The lure of rebirth

The sun ran out secretly like a naughty child. The sun shone in through the large glass window. Meng Jinlan gained some strength and slowly climbed onto the bed.

Xiao Bai slept soundly this time, stretched his body, opened his eyes, and met Meng Jinlan's focused eyes.

"What's the matter, look at me like this?" The voice was magnetic and hoarse, which was the unique charm of a man who just woke up.

Meng Jinlan moved her body and pressed her head against Xiao Bai's broad chest, her voice was softer than ever in her life, "No, I just want to take a good look at you."

Xiao Bai laughed, his chest heaved, and the powerful voice of the Empress Xiong reached Meng Jinlan's ears, which was reassuring.

"Aren't I here every day? Is there anything to watch, and I'll have to watch it for the rest of my life. I'm afraid you'll get bored of it."

Meng Jinlan also laughed, buried her face in Xiao Bai's chest, and said sullenly, "Yes, it depends on a lifetime, but how long is my lifetime, and how many tomorrows are there?"

Xiao Bai didn't hear clearly, he only heard the word "tomorrow" vaguely, and asked Meng Jinlan, "What tomorrow?"

Meng Jinlan raised her head, stared at Xiao Bai and smiled, "I mean, let's go to the amusement park tomorrow, okay?"

"Oh, do you still remember that?"

Meng Jinlan snorted, "The last time I asked you to accompany me, you just said that men can't go. I don't care this time. If you don't go, I will go by myself. When I was young, I wanted to go to the amusement park the most, but unfortunately I didn't have a chance, so, I’m going tomorrow, tell me, do you want to go?”

Xiao Bai looked at Meng Jinlan with a serious expression on his face, "Can I not go?"

Meng Jinlan stared at Xiao Bai, "No!"

In fact, as Xiao Bai said, the two elders really have nothing to play in the amusement park, they are all children's games, like the kind of exciting things they can play, Meng Jinlan doesn't like it.

Amusement park is Meng Jinlan's wish, a wish that has lingered for many years. When he was a child, he was just an ordinary child, longing for his parents to take him to the amusement park. Slowly, as he grew up, he seemed to have forgotten this wish, but Xiao Bai Giving unconditionally to him, let him know that there is still someone who cares about him and is willing to wrong himself to accompany him. In front of Xiao Bai, he can be naive, show his temper, and make unreasonable demands.

Because it was Saturday, there were a lot of people in the amusement park, and it was a bit crowded. Xiao Bai held Meng Jinlan's hand and moved his body with some difficulty. The weather was fine, the sun was out, and it was not comfortable to shine on people in the cold winter.

"Why, after watching it for a long time, I have decided whether to play or not, which one do I want to play?"

Meng Jinlan shook her head, "I don't want to play."

Xiao Bai stopped and looked at Meng Jinlan, "Then why are you here at the amusement park? Visiting?"

Meng Jinlan smiled and nodded, "Well, visit."

Xiao Bai: ...

Xiao Bai sighed, helpless.

Meng Jinlan snickered, he liked the way Xiao Bai was having a headache for him, and he was the only one in his heart, that way, he would feel that he was Xiao Bai's whole world, just like Xiao Bai was the whole world in his heart.

The two arrived at the amusement park at noon and left in the afternoon. Just like Meng Jinlan said, they did visit the amusement park, but Meng Jinlan was still very happy, with someone to accompany him, no matter what he did, he was happy.

After leaving the amusement park, Xiao Bai wanted to go home, but Meng Jinlan refused.

"Then tell me, what else do you want to do?"

Meng Jinlan smiled happily, regardless of the depression on Xiao Bai's face, "I want to go to the movies."

Xiao Bai nodded, "Okay, then let's go home and have a look."

"No, go to the cinema, it's not good to watch at home."

"Aren't they all the same movie?"

Meng Jinlan snorted, "It doesn't matter, I'm going to watch it in the cinema."

"Okay, little ancestor, go to the cinema."

Meng Jinlan chose a newly released movie, and she hasn't seen it yet, but some time ago, it was advertised as telling a story about a heart patient.

The name of the movie is quite good, called "On the Road"

Meng Jinlan didn't cry from the beginning to the end, but at the end, tears fell down.

