Rain falls in Yangzhou

Crazy looking for traces of him everywhere, he found the dormitory in Yangzhou, he found Jizi, he found the Guitar Club, he found Miss Xiaocai, he found all the people related to Yangzhou, but no one gave him an answer .

It's as if everyone's memory has been deleted, and only he still remembers it.

It was as if this person had never been in school, or even in this world.It was as if he had never rescued him from the gate of hell, and the short and happy days between them had never existed.

He finally found the relevant office of the college where Yangzhou was located, and the counselor of Yangzhou told him with a puzzled face that Yangzhou had dropped out of school on his own initiative.

"Did he do something wrong?"

——No, he dropped out of school voluntarily, and he didn't tell us the reason.

impossible.

Li Xuan couldn't believe what he heard.

impossible.

He couldn't believe the "truth" he saw before his eyes.

"How could he leave me and walk alone!"

It's really okay this time.

The two people who agreed to live together slowly.

As promised, I will take myself out for a walk!

The agreement has not been fulfilled, how can he leave?

At the moment when he walked out of the counselor's office, Lixuan realized that his face was full of tears, and the tears couldn't stop flowing down. People passing by looked at him with strange eyes, but he just couldn't stop, the tears seemed to leave him. My own control is average, and I keep running out.

Only at this time will he suddenly realize how important Yangzhou is to him.

Leaving his life, already unable to breathe.

He clutched his chest and squatted on the ground with difficulty, wanting to breathe fresh air but couldn't do anything. A passing classmate came to ask about it, but he couldn't hear anything. He was really struggling like a lack of oxygen. He stretched out his hand, trying to grab the person who was no longer there, but he couldn't catch it no matter how hard he tried.

A darkness came, and before the darkness swallowed him completely, he saw Yangzhou's face.

Instantly disappeared.

He did not believe in the truth and began to seek his own truth. For the first time, he walked out of the school gate by himself, to the places where Yangzhou took him, and to the places where Yangzhou was said to have been. He would not just leave like this ——He thought this in his heart, he firmly believed that Yangzhou would not leave the city and his original circle so soon, even if he could disappear from the campus, he could not completely disappear from these places.

With Yangzhou's current body, he shouldn't be able to go too far. He should still find a place to recuperate. Even he would have a sense of proportion. Then he can't live alone. There must be someone who can take care of him. …The only remaining rationality was analyzing for him, and he relied on the remaining rationality to conduct a carpet search, regardless of his own life.

Rumors spread among the students again.

(I heard that He Lixuan in the dormitory next door has not returned to the dormitory for several days.)

(The news I got here is that he runs to those places every day, and nerds are also tired from studying.)

(I think it has something to do with that... that Yangzhou. There was a photo of the two of them on the BBS that made a big fuss a while ago?)

(What about the group photo? It’s just a photo taken together, and it’s not banned like other photos.)

(Everything else is banned, can this be normal?)

Similar conversations began to spread slowly from Lixuan's small circle.

The dark suspicion and curiosity dyed Lixuan's world black.

Occasionally, he still lives in the dormitory. Lixuan, who dozed off in the classroom during the day, made everyone's discussions uncontrollable. The roommates who have always had a good relationship also came to ask anxiously, what did you do? Worrying about you.

Ke Lixuan, always indifferent

Because his world has already become black.

The moment Yangzhou left, he died.

What he reads is no longer textbooks, and the questions he thinks about are no longer formulas and data. He is running around with a map of the city, one place after another, Yangzhou is such a conspicuous person, as long as he passes by, Someone must remember.

He wants to find him.

He wants to find him.

He doesn't need Yangzhou's explanation, nor his apology.

He just wanted to walk with him.

"If, if I don't come back for a few days, tell the counselor that I have dropped out of school."

"Hey, that little boy is looking for you again."

The woman staggered into the room with her high heels on. The mixture of powder and alcohol made the musty air even more turbid.But the woman didn't seem to care about this, she stretched out her hand and fumbled around the door, and the dim light barely illuminated the room.She threw her handbag aside, staggered to the bed, picked up the half-smoked cigarettes and lighter on the bedside table, "He seems to know you are here."

Still no one in the room responded to her.She sat on the edge of the bed, lit a cigarette, took a sip, turned around and squinted at the young man on the other side of the bed: "Don't pretend to be asleep, is it interesting?"

