I can't see the stars in your eyes

[When everything is confessed, between you and me, will it be faith or a sharp sword]

I know what I should do, Yuan Ye supports me.

"Sir, please raise the price again!"

"No, just one hundred thousand yen!"

"Please!"

"Whether you sell it or not, I will take over the stall if you don't sell it!"

"Okay, I'll sell it!"

I sold my "possessions" for the most reluctant [-] yen. The few coupons I held in my hand were not surprising, but I had nothing left to pawn, and I looked up to the sky and sighed.

His snarl and his hopeless eyes still linger in my mind and I can't get rid of them. Thinking that I will never see him again in two weeks, my eye sockets become moist, how much I want to have it again Once tender, hug that warm body again, think about it...

My footsteps were light and light, like a body without life. I raised my eyes suddenly and saw a familiar signboard. I walked in and kept the money in my pocket tightly. There were only a few coquettishly dressed women sitting on the stage, chatting and laughing with the men around them, none of them noticed my existence, so I walked up the stairs by myself.

The corridor of the private room on the second floor was silent, and I looked around.

Suddenly heard - "Yo, who is this?"

I turned around and it was SAM!When I came to look for Nan Xing before, I had a face-to-face meeting with him. I was scruples about him, and I backed away in fear, not daring to say anything.

He walked towards me slowly: "Who are you looking for this time? Could it be that you have figured it out and want to join us? Just figure it out. The salary in our industry is pretty good. You can..." As he spoke, he patted Patted me on the shoulder.

I jumped up reflexively, and shook off his hand, "Don't touch me, me, I'm here to find Kim."

"Sorry, he resigned."

My eyes widened: "Resign?"

Unexpectedly, SAM approached me with an ambiguous expression, and said slowly: "Yes, he should be with the last guest at this moment, and when it's over, I won't see him again, what a pity. "

I was shocked, pushed SAM away, and ran downstairs in a panic!

Nan Xing has resigned, where will he go, where will he go during this time!

Frustration, sadness, pain, disappointment, sadness, when these feelings came to my heart at the same time, my thin body almost collapsed, I ran in the street in a hurry, the sky above my head was like a huge fan, I had to feel I was dizzy for a while, I couldn't get rid of the way I am now, what should I do.

I gasped heavily.

Fine pieces of snow floated in the sky, it was not big, and my body shivered involuntarily.

In a more prosperous area, I caught a glimpse of Nan Xing. He was getting thinner and his veins were protruding. He was being hugged by a strong man. The two walked into a three-star hotel apartment. What are they going to do, I followed, walked to the corner of the hall against the wall, sat on the sofa, picked up the newspaper on the coffee table to cover my face, moved the newspaper secretly, and looked at them at the front desk. After a while, he walked to the elevator.

My heart is beating wildly!

Could this be his last guest?

When the elevator door closed, I immediately put down the newspaper, ran to the elevator, pressed the button again, and stared intently at the number on the top of the elevator.

On the 28th floor, they stopped on the 28th floor, and then the elevator went down.

At the moment when the elevator door opened, I stepped in without hesitation for half a minute.I clenched my fists tightly, and after pressing the button on the 28th floor, I could only see the number that kept rising, and my ears began to ring, and I couldn't help swallowing, and then, the "ding dong" door slowly opened. Move the sides out of the way.

The red carpeted corridor with white walls on both sides is very quiet.

I stepped on the carpet step by step, silently.

Which room will he be in?

I walked through a large corridor. When I got close to the window, I wanted to bend, but I didn't think about it. There was a loud "bang" from the door over there. I turned my head and looked over, and an angry man rushed When he came out, his clothes were disheveled, and the angry look on his face reminded me that he was the one who came with Nan Xing just now!

He walked past me quickly, and I heard him swearing in a low voice as he walked: "What are you doing, the dying person still has the strength to resist! Damn!"

Then, his eyes glanced at me, and for a few seconds, I was too stunned to move, as if I had been seen through from the inside to the outside in front of him, I hurriedly held my breath!

Finally, he left my sight, and I let out a long sigh of relief.

I quickly ran to the room, looked around, the room was too messy: the glass flower pot on the TV cabinet was broken on the ground, a few magazines fell in the corner, lying in a mess, I was surprised to see He was sitting in the corner of the wall in embarrassment, ten thin fingers were digging deep into his hair, his expression was painful, and his whole body was trembling constantly.

"South Star!"

I cried and ran towards him, squatting on the ground, staring at him tightly.