The film tells the story of a college student named Wang Jie. Wang Jie lives a happy life, has a happy and warm family, and has a childhood sweetheart girlfriend. Unfortunately, he was diagnosed with heart failure in his junior year. In the film, Wang Jie is the kind of very optimistic person, actively treated and successfully replaced with a healthy heart. However, due to unpredictable circumstances, the replaced heart strongly rejected his body, no matter how hard they tried Wang Jie's young life was not saved.

What made Meng Jinlan cry was not the strong Wang Jie, but Wang Jie's girlfriend, that girl, who used her own life to interpret what Wang Jie said before she died.

She smiled and said to the weak Wang Jie, "Don't worry about me, I will be fine, remember, wait for me, on the way to another world, wait for me."

The bright red blood, the woman lying in the blood, is the last scene of the film.

Meng Jinlan couldn't help crying, he was the next Wang Jie, no, worse than Wang Jie, he couldn't let Xiao Bai see him when he was being treated.

"I preliminarily judged that yours is glioblastoma, but it is benign, just like your current symptoms, epilepsy, nausea, vomiting, headache and hemiparesis, of course, the most important symptom is getting worse Memory, personality, or neurological decline, but you don’t have these symptoms now. As for other symptoms, only by determining where your cancer is growing can you judge your later symptoms.

"Epileptic, personality or neurasthenia, he will become another person he doesn't know, become paranoid, unreasonable, and slowly become a disabled person who can't take care of himself."

"Don't cry, look at you, it's been made of water these two days, why haven't you cried before?" Xiao Bai wiped Meng Jinlan's unstoppable tears with his rough right hand.

Meng Jinlan tried her best to control her emotions, "I am willing, do you care?"

"Okay, I don't care, it's okay, the movie is over now, should I go home?" Xiao Baixiao asked Uncle Meng hesitantly.

"Okay, come out tomorrow," Meng Jinlan agreed.

Xiao Bai: ...

During this period of time, Xiao Bai has been making dinner. No matter how careless Xiao Bai is, he still feels that something is wrong with Meng Jinlan. They have known Meng Jinlan for ten years and have never cried once. Recently, she shed tears at every turn, and her personality is also a little bit Changeable, easily irritable, emotional.

Xiao Bai was also worried, but Meng Jinlan obviously didn't want to tell him, so he could only sit on the sidelines and worry.

"Eat more, I've only eaten a few mouthfuls, why are you full again?" Xiao Bai saw Meng Jinlan eating, took a few mouthfuls, and tried to dissuade him.

Meng Jinlan resisted the desire to vomit, and smiled, "It's okay, I'm not hungry after eating at noon, I'll eat when I'm hungry at night."

Only then did Xiao Bai feel relieved, "Alright then, if you're tired, go up and rest, you don't have to wait for me."

Meng Jinlan nodded, "Well, I'll go to sleep first."

Meng Jinlan went upstairs very slowly, as if she was moving up the stairs step by step. After finally reaching the stairs, Meng Jinlan strode towards the bedroom.

"Ouch...vomit...cough cough cough..." Uncomfortable, wanting to vomit but not having much, Meng Jinlan lay on the ground retching.

When she recovered, Meng Jinlan called Liu Mingming.

"Dean Liu, it's me, Meng Jinlan." Meng Jinlan leaned against the wall with an expressionless face.

Over there, Liu Mingming seemed to know what Meng Jinlan was doing, and before Meng Jinlan could ask, he said everything Meng Jinlan wanted to know.

"I want to know, how many days can we delay at the latest?" Meng Jinlan closed her eyes, waiting for Liu's verdict tomorrow.

There came Liu Mingming's calm voice, which should be reassuring, but to Meng Jinlan, it was something more frightening than demons, "At most half a month."

Meng Jinlan smiled, "Okay, I see."

Squeezing the phone in her hand, Meng Jinlan laughed loudly, half a month... half a month, that was the last time for him, so he still had to thank God for making him prepare.

After eating, Xiao Bai packed up his things and was not in the mood to watch TV anymore. Without Meng Jinlan's company, it was meaningless to be alone.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, he pulled Meng Jinlan into his arms and kissed Meng Jinlan's forehead, "Why, are you feeling uncomfortable again?"

Meng Jinlan didn't even open her eyes, "No, I'm tired today."

Reaching out to stroke Meng Jinlan's dark hair, Xiao Bai smiled, "I said go home, but you didn't want to, do you regret it now?"

