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Under Ni Ran's reassurance, Jiang Shi's mood improved a lot. She said, "I want to call my grandma."

Ni Ran replied without saying a word: "Okay."

Jiang Shi first sent a message to his cousin and asked her for her grandmother's phone number.

The cousin quickly replied to the message, and after giving a series of numbers, she also asked: "Sister, you still have to go to grandma's house tomorrow. Although the relatives are a little bit talkative, but going back to grandma's house is not going to other places .When the time comes, don’t go to the adult’s table. Let us children sit together.”

"No matter what those people say, they still think my grades are poor, so they let me go out to work."

Although the cousin is young, she will try her best to appease Jiang Shi every time.I have to say that because of her, Jiang Shi sometimes felt that the relationship with his family was not too bad.

Jiang Shi was indeed shaken, but she was not sure if she would go back.

The main reason is that the hurdle in my heart is still difficult to overcome.

I was afraid that when I went back, I would be questioned by everyone again.

She replied: "I'll see when the time comes, I'll call grandma first."

The cousin's message was quickly received: "Okay, sister, if you come back, you must tell me. I will pick you up."

"Ah."

My cousin has always known that Jiang Shi is in Mocheng.

It's just that Jiang Shi is on the north side of the city, and some relatives of Jiang Shi's family live in the south of the city.There are several districts, and there is a little distance.When Jiang Shi moved, her parents could not bear to see where she was going.Jiang Shi also did not reveal that she moved in.

Anyway, after their quarrel that day, Jiang Shi basically lost contact with them.

She also doesn't know what happened after she left home. My cousin will tell her occasionally, but she won't say much.After all, she still has her own studies.

The last time, she told Jiang Shi that your parents seem to have traveled a long way.

The cousin thought they were going out to relax. After all, such a big thing happened, and everyone felt sad about it.

But Jiang Shi knew that his parents should have gone out to help people get goods.

Jiang Shi's father occasionally runs long distances, sometimes to help people deliver deliveries, and sometimes to deliver fruits and the like, and the time of departure is uncertain.In the peak season, usually run for more than half a month, and in the off-season, you may rest for a whole month.

The Jiang family's main source of income was her father, who ran back and forth by car after car.

Jiang Shi was born in such an ordinary and ordinary family, and his parents ran around for daily necessities.When she talks about her love and ideals, her parents will feel that she is unrealistic.

Live a down-to-earth life.

That's what a family like them should think about the most.

This may be one of the reasons why her parents want her to fight. Jiang Shi has always thought that what she wants to break is the shackles her parents gave her.

Actually she was wrong.

What she wants to break away from is that for a child born in such an ordinary family, her parents tried their best to build her a utopia they thought.

The phone beeped, and after a few rings, it was picked up.

Jiang Shi just said hello, but before grandma could even say a word, the other end of the phone said, "It's just a baby."

Grandma doesn't know many characters. When I was a child, Jiang Shi wrote his name to show to grandma.

She always said that was just a word.

Jiang Shi corrected her and said that it was literacy.Not only.

But the old man is always preconceived, and loves to call her since he was a child, just.

As soon as grandma's voice came out, Jiang Shi's tears welled up again.

She remembered that when she was a teenager, she would occasionally lose her temper with her mother because she felt that she took too much control.Sometimes after arguing with her, I feel very sad again.I feel that I am too ignorant, and my parents have worked so hard to train her.

But feel wronged.

Mom is too unreasonable, she has to control what clothes she wears.

At this time, Jiang Shi would call grandma.

Grandma will speak for her every time.

This time, Jiang Shi didn't dare to tell her old man that she had done such an impulsive thing.

She adjusted her mood and said in as pleasant a tone as possible: "Well, it's me."

Grandma's tone is also very light, she said: "Oh, I knew it was you. You have been sensible since you were young, and you will think of grandma in everything."

Jiang Shi's eyes turned red, and she tried hard not to let the tears fall, "Grandma, I'm actually not that sensible."

The other end of the phone paused, and then said: "Yeah. What do you want to be so sensible. Right. Our family is just different from other little girls. She doesn't talk much, but she has a clear heart. Son, she has her own ideas."

After hearing what grandma said, Jiang Shi couldn't hold back and cried.

She sobbed softly, and rolled out a few words from the bottom of her throat: "Grandma, I'm sorry. I'm too capricious."

"My child, you have been good since you were a child. You did nothing wrong. It's just that grandma is getting older, and she often thinks of you when you were young. She also remembers when you were just admitted to college, holding that book, and turning around happily." After a few laps, the neighbors on the left and right praise you for being amazing.”

Grandma was talking about the acceptance letter from the university.

At that time, Jiang Shi was admitted to the Chinese Department of Mo University, where he majored in Chinese Language and Literature.Although it was the major chosen by her parents, it was also her favorite.

