come close to me hold me

The suitcase that had been hidden was finally found.

These days, Jiang Yien is always clearing things one after another. Every time he opens the box, An Xun will choose to avoid it. Being caught by Jiang Yien's words, it is indeed a cruel thing to build a boat by himself and send his lover on a long journey.

Shoes, skin care products, cosmetics, clothes, necklaces, wallets, toiletries...Jiang Yien found out that the shadow of An Xun has almost integrated into all her daily necessities, even the inconspicuous black hair band on her wrist. When he was brought home on the first day, he secretly replaced it from An Xun's hair.

An Xunduo brought her a suitcase, added baggage allowance to the ticket, and said that he would not help her clear the luggage, but prepared a lot of things for her that she hadn't considered.

She seems to be able to take everything away, but she can't take away the person she loves the most.

Today, since early morning, An Xun has been shutting himself in the study room, thinking that if he read two more books, he would not be swallowed up by the sorrow of sorrow, but sorrow of sorrow has already built a high wall in his brain, and no word can break through.

When it was time to say goodbye, she still didn't dare to face the girl, she leaned against the door and sat on the carpet, listening to the warnings outside the door, leaving tears and blood in her heart.

"Sister An, when I'm not around, you should take good care of yourself. The medicine is in the bedside cabinet, and you put a little loose in each bag. When it hurts, don't boil it."

"You need to drink less ice water. You often get cold when you start scripting. In winter, even if you turn on the heating, you have to cover yourself with a quilt."

"I know you don't like to drink the glucose from the hospital, but you are so tired and sweaty after a series of operations, I prepared some milk sugar for you in your bag, and there is still some in the refrigerator. It should be enough for a year... ..."

"The Lego castle you gave me, I can't take it away, so I'll leave it to you to put it together. When you miss me, put it together. Maybe I'll come back after you finish putting it together..."

Jiang Yien has already cried to the point of heartbreak. In order for An Xun to eat well, she ordered fresh fruits and vegetables from the supermarket for a year, and every other day someone would deliver different fresh ingredients to the door.The key to the younger sister's room was put back into An Xun's keychain, and she also secretly threw away the pack of cigarettes in the bedside table that could not be smoked for a long time, and replaced it with stomach medicine and painkillers.On the last day, she also left the heartbeat bear brought back from Disney on the bed.

I did everything I could think of, worrying, but it only increased.

Ji Xiaoyu on the side looked at the time and pulled Jiang Yien: "Let's go, it will be too late. Dr. An is not a three-year-old anymore, he will take care of himself."

Jiang Yien knows An Xun too well, how can she take care of herself, she has always only been brave, and always only cared about the overall situation.No matter how dangerous she is, she will still be the first to bear the brunt, and no matter how much she suffers, she will not make a phone call to complain and act like a baby.

However, it's agreed to grow up separately, it's agreed to learn to love yourself, wait for us to become better selves, wait for us to reunite after a long absence.

An Xun, you can do it.

"Sister An, I'm leaving..."

The moment he turned around, the door finally opened.

An Xun's weeping red eyes wiped away the tears, leaving only dryness and exhaustion, his eyes only glanced at Jiang Yien and then dodged away, his voice was weak and hoarse: "I'll see you off."

Ji Xiaoyu originally thought that she would not be a light bulb anymore, but after looking back and forth between the two of them, she still took the luggage uneasy.It was the first time she saw An Xun's appearance like this, and it was so different from the invulnerable one she usually saw. She was so frightened that she lost all her usual eloquence, and even started to stammer:

"I, I'll be the driver." Then he looked at Jiang Yien and explained again: "Dr. An is in this state, it's not, it's not safe to drive back by himself..."

Jiang Yien nodded, sobbing.

Along the way, both of them looked out the window and shed tears silently. Neither of them turned their heads back, but the hand that they were thinking about was still clenched in the center of the back seat, and they did not separate for a moment.

The farewell airport is always in a hurry. An Xun has seen off many people there, the mother who chased her dreams, the father who escaped the pain, and in fact, there are also childhood friends and respected mentors... But in front of these unforgettable scars, Those partings that should have been remembered seemed insignificant.

Those who were sent away at the airport, in the end, never came back.

This is the reason why she didn't want to come to the airport, she watched the backs of one after another leave in fear, she didn't know if Jiang Yien would be the exception.

Jiang Yien lowered his head and walked towards the security checkpoint, holding the bead string in his hand, hesitated for a long time, then turned around and carefully handed it to An Xun.

"Sister An, this string of bodhisattvas was left to me by my grandmother. When I gave it to me, my grandmother only left a sentence of 'a happy marriage for a hundred years'. Now, I am not qualified to take it, so you can keep it for me."

After all, it is only meaningful if you have a good relationship for a hundred years.

Without you, what's the use of leaving blessings in vain?

An Xun took it, and tears filled his eyes.

After seeing so many separations and reunions, she knows that the unforgettable memories will one day fade into the past, and she knows that the past will eventually pass, should she look forward to it?Should it be expected?Will a year's separation really make them love each other more intensely?

