bad derailment

Maybe a person will always face several embarrassing situations in his life, from reality to psychological defeat.

At nine o'clock in the evening, there were gradually no pedestrians on the street. I sat at the bus stop and calmed down for a long time.

In any case, I have to get through this difficult night first, and my current choice seems to be to go to Zhao Quan for a night.

I opened his WeChat nervously, and before sending out a message, a new notification popped up, which came from the video Jiang Qiushi sent in the last second.

I paused for a moment, then clicked on it. Not surprisingly, it was still about cats.In the video, Yao Yao is a little more rounded, and you can vaguely see a yellow cat teasing stick shaking regularly in Jiang Qiushi's hand, but Yao Yao doesn't seem to want to talk to him at all, just lazily nestling on the sofa, licking himself hair.

Jiang Qiushi often sends me similar videos these days, and we have very little communication, and the only few messages are inseparable.

I watched the video a few times, and it seemed that I finally had the strength to breathe. I asked about my concern as usual, and Jiang Qiushi replied flatly as always.

It seemed that apart from this shallow bond between me and him, there was no other reason to speak.

This is indeed the result I expected. Ordinary friends, there is no relationship that can be surpassed.But he didn't have a little doubt and a little different attitude, which made my already bad mood fall to a deeper trough.

I seem to be a little too naive.

For a long time, the calmness on the surface has covered up my inner conceit. I have never followed the trend and allowed the situation to develop. Everything, from Chen Feng to Gu Mingsheng, is actually due to my pretending to be casual but deliberate. The situation developed under the guidance.

It's not that I don't care about anything at all, but because I care too much about everything, the fall hurts so much.

Jiang Qiushi sent another message, and the content was bland.The missing piece in my heart is still empty and unsatisfied. I want to hear his voice, and I want him to appear in front of me.

I seem to be a little too greedy, I want everything, but I don't want to give up anything.

My fingers trembled a little, but after a few seconds of pause, I pressed the number marked 'Jiang Qiushi' slowly and firmly.

The hands-free voice was elongated in a low voice, I subconsciously held my breath, and my voice was slightly hoarse in the rain.

"Jiang Qiushi."

After he picked it up, he didn't speak, maybe he was a little surprised, and he replied after a while: "I'm here."

For a moment, it seemed that the weight of my whole body was relaxed, and I quietly listened to the sound of raindrops hitting the road, and said, "I want to go and see it."

Jiang Qiushi was silent for a long time, longer than ever before.I almost thought he had hung up the phone before I heard his voice ringing in my ear again.

"now?"

"Now."

He didn't ask anything, and said softly, "It's raining outside, I'll come pick you up."

I clenched my phone tightly, and after a while I replied with one word: "Okay."

It just seemed like the most common request, at the most normal time.Until a long time ago, I didn't realize what I said just now, and what Jiang Qiushi responded to.

The phone call was calm and short, as if I didn't need to explain anything, and he understood every line I said in silence.

No one spoke first, and the only sound was the soft sound of raindrops hitting the glass along the way.It was a brief drizzle, and when the car was parked downstairs, the night sky had completely returned to its initial silence.

He naturally took the umbrella with dripping water in my hand, opened it and put it outside the balcony.I stood in place and looked at Jiang Qiushi's back, as if no words could express my mood at the moment.

It was a complicated and confusing intertwining, and the heart bearing thousands of wounds infiltrated into the warm pool water little by little.Something is agitating in the depths, tightly suppressed by strict adherence.

"You got caught in the rain, do you want to take a shower first?"

After Jiang Qiushi finished speaking, he paused for a while, "I have a change of clothes here, if you don't mind, you can change them."

"Don't mind," I said a few beats later, "I'm coming over now... am I bothering you?"

I belatedly realized that this was nonsense, but Jiang Qiushi smiled lightly after a while, "If I bother you, I won't promise you on the phone."

I think I must be very embarrassed now, so that his tone is a little more gentle than usual.

There was a nice scent of soap on the clothes Jiang Qiushi handed over, which lingered even more vividly after he put them on.It seems that there is an illusion of being integrated with him, following him like a shadow, and lingering for a long time.

He was sitting on the sofa, tapping his fingers on the keyboard of the notebook. The lens on the bridge of his nose reflected a focused and quiet light, which changed to a warmer color when he saw me coming out of the bathroom.

He closed the screen, stood up and faced me, "The room is over there, I'll take you there."

"......it is good."

The bed in the bedroom was covered with clean bedding, and everything was neatly prepared as if it had been prepared in advance.I sat by the bed, waiting for Jiang Qiushi's next inquiry, even if there was any trivial question.

But as the innocuous words fell, he whispered 'good night' to me, as if to mark the final end of this short meeting.

Before he turned and walked out of the room, I quickly reached out and grabbed the corner of his clothes, almost instinctively, without any thought.

Maybe I really won't hide my emotions, especially in front of Jiang Qiushi.

He didn't go any further, and asked me why I did this quietly with his eyes. I opened my mouth, as if I lost my voice, and after a long time, I opened my mouth in a low voice: "Don't you ask me why?"

Jiang Qiushi said flatly: "If I asked, how would you answer?"

I never thought he would ask such a counter-question, and I was stunned and didn't make a sound.

"Lin Yao, you don't need to explain to me, and you don't need to explain to anyone."

Jiang Qiushi looked into my eyes, and his quiet voice seemed to contain infinite magical power to make people feel at ease.

"No matter what happens, you still have me here."

My eyes flickered, blurring Jiang Qiushi's face for a moment, the warm light in the room gradually divided into layers of halos, shining clearly like flying butterfly wings.

Time seemed to stand still, I turned my face away in a panic, and wanted to say something, but only a few out-of-tuned sounds came out of my throat.

He lowered his head and gently wiped away the moisture at the end of my eyes with his fingertips. The temperature of his palm was a little warmer than when he was covered in the car last time, piercing the hot blood along the skin.

The familiar restlessness repeated the same mistakes in the depths of the soul again, and the strictness and restraint were precariously shaken.Jiang Qiushi's eyes were too gentle, spreading a different kind of depth and ambiguity under the dim warm light.

I couldn't help raising my neck, grabbed his collar a little bit, and tentatively touched his lips in a sacrificial gesture. It was a little cold and softer than I imagined.

He didn't escape, which is the biggest initiative for me.

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Interruption notice: This article will be entered into v on Friday, August 8th. At that time, it will be divided into two chapters to update 6 words. I hope everyone can continue to support it.

The ending is not 1vN in the traditional sense but it is not 1v1 either. I personally think it is very reasonable and has a beginning and an end.Everyone can still understand it as 1vN, and the roles of all characters will run through to the ending and the episode, so you can continue to look forward to it.

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