Ruoshui Qiaochu

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41. Section 1

——Three generations of cause and effect——

The morning after Ruoshui left, Qiao Chu went to the flower shop and bought a bouquet of white roses, put them in a crystal vase, and put them in front of the portraits of Ruoshan and her mother;

It turned out that the glass mirrors of the two photo frames had been stained with dust, and she quickly wiped them clean with a rag.

Now she finally understands the reasons why Ruoshui refused to change the sheets and made her laugh and cry. She not only understands, but also feels.

Now she doesn't want to change the sheets, pillowcases and quilt anymore, she starts to embrace her pillow, cover her quilt nostalgicly, and fall asleep hugging her smell, which is the only warmth and comfort in the lonely night.

She really didn't expect that all the teasing she made of her behavior at the beginning would be implemented on herself in the end.

However, as time passed, she began to fear that her smell would gradually disappear.

The more you want to keep, the easier it is to lose.

The pace of life suddenly slowed down, apart from giving herself to work, she really didn't know how to deal with the time outside of work.

It was a very difficult month.It can be said that every day is like a year for her, but Ruoshui has no news as she expected.

Her only spiritual sustenance can only be her online social platform.Knowing that there would be no new developments about her there, she still went to see it every day, always hoping that a miracle would happen.

Such days seemed to return to the original point, which made her feel inexplicably lost and panicked.

When she was alone, Zhou Linshan was still by her side.

It was a Sunday, the third month and seventh day since Ruoshui left home, Zhou Linshan asked her to go out to sea.

Stepping on her RS ​​ship, Qiao Chu felt mixed feelings and felt lost.

There is no difference between her at this time and her at that time, she is still alone, as if Ruoshui has never participated in her life, and everything she has experienced in the middle is just a dream.

Standing in the places that Ruoshui passed by back then, and looking at the vast sea, it only made her miss her even more, and the feeling of missing her has never stopped.

Qiao Chu knew from the weather report that several cities in Japan have been snowing heavily these days.

It was snowing heavily in Ruoshui's place, but it was raining here in her place.Looking up at the sky, this day does not have the bright sunshine of the past.

Zhou Linshan came to her at some point and put a wide-brimmed hat on her.

"Don't get in the rain, you'll catch a cold..." she said.

Qiao Chu sat cross-legged on the deck, and Zhou Linshan sat down with her.

Qiao Chu said quietly to Zhou Linshan: "Ruoshui will never come back, she is not happy with me, how can she come back?"

Zhou Linshan glanced at her and said disapprovingly, "It's not that she's unhappy with you, she's just unhappy with you."

Qiao Chu looked at her and couldn't help frowning, "Is there any difference between the two?"

"Of course there is a difference. I read a very interesting sentence, but I forgot where I read it for a while-singing a sad love song and singing a sad love song. Do you think there is any difference between the two?"

Qiao Chu smiled and said, "Why didn't I realize that you know how to comfort people so well?"

Zhou Linshan also laughed, and said, "Just don't call me mom again."

Qiao Chu hugged her legs, lowered her face, and said dejectedly, "I really miss her."

Looking at the distant sea, Zhou Linshan said, "Ruoshui and the land of Japan are really destined."

Qiao Chu was very sensitive, she said: "You mean, she won't come back, right?"

"No, I just think that you don't need to worry about her too much. If a person goes to a place he is most familiar with, he is like a fish in water.

As far as I know, her Japanese proficiency has at least passed the third level, and there will be no communication problems there.

Moreover, you have never seen the courage of her to travel north and south and take me around the entire city of Japan, which is much more comfortable than she is in China.Overall, she is capable of taking care of herself. "

Hearing this, Qiao Chu felt slightly relieved.

Zhou Linshan said: "I'm more surprised that she will choose to give up psychological treatment and leave. I hope she can really find the answer she wants after leaving like this."

Qiao Chu stared blankly at the mountains in the distance, Japan is so big, she really wanted to know where she was?

"Life is a big subject. Perhaps only by truly experiencing it can it be regarded as a valuable lesson. No one can give us the real answer."

Zhou Linshan said with a lot of emotion: "When people come to this world, they are destined to have all kinds of troubles that cannot be solved."

