The lure of rebirth

Along the way, Xiao Bai drove the car very fast, and soon arrived at the Xiao family's old house, stopped the car, Xiao Bai ignored Gu Yan, got out of the car on his own, and walked towards the house first.

Gu Yan sat in the car, shrugged and smiled, then got out of the car and followed behind Xiao Bai.

Wu Yiyi raised her head with a smile when she heard the sound of the door opening, "Why did you come back so late today?"

Xiao Bai answered Wu Yiyi while changing his shoes, "Something happened today, so I came back late, have you eaten, how is the nanny who came today?"

When Wu Yiyi's belly started to grow, Xiao Bai thought about hiring a nanny to take care of Wu Yiyi. During this period of time, he changed several nanny, and he just contacted one yesterday, who is also well-known in the industry, so Xiao Bai asked someone to come try.

Wu Yiyi smiled, "Well, it's okay, cooking is quite to my liking."

Xiao Bai nodded, "Well, since you think it's good, I'll inform her to come to work tomorrow."

At this moment, Gu Yan also came in, seeing Xiao Bai ignoring him, she simply kept silent, changed her shoes, went to sit on the sofa, and gave Xiao Bai a glance, but Xiao Bai didn't see it.

Wu Yiyi didn't seem surprised at Gu Yan's appearance, as if she knew that Gu Yan would come sooner or later, she smiled friendly at Gu Yan, "Do you still remember me?"

Gu Yan also laughed, seeing Wu Yiyi like this, Gu Yan knew that Xiao Bai had said everything and didn't hide it, "I remember, why don't I remember, the two of us were still arguing at that time."

Wu Yiyi smiled embarrassedly, "Don't get me wrong, Xiao Bai and I are just friends."

Meng Jinlan nodded, "I know."

After that, neither of them spoke anymore, and they didn't know what to say, and the atmosphere was a little awkward.

"Yiyi, go to bed early, don't stay up late," Xiao Bai said suddenly.

Wu Yiyi nodded, got up, "Well, then I'm going to bed, and you too, go to bed early." After finishing speaking, she walked to her room.

In an instant, only Xiao Bai and Gu Yan were left in the living room, Xiao Bai stared at Gu Yan without opening his mouth.

Gu Yan was quite comfortable at first, but after a long time, she became embarrassed, coughed, got up and sat next to Xiao Bai, "Xiao Bai, I'm tired."

When Xiao Bai heard what Gu Yan said, he didn't say anything, he got up and walked to his bedroom, Gu Yan obediently followed behind.

The layout of Xiao Bai's room is still the same as before, the big bed occupies two-thirds of the entire bedroom, the black sheets, and simple settings, but it is not difficult to see the owner's unique taste from inside.

Xiao Bai found his pajamas and handed it to Gu Yan, "Go to take a bath." He spoke without sloppiness, it seemed that he didn't want to talk to Gu Yan.

Gu Yan didn't know why, so she laughed, and with a snort, seeing Xiao Bai's awkward look, she thought how cute she was, but she didn't dare to say it out of her mouth.

Xiao Bai froze, "What are you laughing at?"

Gu Yan waved her hand, "No, I didn't laugh at you."

Xiao Bai: "..."

Lying in the warm water, Gu Yan felt a little drowsy. She had indeed experienced too much today, and her emotions had been tense. Only now did she truly relax.

Staring at the blurred self in the opposite mirror, he felt that everything was a bit unbelievable, Xiao Bai forgave himself so simply.

Standing up from the bathtub, walked to the mirror, reached out to wipe off the water vapor on the mirror, and looked at the big boy inside, this was the first time Gu Yan looked at this body seriously.

The eyes are big, dark and shiny, with a handsome face, which looks pure and simple, without any vicious thoughts of his own. This boy is really a little man who has not been baptized.

From being possessed to this body, he has always been able to cope with it freely. Now everyone accepts that he has become like this, but only he knows clearly that he cannot accept that he has become like this from the very beginning. I'm afraid that one day, everyone will only remember Gu Yan like this, but forget Meng Jinlan like that.

Xiao Bai stood at the door of the bathroom, feeling a little worried, Gu Yan had been in for half an hour, why hasn't he come out yet.

"Jinlan..." Xiao Bai knocked on the door and called out to Gu Yan.When Gu Yan heard Xiao Bai's anxious voice, she was very helpless. He really committed a crime. A good man was forced into this by him. He is not qualified to say that he loves Xiao Bai more.

Quickly tidying herself up, Gu Yan opened the door with a smile on her face.

Seeing that Gu Yan came out, Xiao Bai regained his calm expression, as if the anxious voice just now did not come from his mouth.

"Since you're tired, go to bed early, I still have something to do."

Gu Yan nodded, and walked towards the big bed, he really couldn't think of anything else but sleep.

Xiao Bai didn't move, he stared at the man lying on the bed intently, with a storm brewing in his eyes.

After a while, Xiao Bai closed his eyes, turned around and walked outside, entered the study, Xiao Bai was no longer suppressing his emotions, his eyes were red, he was staring at the sky, wanting to roar, want to abuse , all emotions, but in the end it just turned into a sigh.

Up to now, he still feels like he is dreaming, that he has really come back, but he still can't help but want to confirm, he can't suppress the irritability in his heart, he wants to press that person under him, ruthlessly Only in this way can he believe that this is not a dream, not because he misses it too much, so he thinks about it day and night. He is afraid that all this is really just a dream. It will become a lonely person again, waiting for death for a long time.

