come close to me hold me

An Xun shed a few bean-sized teardrops in shock, but he didn't have the strength to push them away. He closed his eyes as if giving up, and let the girl kiss her ears, earlobes, jaw corners, side face...

I don't care about the fact that I don't know what to do again, and I don't care that the boundary that has been blurred for a long time is once again in name only.

Right or wrong, she is determined to go her own way.

Those who are condemned to be lonely for life are guilty of greed and love;To deny her sincerity, she would rather die than surrender.She seemed to see herself stepping up to the guillotine step by step, the beheading knife fell, blood donations were splashed, and the surroundings were sighing.

But in the end, people will see the snow in June.

It was love that made her innocent.

The hickey faded away, did not touch the red lips, but walked through every corner where the tears slid, and the guilt was gradually soothed, or perhaps, it had already disappeared in the little girl's narration.

Jiang Yien is not a fool, so she is not a liar.

An Xun was shaken.

Almost, it was an irresistible ground shaking.

There is no affiliation, no liars and fools, and even the obsession with the pain of the past is dissolved by a candy from the girl.The father is freed from the past, and Su Wen and Li Min's long-distance love race also has hope.

Everyone is happy...

She should be happy too.

The only worry about the little girl being too young and unstable was also dispelled during the conversation.Even if there will be a foreign country in the future, won't there be video calls?Isn't there still Christmas holidays?Can't you still be coaxed to sleep?Love in a foreign country, love in a foreign country, it is the foreign country that suffers, not love.

She didn't know what reason to refuse "Love".

She didn't know what reason to use to reject her.

"I thought, maybe we..."

The phone rang suddenly.

An Xun trembled, as if he had suddenly caught a life-saving straw in the fallen river.

She knew that if it wasn't for this phone call, she would have agreed in a daze. Fortunately, she regained her senses and was able to escape from the fall.After all, she believes that such a moment is not suitable for making any decisions.

It's not a call from the hospital.

Jiang Yien was stunned for a long time before he realized that his mobile phone was ringing, and hurriedly ran to the living room to search through his bags.Looking at the caller ID, he hesitated for a moment. After hesitating to connect, he placed it next to his ear. After a light "Hello", he still squeezed out two words in disbelief:

"Aunt?"

An Xun followed out the bedroom door, and when he heard the sound, he stopped in his tracks, and his brows could not help but frowned.For such a long time, she has often seen Jiang Yien calling her family, always reporting good news but not bad ones, and obediently saying those flattering things.

However, they never took the initiative to call Jiang Yien, and no one ever asked how the little girl was doing outside.Even her family didn't know about the knife wound.

Something went wrong, the two of them thought of going together by coincidence, worried if something happened to Jiang Yien's elderly grandmother.

Fortunately, they were the ones who worried too much.

Jiang Yien suddenly opened his eyebrows and said excitedly: "Really?! Can I go home for the holidays?!"

After going to university, this was the first time that my aunt invited her home for the holidays. Even if she wanted to go back during the Chinese New Year, my aunt would prevaricate with various reasons.

An Xun was relieved after hearing this sentence, and quietly retreated back to the study.Leaning against the door, looking at the two tickets for the New Year's Eve concert on the mobile phone order, sour and lonely, I can't help but look down, and sigh with a wry smile.

She thought that this festive season, she finally didn't have to be the only dim light among the thousands of lights.

Finally, I don't have to volunteer to go to the hospital on duty, so that I don't look so lonely.

Finally, there is no need to embarrassingly buy a seat at the family New Year's Eve concert, making everyone wonder who is celebrating the New Year or alone.

However, how to fight for it, and how can I have the qualifications to retain it.

After all, that is the little girl's home.

Such an opportunity today is definitely a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for Jiang Yien.In addition to being excited, she had to hesitate and left by herself. Isn't Sister An alone?Looking back at the silent and dejected figure hiding behind the door, I also knew how lonely she would be.

In the end, she still gritted her teeth and said, "Auntie, I might..."

Before he finished speaking, his eyes turned red.

After all, abandoning the grandmother whom I haven't seen in two years is also a pain in the ass.

"What's the matter? There's still something to do at school? It's okay, come back when you can, your grandma keeps talking about it every day." On the other end of the phone, there was rare tolerance and enthusiasm.

"Thank you, aunt, but I may really not be able to come back this year."

After Jiang Yien said this, she hung up the phone quickly without waiting for a response, she didn't want to give herself a chance to repent.

Staying in place for a long time, there are only sores and holes in the body, and there are piercing pains everywhere. The pain is so painful that the nails of the clenched fist are sunk deep into the flesh, and I don’t even notice it. The pain is so painful that I subconsciously bit my inner lip, mouth Unknowingly, there was a smell of blood.

She wanted to cry, but she didn't know how to cry.

She knew that once she made a decision, it might be difficult to go back in the future. What would grandma think of her, and would aunt think she was a white-eyed wolf.

But she was even more afraid. Leaving An Xun alone in loneliness, she was also afraid that An Xun would be disappointed in her because of this.She didn't want to blaspheme her sister An with such a mentality, but she had to admit that she was not confident and uneasy.

She thinks that she is a stray cat, just like Xiaoju, only when she is obedient will she be loved, and only when she is obedient will she be wanted.It was Sansheng's luck to be picked up and brought home.

But a kitten who can't forget the former owner will not be liked by the new owner.

Taking a deep breath, she squeezed out a smile, pretended to be relaxed and jumped back to the door of the study: "Sister An!"

"Well, I heard that, congratulations."

An Xun slightly bent the corner of his mouth, and congratulated first.After clearing away the hot tea on the carpet and the books I hadn't read in time, I turned off the sunset light next to the piano, and my frivolous figure was instantly engulfed in the darkness.