On this day, Zhou Linshan told Qiao Chu for the first time that she received psychological treatment.Qiao Chu was willing to listen attentively, she just wanted to be a little surprised that Zhou Linshan's opening remarks were to ask her to forgive her.

Qiao Chu looked at her and asked her, "What is it for?"

Zhou Linshan smiled wryly, and said, "There are too many to be seen, right?"

Qiao Chu said tolerantly: "Anyway, aren't we sitting together again today?"

"So I am very grateful, and I have recovered what I lost. Now I cherish the people and everything around me very much." Zhou Linshan said sincerely.

Qiao Chu said open-mindedly: "Let the past go. If Shui can let it go, I have no reason not to let it go. As broad-minded as she is, I want to be as broad-minded as she is."

Zhou Linshan laughed and said, "Is this a couple made in heaven?"

The two were silent for a while, and Zhou Linshan said: "Qiao Chu, since you left RealMccoy, I have been very lost for a while, and I have been reflecting on myself, but in my limited wisdom, I still haven't done myself well. , but it got worse and worse. During those days, I was actually very depressed..."

Qiao Chu turned to look at her, she was a little surprised.She didn't expect that Zhou Linshan, who was always outgoing, cheerful, talkative, good at dancing, would also be depressed.

"I don't see it at all," she said.

"That's because I'm not used to people seeing my weakness. Qiao Chu, what I'm most afraid of is losing you, losing your dependence and trust in me, but at that time, I knew I had lost it."

Qiao Chu asked with concern: "Is this why you received psychological treatment?"

Zhou Linshan nodded and stopped the topic.She said, "Qiao Chu, do you believe in a woman's premonition?"

Qiao Chu looked at her with interest: "What premonition do you have?"

"I think that if you have extraordinary ambition and tolerance, you will be able to reap an extraordinary life."

Qiao Chu asked in frustration, "What extraordinary bearing do I have?"

"You can let go and let the person you love find what she wants to find, which is extraordinary tolerance."

Qiao Chu couldn't help laughing bitterly: "But I think it's just because of my incompetence. Japan is so big, I didn't even dare to ask where she really went, and I didn't even have the courage to say "I'll wait for you to come back." , I am afraid that she will reject me and tell me directly that she will never come back, I am afraid that she will give me the cruelest answer, or I cannot find a definite answer in her eyes.I don't want to reap any extraordinary life at all, I just want her to come back to me happily. "

"I mean, one day she will come back, and everything will happen as you hope."

Qiao Chu leaned against the railing silently, looking at the endless blue sea.Suddenly, she was moved to tears, Zhou Linshan turned her head to look at her, slightly startled.

Tears were in her eyes at the beginning, and the moment they fell from the eye sockets, it was like a pearl slipping down. To Zhou Linshan, it was a precious pearl, and she quickly wiped it away with her hand.

Qiao Chu lowered her head, smiled, and said, "Joe, I know you are comforting me, but I still want to say thank you."

Zhou Linshan had imagined countless times when she would hug Qiao Chu for the first time?She really never thought that it would be at this moment.

Qiao Chu had already leaned her head on her body, Zhou Linshan stroked her cheek lightly and tenderly, and said, "It's not sad, it's not sad, I mean the truth, not comfort."

Qiao Chu didn't seem to hold back her tears. After being alone for so long, she really needed a shoulder that could express her emotions.Zhou Linshan straightened her body gently, reached out and hugged her deeply.

After all, she finally understood completely in her heart: she existed only to wait for this day.The hug she waited for was also for this day——

To be Qiao Chu's strong backing, to give her the greatest support and comfort, at such a lost moment.

She did not forget those emotional words she said to Qiao Chu back then.She treats her like a family member.

She said that she has no relatives and no reason, she is her relatives, and her home is her home.

She is willing to share with her what she has, and she is more willing to share everything for her.

Isn't this another kind of deep love that can stand the test of time and the temper of the world?

In the consistent special affection for her, she never dared to cross the threshold, but in the end she still couldn't help hurting her and the person she loved because of jealousy.

After a while, Zhou Linshan suddenly said, "Qiao Chu, why didn't you ask me what was written in the letter Ruoshui sent you?"

Qiao Chu returned to her original position and tried her best to calm down. She looked at Zhou Linshan and said, "At this moment, I really want to know..."

