Strange disease

I think I really pissed off Xi Rong this time, his expression is extremely frightening, like a brutal beast completely out of control, only vicious.

He rushed up, grabbed my collar, and directly sealed my mouth that kept making him angry.

I let out a cry of pain, but without mercy, he bit me directly, breaking the corner of my mouth.

That definitely couldn't be called a kiss, the smell of blood spread in the mouth, but it exuded a breath of despair.

I covered my mouth and struggled to push him away with my hands and feet, but he took my hand and lowered his eyes. His deep black eyes were full of sadness, like broken gems.

With both of our chests heaving violently, he finally stepped back, panting.

He said hoarsely, "Ruan Li, you little bastard."

I closed my eyes, my heart was cold, I thought you should scold me, the harder you scold me, the better, so that I can feel better.

However, Xi Rong just said in a voice that could almost be called powerless: "You provoked me, and now you say no to it, so you don't want it, and throw me away like trash?"

In just one sentence, my chest immediately felt as if it was being grabbed hard, and it was unbearably sore.

don't say that...

You will always be my treasure, how could you be trash...

But my heart can never be heard by him.

Why, why does God torture us like this...

So be it, let's end like this, let me take this secret and lie back in the coffin.

This is obviously the result I want...

But these days, every time I tried to stay away from him, until I saw the picture of him standing with others with my own eyes——

I can't even admit how dissatisfied I am.

I tried to push him away with the unbearable feeling in my heart, but in the end, it was always tearing my heart left and right, which made me exhausted and painful, and I could hardly hold on anymore.

Xi Rong bent down, stared at me, and gently wiped my wet face with her fingers, as if she was wiping a precious piece of porcelain, full of love and affection.

He pressed against my forehead, and said in a low voice: "But I am also a person, not an object. You stab my soft ribs with a knife every day, do you think I won't hurt?"

I opened my eyes wide, but my eyes were filled with mist at some point, and I couldn't see the shadow of the person in front of me clearly.

His words almost made me linger, and my heart was broken. The determination that had been faltering was washed away in an instant.

Rationally, I know that letting go is good for us all, but emotionally, I can't face it anyway.

——Even if you tell me to die one more time, ten thousand times...

As long as my soul is not destroyed, as long as my consciousness remains somewhere in this world, I cannot give up loving him.

The violent emotions in my heart surged out like a flood, like an incomparably strong dam, as long as a hole is opened, the huge splash of water can no longer be stopped.

In the end, the high wall built in the heart collapsed, and the defense line of reason was completely destroyed.

I finally couldn't hold it anymore, covered my eyes, and murmured softly like a mosquito: "No...it's not like this..."

That's not the case, Xi Rong, listen to me, listen to my explanation...

But before I finished speaking, the end of my words was swallowed by Xi Rong's warm lips.

I don't quite understand, he doesn't seem to want to listen to my words at all, and he doesn't want to see me messing around anymore, I don't know if he believes it or not, or what it would be like if my embarrassing truth fell into his ears .

Right now, I don't have time to care so much.

My head is like a mass of burnt paste, but the feeling in my mouth seems to press a button to power my body. This is a kind of physical memory engraved in my instinct. The countless days and nights that I have been entangled with him in the past.

I couldn't help catering to it. We are like two missing pieces of the puzzle. Even though we have been separated for so long, as soon as we touch each other, we fit together completely again.

As my lips and tongue mingled, I suspected that I was hallucinating, because at a certain moment, I seemed to see a gleam of crystal water slipping from the corner of Xi Rong's eyes.

While kissing me, Xi Rong bent over and hugged me tightly in her arms, holding me firmly with both arms, almost rubbing me into her body.

I reached out involuntarily, grabbed the clothes on his back, stroked his arched back over and over again, trying to comfort him clumsily.

Don't be sad... I can't bear it.

All of this is out of my control, only overwhelming emotions and overflowing reluctance tightly fill my brain with nothing left.

"Xi Rong..." I huddled in his arms, hugged him tightly, and choked up.

You don't know how happy I am to see you again.

I miss you so much.

I was in a mess, and I don't know if I would have said the more nasty words in that situation. I just remember that when I woke up the next day, my eyes were red and swollen like goldfish bubbles.

In my memory, I wrapped my arms around Xi Rong's neck, hung on his body, and almost cried all night holding him.

Holding the quilt under me, I still had only one thought left in my brain, which was still running high like an overloaded CPU.

It's over, it's over, it's over...what did I do...

Falling short of success, what I'm talking about is my current situation.

I don't know what other people's couples are like when they quarrel. Anyway, I am the kind of coward who is obviously righteous, but ends up crying by himself.

What's more, Xi Rong's words last night... really broke my defense.

I knew that I would be reluctant to part with him, but I didn't know that I could not part with him to this extent.

Sure enough, I shouldn't have had any illusions about my weak willpower in the first place.

What can I do now.

But I also have to admit that after going through this heart-wrenching night, I feel much less depressed, as if all the negative things were washed away with tears overnight, replaced by a A secret sweetness.

I know that nothing has been resolved, just like a traveler walking in the mist, unable to see where Xi Rong and I are headed, but I still feel happy physically and mentally for being able to embrace him for a moment.

I despise myself like this, but I can't do anything about it.

I did it myself, we kissed and hugged each other, we can't deny it, we can only take one step at a time.

It's just that I don't know how Xi Rong looks at me now. He probably thinks that I'm out of my mind and very contradictory. While furious at him, he grabs him and wipes my tears and snot on my face. on his clothes.

Help...what have I done...so embarrassing...

I suddenly thought inexplicably, he has a severe cleanliness and obsessive-compulsive disorder, and he still hasn't kicked me away, allowing me to rub against him all night, which is really embarrassing for him.