Probably because of choking, she coughed and stifled the cigarette, threw the cigarette butt aside, took off the few layers of cloth left on her body, and lay on her side beside him, watching him quietly.If it weren't for his steady breathing, anyone would think that this is an exquisite doll she bought at a high price.

No matter how many times she was cheated, she couldn't resist the temptation of this man.It is a common problem of people to pursue beautiful things and be moved by beautiful things.Even a laughing girl like her can't escape this never-ending trap.

—That person must be like this too.

When she was off work, she met this man with a guitar on his back and a bandage on his arm.She had seen him before, because no one in the nightclub had not seen him, and no one could forget him.I have also heard many stories about him, as well as the warnings given by my girlfriends and colleagues.He looked downcast, leaning against the wall of the corridor, with his head lowered. In order to avoid causing trouble, she quickened her pace, but a deep voice broke into her ears abruptly:

"Miss, do you need a bodyguard?"

--demon.

This man named Yangzhou just stayed in her dilapidated rental house.

"Hey, who is he to you?"

She stuck to his side, whispering in his ear.Yangzhou still didn't open his eyes, but this showed his abnormality - he lived together for a month, he never shared the same bed with her, and he always coaxed her to sleep when she came back.It was only in the past two days that the abnormality occurred.

A boy who looked like a student came to her shop with a photo of Yangzhou.

"Excuse me, has this person been here?"

Everyone didn't want to cause trouble at first, and most of them said they didn't know or didn't know, and she was the same.It has nothing to do with who the other person is, she just wants to keep the man she found with great difficulty by her side.But this boy is not so easy to deal with, maybe he noticed something from someone's mouth, the boy would come to the store every night, order a considerable amount of wine, and then chat with the bartender and waiter, and gradually everyone's mouths will drink It was exposed, and she was exposed in just one sentence——

"It's being raised by Lina."

Lena is the synonym for her existence here.

As a result, this boy found her. She was drinking with her, so he paid her to accompany him, but he didn't drink it himself. Normally, she wouldn't hate this good job that came to her door. She didn't have to drink to hate it. There is no need to let the old man eat tofu with the wine, but this situation is different, he is here to grab the man from her.So I accompanied him once, and walked around him every day, but she was not like a fish or a wild goose, there would always be a time when there was no work, and this boy would come over and give her money, but he didn't say anything.

It wasn't until she finally got impatient that she asked him what he was looking for her for, and he said slowly, "You know better than anyone else, why do you need me to tell. I just want you to tell him that I'm waiting for him."

what.

This seems to be saying, if you tell him that I am looking for him, he will naturally come to me.

I don't have to fight with you, he is mine.

- What are you kidding?

"Why don't we change places." She murmured alone, "I'll find another store and live in another house. I've also saved some money, so I can find a decent house and don't have to live here. It's time to plant a place... Hey, you will, come with me?"

"Where is that boy... now?"

Instead of answering her proposal directly, she mentioned the boy's Yangzhou, which made her feel cold: "When he annoyed me, I went to accompany an old customer. He seemed to be sitting there when he left. Now I won't Got it. As I said just now, you..."

Before he could finish speaking, Yangzhou sat up from the bed, dragged the scattered clothes around the bed and put them on, "Where are you going?" Lina asked confusedly, but she saw Yangzhou Putting on his coat, he picked up the guitar leaning against the wall, walked around to her and kissed her——

"Don't have real feelings for people like me. Change places, or find some serious work, there's a guy following you."

After finishing speaking, he walked towards the door, and the moment she opened the door, she saw the boy standing outside the door.

"Ah, it's not this one that's following, it's another one." He turned his head, the light outside allowed her to see his face clearly, just like a movie picture, the beautiful man looked at her with a smile in his eyes:

"Thank you."

For more than a month, Yangzhou had thought of a thousand answers to the proposition "What will Lixuan do first when he sees him?"

Slap him.

Slap him twice.

Beat him up.

Leave without saying goodbye, what the hell is this.Even that young master would inevitably stick out his fist, just like the group of men and women he had failed before.And after this punch, he can also go far away like before.

So it took him a month to come up with a thousand ways to die for himself.

This also means that the moment he left, he thought that Li Xuan would chase after him.

Although he himself hated this situation, the young master would definitely find him and would not give up so easily, but he never thought that he would find him in the vast sea of ​​people so desperately and so quickly.