Meng Jinlan didn't care about Xiao Bai's ridicule, "Who says I regret it, if we go out tomorrow, let's go to that Hongluo Temple."

Xiao Bai was powerless to touch his forehead, and he didn't object, "Okay, you have the final say, but don't be tired tomorrow, do you understand?"

Meng Jinlan retorted, "It won't make you tired, don't worry."

Xiao Bai agreed, "Yes, our Lord Meng won't be called tired."

At night, Meng Jinlan started pestering Xiao Bai again. Xiao Bai never knew that Meng Jinlan had such an obsessive side. It would be impossible to make him look like a man. Whenever you talk about him, he will tear up, let alone ignore him. However, when encountering such Meng Jinlan and Xiao Bai, the only option is to compromise.

However, Meng Jinlan is also happy to pester Xiao Bai like this, there is no man who doesn't like to do it, isn't there?

Hongluo Temple Scenic Spot of Hongluo Mountain is located at the southern foot of Hongluo Mountain, 5 kilometers north of Huairou District, and 55 kilometers away from the downtown area of ​​Beijing. The profound historical accumulation and cultural infiltration, wonderful geographical environment and climatic conditions have made Hongluo Mountain Hongluo The temple is a "pure land Buddhist kingdom" that is perfect, magnificent, and refined... Hongluo Temple faces south from the north and is built on the mountain. It has a rigorous layout and a majestic momentum.It is backed by Hongluo Mountain, with Hongluo Lake in the south, surrounded by mountains and water, with lush forests and towering old trees.Hongluo Temple is located in the thousand acres of verdant ancient pine forest in front of Hongluo Mountain. There are more than one million trees of various kinds in the area under its jurisdiction, and the forest coverage rate is over 90%.It forms a beautiful picture scroll of "Bibozang Ancient Temple".The pine forest bathing garden in the east of the temple (locally known as Luohangou) has more than 1000 acres of lush ancient pine forests, and there are more than [-] ancient trees over a century old. It is one of the important ancient tree groups in the capital.

Meng Jinlan likes the environment here very much. It is quiet, peaceful, with towering trees and ancient houses, which can make people calm down.

Seeing the rare smile on Meng Jinlan's face these days, Xiao Bai's mood improved, and he didn't feel bothered following Meng Jinlan, following Meng Jinlan wherever he went.

Because it is winter, there are actually not many people, but there has been no snow in the past two days, so the road is quite easy to walk.

In fact, the best tourist season for Hongluo Temple is autumn. In autumn, the trees are covered with red maple leaves, and the ground will also be covered with maple leaves. It is so beautiful at a glance.

But people like Meng Jinlan and Xiao Bai don't care about these things. With people around them, it's good to go anywhere.

The two were tired from walking, so they found a place to sit and rest. Xiao Bai saw Meng Jinlan shrank, and couldn't help worrying, "Is it cold?"

Meng Jinlan shook her head, "It's okay."

After that, there was no more words, and the atmosphere was warm and beautiful.

"Two benefactors." An older monk stood in front of the two of them, and Chui Mou folded his palms together.

Xiao Bai quickly stood up, he didn't believe in these things in his previous life, but with his rebirth, in his heart, whether he believes it or not, he still has at least some respect.

"Hello, master." Xiao Bai also put his palms together, bent his waist, and saluted respectfully.

Seeing Xiao Bai like this, Meng Jinlan stood up and saluted.

The expression on the master's face did not change when he saw this, but his eyes were full of approval.

Xiao Bai moved his body, pointed to the stool, "Master, sit down."

The master didn't say anything, just sat down.

"May I ask why Master is looking for us?" Xiao Bai asked.

The master smiled kindly, "It's nothing, the poor monk just wants to talk to someone."

Xiao Bai and Meng Jinlan were not unhappy when they heard what the master said, they still had the same expression.

After that, the two sat there with the master and chatted all the time, usually the master was talking and the two listened.

Time passed slowly, and the sun became brighter. With the sunshine, it was warm and comfortable on the person.

Seeing that it was noon, Xiao Bai and Meng Jinlan were not in a hurry, they had nothing to do anyway, and it was good to listen to the master talk about Buddhism.

"Life in this world is like being in the midst of thorns. Coming is accidental, leaving is inevitable. No matter who it is, it is necessary to follow the fate and stay the same." This is what the master gave to the two before he left.

