her out. If it wasn't for the official reunion dinner tomorrow, she would probably have left with a sense of humor .

It's ridiculous that the scenes of going home and reunion dinner, which should be warm, have turned into a torment like completing a task.

In the evening, after Jiang Yien took a shower, she locked herself in her room and read at night. Like countless nights when she was a child, she still couldn't be a part of the fun outside.

Suddenly, the phone dinged.

"Sister An!"

He exclaimed in a low voice, and instantly smiled.

In the dialog box was a photo. The ingredients she had prepared before going out had obviously been well cooked. Imagining how Sister An was eating seriously by herself, she was gratified but also distressed.He blamed himself for not leaving her like this, and should stay by her side no matter what.

Sighing lightly, the voice that came after clicking on the photo, I listened to it countless times, the voice inside is still gentle and clear.

"Is everything okay at home?"

In a dead silent heart, being soothed by the gentle comfort over and over again, he pressed the voice button to say the answer several times, and finally swipe up to cancel it.

She, who is good at disguising, seems to have no strength to force a smile at this moment.Worried that An Xun would hear something strange from his tone, he finally replied with a text.

"Everything is fine! Grandma is in good health! Sister An! There is no green onion, ginger and garlic in the dishes cooked by my aunt today! I am watching TV with my family now! I won't call you!"

After replying to the news, Jiang Yien only felt physically and mentally exhausted. He closed his book and planned to fall asleep, get through this long night quickly, and go home immediately after the reunion dinner tomorrow.

Where is home, where there is sister An, is her home.

"Tiantian, I miss Sister An..."

"Can I call her? Can I talk to her? Is she worried about..."

Under the quilt, Jiang Yien was just like when he was a child, holding Tiantian and talking sullenly.No, the phone screen suddenly lit up, it was An Xun calling.

With a tremor in his heart, he hesitated to connect it to his ear, but before he heard the sound, childish grievances spewed out, biting his lip and pursing his mouth, with teary eyes, he didn't say a word for a long time.

"Liar liar."

Hearing a gentle reproach with a smile on the other end of the phone, all Jiang Yien's grievances collapsed in this reproach, and he murmured in a crying voice:

"Sister An..."

When An Xun saw the news, he always felt a bit like "there is no silver 300 taels here", and according to Jiang Yien's temperament, under normal circumstances, if you send her a voice message, she will definitely not just reply to the text.

Of course, she also thought that it might be inconvenient for the little girl to speak with her family, and she hesitated if she was thinking too much, but in the end she couldn't rest assured, so she called just in case, and heard the little girl's voice There was silence, and he knew that his guess was right.

With distress, he coaxed in a warm voice: "Fool, I told you not to force yourself to smile, why didn't you tell me? Are you afraid that I will worry? I will be more worried if you do this."

Jiang Yien responded to her with guilt: "I'm sorry, I let you spend the holidays alone, and you still have to worry about me..."

Afterwards, Jiang Yien's defense was completely defeated, and he hummed and acted like a baby, telling An Xun everything about his aunt's intentions and how he had deceived his grandmother over the years.In the tone, it completely meant that the child was wronged and asked his mother to complain.

An Xun on the other end of the phone gave a few doting chuckles, still calm and gentle, as if telling the child that the world is not that bad.

"Silly girl, a person will not change suddenly, so don't expect too much."

"However, don't hate your aunt. She may not be a kind-hearted person like your parents, but she is definitely not a bad person. She is just an ordinary person. Ordinary people have selfish motives."

An Xun's words made Jiang Yien feel like a spring breeze, let go of all conflicts and worries, and finally let go of the cares in her heart.

In fact, the moment she finished venting, she was also contradictory. After all, her aunt was her family. If An Xun spoke badly about her aunt in order to appease her, she would feel ashamed.

So, she is really grateful to An Xun for saying that her aunt is not a bad person.

What's more, the kindness of my aunt's upbringing for so many years said that it is impossible to have no feelings at all. It is precisely because of feelings that there are expectations, and there are expectations that lead to the current disappointment.

"Sister An, then you are not an ordinary person, you have no selfishness at all, you are always thinking of others, and you never act like a baby."

An Xun paused for a moment, then his heart softened: "Fool, of course I am also an ordinary person, and I also have my own selfishness."

"Really? Does Sister An have selfish motives too?"

Jiang Yien couldn't figure out what kind of selfishness a person like An Xun who possesses a fearless spirit, yet has a cold face and a warm heart, does gentle things without leaving a reputation for being gentle.

An Xun pondered for a while.

"Xiao En, most of the time, I am a person who sticks to principles, but I have to admit that I am partial to you."

Jiang Yien was startled: "Side me?"

"Well, I never told you that when I knew you were risking pushing Liang Xiaojing into the operating room, there was a moment when I didn't want you to do this. And you contradicted her for me, I also had a little bit in my heart I am secretly happy. This may not be right... But Xiao En, I must admit that I am not a saint."

The words on the other end of the phone were so soft that they began to drift again. Jiang Yien's face was so unbelievable that he almost lost his language function. After parting his lips and teeth for a long while, he murmured:

"So, Sister An's selfishness is..."

I don't know if it was to appease the little girl's hurt heart, An Xun was rare to be calm:

"Yes, you are my selfish heart."

Jiang Yien felt her heart sunk in the coldness of the world, carefully protected by An Xun in her arms, and the disappointment and grievances that had accumulated all day were also comforted by the warmth of her arms until they disappeared.The bed, which seemed cold and hard, seemed to have become soft and soft.

What she didn't dare to say in front of people during the day seems to have the confidence at this moment, or from this moment on, she no longer has to be afraid of her brother's provocation.

How could it be a sin to fall in love with such a gentle person.

Thin lips, involuntarily lingering on the side of the receiver, quietly kissed, overflowing with a continuous sound:

"Sister An, I miss you so much."

An Xun was stunned, and was moved by the soft sound and did not reply for a long time. By accident, he also had an idea: if the little girl is not happy at grandma's house, she is not completely unqualified to fight for it.

If so, grab it back.

"Xiao En, actually, I have booked the tickets for the New Year's Eve concert tomorrow night. I don't know what time your reunion dinner is, but if you can make it, I want to see you tomorrow night, okay?"

"I also... miss you so much..."

I want to be selfish for once too, is that okay?

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-08-0707:01:45~2021-08-0809:48:52期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 22 bottles of walking across the galaxy; 1 bottle of Fusheng_Luomo;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!