Jealousy and I love you

I have a commercial performance tonight, and I have to pack up and go to the airport early in the morning. The company said they would send someone to pick me up, but unexpectedly my manager Wang Ge also came.Brother Wang is less than [-] years old this year. I signed this company after the draft and started to lead me. At that time, he was just a guy who just entered the industry, but now he is considered a well-known senior in the company.Besides me, he has several newcomers under his command, one of whom is a recently popular young student. I heard that Brother Wang is nurturing him with all his heart and soul.And I don't see him a few times a year.

Brother Wang leaned against the car window and smoked. He nodded when he saw me, put out the cigarette, and let me get in the car.

I sat down anxiously, let him look me up and down, and then said: "Have you been exercising recently?"

"some."

"I see the same. I maintain a good figure and look young." I know he is joking. I am already [-] this year, and my face is not the prettiest in this circle. When I smile, the corners of my eyes are There are wrinkles, not like Liu Xun, with a baby face, and a woman would faint when she smiles.

"Brother Wang, why are you free to come over today?" I said haha, not wanting to continue this topic.

"Oh," my heart beat wildly when I heard Brother Wang sigh.

"Su An, your contract will arrive in a few months. It's not easy to be with me for ten years, but the company discussed it and cannot guarantee your future development..."

My original hanging heart suddenly fell to the ground. I had a premonition about this. Brother Wang said that very bluntly. The company doesn't want to renew my contract and keep me as an idler.

"Brother Wang, I know myself..."

"Hey, let me finish first. Besides being an artist, do you have any other plans?"

"This..." I actually have it, and it is not impossible to open a small shop when I go back to my hometown, but I know that once I finish saying this, I will completely leave this circle, "Brother Wang, when I was 20 years old I'm with you, I might not be able to do other jobs..."

"Then, Su An, do you want to consider becoming an artist assistant? I've talked to Sister Yang, and you won't be treated badly."

As soon as I heard him mention Sister Yang, I already had the answer in my heart: "You mean Sister Yang? Is that when...?"

"Well, to be Liu Xun's life assistant, anyway, you are so close to him and know him so well, you are the most suitable for this job. Besides, you will have many opportunities when you are an assistant."

My face was hot, not excited, but shamed, or hated.I was about to stay away from Liu Xun, but the company actually asked me to be Liu Xun's personal assistant?Then I don't want to live in his shadow all my life, but also take care of him like a servant, watching him flourish and be happy and unrestrained.

There is no way I will say yes.

Brother Wang saw that I was embarrassed, paused, and said, "This is what Sister Yang told me on the spur of the moment. I know this is very sudden, so you can think about it. But... I have another plan here."

"Huh?" Hope rekindled in my heart.

"You know Chen Ya, right? Hongcheng Satellite TV wants to make a new reality show variety show. He is the planner and needs a lot of manpower. Would you like to help? The recording will start at the end of this month."

Of course I know Chen Ya, he is responsible for several popular variety shows these days, and I also heard that he has a new trick recently, I didn't expect that I could get involved with it.

I immediately smiled: "Of course, I am willing to learn."

"Okay." Brother Wang took out a cigarette and played it in his hand, "At the end of that month, you will go over to do the first recording. It just so happens that the venue is chosen by us, so you don't need to run away. But it is the first time to do it after all. This kind of reality show may be a little tiring."

"Thank you, Brother Wang! I'm not afraid of getting tired!" I laughed from ear to ear. Fortunately, I didn't give up, otherwise I wouldn't have waited for this good opportunity. I thought to myself, this, maybe it's my first day.

"You're still young, if you work hard, you'll get out of it." Brother Wang patted me on the shoulder and handed me an iPad, "This is tonight's track, you should get familiar with it first."

I clicked on it and saw that there were only three songs in total, the first two were classic songs that I sang in the talent show back then, and the last one was Liu Xun's new song.

I was very surprised, and looked at Brother Wang blankly: "This? Didn't you say that you will be the last one to sing my song?"

"Hey, I didn't decide this, it was requested by the organizer. Besides, you should be very familiar with Liu Xun's songs, and it shouldn't be too difficult to get familiar with."

"No! I didn't say yes..." The more I said it, the more powerless I became. Thinking about it, it's been almost seven or eight years since my last album. The song that the organizer asked me to sing is Liu Xun's latest hit single, a sad song.

Brother Wang thought that I was not familiar with this song, and he was afraid that I would not be able to sing well, so he comforted me: "It's okay, it's okay, just relax and sing, I think you are still very talented in singing. Also, wait, if there is an interview, please mention more Xun, he has helped you a lot."

"Huh?" I was at a loss.

"What? Didn't you read Weibo?"

I took out my mobile phone and surfed the Internet. The first popular Weibo post was a photo of me and Liu Xun yesterday. As a prelude to the journal, this group of photos was released as a tidbit earlier this morning.There have been [-] forwards so far.In the photo, Liu Xun and I are very close. Although my expression looks a little dull, many fans below call me naturally dumbfounded. CP fans hold high the banner of Yanliu, and the first comment is actually a link to meat...

"God..." I breathed out, unable to describe how I felt.A few of the comments pointed out my unnaturalness, but were quickly overwhelmed by the deluge of pink comments.

"Cough," Brother Wang half coughed and half smiled, "Xiao Yan, you and Liu Xun are so good, you need to play more friendship cards."

I clenched my fists and responded inaudibly: "Okay..."