Meng Jinlan's heart skipped a beat when he heard this sentence. He didn't know what the master's words meant, but he had a feeling that those words were for him.

How long is half a month, when you wish it to go faster, it will be infinitely long in your eyes, but when you pray for it to slow down, it will pass quickly like sand in your hand.Chan said, life is alive in the blink of an eye.

For half a month, Xiao Bai and Meng Jinlan seemed to want to make up for the fun they had missed in the previous half of their lives. They traveled all over the capital, big and small, no matter whether it was famous or unknown places. Don't miss it.

During this time, Meng Jinlan fell in love with taking pictures and videography. Even at home, she would take out the video camera anytime and anywhere, record a short video, and then cut it out by herself.

"Come, come, Xiao Bai, come here, let's take some shots." Meng Jinlan put the camera down, sat on the sofa, and called Xiao Bai.

Xiao Bai also ignored Meng Jinlan, he didn't like to take pictures and videos, but he didn't know how many pictures he took in the past half month, so he really didn't want to.

Meng Jinlan was not angry when she saw Xiao Bai acting so strangely, but just sat there silent and dejected.

Xiao Bai sighed, as long as Meng Jinlan ignored him recently, he would be like that, and he stopped being coquettish and noisy, but it made him feel more distressed than his noisy and coquettish behavior. Facing Meng Jinlan like this, he could only compromise.

Walking to Meng Jinlan's side, Xiao Bai sat down, "What do you want to record?"

Meng Jinlan laughed in the blink of an eye, he was a scoundrel, but Xiao Bai loved him to death.

"Let me introduce myself first," Meng Jinlan ordered Xiao Bai.

Xiao Bai stroked his forehead and obeyed Meng Jinlan's order.

Facing the camera, he said blankly, "Xiao Bai, male, 31." Then silence is golden.

Meng Jinlan asked, "No more? That's it?"

Xiao Bai nodded, "Didn't you say introduce yourself?"

Meng Jinlan: Speechless, it turns out that this is how Xiao Bai introduced himself in his mind.

"Okay, then tell me what you think of your family." Meng Jinlan continued to arrange.

Xiao Bai's thoughts changed when he heard this sentence, and he smiled maliciously, "My opinion on my lover..." The last word was a bit long.

"right"

Xiao Bai sat up straight, coughed, and said, "That man in my family is handsome."

Meng Jinlan touched her face arrogantly.

“Not so good”

Meng Jinlan narrowed her eyes.

"But I like it"

Meng Jinlan's eyebrows stretched.

"He likes to act like a baby with me. He has been crying a lot lately. I feel so distressed when I cry, and I have lost weight, but he is just as energetic on the bed. His favorite position is to lie on his stomach and let me fuck..."

Meng Jinlan covered Xiao Bai's mouth with her hand, stared at Xiao Bai, "Shut up!"

Xiao Bai grabbed Meng Jinlan's hand, "Oh, by the way, he also likes to stare at me with those charming eyes, which makes my heart itch.

Meng Jinlan snorted, "If you talk nonsense again, I will ignore you."

Only then did Xiao Bai stop, pulled Meng Jinlan closer, and put his lips next to Meng Jinlan's ear, "Okay, we won't talk if you don't want me to. Let's talk about it when we go to bed at night, huh?"

Meng Jinlan's expression was serious, "Be serious!"

Xiao Bai nodded, "Okay."

"Then tell me about your future life plans."

"My future life plan is to grow old with my husband in a normal way, that's fine."

Meng Jinlan's heart ached when she heard this, and she forced a smile on her face, "That's all right, go get busy, the recording is over."

"That's the end, doesn't it usually take a long time?"

Meng Jinlan looked at Xiao Bai, "Why, you still want to record?"

Xiao Bai quickly shook his head, "I don't want to!"

"Then you are talking nonsense."

Xiao Bai: ...

Xiao Bai smiled, "Then I'm leaving, I'll go to sleep, will you sleep?"

"Don't go, you go."

When Xiao Bai left, Meng Jinlan didn't turn off the camera, sat where Xiao Bai had sat, facing the camera, "My name is Meng Jinlan, I'm 32 years old, my lover is Xiao Bai, I love him very much." The air was a bit oppressive, " I'm dying, I can't bear it, I really can't bear it, hehe, the doctor said that my memory will decline in the later stage, so I want to record it, I'm afraid, until that day, I will forget everything, and forget my name , forget about him, the person I love the most... Xiao Bai..."