He raised his head to look at me, and from the messy hair, I saw a pair of protruding eyes, red in the eye sockets, full of tears, he was very surprised when he saw it, and immediately turned his face down, and looked away: "...you, you do it, what do you do."

"I, I," I saw him like this, I suddenly forgot the purpose of my coming, I just wanted to see him for a while, but his current appearance was really sad, and my tears blurred my vision again.

"Didn't I tell you not to come to me again! Go away!" He yelled at me sternly.

This time I refused to let go of his hand, crying desperately: "I won't go, I won't go, I won't go! Nan Xing," I said, and I pulled out a hand to take out those short sheets from my pocket. The strange banknotes were brought to his eyes tremblingly, looking at his incredulous eyes, I said intermittently: "If I give you these, we can, yes, do it again, right, woo woo woo! "

"Nonsense!" He stretched out his hand and slapped the banknotes in my hand, and they fell to the ground in an instant.

I stare with bated breath!

"Go away, don't come to me again! I have nothing to do with you!"

His voice rang terribly in my ears.

I lowered my head, bit my lips tightly, not daring to look into his eyes, I mumbled to myself in fear: "Just, just once, okay, woo woo woo, I, I'm not afraid, I'm really not afraid..." I raised my eyes By the time, tears had already welled up, and his figure gradually dissipated and blurred in his eyes until he disappeared.

There was silence between us for a long time.

He said: "Okay, I promise you."

I was ecstatic for a while, and rushed up to hug him tightly, not wanting to let go for a moment.

But, I am really clumsy, even, very shy, I don't know how to start, how to proceed, and how to end, my fingers rest tremblingly on his shirt buttons, but I dare not go down , I buried my face very low, shrinking like a shrimp.

Finally, he spoke above my head: "Oh, you won't?"

"No! No, I, I will!" What am I bragging about? I obviously don't know anything, and I still dare not look into his eyes.

"kiss Me."

"Ah?" I raised my head abruptly, and bumped into his unusually tender eyes.

Immediately, I slowly lay on his chest, and gently kissed his eyebrows, eye corners, nose bridge, lips, these parts I love the most, he pressed me back instantly at the moment of my hesitation!

I flashed a pair of big eyes and stared at him!

He smiled at me: "Thank you, I feel the most with your kiss."

Before I could react, he hugged and kissed me more violently the next moment, tearing our clothes almost crazily, and invaded every piece of pure land on my body, and I was intoxicated by it.Until we were sweating profusely, he leaned against my ear, and the thick nasal voice that he spit out lightly agitated every sensitive nerve line of mine.

"I love you, Kohane."

It was just this sentence, my tears rolled up again, I hugged his body tightly, my tears climbed up his shoulders, but they were dried by his abnormally high temperature.

Nan Xing, I don't want you to leave me, I really don't want to.

I gently closed my eyes, waiting for the next second of feeling, but unexpectedly, he suddenly left my body, crawled on the edge of the bed and coughed non-stop, my heart was like a huge hand, being squeezed tightly Tight, painful.

"Nan Xing, what's wrong with you!" I asked.

He began to retch again, which was the same as that time. I suddenly remembered what the doctor said occasionally. Is he a drug addict again?I really hit the spot, he began to crawl towards the bedside table, pointing at the cabinet with his bony fingers tremblingly, but hesitated, muttering to himself: "Drug, medicine, medicine..."

"South Star..."

I immediately went to the bedside table to find out what was going on, opened the cabinet, and there were several packs of white powder lying in it! !I looked at him again, only the small white bag in my hand was in his eyes, this scene is like a dying person praying for the medicine of resurrection, but this is not resurrection, it will make the person I love the most Pushed into the embrace of death!

So I hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to move out the whole drawer, bring it to the bathroom, pour all the bags of white powder into the toilet, and flushed into the sewer with a "boom", I don't want him To be mutilated by these damn things again!don't want!

"What are you doing! What are you doing!"

Before I could turn around, Nan Xing pushed me aside, my head hit the corner of the tile, knocked over the toiletries on it, I touched my forehead, a scarlet liquid sprang out, but In my eyes, I could see him lying on the toilet like a desperate lunatic, trying desperately to pick, pick, pick!But all to no avail!

Afterwards, he turned to me viciously, and slowly moved towards me. I rushed over to hug him regardless of the situation, and hugged his thin body tightly. I cried and shouted: "Nan Xing! Got it, woo woo woo! Don't, don't touch those drugs again! Don't! Woo woo! I don't want you to leave me...! woo!!!"

