Yuanchuan High School

looked at him with pity.

A child without a father or a mother.

At one point, Li Kuo thought that the hat on his head was a good idea, at least he didn't have to attend the parent meeting.

But it was always brought up repeatedly, revealing the topic he didn't want to talk about again - he had a mother who abandoned him and ran away.

Why, why do I have a mother like you?

It's disgusting.

No matter how much he refuses to admit it, it will be useless after all, he can't break free, can't break free from the blood flowing in his body.

Li Cou and Li Shuyan are very similar.

I didn't grow it when I was a child, especially so.

Grandma always dressed him up as a girl and kept him from going out. Li Min didn’t know he was a boy until he was six or seven years old. He knew that a boy should take responsibility and have courage—he still had to go to elementary school, and there was no need for him in school. Can't go to girls' restroom.

Since then, Li Cou has never worn a skirt again, and his grandmother still taunts him, beats and scolds him frequently, and becomes more and more fierce, and he doesn't say a word.

He used to be very stubborn to want to be different from Li Shuyan, and wanted to strip away all traces of her left on him. He hated this selfish woman who abandoned her child and mother, and even hated her.

Li Cou has lived with this hatred for many years, too long, like a drop of clear water dripping from a meticulous painting scroll, and the lines and handwriting of emotion and hatred are all mixed together, losing their original appearance .

When Yan Wenyi mentioned his mother, Li Pu didn't know what expression to make for a moment, and his heart was only blank.

Mommy mommy.

who is motherHe couldn't remember what that woman looked like for a moment.

Resentment, anger, and complaints, all the emotions that filled his heart before were gone, and he was still spinning in circles from beginning to end.

Li Min thought, he hated Li Fangyu for controlling him, hated Li Shuyan, when he was a child, he replaced the faces of all the villains in the stories he had heard with these two faces, and now they are all dead.He still cannot be free.

They are relatives.

Li Min couldn't peel off what they put on him. He kept dragging this inflexible leg, and could play a piece of music repeatedly when his fingers touched the keys. An angry face is enough to explain everything.

The passage of time is like an anesthetic that is gradually failing, showing more and more severe pain, the sky is still dim, and the faint moonlight cannot penetrate the haze. After Li Min played for a long time, he hangs down his hand, and the keys in the darkness let out a tragic whine .

The boy didn't leave, he sat quietly in the dark.

After an unknown amount of time, a voice came from outside the door: "Don't you want to rest?"

The sound was a little far away and muffled.

The door was unlocked, and Yan Wenyi entered his room again at some point.

He leaned against the door of the piano room. In the darkness, there was a dense shadow on the piano bench.

Li Cou said, "It's not very sleepy."

He then raised his hand and pressed his index finger on a key, and the piano made a soft sound. Li Min lowered his head, his fingers slid across the surface of the keys in turn, and said to himself: "Actually, I don't know how to play the piano, I can only play this one... no , this short paragraph."

Yan Wenyi didn't answer, Li Cou continued: "My mother taught me when I was young, right here, she sits here and plays the piano every day, she just plays one piece of music, I'm stupid, she taught me many times, I just It will be like this."

"You were very young at that time. It's not bad to remember so many years."

Li Pu was silent and heard him ask plainly: "Do you hate your mother?"

"I hate it... forget it, it's not... I don't know." Li Min rubbed his forehead, "I didn't like her very much when I was young, but now... I can't explain it myself."

Yan Wenyi seemed to smile: "What's the answer? I don't know? I think you're still a little bit resistant, but it's normal. It's harder to hate than to like...Li Cou, do you still remember our conversation in the hotel that day?"

Li Cou stopped moving. He and Yan Wenyi talked a lot, arguing, asking, and talking nonsense... There was only one real conversation.

In the dark night of the hotel, those bright eyes stared at him.

It's the beginning of their real acquaintance with each other.

"Actually... I didn't ask you a question that day..." Yan Wenyi said, "Is it because you hate yourself that you don't value yourself?"

"Then—do you dislike your mother, or do you dislike yourself?"

He asked lightly, and Li Min was stunned.

Yan Wenyi was still smiling, half hiding his sharpness, trying to use his smile as a disguise to break Li Min's mask, and Li Min saw his own virtual image from the piano face, his face was as white as paper, and he panicked.

—Do you dislike your mother, or do you dislike yourself?

He didn't even have to think about the answer.That's why he was terrified.

It's not that Li Cou hasn't thought about this question, every time he touches the surface, he hides away from a distance, not daring to think deeply, he avoids this question, avoids the person in front of him, pretends to be deaf and dumb, and doesn't know anything when asked.

