come close to me hold me

"I won't leave her."

In addition to expressing his attitude palely, An Xun didn't know what else to say to appease the old man's doubts.

"Pet", "tired of playing", "let go"... She never imagined that one day, her feelings for Jiang Yien would be called such words.She is not good at defending herself, let alone how to defend a crime she has never committed and will not commit in the future.

But even in this embarrassment, she is still relieved that it is because of the stern old man in front of her that her girl is never lonely and helpless in this world.

Jiang Xueer is naturally unmoved by his deep love, but only a few words.

"Son, let me tell you the truth. I called Xiaoen here this time, and I planned to take her back to live. Although the matter of giving up the quota is an oolong, it doesn't mean that the child is really mature. If you really love her, you should wait for her, I don't support you living together now."

The old man is full of pride. When a neighbor gave her a bag of salt, she wanted to return him a barrel of oil. She would rather suffer a loss than take advantage of others.

Jiang Yien is still a student now, has no ability to make money, does not have her own house, not to mention eating other people's house and living in other people's house is unseemly, but also saying that she is tied up with her partner too early. If she breaks up in the future, she can only move out in despair An Xun's home.As a grandmother, Jiang Xueer would never allow her granddaughter to end up in such a mess one day.

An Xun's heart trembled, take it back?where to go backGoing back to the "home" where her girl has practiced the ability to "sense words and expressions, and force a smile"?

Living at home watching the faces of adults, being bullied at school and not daring to go home, suppressing my own nature all the time, repeatedly implying in my heart that only if I am well-behaved and sensible, will I not be abandoned...

This kind of life is not a day or two for Jiang Yien, it is 15 years!

"I know you love her. She is the child you have raised and brought up with so much hard work. I have no right to stop you from taking her back. But, can you get back those toys and snacks that Xiao En took away from her younger brother? All these years in college, she always wanted to go home to see you, but her aunt always prevented her from doing so, do you know all these things?"

It seems a little despicable to betray Jiang Yien's aunt like this, but An Xun really can't think of any other way.Even if Jiang Yien really wanted to go back, she would have to get rid of her troubles in advance.

"What did you say?" Jiang Xueer's expression was obviously ignorant.But apart from doubt, there was no other emotion in his eyes, no surprise, let alone anger.

Over the years, it's not that she can't see Sun Meifeng's partiality and even harsh treatment of children, but she is also a woman herself, and she can understand Sun Meifeng's difficulties in being a half stepmother, so she turns a blind eye to many things.

An Xun bit his lip and continued to offend:

"You're right, Xiao En is a child who can be cheated away with a candy. But do you know how much effort it takes to make such a child completely let go of her guard? For so many years in the past, she has been putting herself Think of it as Xiaoju...that is...that homeless stray cat covered in wounds..."

She was so painful that she stopped speaking, trembling and sighing.

"So, that girl always asks me, Sister An, is it okay? Sister An, is it okay? Sister An, why not... I don't know what to do, so that she can believe that there are some sweets in this world without fighting for them Only by getting it can she believe that she deserves the love she deserves. But no matter what, I can't let her be Xiaoju again..."

There was heartbreak embedded in her eyes, the restrained tears almost burst, her voice couldn't help trembling and choking, just imitating the little girl's humble tone, she became sore and heart-piercing, how could she be willing to send the girl away again? Back to the place where I made my whole body humble.

Jiang Xueer's eyes were red, and he suppressed the soreness in his throat, but his eyebrows were bitter again, and he was silent for a long time, only leaving a heavy sigh.

"So what? We as family members can't make up for it, so you can do it?"

She is powerless to the fact that Jiang Yien has no father and no mother, and she has always firmly believed that children can only grow up after suffering a little bit.In the final analysis, how long can I stay with her and raise a delicate air for the child, how will this helpless girl face the harshness of the world alone in the future.

Too much helplessness, too much powerlessness.

An Xun raised her eyes, eyes full of perseverance and perseverance, she did not avoid looking at Jiang Xueer anymore, she knew that she was not alone, it was love and trust that gave her full confidence.

"I may not be able to make up for her past, but I will try my best not to owe her future."

Jiang Xueer couldn't calm down. For more than ten years, she believed that she was worthy of Jiang Yien and her daughter, but today, after listening to An Xun's words, guilt and self-blame began to surge in her heart.

Is it true that you are too strict with the little girl?

"So, no matter what, you will never promise me to take people away."

An Xun replied cautiously:

"Yes, as long as it is something she doesn't want, I will not allow anyone to force her. Even if it is you, I will stick to it to the end. "

She secretly clenched her fists to cover up her trembling hands.

Jiang Xueer was finally moved, and sighed: "I finally understand why that child recognizes you. You do have the ability to make her unable to leave you."

An Xun didn't know if this counted as approval, but when she saw the old man's formidable face, she finally showed a faint smile.The hard-won kindness is like a little bit of warm sunshine in the severe cold.

The tip of her nose was sore, and she wept.

"Jiang Yien, it's my desperate bet. I'm more afraid of losing the bet than anyone else, and I'll miss her and hurt her. But apart from her, there is no light in my life. Grandma Jiang, it's not Xiaoen who can't leave Leave me, I can't do without her..."