Zhou Linshan said: "In fact, after reading your letter, I have always felt guilty. I burned your letter, and I was even more condemned by my conscience. I don't want to make excuses for myself. I read the letter when I read it, and I burned it when I burned it." Yes, wrong is wrong."

Zhou Linshan told Qiao Chu everything she could remember.She said: "Ruoshui revolves around the word "Yuan" from the beginning to the end.At that time, she kept thinking about how deep your fate is, and whether there is a chance to meet again..."

Hearing these words at this time, Qiao Chu couldn't help feeling sad, she murmured back to Zhou Linshan: "Do you think my fate with her is over?"

Zhou Linshan pondered and said: "This matter can only be confirmed by time, anyway, everything is destined somewhere. But maybe you don't know, Ruoshui's reassurance between me and her is covered in just one sentence. "

Qiao Chu was a little surprised, she asked, "Which sentence is it?"

Zhou Linshan clearly remembered that sentence, and because of that sentence, she was a little impressed by the young Ruoshui, and it was also because she had a different mind from others that she was always jealous of her and resisted her. , even fearing her, she has become the biggest knot in her heart.

Zhou Linshan said word by word: "To-know-past-life-cause, present-life-receiver-is."

Qiao Chu thought over every word, but couldn't comprehend it for a while.

Zhou Linshan looked at her and said, "Actually, these are the thoughts and words of the Buddhist school."

Qiao Chu said very humbly: "I don't quite understand the meaning of this sentence. How does this sentence cover your relationship?"

"The meaning of this sentence is: If a person wants to know what he is suffering today, he must first find out the problem from himself, and understand that today's fruit is the cause of yesterday's planting. Because if there is fruit in everything, there must be fruit. because."

Qiao Chu suddenly remembered that Ruoshui had indeed said something similar when they talked about Zhou Linshan one night.

Zhou Linshan said, "Qiao Chu, do you believe in causality?"

Qiao Chu said without hesitation, "I believe it."

"If it is said that people live in more than this life, do you believe this statement?"

"I have no doubts. However, I can only rely on my feelings to think that there must be some force behind life, but I don't know what it is. How did you suddenly know this?"

Zhou Linshan smiled embarrassingly, and said: "Because I want to know how Ruoshui put me down, I have always underestimated her. Of course, I am also curious, so I secretly went to understand the meaning of this sentence."

Qiao Chu said: "If you want to know the cause of the previous life, the recipient in this life is, can I think that she just blamed herself for the problem?"

"Buddhism has the theory of cause and effect in three generations, the past life, the present life and the future life. The past has passed, and none of us can prove it. Therefore, we extrapolate from the results received in the present life to the causes planted in the past life.

If the water thinks that way, it is actually giving himself a chance to let go and let go.In a relationship, no matter who is right or wrong, the person who can really let go in the end, get out of the haze, and know how to forgive first is the wise man. "

Qiao Chu understood quickly, "So, the fruit in the next life is the cause planted in this life?"

Zhou Linshan said very fluently: "So there is another sentence in this sentence: "If you want to know the fruit of the afterlife, the author of this life is."

Qiao Chu said: "It's not difficult to understand, it's like if I got caught in the rain today, I'll catch a cold tomorrow."

Zhou Linshan smiled embarrassingly again, and said: "Someone told me that the law of cause and effect is the fairest thing in the world, and there is no error rate. If the cycle of cause and effect continues, I am really afraid that my path will become narrower and narrower.

At one point, I felt that this was a great irony for me. I have always been smooth sailing along the way. I used to think that I could only be a winner, and would never be a loser..."

Qiao Chu sighed, "Is winning or losing really that important? There are more important things in life than these."

Zhou Linshan said meaningfully: "What happened to Ruoshui herself, she can quickly let go of it, but when it happened to the people around her, she was blinded by her emotions, and she couldn't see clearly..."

Qiao Chu looked at Zhou Linshan, and before she had time to think deeply about what she said, she asked another question: "Qiao Chu, do you know who is most afraid of meeting a person who is not decent enough?"

Qiao Chu thought for a while and said, "I'm most afraid of meeting decent people."

Zhou Linshan laughed and said: "You are too smart, so I am most afraid of meeting decent people, just like ghosts are afraid of seeing the light, because it will only make me feel ashamed. But, believe me, Qiao Chu, ghosts have good things too. , reverence and awe at that light.”

