The president who wears books is cold

Xu Lin soon saw Li Qingfeng. The moment he saw him, Xu Lin suddenly thought of his deceased grandma.

They are also entangled by diseases, and they can also feel the signs of the thing called life disappearing from them.

But Li Qingfeng's situation was worse than his grandmother's.

Skinny and dull-eyed, he lay there looking like a mummy that would only appear in horror movies.

There was a bit of chill and silence in the room unconsciously, after seeing the two people coming in, Li Qingfeng, who was lying on the bed, stretched out his hand to Li Xin with great effort, beckoning him to help him up.

"Is he Xu Lin?"

Seeing the embarrassment suddenly revealed in Li Xin's expression, Li Qingfeng patted the back of his hand comfortingly, and said, "You have pretty good vision."

With a tall and straight figure and clear eyes, it's no wonder that Li Xin has never forgotten him for so many years.

"I want to have a few words with him alone, can you go out with Uncle Xu first?"

"dad……"

"It's okay, I'll let him call you if something happens."

Li Xin nodded in embarrassment, and then he took another look at Xu Lin who hadn't spoken since entering the door, and then he and Xu Bo walked out of the ward.

"Come here and let me see you."

Seeing Li Qingfeng waving to him, Xu Lin hastily pulled up a chair and sat beside him.

"Do you like Li Xin?"

"like."

Seeing his calm expression, Li Qingfeng only felt that he was more and more satisfied with him. After a moment of silence, he said: "I was to blame for what happened four years ago. At that time, I threatened him with you and your Beiwang, and told him to leave you." .”

"I know."

"Li Xin told you?"

"No, it's his agent."

"Is that so?" After finishing speaking, Li Qingfeng showed a rare smile on his face, and said, "I think so, otherwise, with Li Xin's stupid and stubborn character, it would be impossible for him to tell you this kind of thing himself. of."

Silly and stubborn could not be described more appropriately, and thinking that this was what his father said, Xu Lin couldn't help but smiled and nodded.

"So did you forgive him?"

After hearing what he said, the smile on Xu Lin's face gradually disappeared, and he said, "It's not because of this that I separated from him..."

"Is that because of Ding Shuyan's death?"

For a long time, the name Ding Shuyan was something like a taboo to Xu Lin. He always felt that if it wasn't because of his self-righteousness, Ding Shuyan might not have died.

Over the years, such questions have always been haunting him over and over again, only when he heard Li Qingfeng mention it suddenly at this time, did he realize that his guilt towards Ding Shuyan was not as strong as before.

Looking up at Li Qingfeng who was always watching him, Xu Lin nodded.

"Although I don't know exactly what happened between you two years ago, haven't you and Li Xin been atoning for sins all these years?"

"Atonement?"

"Well, keep torturing myself and each other, Xu Lin... Maybe it's because my time is approaching, and I have to think about many things. In my opinion, your behavior is actually very necessary." Xu Lin looked up. To himself, Li Qingfeng paused, and then said: "Or even if you think it is necessary, but it has been four years since this matter, you should think about it."

"But when I see Li Xin, I will keep thinking about it, and I will still feel a serious sense of guilt."

Seeing Xu Lin tell himself frankly what was on his mind, and seeing the expression on his face, Li Qingfeng sighed silently, thinking that he, like his own son, is the kind of person who values ​​love and righteousness.

A person with such a personality, on the one hand, will be extremely kind to the person he cares about, on the other hand, he is also easy to get into the wrong end.

Thinking of this, Li Qingfeng patted the back of Xu Lin's hand like he did to Li Xin just now, and said: "If you care about him more than yourself, then this problem is not a problem, the key is... Someone among you has to take that step first."

Seeing Xu Lin raised his head in a dazed expression, Li Qingfeng said again: "This is the biggest problem between you, but you will always find a way to overcome it?" Are you willing to leave Li Xin like this?"

"Reluctant."

"Isn't it over?"

Suddenly, there was a feeling of epiphany. Although there were still many problems in front of him, when he thought that the two would really separate, Li Xin no longer belonged to him from now on. The uneasiness and guilt that came, seemed to have become negligible.

"Figured out?"

"perhaps."

Although he said so, the expression on his face was not the same thing.

After smiling, Li Qingfeng said, "Do you know Li Xin's life experience?"

Hearing him asking himself so suddenly, Xu Lin nodded and said, "I heard he said it."

"This child... the care and love he has received from others in the past 20 years has actually been very little... Of course, this includes me, so if others give him a little sincerity, he will remember it for a long time in his heart. Unfortunately, he I can't express my feelings well..."

Seeing the sad expression on Li Qingfeng's face, Xu Lin quickly cut off his words and said, "I know."

"Then can you promise me one thing?"

Xu Lin already knew the purpose of Li Qingfeng talking so much to him today, after hearing what he said, he just nodded silently.

"It's a little selfishness of being his father... Can you try to take that step first?"

"can."

Xu Lin's straightforward answer made Li Qingfeng's eyes gradually turn red, and then he took Xu Lin's hand and said thank you several times.

Like Li Xin, he should not be good at expressing his feelings. Seeing his agitated expression, Xu Lin, who was a little worried about his body, quickly helped him to lie down.

"Xu Lin, treat Li Xin better in the future, that child has already suffered a lot."

