Strange disease

I dropped the mouse and pursed my lips. I have to say that Xi Rong really knows how to soften my heart, but it doesn't matter if I'm not angry, I know he has no intention of giving in at all.

I pushed him away, hugged the computer, and shifted my position to the unmade bed like a kennel.

Xi Rong stood there for a moment, then left silently.

After he went out, I was not in the mood to play games anymore, but it’s fine if he’s not there. I’ve been feeling a little uncomfortable for the past two days, and my body hurts. It’s just that some parts of the skin are broken again. Wipe off the blood, stick it with a large bandage, and then wipe off the blood on the towel familiarly. All the secrets entered the sewer with the water.

When Xi Rong came to ask me to eat at noon, I had already packed up and changed into clean clothes. I followed behind him, but saw that the dining table was empty and there was nothing there.

I was surprised for a moment.

Xi Rong said, "Let's eat outside."

I didn't make a sound, and said in my heart, this quarrel is already a quarrel, don't you even cook me a meal?

Xi Rong said: "If you want to go out, you can, but I will accompany you."

He opened the door with a key, and his tone was gentle, as if he was asking for my opinion, but in fact I had no room to refuse.

I glanced at it and stepped out the door. He blocked the door for me behind me. There was a flight of steps in front of me. After Xi Rong locked the door, he habitually raised one arm to put me in his control. I first let him He took a step away and said, "Don't bother you, I'll go by myself."

I smiled: "Anyway, you stare at me all day, I can't go anywhere, can I?"

He looked at me with dark eyes, and finally put down his hand.

The two of us descended the stairs one after the other.

Xi Rong's car was parked at the door, he asked me to get in the car, put me in the passenger seat, and put on my seat belt. I realized again that I really had no room for resistance in front of him, only at his mercy.

I felt a strong sense of powerlessness in my heart.

I really want to slip, run, and stay away from him, but I'm gone, what will he do?

If I'm really gone one day, or if something happens, who will stop him?What if he really did something stupid?

Bah, bah, bah, it's better not to think too much about such an unlucky thing.

At a certain moment, a ridiculous idea even flashed in my mind——

I look pretty good now, I don't mind being in pain every now and then, even if I burn a few holes in my body with a soldering iron, it doesn't matter, as long as I stay in this world... Maybe I can really How about walking with him for a long time?

But regardless of how he will feel if he really sees my inhuman appearance, I have already lost everything in this world.

I have seen a saying before that the real death is not the reduction of the body, the moment of stopping breathing only represents death in the biological sense, and the funeral means the official declaration of this by the society, and finally, it is forgetting. All traces of human existence are completely erased.

Now, my person has been erased by this society and this world.

The last thing I have left is Xi Rong.

With such a face, what kind of appearance should I be by his side?

It's simply whimsical...

I sighed heavily in my heart, Xi Rong had already started the car and drove me to the familiar road.

We came to a western food restaurant that we used to frequent.

I always order the lasagne bolognese with buns, and Xi Rong has the beef ribs with black truffle.

Elegant music reverberates in the beautifully decorated hall, people come and go around, and they don't pay special attention to the two of us and this small square table.

The waiter lit a candle on the hollow candlestick in the center of the table, and a white rose in full bloom was inserted in a black glass vase beside the candle.

Xi Rong seemed to be in a good mood, but I rejected his plan to make me drink.

Naturally, I dare not drink this wine. Maintaining my current rationality has already exhausted me. I am really afraid that I will say something I shouldn't say when I am drunk.

But in the end, I obviously didn't drink, but I seemed to be drunk too.

When I went back, the stars in the sky were very bright, Xi Rong was walking in front of me, the beautiful moonlight coated his outline with a layer of silver light, I followed him step by step, suddenly I felt an uncontrollable throbbing Move, want to run up, hold his hand.

I want to tell him, let's stop fighting, and I don't really annoy you, I just...

I'm just too worried that you're not having a good time.

I'm not leaving, okay?

It's a blessing from the heavens to finally have the chance to meet again, how could I bear to spend such precious time on cold war with him.

but……

In the next second, that impulse was suppressed with all my strength.

I stopped and stared blankly at his back.

Xi Rong in front of her also stopped almost immediately, turned her head, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Maybe it's because the dark environment at night will always bring out the more emotional part of people's hearts. I feel that I am really confused at the moment, and the two opposing forces are fighting in my mind, pulling left and right.

While talking, wake up, be hard-hearted, don't be soft-hearted, it's good for yourself and him.

The other side said, this is too painful, just, just... Just be a happy person, go to him, hug him, kiss him, tell him how much you love him, how much you miss him...

I closed my eyes and clenched my hands into fists behind my back.

Opening my eyes again, I maintained a one-step distance from him, and said, "Xi Rong, thank you for inviting me to dinner tonight, it was a waste of money. But you should know, reward me with some sweets, and take me out to let the wind out, I will It is absolutely impossible to be your confinement willingly."

I paused and took a deep breath: "When will you let me go?"

Xi Rong looked at me, his eyes were like a bottomless well, reflecting the sky full of stars.

I looked straight into his eyes: "I don't know what happened between us in the past, if I did something to apologize to you and made you insist on pestering me and taking revenge on me, then I'm here to say sorry, I sincerely express the deepest apology in my life."

"But sorry, I really don't remember anything."

"You have a lot of adults, so don't bother with me anymore."

After I finished speaking such a long series of words in one breath, the air seemed to freeze.

My heart was beating like a drum, almost breaking through my chest. One was because I didn't know how Xi Rong would react, and the other was...

Damn, it hurts so much.

Killing and killing people, what the hell I said was like stabbing myself with a knife, hitting a vital point, and almost dying of blood.

Alas, this kind of thing that hurts the enemy one thousand and self-damaged eight hundred, really... almost killed half my life, even though I was half dead already.

I don't know what to admire myself or what, but I finished speaking in such a breath, the expression was well managed, and the chain was not lost in the middle, which can be called an extraordinary success.

Xi Rong didn't speak for a long time, I couldn't understand him, just like the sea before the storm, it looks calm on the surface, but actually it is dark and rough.

An unspeakable sadness welled up in my heart, and I thought, if this is the last farewell between us, it will look really bad.

This farewell is like tearing, tearing my heart in half, blood dripping.

But I can't, I really can't.

sorry Sorry……

The two of us looked at each other, the hands behind me were trembling slightly, my body was icy cold, I don't know how long I can hold on, in the dead silence, Xi Rong suddenly took a step forward, covering me in his shadow .

There are countless things that I can't understand brewing in his extremely dark eyes.

He didn't say a word, his face was extremely gloomy, like a sky that was about to usher in a storm.

He dragged me into the car and threw me in the backseat.

I covered my face and smiled wryly behind him.