She almost broke down in tears.

She is willing to give up the armor that is invulnerable to all poisons, and she is willing to worry about gain and loss from wanting nothing. She believes that she has completely lost in the game of self.Therefore, she can no longer lose her love with the girl, and the girl's future happiness.

She knew that if there was a day of parting, she would be the one who was embarrassed, and she would be the one who didn't know what to do.

Jiang Xueer took An Xun's hand and patted it lightly: "Son, I didn't mean to make things difficult for you. It's just that I only heard about you on New Year's Day, and I also... saw the little girl En's scar on the back."

Soft words, obscure, but not difficult to understand.Let the heart that had just let go feel panicked again: "I..."

She was still unable to defend herself, it was a fact that the girl had fought her whole life for her.

That incident was a knot in An Xun's heart that she could never get over, and she was doomed that no matter how much she gave in her life, she would always owe the girl that little bit.

Also because of this matter, she will always ask herself to love girls, always a little more than girls love her.

"An Xun, I believe the two of you really love each other, but that child...is protecting you with his life every time...I am a person who is about to die. I understand that you young people pay attention to love and love. No. To be honest, I would rather she die alone than have a dangerous person around her who will make her desperate at any time. I have already lost my daughter, and our Jiang family only has this granddaughter, can you understand? "

Dangerous person?An Xun smiled wryly in her heart. She thought that the ugly words she heard before were already the limit.Beneath the silent surface, the villain in his heart was already clutching his chest, hunched over, suffering from heart-piercing pain and weeping to death.

Fortunately, the old man gave her a step down.

"But my attitude is just my attitude after all. It doesn't matter if you listen to it or not. I just hope that you will never forget the knife that Jiang Yien suffered for you, and never break your faith in what you said today. I also let go of this old face, and I implore you, please, please, don't let Jiang Yien take risks again, can you do it?"

An Xun stood on the steps and stopped for a long time.

The risk Jiang Yien took for her was more than just the knife, confronting the doctor several times, contradicting the patient, and practicing medicine in violation of regulations... With these lessons learned from the past, how could she have the face to say "it can be done".

But if the old man can't even satisfy such a simple request, how can he not owe the girl's future.

"I, promise you."

Protect her well and love her for the rest of her life.

After Jiang Yien came back from the cafeteria, he lingered at the door for a long time.She could see two people talking through the glass window in the door, tried to hear a little sound, but heard nothing.With An Xun's back turned to her, she couldn't see her expression clearly, but could only see her always upright posture.It should be, there is no backing down.

You should, don't give up on me.

She didn't break into the ward, she was always very good.She thought, since Sister An intends to distract her, she shouldn't go in.

In fact, she was just afraid. She was afraid of seeing grandma's aggression, and she was afraid of seeing sister An's retreat step by step.Afraid of witnessing the person she is closest to with her own eyes, forcing the person she loves the most to give up.

She could only squat down against the wall in panic and helplessness, holding the disposable lunch box in her arms, seeking a little peace of mind in the warmth of the food.

Finally, the door opened.

An Xunxiang was physically and mentally exhausted after going through a chaotic battle, and found some comfort when he went out and saw the little girl.Looking at her, his brows and eyes were loose and soft, restraining his emotions, he smiled.

"Did you buy breakfast? Why didn't you bring it in?"

Jiang Yinen paused for a moment before he dared to run up to hug her. For a moment, it was like hugging her whole world.

After pondering for a while, he uttered a whisper:

"Sister An, you have worked hard."

An Xunmei was slightly startled, she seemed to have been seen through by the little girl again, her heart suddenly felt sore, and her eyes were once again moistened by a layer of water mist.

The little girl hugged her and leaned on her shoulders, giving her the strength to support her, and sending long-lost gentleness to her ears.

"I know what you mean by asking me to come out. My grandma is difficult to deal with. But you are so good, I believe my grandma will like you. It doesn't matter if you don't like it. An Xiaoai just needs to be herself, no need Just to please my family. Got it?"

An Xun's heart softened, and he answered her softly:

"Important, because she is the family member you rely on the most. You care about her opinion, right? How can I not care about the person you care about? Don't worry, your grandma didn't make things difficult for me, we just made a bet. "

A trace of novelty flashed in Jiang Yien's eyes: "What are you betting on?"

"I bet you are a naive ghost." An Xun joked with a smile.

Jiang Yien had already figured out the reason why her grandma was admitted to the hospital. When An Xun asked her helplessly if she really gave up the quota for studying abroad, she was stunned for a moment.In fact, she did not reply to the confirmation email from the foreign school for a long time, and she finally finalized the matter after she came out of the ward.

She had already seen from that look, if she really gave up, how disappointed she, they, would be.

"Then did you win?"

How can I let you lose.

With a smile in his eyes, An Xun kissed the girl's side face, and the answer was self-evident.

"Xiao En, thank you for not making me regret."

So, fight hard and stick to it, just because I can't let you down.

The author has something to say: An Xun: Grandma is so fierce... (wronged)

Jiang Yi'en: If you don't listen to your wife, you will be at a disadvantage! (spread hands)