Yan Wenyi took off all his disguises calmly and recklessly, beating him at a loss.

As soon as he thought of the answer, he felt uncontrollably nauseated.

Seeing that he hadn't answered for a long time, Yan Wenyi sighed softly. He fumbled in his pocket, took out something and threw it on the piano. Li Cou reached out to take it, and the texture of the plastic packaging rubbed against his hand, it was a candy.

He looked back at Yan Wenyi, Yan Wenyi also tore one, threw it into his mouth, and said vaguely: "You know what? You were just like a child who sulked when he couldn't get candy from an adult. How about you?" When you get sugar, you will be angry, and you have been angry for so many years, and everyone has left, and your anger has not eased."

Yan Wenyi amused himself. He leaned against the door, feeling the sweetness filling his mouth, and said, "You are very stubborn."

"You always..." He said after deliberation, "Confining yourself to one place, even though there is nothing there, you don't want to go out. At school, I found that you... envy me the same way, And now."

"Does anyone care but you?"

"Will anyone care about those things? Will anyone care about you?" His voice was very flat, with a taste of indifference.

"It's not necessary, Li Cou, you've been living watching others, aren't you tired? Can you sleep every day?"

Li Min stared at him blankly.

Yan Wenyi held another candy in his hand, but he didn't eat it, he held it in his hand and twisted it back and forth. Yan Wenyi lowered his head, the rustling sound of the packaging was clear and obvious in the darkness.

"I don't know." After a long time, Li Cou said.

"I've always come here like this." He didn't look at Yan Wenyi, his voice was very soft, "You tell me to give up, tell me not to do this, then what should I do?"

He is Li Cou, and he grew up in this family to make do with resentment. He is so narrow-minded that he can't think of a problem for more than ten years, and he can't figure it out.

A man's death is like a lamp going out, and when the lamp goes out, he can't see the way forward.

Yan Wenyi glanced at Li Cou, hesitating and hesitating. After a long while, he rubbed his hair and said, "Well... Actually, this matter is also simple, don't think so much... just do it. It's as simple as that."

It can be seen that he doesn't comfort people very often, and the comforting words are intermittent, revealing a jerky clumsiness, "You are what you are, you don't have to shape yourself into someone else, you are Li Cou, someone knows you, understands you, It turns out that there are girls in school who like you..."

Yan Wenyi silently added in his heart - your face.

"You are not as useless as you said. I have seen you who are so proud. You are so hard on yourself... This is the first time I have seen you. How tiring it is."

"Your grandma left you money and a house. If you can take it, keep it. Just treat it as what she owed you when you were a child. Isn't it good to have money? How many people have tried their best and never encountered such a thing. This sum Money should be a lot to you now, right?"

Yan Wenyi walked up to the piano, pressed his fingers on the keys, and the hammer hit the strings and made a trembling sound. What he picked up was the part that Li Minu stopped abruptly and couldn't continue playing.

Yan Wenyi didn't take it seriously, sometimes he played his fingers wrongly, the music was coherent and incoherent, he couldn't hear the style of the original version at all, it didn't follow the rules, it sounded a little funny.

Li Min relaxed slowly, staring blankly at the slight shadow on Qin's face.

He thought, Yan Wenyi, that you really don't know how to comfort people, and your words are wrong.

Yan Wenyi looked at him sideways, and Li Min noticed his gaze, what was he looking at?

It's so dark, what can you see?

After a while, Yan Wenyi asked abruptly: "What's the matter with the leg? Is it the root of the disease?"

The topic changed too quickly, irrelevant, Li Cou didn't even react, his head went blank, and he subconsciously replied: "I don't know, I was injured when I was young, and I didn't recover well... Maybe something went wrong."

Yan Wenyi frowned, "I don't know? Haven't you been to the hospital yet?"

"I used to go there, but I didn't go there after that..." Li Min lowered his head, "It shouldn't be a problem, it's already like this."

"you……"

Yan Wenyi had nothing to say, he wanted to pry open Li Cou's head to see what was inside!

"How could this be?" Yan Wenyi stopped playing, he straightened up and looked down at Li Cou, "Forget it when I was young, why don't you go to the hospital now?"

Li Min didn't speak.

"You should have a little financial ability now, which is enough for you to go to the hospital. This is your own body, and it will be with you for the rest of your life. Why are you betting and punishing yourself for other people's mistakes, or do you feel like you are just limping and being blinded by others? A lot of fun……"

"Stop it!" Li Mino suddenly said loudly.

"do not talk……"

After a moment of silence, Yan Wenyi let go, and the crumpled candy in his pocket fell to the ground. He pinched the center of his eyebrows