Zhou Linshan's metaphor made Qiao Chu laugh uncontrollably.Zhou Linshan, a bad woman, was finally saved.

Since that day, Qiao Chu often dreamed of Ruoshui, and it was the same dream——

Ruoshui is in a very quiet bamboo forest, wearing plain clothes, living in a simple hut, sleeping on tatami mats she likes at night, there is a clear stream behind the hut, the sound of gurgling water day and night, and she, like It was living in advance what she told her back then—the kind of life she yearned for in her later years.

Drums at dusk and bells at morning, Sanskrit sounds curling up, cleansing the world. The most amazing thing is that Ruoshui in the dream is always repeating a daily activity that can no longer be normal-sweeping the floor.

She sweeps the yard in the woods and sweeps the gravel paths.Now it is the season of heavy snow, but where are the fallen leaves?

Qiao Chu asked Ruoshui: Why are you always sweeping the floor?Ruoshui didn't answer her, she just carried her behind her back and continued to sweep the floor, constantly sweeping the floor.

In the bamboo forest with falling leaves, there will always be dead leaves that cannot be swept away. The fallen leaves are like human worries and flying delusions and ideas.

Faintly, she also smelled a faint scent of sandalwood, and she heard a deep and distant voice, which told her clearly: sweep the floor, sweep the floor, sweep the heart.

Originally, the plants and trees were all sad, but as long as the sound of Sanskrit came together, it was like nectar descending. Among the lotus flowers in the pond, two small lotus flowers suddenly bloomed vigorously.

Ruoshui said that everyone has their own lotus, and these two belong to them, they are Ruoshui Qiaochu's lotus.

When she said that, Ruoshui laughed, and Qiao Chu woke up because of it.

42. Section 2

--telepathy--

Qiao Chu turned sideways and looked to the other side of the bed, but there was still no one there.Such a real dream made her truly believe in her own sensing ability for the first time.

She found her watch under the pillow, it was four o'clock in the morning, and it was seven o'clock in the morning in Japan. Was Ruoshui really sweeping the floor at this time?

Since then, for a long time, she would wake up at this hour—with her eyes open, her thoughts wandering wildly in her mind, and then she fell asleep.

She misses her so much, is she the same?

Has she ever walked into her dream and had a meeting with her?

Qiao Chu climbed out of bed, walked barefoot to the window, lifted the curtains and looked out, the sky was hazy and everything was silent.

She sat on the window sill, turned on her mobile phone to surf the Internet, and subconsciously looked at various developments in Japan today.

After an unknown amount of time, she returned to the bed, curled up in the quilt, and then stared at the ceiling in a daze.

The ceiling turned into a smiling face like that child Ruoshui who wanted to rebel.She hid herself under the quilt again, hugged her pillow, her thoughts were completely out of control, and she suddenly remembered the little poem she wrote to her:

Who is the slender hand born for, and who is reincarnated for.

Maybe Ruoshui doesn't need her anymore.Qiao Chu closed her eyes, tears still falling down.

Just as the tears came, it started to rain again outside.In this rainy season, the deep-rooted longing finally turned into the most lingering pain.

As if out of some kind of telepathy, in the following days, she began to subconsciously want to touch what Ruoshui touched in her dream. She vaguely understood that while Ruoshui searched for life in her heart, it seemed to awaken her who had been drowsy for a long time. .

She will sign up for a Buddhist class to get in touch with Buddhism. It seems that there is a mysterious force leading her. She sits in the audience honestly and respectfully listening to the master's talk about life and death, good and evil, karma and reincarnation. Subtle things, just like the opening verses she recited with the mage following the crowd——

The supreme, profound and subtle dharma is difficult to encounter in a million kalpas. I have learned and upheld it now, and I wish to understand the true meaning of the Tathagata.

Hundreds of thousands of calamities are difficult to encounter.

She knew that a person must have good roots, good fortune, and predestined relationship to be able to sit here today and listen to scriptures and Dharma.

It was Ruoshui who ingeniously led her to this wonderful Buddhist relationship, Zhou Linshan who instructed her, and the person who sent her to the ferry was Jiang Yiying.

Before the Spring Festival, Jiang Yiying got her driver's license and bought a new car.

