come close to me hold me

It was only later that An Xun found out that on that nightmarish New Year's Eve, Li Min also made a fuss with Su Wen and his family.The Su family's debts are like a bottomless pit. The Li family doesn't understand why their own daughter insists on taking on a burden that others can't avoid.

Su Wen also sank for a long time because of this, his normally high eyebrows were completely lifeless.

Wen Jing posted a long Moments to bid farewell to the lost love. She said that when she was a child, she thought that love was very simple. If you are happy, you will stay together, and if you are unhappy, you will separate.When I grow up, I realize that love is too complicated, so complicated that I can't see people's hearts clearly, and I can't see the beginning and end of feelings.She said that there is no need to doubt the enthusiasm of the past, love is sincere, and neither is love.

An Xun, who never pays attention to the circle of friends, chews this text repeatedly in the middle of the night, tears bursting again and again.

Jiang Yien's overseas life was not going well. Right after he landed, he was robbed of a month's living expenses by the rental agency, and the house was not as ideal as expected. The location was in the outskirts of the city, and the traffic was very inconvenient. It took three trips to get to the city center where the school is located.

The bathroom leaked, the toilet clogged, and the windows creaked at night.This is a small one-bedroom apartment that she can barely rent out after renting out the old house left by her parents.

In fact, when she first arrived here, she received a text message reminding her that an account had transferred a sum of money to her card, enough to support her living expenses for a year.

The note is just a string of familiar numbers: 292593.

But no matter how distressed she was, she would still transfer back the money transferred by An Xun intact.She swears that everything depends on herself.

The professors at the school are not as friendly as the secretariat, they treat domestic and foreign students differently, and even assign two types of topics.She went to the professor's theory, but all she got was a contemptuous smile.

Verbal games cannot eliminate discrimination. She can only prove herself with practical actions. She works hard every day, and the professor assigns two different topics, and she overcompletes both.Regardless of public class or practice, she never misses any opportunity to absorb energy, and actively demonstrates her abilities.

He tried his best, but it was nothing but fairness.

July, scorching heat.She joined the school's swimming club, and it took her a month to learn breaststroke.Several students laughed at her for being timid and clumsy. No one knew what kind of belief she insisted on to overcome the fear of drowning.

In addition, she also found a part-time job to practice oral English, and used the money earned from the part-time job to enroll in a free fighting training class. She knew that her thoughts were naive, and she just hoped that there would be another medical dispute with Ren Zhuo in the future , she has enough qualifications to rush ahead of An Xun.

As a result, she would go home every weekend covered in bruises, holding Tian Tian and crying bitterly. Her classmates thought she had been violently treated, and almost made a police report.

Several times in the silent night, she really felt that she would not be able to hold on any longer.Even the quilt and the corner of the wall couldn't bear the depression and pain in my heart.She really wanted to call An Xun to act like a baby, but as soon as she wavered, grandma's cold questioning would keep ringing in her ears.

"What can you give her?"

"Why are you worthy of her?"

At this time, she always covers her ears and throws away her cell phone, holding Tian Tian in her arms and hiding in the closet.

"Tiantian, what should I do...I miss her so much..."

"Can I call sister Ann...Can I tell her that I'm not doing well at all..."

Crying lasts all night.

Escaping was never the answer, and finally before autumn came, she defeated the opponent for the first time.

The foreign coaches couldn't understand what she yelled at the end, and they thought it was a slogan that could save lives from adversity.In fact, it was just the erratic confusion of her consciousness, so she blurted out:

"Don't bully her!"

When she fell to the ground exhausted, she murmured, "Sister An...don't bully my sister An..."

In the first winter in country T, there was snow outside the window, and Christmas theme songs echoed everywhere, everything was what she had longed for.But she locked herself in the room and dared not go out.

She was afraid that after soaking in the snow alone, she would really have to part ways with each other.

A long time ago, she told An Xun that she could go back during the Christmas holiday.But with the money on her body, she couldn't even afford the cheapest air ticket.What's more, free fighting left her with bruises all over her body. How could she dare to go back to see An Xun in this state.

She sent a voice message to An Xun, only to find that the internet at home was disconnected, and the balance of the phone bill was not enough. There was no way to recharge it anywhere during the Christmas holidays, and the voice message was not sent.

Fortunately, in the past six months, she had very little contact with An Xun, and if she lost contact for half a month, she would not let the other party notice anything unusual.

They all pretended to be busy, but they just didn't want to be discovered by the other party: without you, my life is really embarrassing.

In early spring, Jiang Yien fell seriously ill.

I couldn't order takeaway, and I didn't have time to stock up on food. I was alone in a cold and damp room, living on croissants and a few bottles of mineral water.At first it was just a cold and cough, and I didn't pay much attention to it. Who knew that after a few days, I coughed until I became hoarse and lost my voice.

She began to feel chest tightness and pain, and developed a high fever at night. She couldn't get a call at the hospital for a long time, so she dragged her sick body to the pharmacy to buy some anti-inflammatory drugs, and even went to the supermarket to buy some water and ingredients.

Unexpectedly, misfortunes never come singly, she met a few hooligans who insulted her for no reason. When she got home, she found that her pocket had been cut and her mobile phone and wallet had been stolen.

Fortunately, An Xun had long thought that it would be very difficult to deal with a broken mobile phone or a problem with the calling card abroad, so she bought a spare phone and got a spare calling card for her.She couldn't imagine what she would be like now without An Xun's precautionary measures.