Just walked two steps outside in the dark, there was a "snap", the incandescent light on the roof turned on, and it was Jiang Yien who turned on the switch by the door: "I'll turn off the light when you come out."

Looking at the little girl's clear and bright smiling eyes, An Xun was indeed stunned for a moment, as if the light switch in his heart had been turned on again.

Jiang Yien took the teacup from An Xun's hand, and took it to the kitchen to clean it together: "Sister An, you heard it... But, I have already decided not to go back, I still plan to stay and spend New Year's Eve with Sister An."

The sourness in An Xun's heart dissipated the moment the little girl turned on the light for her, and at this moment, it felt even more warm.The little girl didn't think that she could do it alone, she was unswervingly chosen by the little girl.

His heart was sour, and the slender eyelashes were stained with tears again.

"Go back, don't worry about me. I have to be on duty during the New Year's Day holiday. I was worried that I would leave you at home alone. If you want to go home, it's just right."

It's not that she couldn't feel the surprise of the little girl when she received the call. How could she be willing to let the little girl reluctantly give up her love, and how could she really go to the old man to grab the time of her granddaughter.

Besides, being chosen by Jiang Yien is enough.

"But..." Jiang Yien was in a dilemma. He went home to celebrate the festival happily, but Sister An wanted to spend the night alone in the hospital. No matter how I thought about it, I felt very sorry: "I still won't go home. Anyway, there is nothing to do in the hospital at night. I will accompany you. Besides, I have already rejected my aunt. "

An Xun was startled, and touched her little face full of distress: "Silly girl, tell your aunt well, she will let you go home, I know you have been waiting for this day for a long time, do you miss grandma? "

Jiang Yien's nose was sore, and the tears that were still stubbornly holding back also fell down in an instant, dripping into An Xun's heart, causing ripples.

"Okay, don't embarrass yourself, we still have a long time to get along, go back and stay with grandma for two more days."

Jiang Yien shook his head, wiped away his tears, suppressed his sobs and said, "I won't go...I'm sorry, I'm glad I can stay, I just...I miss grandma so much..."

In fact, she really wanted to ask:

If I go back, can I come back in the future?

"I think grandma should be right. You really don't have to be in a dilemma. This is not a multiple-choice question. You can have both, why force yourself to make a choice? We stay together every day, not bad for a day or two." .”

An Xun seemed to sense Jiang Yien's fear, his heart was mixed with bitterness and soreness, and it hit his throat repeatedly, and he endured the dull pain.He wrapped the little girl in his arms and stroked her back.

Comforting her, and also comforting myself who was a little lost.

"My baby Yien, don't be afraid."

"You can come back to our home anytime, you know?"

All of Jiang Yien's forced smiles were shattered at this moment.Her throat was sore and tight, as if she was instinctively restraining her emotional breakdown, but she was helpless, but still burst into tears.

Self-blame and grievances turned into tears and overwhelmed her. How could she, how could she desecrate Sister An's love again and again, how could she compare their relationship to a master and a pet.

How could it be so contemptuous of An Xun.

"Then yell again, Bao... Bao..." It took Jiang Yien a long time to force his mouth to speak, with a sobbing tone, acting like a baby.

An Xun couldn't help laughing, with love in his eyes, he kissed the girl's forehead:

"Baby, my baby."

"No matter where you go, I will wait for you at home."

That night, Jiang Yien seemed to have been turned on some wonderful valve, crying in the shower, crying while putting on clothes, crying after applying lotion, drying her hair, crying even after going to bed, until she almost fainted.

After all, Jiang Yien gained too many "lifetimes" on that day.At least that night, she believed it. She changed from a child with nothing to a child with two families who snatched her back.

An Xun also pampered her, applied lotion for her, dried her hair, held her in her arms, and coaxed her to sleep after a long absence.Enjoying the little girl's coquettishness and attachment, my heart is also sweet and satisfied.

After this round of bitterness and sweetness, she was finally convinced:

This child is hers.

No one can take it away.

On the morning of December [-]th, Jiang Yien took Tiantian on the intercity train back to Jiangbei despite being coaxed and coaxed by An Xun.

Originally, she had planned to come back on the 31st. After the reunion dinner, she would return on the same day, so she didn't have to take Tiantian away, but An Xun said that she had a few extra shifts temporarily and didn't have time to accompany her, so she asked her to be with her. Grandma will stay for two more days before coming back.

At hand, there are many gifts that An Xun prepared for her, such as a cervical spine massager for grandma, a coat for aunt, a watch for uncle, and a new mobile phone for cousin.

If it weren't for bad luck to open the box for inspection, she probably didn't know that she was cheated by An Xun until she got home.

"Liar, you actually told me it was melatonin..."

Helpless, she could only take An Xun's kindness and go home to make her aunt happy.

She still remembered that before going out, An Xun asked her: "The new access code has been changed, do you remember?" After she returned a confirmation, An Xun asked her further: "Do you know what it means? ?”

She racked her brains and couldn't figure it out, but An Xun kept it a secret, saying that she would tell her after she came back.

At this moment, looking at the numbers in the memo, she still has no clue:

292593

"What exactly does that mean?"

The author has something to say: An Xun: (holds the forehead) I'm afraid I brought a fool home.

感谢在2021-08-0205:00:12~2021-08-0707:01:45期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Xiao Wanqing's wife 1;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 11 bottles for Xiao Wanqing's wife; 10 bottles for Wide, Mojia Xiaocal, and Tangtang; 2 bottles for Fusheng_Luomo; 1 bottle for my old lady;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!