I cried faintly in his arms before I heard the hazy voice.

"You all know."

When I woke up, I was lying on a clean bed, covered with a white quilt, and my eyes hurt from crying.

"Are you awake?" he asked me.

I didn't speak, just quietly staring at the ceiling in a daze.

I asked him seriously: "You tell me."

"Tell you what? Didn't you see it all? Don't you know it all?"

I sat up suddenly from the bed: "Tell me why you got those things! Why! This is a dead end!"

He lowered his eyebrows, looked sad, and said lightly: "When I was 14 years old, my father's company was exploited by a villain and led to bankruptcy, and the family lost everything. When my mother heard that the family had no savings, she immediately filed a divorce lawsuit against my father. This money-worshiping woman also demanded 200 million yuan in compensation from her father, but my father couldn't afford it, and finally died of anger on the desk after paying off part of the debt."

"I was left alone in order to avoid those people's debt collection, so I secretly came to Tokyo. In order to pay off the debts of my family, I had no choice but to start this job because I was not familiar with the place. At the beginning, I didn't last long enough to satisfy customers, so SAM gave I bought a pack of white powder, said it can refresh me, I believed it, and then I made more and more money, and finally paid off the debt, but I also found that I can never live without that thing Yes, and later I checked online and found out that I was taking drugs."

I choked my throat: "Then why didn't you come to me?"

"I don't have much life left, and I don't want to drag you down." His eyes were like those of a terminally ill person, hesitating between uttering words.

I looked at him for a long time before I spat out two words: "Asshole."

Nan Xing's life is only a few days. Since then, I have not found him no matter how hard I searched. I am terrified. Where will he go alone? Sometimes he lies on the bed in the dormitory. Let's go together, but the careful Yuan Ye saw my intentions, and under his coercion and lure, I told him about it.

He gave me only four words: resign to fate.

Every time I see Nan Xing, he loses a lot of weight. I calculate that he has disappeared for more than a week now, is he even thinner?

【Forget about me, you have to live a good life, you will be God's favorite】——By: Nan Xing

He sent me such a text message one afternoon, and I immediately called him back after seeing it, "Nan Xing! Where are you~"

There was the sound of waves on his side, hitting my eardrums.

After a while, he whispered to me, "Xiaoyu, I have something to tell you."

I immediately rushed out of the room with my mobile phone in my hand, and looked around, but there was no sign of him, and there was no sign of him outside the dormitory building, so I asked him urgently: "Nan Xing, where are you, tell me, okay~"

I was so anxious that I almost cried.

"Don't come looking for me anymore, I just want to say, Xiaoyu, you are really someone I cherished with my life, because I care too much about your feelings, so I didn't tell you my pain, I don't want to Seeing you cry, I want to give you my best, brightest side."

I felt my pupils trembling slightly, and a layer of water mist slowly formed around the corners of my eyes.

"Forgive me, please. At the same time, I hope you can forget me in the future, Bei Yu, you have to act like a real man," when he said this, his voice choked up, "Don't cry, you know? Forget I."

I have cried like a tearful man! "You, what are you talking about! Nan Xing, I, I want to find you, don't go, don't go!"

The phone was hung up abruptly!

My heart beat to my throat, and I ran towards the stairs at the end of the corridor while crying. My tears flew away like a kite with a broken string, never to come back again!

South star!wait for me!

You must wait for me, must!

"Ah——" My feet slipped, and I fell down the stairs all over the place. When my head touched something hard, I couldn't feel anything!

My sense of hearing, sight, smell, and touch all disappeared at that moment!

I thought I was dead.

Because I saw Nan Xing, with his back to the sea, slowly turning his face towards me.

He smiled at me.

At the same time, I walked over to him.

His palm is still so warm, I saw him, we are together, we will never leave again, right?

Great.

I woke up and opened my eyes, but it was pitch black, so dark that I couldn't see my fingers.

"Nan Xing?" I groped forward.

"Bei Yu, what's wrong with you?"

I couldn't tell whose voice it was, and shrank back in fear, but I could touch the quilt with my hand, and I asked, "Why don't you turn on the light?"

There was a sudden silence all around.

"What's the matter, talk, is there anyone?" I yelled into the darkness, and hot liquid rolled down my eye sockets.

Then, I heard a familiar and continuous voice: "I am here."

A pair of thick and warm hands held mine tightly.

I smiled, and laughed happily.

Nan Xing, as I said, I will never let go of your hand again.