She really wants to rely on herself, and she hasn't called An Xun to act like a baby for so long, but at this moment, she really doesn't know what to do.

An Xun is really omnipotent, but he himself is really useless.

After reading the news, I found out that there was an outbreak of influenza in the region where she was located, and two deaths occurred in the afternoon.

She couldn't tell if she had been tricked. The grievances and depression accumulated in the past six months swallowed her mercilessly. In the collapse, she knocked over the shopping bag, and the potatoes and carrots rolled to the ground, curled up in the corner of the room, sobbing and sobbing.

Will he just die like this, or will it really be a farewell once we say goodbye?She is not reconciled, and dying in a foreign country is her final outcome.

Turned on the new phone, unexpectedly, the moment the screen turned on, An Xun's phone call came in, looking at the familiar number that was too late to note, finally couldn't help crying, she was tortured to the point of screaming, hoarse throat But there was no sound.

In order to prevent An Xun from discovering the clues, she finally endured the pain and hung up the phone, and sent a message, saying that everything was fine.

Of course, An Xun couldn't let go, and made several calls one after another. She had no choice but to reluctantly hang up again and again, and reply a message saying that she was busy and couldn't answer the phone.

She didn't want to give up on herself like this, she remembered what the original intention of this brief breakup was.

Picking up the ingredients scattered on the ground one by one, taking anti-inflammatory drugs, and eating well for two days, her body improved rapidly and she realized that what she had was just a common viral cold.

As soon as her vocal cords recovered, she called An Xun back. When she heard the forbearance and collapse of crying, she wished she could slap her useless self several times.

The flu spread and affected a large area. No cases have been found in China yet. An Xun has been trying her best to get her back to China, but she refused.

"Sister An, I know you are worried about me, but at this time, I can't come back and cause trouble."

There was silence on the other end of the phone, only unusual breathing, trembling, and occasionally sobbing lightly. Before losing his composure, An Xun hung up the phone.

Jiang Yien was in pain.

In April, a case was unfortunately discovered in China, and the city was quickly closed to avoid a large-scale spread. However, Qinghuan City, where the first patient appeared, was the first to be upgraded to the hardest hit area.After she learned the news, she changed her previous attitude and made many phone calls to An Xun, but the reply she received was only a cold voice:

"The call you made is temporarily unanswered..."

She couldn't bear that as a medical student, she couldn't do anything in times of crisis, so she immediately booked a ticket to return home, but the flights were canceled one after another.I wrote emails to the consulate over and over again, and went to travel agencies to book air tickets, but nothing happened.

She gradually realized that she might be stranded abroad.

She was 23 years old, from the time she left Anxun to the end, she couldn't meet again.

June, the whole year.

The situation is still repeated, and the two places are in a mess.The longing was already painful to the marrow, but the obstruction of returning to China became the last straw that crushed her.She almost lost her sanity as a doctor. She found out the antidepressants that had been prescribed one after another in the past year, and swallowed a lot of them indiscriminately.

A drug interaction nearly killed her, and one minute before she lost consciousness, she crawled out the door and knocked on the neighbor's door.

Everyone thought she was depressed and couldn't think about it, no, she just wanted to live too much.

After all, there are still people waiting for her to come home.

When she was so desperate that she couldn't see a ray of light, she received a text message from An Xun:

"Healing and saving lives can be done anywhere. Take care of yourself."

After another narrow escape, her mentality gradually calmed down, and An Xun's words encouraged her.After recovering from the illness, she joined the voluntary epidemic prevention work. The email suggested that the school immediately stop offline teaching and call the police in an attempt to stop the parade.But people who are free in nature are still "desperate", and foreign police ignore it.

In desperation, she had no choice but to set up a mutual aid group with local Chinese students, and contact other visiting doctors to help the unfortunate compatriots who fell ill.

At the same time, she is always paying attention to the domestic situation. The virus has not spread out of the province, and in just over half a year, many cities in the province have achieved zero new infections.The good news has also established a solid backing for her and her compatriots overseas.

The injuries caused by free fighting gradually healed. In the busy schedule of both sides, they were doing the same work of curing diseases and saving lives, and the hidden diseases caused by longing also gradually eased.

The free peoples of "Desperate Worlds" finally learned their lesson and began to learn from domestic epidemic prevention methods. Schools started online teaching, travel restrictions began, and the situation finally improved day by day.

She began to patiently wait for the opportunity to return to China, and started to prepare her graduation thesis at home, regardless of day and night, and did not know the seasons, and it turned out to be another year in a flash.

At the age of 25, she completed her dissertation defense online, and her research project has achieved impressive results, and her professor has caused quite a stir in the industry because of this.In that proud report card, she was on the list.

Several domestic hospitals offered her an olive branch, and even promised her a considerable amount of relocation allowance.She rejected them all, leaving only the electronic contract from Ren Zhuo.

The unexamined days finally passed, she opened the window and let out a sigh of relief.

The window faces north, and a small road connects east and west. Every day, she watches the sun rise from the east end of the road and watch it set at the west end.

This is her only romance in the past two years. She fantasizes that the sun can come with An Xun's eyes and return with her thoughts.

In the two years since she left Anxun, she has learned to swim, to free kick boxing, to some advanced techniques, and to love herself.

But only did not learn, forget An Xun.

She edited a message and sent it to that well-known number, only eight short words:

You are in the bottom of my heart, steadfast.

Grandma, I can protect her now, I am worthy of her.Now, can I go back to her?