Putting on the sponsored clothes and shoes, and tidying up my hair, I look like a dog in the mirror.In the past few years, most of the jobs I have taken are on this kind of commercial performance platform, and I have been handy for a long time. I played a few haha ​​with the big-chested and brainless hostess, and played a few dumb and embarrassing games, and finally it was the end time.

"Finally, we asked Su An to bring us the song "Beside"! This is also the latest single of his good friend Liu Xun!" The hostess finished speaking humorously, and there was a round of applause. The girl who was a CP fan at first glance held up a sign and shouted "Yan Liu will always be here". I waved to them with a smile, feeling sad and ashamed in my heart.

"You are by my side/But you live in his world/I haven't forgotten anything/But some things are only suitable for collection..."

My fingers holding the microphone trembled slightly, and my heart was extremely bitter. Unknowingly, after a song, my eyes turned red, and the shouts became more and more enthusiastic. I bowed deeply and stepped off the stage.

Before this type of event, few media were willing to interview me after the end, but today when I went down to the parking lot of the mall, I was surrounded by several media, and a dozen microphones were handed to my mouth.

I haven't experienced this taste for a long time, although, it's not because of me.

"Su An, how is Liu Xun's injury recently?"

"Has Liu Xun revealed to you that he has broken up with his girlfriend?"

"Liu Xun said that he wanted to invite you to collaborate on the next album, have you already started planning?"

"Liu Xun..."

Every question is about Liu Xun. I know the answer, but I don’t want to answer it, but Brother Wang is looking at me, so I can only smile dryly: "Xiao Xun often comes to see me recently, he is recovering very well , don’t worry, everyone.”

"Liu Xun and Lizzay have unfollowed each other, does that mean they have broken up?"

"I met Lizzay, she is a very cute little sister, Liu Xun used to treat her very well." I was doing Tai Chi, and I just wanted to leave as soon as possible.

"Before? Did you mean that the two of you have really broken up?" A microphone poked my chin, which hurt me so much. I held back my anger and walked in the direction of the car.

"This...haha, you can ask Xiaoxun yourself."

I picked up a few more innocuous questions to answer, and got into the car at the right time.

Brother Wang said to me on the way back: "I didn't answer a few questions very well. In fact, it is entirely possible to lead the topic to Liu Xun's private life. Now that everyone is paying attention to his relationship, you have to be a good brother. Speak for him."

"Well, it's been a long time since I interviewed, and it's a bit rusty. I will definitely pay attention next time."

"Cough," Brother Wang was noncommittal and didn't say anything more.He went to the airport with me, and when I went home, he went to Hongcheng and said that he would contact me after discussing with Chen Ya.

I thought that Brother Wang was going to give up on me completely when he got a newcomer, but I was very grateful for his doing so. It turned out that he was still willing to give me a hand. Although I had been delayed by him for ten years, I was going There are new developments.

I like to sing and want to be a singer, but it was a dream ten years ago.There is already Liu Xun in the music scene, so I don't want to get involved anymore. I am willing to film, film, or even be the host of a variety show.

When I got off the plane, there were a dozen or so fans waiting for me, with only one assistant by my side, and those dozen or so girls quickly surrounded me.I smiled and signed them. Two of them asked me about Liu Xun’s injury. I said it was almost healed. One of them asked me to sign "Yan Liu Saigao". It broke their hearts, causing them to scream again and again.

A very excited girl held my arm tightly, and in the other hand held several photos of me and Liu Xun. After she was pushed away by the assistant, she chased after me and shouted: "Hydrochloric acid! You You must be with Liu Xun!"

It's crazy.I laughed at her, and at myself.

When I first signed the contract, Brother Wang once sent me an assistant, but then my announcements became less and less, and the assistant was poached away.Today, I was followed by a young man temporarily transferred by the company. Maybe because I was not well-known, he didn't seem very friendly to me. After leaving the airport, he called a taxi for me and left on his own.

I couldn't complain, and chatted absently with the driver along the way.The mood that was originally brightened because of Brother Wang's arrangement was disturbed by the fans at the airport, and it turned a little gloomy.As long as I still want to stay in this circle, it is impossible to avoid Liu Xun. Now that everyone is optimistic about our friendship and basic relationship, the company has to bundle sales while the iron is hot. For Liu Xun, this is to set off his affection. To have a positive image of righteousness rather than ignorance, for me, it is even more important to follow Liu Xun's fame to go abroad.All in all, it's good for everyone, and I can't refuse.

But, I just feel like a loser.In the past ten years, it's not that I haven't seen licking high and stepping on low, but I just don't want to step on me. The person who stepped on me was Liu Xun. Serious humiliation.

The 24-hour convenience store at the entrance of the community exudes a tempting aroma of Oden. I paused, and then I checked out and left. The sky at three o’clock in the morning was nothing special. Rummaging for keys.

At this time, the door behind me opened, and Liu Xun stood behind me a few meters away.

He waited for a while, seeing that I still didn't look back at him, he had no choice but to say, "Su An, let's talk."

I had already inserted the key into the door, and when I heard his words, the acid water before vomiting immediately appeared in my mouth, and my heart beat rapidly, like a dehydrated fish.

I forced myself to smile behind his back, then managed my expression, turned around and followed him into the room.The shopping bag in my hand was hung on the doorknob casually, and while he was turning his head, I threw him down with a tiger leap.

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This is not what I want, but like methadone for drug addicts, if there is no better way, it can be considered a good choice to relieve the pain slightly.

The author has something to say: Obviously, I deleted a paragraph.