Can a pair of lovers who broke up really wait for their century-old reconciliation?

Killing people is nothing like killing someone else, and one day a girl wants to put on a wedding dress for someone else, and she has to hand over this string of bodhi, and then forcefully smile and wish a happy marriage for a hundred years.

She sighed, hugged the girl for the last time, and whispered in the ear of countless kisses: "Don't make yourself too hard, I will always be there, I will always be there, even if I am not a lover, I am still your family .”

"Tired, remember to go home."

In the end, An Xun endured the tears rolling in his eyes, and watched Jiang Yien arrive at the end of the line, watching her move along with the crowd, chasing her back, watching her getting smaller and smaller.

The little girl turned around and waved her hand with a smile, but was finally swallowed by the security gate and was never seen again.

Her girl, really gone.

Looking at Desolate's back in front of her, Ji Xiaoyu couldn't help thinking whether Wen Jing was so helpless and lonely when she resolutely dragged her luggage and left.

Apart from being in a trance, she was even more helpless. The former Iceberg Demoness burst into tears in front of her eyes, crying silently.It was the first time for her to experience Jiang Yien's so-called tenderness and affection. She originally thought that such a vocabulary could not be associated with an ice beauty.

If she didn't want to belong, she even wanted to hug An Xun for Jiang Yien, but she also knew that there was nothing she could do except hand over tissues and escort him home.

After all, Ice Beauty has always only been willing to rely on that one person.

Back home, An Xun went straight to his room, intending to get a good night's sleep, so that he would stop thinking about it.She didn't notice the bulging quilt, and lay down in a daze, but couldn't fall asleep anyway.

After tossing and turning, she found the little bear hidden under the blanket.After being amazed for a while, my heart softened for a while, and the tears that I had finally withdrawn were sent out violently again.

"Did she ask you to stay with me? Did she think that I, like her, could sleep with a little bear? Did she think you could replace her?"

She complained bitterly.

"It's ridiculous, why did I start talking to the little bear, what do you understand..."

The pain caused her to curl up unknowingly, hugging the bear little by little, and leaned in the bear's insufficiently spacious arms, listening to the plopping sound, unexpectedly found a little comfort.

So worthless, actually relying on a little bear.

"Just tell you to miss, Ann miss."

Thus, in this world, there is another little bear with a surname.

Holding the miss, she actually slowly fell asleep.

As soon as she woke up, it was dark, and the room was filled with emptiness and confusion. If it wasn't for the heartbeat of missing, she would probably be abandoned by the world.Through the window, looking at the night sky, trying to find the shadow of the girl in the twinkling stars, but all I saw was endless loneliness.

Her girl was taken far away by the plane.

I didn't drink a sip of water at the end of the day, and my body and spirit were in a state of overload. I tried to get up and wanted to go to the kitchen to find a sip of water.As far as the eye can see, there are pairs of cups, snacks full of coffee tables, soft carpets, Lego castles in glass cabinets...

The dexterous figure of the little girl seemed to be still jumping for joy in front of her eyes, and her brisk laughter seemed to still linger in her ears.

Unexpectedly, there is a kind of desolation in which things are right and people are wrong.

It's only the first day, and it seems that I can't hold it anymore.

I don't know how many steps I paused before I walked to the kitchen. As soon as I took out the glass kettle from the refrigerator, it was dark before my eyes, and I lost my strength and let go.

The glass shattered all over the floor, and ice water splashed all over her body. She held onto the refrigerator door to take a few breaths, and wanted to squat down to clean up the leftovers, but she didn't have any strength at all. Knowing that the floor was in a mess, she still couldn't hold on and collapsed. go down.

The fragments scratched her arm, and the fragments of slag pierced her flesh through her clothes. The pain made her wake up from a faint, and she couldn't move at all.

Seeing the bright red blending into the debris and ice water little by little, she also scolded herself in her heart, how could she still be embarrassed because of "life and separation" after she had already experienced "farewell to death".She was clearly indifferent and numb, how could she mess up her heart, which had been so hard to freeze intact, to pieces because of a little girl.

But Jiang Yien is just a little girl.

That was her fate.

"Xiao En..."

"I don't want to break up..."

She finally cried out the truth sadly, but there was no way for Jiang Yien to hear it.

When she was about to fall asleep again, she seemed to hear the little girl's sweet and severe reprimand in her ears:

"Little An Xun, is this how you take care of yourself?"

She tried to break away from the broken piece, but her body didn't listen at all, and she managed to prop up a little bit, but what she got in return was to crash into the broken piece again, and there were several more small wounds.

Until the refrigerator was opened, a caramel suddenly dropped.

It is also like the redemption of reunion.

This time, she picked up the candy without hesitation, peeled off the wrapper, and held it in her mouth. The sweetness melted little by little, and the strength like filaments was finally relieved.

Holding on to the refrigerator door, he climbed up, temporarily put the mess on the floor, and returned to the room immediately to treat the wound.

To take care of yourself, you must take care of yourself.

If not, how can I be worthy of the little girl who desperately tried to save her.