Li Qingfeng's hand was very cold, Xu Lin unconsciously clenched his hand, and after a while, he whispered: "Okay."

"Good boy."

After saying this, he finally let go of Xu Lin's hand with confidence.

Li Qingfeng and Xu Lin talked too much that day, so when Li Xin went to see him in the ward, he felt even weaker.

Before he could say a few words, Li Xin saw him close his eyes, thinking that he must be too tired, Li Xin held his hand and sat for a while, and then whispered a few words to Uncle Xu, He just walked out of the ward.

Outside the ward, stood Xu Lin who he thought had been gone for a long time.

Seeing him, the feeling of wanting to cry became more obvious. After a while, Li Xin said, "Why haven't you left yet?"

Li Xin looked a bit haggard, Xu Lin resisted the urge to go over and hug him tightly, and said, "I'll take you back."

"Birth, old age, sickness and death are beyond our control. Think about it."

Hearing Xu Lin whispered such comforting words, Li Xin finally couldn't help crying.

Thinking that she has become prone to tears recently, Li Xin still looked at the slowly fading street scene outside the car window and said, "Xu Lin, did you cry when your grandma passed away?"

Probably because of being an actor, Li Xin can control his emotions and tone very well, but just seeing his posture, Xu Lin knew that he was crying.

After a moment of silence, he said: "Well, I often cry, but I was alone at that time, and I was afraid that grandma would be sad when she saw it, so I often hid alone and cried secretly."

"How old were you then?"

"High school."

"I was about the same age when my grandma passed away...just..." After speaking, Li Xin stretched out her hand and rubbed her face, saying, "I can't get used to this kind of thing no matter what."

"How can you get used to it? Besides, we only have so few relatives."

"Too."

After saying this, Li Xin didn't speak any more.

When he got home, Xu Lin discovered that Li Xin's eyes were a bit swollen, twisted a wet towel for him, and poured him a cup of hot water before he said, "Would you like to go upstairs to rest first?"

"No, I can't sleep."

After hearing what he said, Xu Lin frowned unconsciously, and said, "How can this be done? You haven't slept well these days, have you?" Seeing Li Xin just sitting there with his hands crossed and his head bowed, Xu Lin again Say, "Or two glasses of wine?"

"What are you drinking for?"

Xu Lin glared at him and said, "Of course it promotes sleep!"

I don't know if he was joking, but Li Xin doesn't have the energy now, and after leaning his head on the sofa, he said: "It's okay, I'll just take a rest."

After going to the bathroom on the second floor to hang up the towel, Xu Lin saw Li Xin leaning on the sofa and looking asleep.

The room on the first floor became even more empty because of what happened last time. Thinking that the weather had started to turn cold recently, he found another thin blanket to cover Li Xin.

It has been a long time since I saw Li Xin's face at such a close distance. The outline of the facial features gradually became hard, and when she fell asleep, her brows would unconsciously frown.

Just as he was about to reach out to smooth his brows, the phone in his pocket rang.

The voice was a bit loud, Xu Lin glanced at Li Xin who was asleep, and then walked quickly to the kitchen to answer the phone.

"I told you not to call me if you have nothing to do."

Hearing the anger in Xu Lin's tone, Zhou Ziqian chuckled and said, "Sorry, something really happened."

"what's up?"

"I'm going back to China tomorrow, and I want to talk to you about the house."

Xu Lin glanced outside the door and said, "I'm not free right now."

"But I already have a general idea of ​​the design of my house."

"You can send me your own design drawing by fax after returning to China, and then I will modify it for you..."

"I don't know how to draw this kind of design...Xu Lin, this time I will be away for a long time...at least a year..."

Zhou Ziqian's tone gave people a feeling that he was very depressed. After a moment of silence, Xu Lincai said: "Then you wait for me, I'll come over later, and you send the meeting address to my mobile phone."

"Okay!" After hearing his answer, Zhou Ziqian's voice became very excited, and then he said, "Hurry up, I'll wait for you!"

Going back to the living room to get his bag and coat, Xu Lin was about to go out when his hand was held by Li Xin who he thought was still sound asleep.

"Sorry, did I wake you up?"

"Whose phone number?"

Seeing Li Xin looking at him motionless, Xu Lin said without expression: "Zhou Ziqian..." After thinking for a while, he said, "It's about work."

"Can you not go?"

Xu Lin originally wanted to say that he would come over at night, but when he saw the sad expression on Li Xin's face, he couldn't help hesitating.

"Xu Lin... Please, just let me be self-willed just once, okay?"

This was the first time Li Xin spoke to him in such a tone, Xu Lin looked at him quietly for a while, and then he said: "Okay."

He sent a text message to Zhou Ziqian, and before he called for the second time, he turned off his mobile phone.

"Am I being mean?"

The two sat side by side on the sofa for a while, and Xu Lin heard Li Xin whispered something to him next to him.

There was strong uneasiness in his tone, knowing what his words meant, Xu Lin couldn't help but rubbed his hair with a smile.

"Xu Lin..."

He looked at him with an expression of disbelief, Xu Lin looked at him as usual, and said, "What?"

"Can you stay here with me tonight?"

"can."

After saying this, Xu Lin only felt that Li Xin's eyes lit up in disbelief.