Since she was a child, she loved to read books in the house.

On the day he received the admission notice, Jiang Shi drove from Mocheng to his grandmother's house alone.Be sure to unpack the courier of the admission notice with grandma.That was also the first time grandma saw the admission letter from the university.

"Grandma, I haven't studied too much. I was illiterate since I was a child, and now your grandfather still laughs at me. He said that I don't understand anything. But I am sure, I am not a material for reading. I have loved cooking since I was a child. I just want to have a home where the family can live steadily together.

"The family is safe and everything goes well, that's the most important thing."

"I also often tell your mother, people have to be more open."

"Actually, at that time, everyone urged your mother to get another one. It was not because you were a girl, but because you were afraid that you would be too lonely. When things happened, no brothers and sisters discussed it. You have to bear it yourself , you will be very tired."

This is indeed something Jiang Shi never thought about.

She always felt that relatives urged her family to have another child because she was a girl.Especially grandma's attitude made Jiang Shi subjectively think so all the time.

"Look at grandma's house, there are bad things, but your uncles, mothers and aunts, if there is something, they can sit down and discuss it. It won't be possible to carry everything by yourself, right?"

"Grandma is old, and she talks a lot, just don't think grandma is talkative."

"Everyone is getting old, including your parents. One day, we will all leave you. They just miss you and live a better life. Don't be like when they were young, in order to earn money to support their families, they have suffered everything .”

That day, grandma talked to Jiang Shi about many things that she didn't know before.

Including when her parents were young.

In fact, grandma and the others disagreed with Jiang's mother marrying Jiang's father because their family was too poor.And there are still five brothers in the family.Five daughters-in-law live under one roof, how can it be so smooth.

But at that time, Mother Jiang was very fond of Father Jiang.

Life or death to marry.

Mother Jiang was originally the youngest daughter in the family, and the family would give whatever she wanted.She insisted on getting married, but her family couldn't stop her, so they let her go.

After getting married, a lot of bad things happened.

First, there is the issue of family division and land division. Mother Jiang is the youngest daughter at home, and her brothers and sisters will take care of her more or less.But at Jiang's house.

Mother-in-law and sister-in-law are not fuel-efficient lamps.

Then the family will be poor.

I have to go to work in the fields, and my mother-in-law is a shrewd person, so I pick a little here and take some there.From a little sister who didn't know anything, Mother Jiang forced herself to know everything.

She didn't even know she was pregnant.

Finally, when I was working in the field, I felt a warm current in my abdomen, and it disappeared.This was just the beginning. In the next two years, Mother Jiang had another child.

But still because of overwork and lack of nutrition, at almost four months, there was no fetal heart rate.

In the end, it can only be induced.

After these layers of blows.

There was also a lot of gossip about the neighbors, and finally Jiang's father and Jiang's mother moved from the town to the city. Jiang's father was driving a truck for others, and Jiang's mother was raising her body at home.

After several times of tossing and turning, only then did Jiang know.

When Mother Jiang was pregnant with her, she suffered a lot.

She had had an accidental miscarriage in the first place, her body was weak, and the conditions at that time were not very good.Eat and use are all saved.

She is hard on herself anyway.

But for the hard-won Jiang Shi, he was never stingy.

Food and clothing, give her the best possible.

She is not allowed to do housework at home, she can just study.

It wasn't until after he left home that Jiang Shi realized how many trivial matters there would be in a family.

……

It was also the first time for Jiang Shi to know how painful her mother was as a mother.

After hanging up on grandma's phone, Jiang Shi cried so much that he couldn't help himself.

She suddenly felt that she was narrow-minded.

In fact, when I had trouble with my mother in adolescence, I would think very extreme.I always feel that the family members have such high standards for her, it must be because they didn't get a boy.be laughed at by others.

But when Jiang Shi was told by her grandma about the past, she suddenly realized——

Maybe the parents want to argue and not let others look down on them, but in fact, what they think in their hearts is that if they force her now, her life will be easier in the future.

It's not like they suffered when they were young.

Grandma said that back then, your parents moved bricks on the construction site in order to earn more money.Live in a big shop.Even your father gave someone to drive in the middle of the night in order to save your college tuition.

Ugh.

It's really not easy for your parents to train you these years.

In fact, who will be easy.

Only, you will also have your troubles.right.

But compared with birth, old age, sickness and death, all worries are too thin.We are old, life and death are bearish.You are still young, the beginning of all hope.

No matter where you go.

Home is always there.

……

You miss your grandma.

Just check back.

I feel that there are too many people and it is too noisy.Just pick a day when there are few people and come back to see grandma.is it good.

The author has something to say:

I cried several times while writing this manuscript

Ok

I just feel that no matter what age we are, it is actually very difficult to become an independent individual in a true sense. We will always have various ties

heart is soft

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