In the evening, Meng Jinlan received a call from Liu Mingming. On the phone, Liu Mingming suggested that Meng Jinlan be treated as soon as possible and not delay any longer. Meng Jinlan smiled and told Liu that he would go to the hospital tomorrow.

After exercising, the two lay on the bed and chatted, Xiao Bai was talking, Meng Jinlan was listening.

"I haven't seen Cheng Jun and the others recently. Two days ago, Zeyang called and said that something happened to Brother Jun again."

Meng Jinlan was lazy, with a blush still remaining on her face, and her voice was hoarse, "Oh, leave them alone, Cheng Jun just asked for it, that Shi Shaohua is not a good one, if he is good, it can be like this."

Xiao Bai smiled, "That's right, I just thought, the two of them have been together for a long time, it will take time for Cheng Jun to forget that person."

Meng Jinlan froze when she heard Xiao Bai's words, "Xiao Bai, tell me, if one day we broke up, would you still think that it's only a matter of time before you forget me?"

Xiao Bai moved his hand to Meng Jinlan's butt, and patted it hard, "What are you talking about, we are doing well, and there will be no such day as you said."

Meng Jinlan remained silent and closed her eyes.

"Okay, go to sleep. Didn't you say that you have to go to work tomorrow? I took half a month's leave. You will be busy tomorrow." Xiao Bai hugged Meng Jinlan and urged Meng Jinlan.

"Oh, go to sleep."

Xiao Bai had a good night's sleep, Meng Jinlan fell asleep, but woke up from time to time, looked at Xiao Bai who was sleeping next to him, made sure that Xiao Bai was by his side, and then closed his eyes again to sleep.

Before six o'clock, Meng Jinlan got up and tidied herself up. Meng Jinlan kissed the sleeping Xiao Bai, and went downstairs to prepare breakfast for Xiao Bai.

It may also be because she knows that no matter how much she complains and hates, she will not be able to change the fact that she is about to leave Xiao Bai, so the expression on Meng Jinlan's face looks more open-minded.

Egg cake with leeks and porridge made with red bean and black rice wine, these are Xiao Bai's two favorite foods. Sitting in front of the dining table, Xiao Bai looked at the food in front of him and smirked.

"It's better for Jinlan, I know I want to eat this." Xiao Bai took a deep breath, "It's so delicious!"

Meng Jinlan was very proud, "Of course, I don't want to see who made it, that's all right, let's eat."

Xiao Bai had a serious expression, "Yes, sir."

Xiao Bai hadn't been to the company for almost a month, and Meng Jinlan was going to work today, so he also planned to go to the company.

Xiao Bai bent over, Meng Jinlan helped him tidy up his clothes, seeing the seriousness of the person in front of him, Xiao Bai felt warm in his heart.

Meng Jinlan fixed Xiao Bai's tie, patted Xiao Bai's shoulder, looked at it, "Well, not bad, you are handsome."

Xiao Bai smirked, "Then I'm leaving."

Meng Jinlan nodded, "Go."

Xiao Bai suddenly kissed Meng Jinlan on the cheek, and then left with a smile.

Seeing Xiao Bai's gradually disappearing figure, Meng Jinlan burst into tears, "Xiao Bai, I love you, wait for me, I will try my best to live."

When Xiao Bai arrived at the company, he was still the same as usual. He sorted out the recent documents, dealt with some things, and sat there to play games.

I received a call from Meng Jinlan at noon. Meng Jinlan said in an anxious tone, saying that something had happened, and the higher-ups were going to send him to a place, which might take a long time, but that place didn't allow mobile phones, so he recently I won't contact Xiao Bai anymore, let Xiao Bai take care of himself, eat on time, don't feel troublesome, just eat casually, do it yourself...

No matter what Meng Jinlan said, Xiao Bai kept on answering, without hearing the sadness in Meng Jinlan's tone at all.

Not too long later, Xiao Bai suddenly remembered that time, if he had paid more attention, wouldn't Jinlan have gone through such painful treatment alone.

The author has something to say: This article is a sweet article, first bitter and then sweet, don't worry, it will soon be sweet.Love and support me dears, ^_^