"Yo, young master."

No.20 Six Times of No Love (End)

He thought about a thousand ways to meet, and even more so, a thousand expressions when they met.

He felt that he knew him well enough, so no matter what expression he had when he saw him, it would be within his expectation.Whether it's anger or sadness or joy, he will accept it all, anyway, the result is the same.

But he was still wrong.

But they never imagined that their reunion after a month would be like this - Lixuan stood calmly in the dark corridor, his face was tired, but his eyes were unusually calm, he didn't reach out to slap him, let alone scold him He didn't cry out suddenly and threw himself into his arms, he was always different, from the moment he was attracted, he was different.

On that face was the difficulty of living in the past month, and there was the dust from going in and out of some messy places, and his body had a strange smell that can only be found in night shows, and there were some new vicissitudes buried deep in the peace.How did he find him who didn't know anything about these occasions, how did he find him who had spent all his savings to treat his illness.He didn't even dare to think about it.

All I know is that none of this is suitable for him.

Whether it's the blue eye circles or the tired look.

Whether it was the smell of alcohol on him or the cigarette case he kept in his front pocket.

None of this suits him.

Like him, not for him.

"Come back with me." Lixuan said word by word, breaking the awkward silence, "Everyone is waiting for you."

Why do you still say such things to him now?

Why don't you hit me?

Why don't you express your anger and grievances?

Why not speak out about your hardships?

Why do you have to tolerate me like this at this point.

"I've dropped out of school and I can't go back."

Hearing this, Lixuan was not surprised. He took the backpack on his back in front of him and opened it in front of Yangzhou: "I have all the things with me, and there is still some money in the bank card. Although Not many but enough for a while, I also brought some clothes, I also brought other basic things that can be used, and I also said hello to my classmates..."

"You can't come." "I'll go with you."

The voices of the two were pressed together.

"You can't come." "I'll go with you."

It was repeated.

After that, the two fell into a deep silence, and the inappropriate tacit understanding made the atmosphere even more awkward.He should have thought of it a long time ago, if he has the ability to find him in such an unfamiliar place, he has the ability to dare to go with him.After all, it was still his fault, for bringing him down and bringing out such courage.If it was the young master from the beginning, he would never have the courage, so let's go with him.

After all, it was his own fault.

Everything is his own fault.

"You don't want me to go, do you?" He broke the silence first, "Then young master, let me do it a few more times before we part."

He knew that he would not refuse.

Even knowing that he will leave eventually, he will not refuse.

When Lixuan opened his eyes, Yangzhou was no longer there.

He knew when Yangzhou left, there was no one around him, and the feeling of emptiness would suddenly hollow out people.He woke up when he got up in Yangzhou, but he continued to pretend to be asleep.He heard him taking a shower, heard him changing clothes, heard him pick up his guitar, felt him kiss his forehead.

Until he pushed the door to leave, he didn't get up, and didn't struggle anymore.

Not even a single tear was shed.

The two of them stayed in bed for three days and three nights, regardless of day and night, black and white, just indulged in the tide of love, he used this method to get him drunk a little bit, let him forget all the sorrow and pain, forget to cry, lose Pursue his strength, numb his nerves with sweetness, and then leave quietly.

When accepting the invitation, he thought of the current result.

It's just that he can't refuse him.

From beginning to end, it was impossible to refuse him.

He is his Mephisto.

He is not his Faust.

"Do you love me?"

At the time of lingering, at the time of madness, he finally asked what he had been buried in his heart but never had the courage to say.

"do not love."

At that moment, he seemed to see Yangzhou crying, but he didn't.

At that moment, he seemed to hear the voice of his own heartbreak, but he didn't seem to.

The drunken soul is always immersed in that madness.

Can not extricate themselves.

Dreams are dreams after all.School has just started, no matter how tired he is, he has to crawl back to school, study hard, finish those leftover tasks, return to his original life, and pay for what he did.

Naked, he was staggered to the window with the air conditioner on, and opened the blackout curtains, only to see that it was raining outside at some point, it was light rain in early spring, it was drizzling, it looked like afternoon outside, and there were some Pedestrians walked by holding umbrellas, and some people were sheltering from the rain under the eaves, or in other words, enjoying the unique breath of early spring.

He sat on the ground and buried his head deeply in the quilt.

(Finish)