Strange disease

The days passed by.

During this period, the atmosphere between the two of us became more and more stiff than the previous few days. After we got home that night, we went back to our rooms, and neither of us said anything more to each other.

I instinctively felt that I made Xi Rong angry, and I was definitely very angry.

This is not surprising, I said very harshly that day, and I intended to hurt him.

Now, we are both under the same roof, but we are completely like two strangers who don't know each other.

I felt subconsciously remorseful, and then it occurred to me that this was exactly what I was after.

I just want to push him away, let him hate me, hate me, and give up on me, so that I can feel at ease and dare to leave with peace of mind.

The next morning, we met in the living room.

I was unkempt, my hair curled up and down like a messy chicken coop when I slept, and my pajamas, which were wrinkled into dry pickles, were hanging on my body, and Xi Rong was just about to go out at this time. He was wearing an indigo trench coat with a stand collar, the fabric was stiff and fluffy Type, looks handsome and handsome.

He looked very glamorous, but I was very depressed.

I glanced at him, and he looked at me too, our eyes met, and he left four words indifferently: "There is porridge in the pot."

Then he opened the door and left. Of course, he didn't forget to lock the door, so I still couldn't get out.

I went back to the room with my slippers on, and threw myself back on the messy bed. Xi Rong was not there, so I had to hug my IKEA big shark and rub it.

I originally tried to sleep back into the cage, but after rolling on the bed for a long time, I became more awake.

I had no choice but to get up again, I had nothing to do, I poured some water on the succulents on the window sill, and then sat on the balcony to watch the scenery.

I accidentally found a bucket of ice cream in the refrigerator. It smells like Oreo milk. It’s a big——— a can, full of it, and unopened.

I felt that my body was immediately out of my control, and my eyeballs seemed to be stuck to the bucket. I hardly struggled, and immediately took out the bucket of ice cream, skillfully opened the lid, and ate happily .

Something like ice cream, as long as I find it, it will never stay in my field of vision for more than a day. I'm sure I haven't seen it in the past two days. When did Xi Rong buy it?

Then, in the pantry above the kitchen, I found a large bag of original potato chips, seaweed, dried mango, peach juice, small marinated eggs, milk tea powder...

In short, it is a lot of colorful junk food.

I was amazed.

Somehow, I suddenly remembered the scene when I went to my grandmother's house when I was young.

When I was seven or eight years old, my parents took me to live in the county town. My mother was an accountant in an auto repair company, and my father worked as a laborer on a construction site in the city.

Although the two of them don't earn much, and their salary is barely enough to support our family, they are very busy, often leaving early and returning late.

So in order to take care of me conveniently, and to allow me to go to a public elementary school in the county when I was old enough, they rented a bungalow near my work unit and took me from the countryside to the city.

Before that, I had been living in the countryside with my grandmother, feeding the chickens every day, playing in mud with my friends, rolling in the rice fields, stealing the fruits of wild trees in the courtyards of each house, and eating them every day when the sun went down. to go home.

At this time, the smoke and the smell of food were already rising in my grandma's house, and I went into the house hungry like a little wild dog, and my grandma would wait for me with an old rag, bent over and wiped it for me. Dirty shoes.

She used to call me a little slob and a little troublemaker, because every time I came home from a crazy game, I was always covered in grass and mud, and she had to clean me up for a long time before letting me in.

After moving into the county seat, I rarely had the opportunity to go back to see my grandma.

In the following years, my parents would only take me back to the village during Chinese New Year. Every time my grandma saw me, she was very excited and kept saying that I had grown taller and stronger again.

In my impression, I only remember that there are more and more wrinkles on her face and her hair is getting whiter.

And what I remember the most is that every time I go back to see my grandma during the Chinese New Year, she always prepares a lot of snacks that I love.

The transportation in the village is very underdeveloped, and it’s not like there are convenience stores everywhere in the city, or express delivery directly to the door.

To go to the supermarket, she has to reverse the car twice and climb over several miles of potholes. It always takes a whole day to go back and forth.

But when I went to my grandma's house, I could always see a very eye-catching and large plastic plate on the low plane that was wiped clean at the entrance, which was filled with various snacks in bulk: toffee, egg rolls , pork shop...

The whole pile became a hill.

The old man has bad teeth and rarely eats these things, so I knew she must have bought them for me specially.

The Chinese New Year is only less than a week away, and I can't handle all these snacks at all, but every time I leave, my grandma still puts a lot of them in my pocket, talking about it, bring more, and fill me up when I'm hungry on the road.

She staggered all the way to see me out, and when the car drove away she was still standing there, waving at us.

Later, as I grew up, I realized more and more deeply——

Grandma specially prepared so many foods that I like, but she may not know what to do, so that I can stay for a few more days.

But Xi Rong obviously bought me so many small snacks secretly, but still didn't say anything.

He bought everything and hid it in such a tall cabinet, afraid I would find it?

He used different tricks to get me delicious food and take me out, so he was quietly trying to keep me.

He seemed to have a tough attitude, but his way of seeking peace was not very clever. He went around a lot, and finally he just said softly, "Don't be angry."

Thinking of this, my heart is as soft and rotten as apple puree, sour and astringent.

When Xi Rong came home, I was still holding potato chips on the sofa and eating with relish. There was a cheerful cross talk on the TV, and I almost didn't notice when Xi Rong opened the door.

I saw him holding a few thick stacks of documents, looking very heavy, I reflexively wanted to pick them up for him, Xi Rong put on a cold face, avoided my hand, and closed the door.

He really annoyed me...

Well, that's not far from success.

It doesn't matter if he doesn't let me go now, besides, after thinking about it, it's more reassuring to stay and watch him in person.

As long as one day sooner or later he is completely disappointed in me, doesn't want me anymore, completely let go of his obsessions, and forgets me as a person, then my merits and virtues will be considered complete, and I will be able to reincarnate without any worries.

I don't know what time he went to bed these nights, anyway, he seems very busy, he leaves early and returns late all day long, and doesn't care about me, so I naturally don't know what he is busy with.

The water pipe in the house suddenly leaked a little that day. When Xi Rong came back to deal with it, the wooden floor of the house might have been in a mess. I had to turn off the water first, and then wiped the wet place with a mop.

I went into his room, mopped the floor, and happened to catch a glimpse of a stack of papers on his desk.

I tidied it up for him casually, but unexpectedly, a... pale pink note suddenly fell out of it.