That morning, she unexpectedly appeared at the door of Qiao Chu's house, and softly invited her to take her car to work.

"In the past, I used to ride with my senior sister, but now I really want to repay my senior sister. I don't know if my senior sister will reward me or not?" She actually changed her name to her senior sister.

Apparently she'd love to bring their relationship back to the beginning.The first is always the most beautiful.Her voice is sincere and joyful, and all this seems to be in her plan, looking forward to this day.

Qiao Chu didn't reject her, she hugged her briefcase and got into her new car openly.

Jiang Yanying was as excited as a child.She was back to her original self, except now she was talking non-stop while driving.

But with her novice driving skills, the result of her double-mindedness is that the speed of the car can only be kept below 50 kilometers per hour, and she is driving in the fast lane illegally. The car owner behind is very impatient. That is to overtake from the slow lane on the left.

"Slow lane, slow lane!" Qiao Chu pointed to the left, reminding her kindly.

Jiang Yanying panicked and was about to drive the car to the left lane, when there was another ear-piercing sound of the horn behind him.

"Signal light! Signal light!" Qiao Chu instinctively grabbed the handrail on the roof.

It was only then that Jiang Yanying turned on the signal light in a calm manner, and she could still laugh, "My senior sister suddenly became my driving instructor."

Qiao Chu expressed doubts about her, "Didn't you buy your driver's license with money?"

She said embarrassingly, "I actually passed the exam three times."

Qiao Chu was surprised, and hurriedly said: "Then you should concentrate on driving and stop talking."

Jiang Yanying said with a chuckle, "I obey! Now my senior sister's life is in my hands."

Later, Jiang Yiying said that he would first go to a bakery in a certain area to buy dirty buns.Qiao Chu noticed that the car drove near the "Little Wooden House" where Ruoshui used to work.

The driveway was narrow and crowded, and there was no parking space at all. Jiang Yanying could only park the car briefly on the side of the road and let Qiao Chu watch over it.She got out of the car at the signal light.

Qiao Chu was bored in the car, looked up unconsciously, and saw a plaque hanging on the third floor of the bakery - "Prajna Lecture Hall".

A banner was drawn below, and the beautiful official script was like an admissions advertisement: Destined for sentient beings, let's cultivate together.

In this way, Qiao Chu came to this lecture hall to check the details a few days later, and decisively signed up for the Buddhist class.

After that, every Friday night from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-], she would appear in the "Prajna Lecture Hall" regardless of the weather, always sitting in the corner, with the big air conditioner behind her, and her fingers were frozen every time. It seems that I can imagine the temperature of Ruo water when the ice and snow are about to melt.

The questions that once lingered in the depths of her heart have gradually been answered-the manipulating behind the fate of people has never been any mysterious or evil force, but "karma".

Everyone is reborn according to their karma, without exception.There is no birth without a reason, and there is no death without a reason.

Only now did she understand that where life comes from and where death will go is an education that everyone should receive more or less, because only after receiving the education of life and death can it be possible to face the impermanence of life openly.

During those days, Qiao Chu would attend some Dharma meetings organized by "Prajna Lecture Hall", and she would often go to a temple to pay homage to the Buddha.

She knelt in front of the Bodhisattva, put her hands together, and said sincerely but in the same way:

"Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva, please protect the person I love, and get rid of fear as soon as possible. May Bodhisattva give her the spirit of fearlessness."

"Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guanyin Bodhisattva, may the Bodhisattva bestow upon her the wisdom of prajna, so that she will soon break through the illusions, become enlightened, see through, let go, and be at ease."

After that, she often thought: Has Ruoshui found the key to solve the mystery of life?

Has she gained a deeper understanding of life?Has she accepted the departure of her brother and mother?

Qiao Chu actually has great confidence in her, because she thinks she has a higher understanding than her.

Time passed by quietly like running water. Compared with the past six months, she lived a more fulfilling and peaceful life, but the number of times she dreamed of Ruoshui continued unabated.

In the second month after Ruo Shui left home, "Ruo Qiao" had no choice but to hang up the "temporarily closed" notice.

Losing her is tantamount to losing the soul.Someone once contacted Qiao Chu through Peng Min and asked if the shop should be sold, but she immediately declined.

"Ruo Qiao" is Ruoshui's painstaking effort, giving up it is tantamount to wasting her hard work, and at the same time accepting the fact that Ruoshui will never go home.

No, she is not willing to accept this fact!She depends on this small flame of hope to get through each day.

"Ruo Qiao" is also the place they set up with each hand and foot, and it is the second home they have together. Even if she never comes back, she will try to carry it through to the end.

She couldn't count how many times she went to "Jojo" alone.Sometimes at dusk on weekends, sometimes at night.

She likes to burn a stick of sandalwood in the attic, recite the "Heart Sutra" seven times, and then stay quietly without thinking about anything, so that her brain can completely calm down.

The hourglass left in the corner has long been covered with dust, and she has to wipe it almost every time she comes.

Every time you hold it in your hand and turn it upside down, your brain immediately accepts the instruction to start timing.

Time is terrible for her.She no longer dared to count the days.

If one day's waiting is equal to her three years, Ruoshui has left her for 800 years!

The 800-year wait is really tormented.Gradually, it seemed that she really didn't dare to hold any hope anymore.

Now she often can't figure out her own time, because no matter what time it is, she will subconsciously add three more hours forward. What she thinks about is always Ruoshui's time, not her own time.

She also began to wonder whether the smell on the pillow was hers or hers?Perhaps they have long been fused together, without each other.

Who once said that two people who love each other live together for a long time, and in the end not only will they become very similar in appearance, even their taste will be the same.

But, does Ruoshui still love her?If she had already let go of Wan Yuan, did she also let go of her?

It was one afternoon a year later, and the doorbell rang at home.After a while, her cell phone rang.

In the lonely and silent days, she always looked forward to the day when a voice could disturb and expel those heavy thoughts in her heart.

She was looking forward to a sound called "surprise", which could suddenly make her nerves completely excited.

However, what stopped at her door that day was only a delivery truck.

A rough courier jumped out of the car, slid open the back door of the container truck, and then moved an oversized box from the pile of large and small packages to the door of the car, waiting for her to sign for it.

Qiao Chu said with a puzzled face, "I didn't order anything by mail, did you make a mistake?"

The courier was more puzzled than she: "The address is here, yes, you can check it yourself."

Qiao Chu took the list and looked at it, it was indeed correct, the address was correct, the mobile phone number was correct, and the recipient's name was really her own.

The box was so heavy that it was impossible for one person to carry it, so two couriers moved it to the living room for her and put it down.

Qiao Chu closed the door, quickly unpacked the box, and found that it turned out to be a sewing machine——brown polished platen, black shiny machine head, it was a traditional sewing machine operated by pedals and a hand crank!

Grandma used to use the same sewing machine.Qiao Chu vaguely remembered that it was a butterfly card.

In middle school home economics class, she used her grandmother's sewing machine to make an apron.Grandma's vision was blurred in the later stage, and she also used a sewing machine to help her sew a lot of clothes.

Now, who sent her such an ancient sewing machine?

This really puzzled her.I wanted to find the name of the mail orderer, but I couldn't find any trace on the blurred receipt after going through multiple procedures at the post office.

She always easily associates traditional things with Ruoshui.The sewing machine thus added a bit of color to her dull life and ignited a glimmer of hope.

No more than three people knew her home address.Besides, besides Ruoshui, who would send things home?Even if someone wants to borrow her address, they will always notify her first, right?

Qiao Chu was thinking while touching the components of the sewing machine. Although she didn't know what it was, her heart was inexplicably excited because of its arrival, just like seeing a faint candlelight in the dark night when she could not see her fingers. Jumping frantically, he only wanted to follow the direction of the candlelight.

That night, she really struggled to assemble the object according to the instructions, and then moved it to Ruoshui's record player and put it in place.

A few days passed, but life remained the same.

She began to feel a little puzzled.

Nervously, she decided to call Zhou Linshan, straight to the point, and asked without thinking: "Will you buy a sewing machine and send it to my house?"

Zhou Linshan said: "Honey, it's not me, I can't even remember what the sewing machine looks like..."

She bit the bullet and called Jiang Jiying again.The other party said negatively: "It's not me, it's really not me."

Not good, not the best.If she got an affirmative answer, she would be disappointed instead.

In the following days, as soon as she got home, she would look at the sewing machine, look left, right, up and down.