Reaching into his pocket, he took out an MP3, a small thing, but it was an indispensable treasure for him every day for the past two years. Whenever he had time, he would take it out and plug in the earphones to listen to the contents. He would listen to it when he was gone, Xiao Bai smiled, rubbed the little thing in his hand, and looked at it in front of his eyes.

The MP3 looks a little old, especially the two sides of the buttons are clearly marked by being touched and rubbed constantly. Xiao Bai took out the earphones, plugged them into the MP3, then put the earphones into the ear holes, and lightly pressed the switch. There is only one option, and Xiao Bai doesn't need to choose again, he starts to play the file inside.

"Xiao Bai, let's go to S University tomorrow, okay? I haven't been back for a long time. You didn't attend the class reunion last time because you had something to do. Well, let's go back tomorrow."

"Okay, go!"

"Then you put on the clothes we gave out at the event in our senior year to see if someone would treat you as a student. Actually, you don't look that old."

"Okay, not old! Come on!"

"Hey, I'm serious, don't be perfunctory to me, put down the documents in your hand, do you hear me?"

"Tell me, if there is anything else, I will answer it all at once."

"Xiao Bai, you always perfunctory me, I've finished talking, do you remember?"

"Remember, you said you will go back to your alma mater tomorrow."

"My name is Meng Jinlan, I'm 32 years old, and my lover's name is Xiao Bai. I love him very much." The air was a bit oppressive, "I'm about to die. , I want to record it, I am afraid, until that day, I will forget everything, forget my name, forget him, the person I love the most... Xiao Bai..."

"Xiao Bai, I still remember, remember you, am I awesome? Dean Liu said that people in my situation generally have weakened memory, but I still remember, remember what I promised you, and return to you as soon as possible , Xiao Bai, you have to wait for me, okay?"

"Xiao Bai, I'm going to have surgery tomorrow, wait for me, I'll come out alive, I love you, it's good to say you love me, I haven't heard you say it yet!"

The things in it were all made by himself, and these words have supported him to survive these two years.

He likes to listen to it over and over again. At that time, he will have the illusion that Meng Jinlan is talking to himself. This is also the illusion that he is afraid that all this is a dream today.

The recording stopped, Xiao Bai turned off the MP3, rubbed his forehead, and left the study.

Xiao Bai moved very lightly, for fear of waking the sleeping Gu Yan, he sat by the bed and looked at the curled up person.

I've heard people say that this sleeping position is only for people who feel insecure. Xiao Bai still remembers that Meng Jinlan didn't sleep like this a long time ago. At that time, Meng Jinlan was domineering and liked a girl when she was sleeping. People occupy more than half of the bed. In the beginning, Xiao Bai was often kicked out of bed by Meng Jinlan. Later, there was nothing he could do. Before going to bed, Xiao Bai firmly fixed the person in his arms. Slowly, Meng Jinlan changed from sleeping The bad habit of liking to kick people, but at that time, Meng Jinlan didn't have such a sleeping position.

Since when did she start to have such a sleeping position, maybe after she became Gu Yan, without a familiar person by her side, when faced with a completely unfamiliar environment, she would feel afraid, and then become insecure.

Pull up the quilt that fell to Gu Yan's waist, and cover it carefully.

Gu Yan vaguely felt that someone was moving her, and said impatiently, "Don't make trouble, I want to sleep."

The corners of Xiao Bai's pursed mouth were provoked by Gu Yan's two words, he patted Gu Yan's back lightly, got up and walked to the bathroom.

Xiao Bai's side is quite harmonious, while Huo Zeyang's side doesn't have such an atmosphere at the moment.

"What are you doing? Let me go!" Huo Zeyang was held tightly by his younger brother all the way, happy in his heart, but impatient on his face.

Huo Zejun had a dark face, pursed his lips, and without saying a word, he dragged Huo Zeyang to the parking lot.

After getting in the car, Huo Zeyang didn't stop, muttering about how bad Huo Zejun was. Huo Zejun drove the car, staring at the front, as if he didn't hear Huo Zeyang's complaints.

At first, Huo Zeyang didn't pay attention, but when he reached the fork, he became anxious when he saw Huo Zejun driving the car towards his home.

"Ze Jun, you won't come here for real, brother, please, don't tell my parents about my relationship with Gu Yan, you have to know, with my parents' temperament, if I find out, your brother and I will be finished. "

Huo Zejun remained silent, not saying a word, just focusing on driving.

"Ze Jun, let's go back to our side, okay? Look at the end of the day. Parents must be asleep. Let's not disturb them."

Huo Zeyang regretted it to death right now. He clearly knew that his younger brother was the kind of person who couldn't take jokes. Why did he have to mess around with Gu Yan? If his parents found out that he was gay, he wouldn't be able to get married If that is the case, he would rather live like this with Ze Jun for the rest of his life, at least he is still Ze Jun's real brother.

Huo Zeyang begged Huo Zejun in a low voice, "Zejun, let's forget about what happened just now, okay? I really like 'that person'. If my parents find out, they will definitely force me to marry. In that case, brother and I will marry each other." There is no possibility for him anymore, Ze Jun, you can help brother hide it from his parents, okay?"

Seeing that Huo Zejun was still the same, Huo Zeyang felt wronged and felt sorry for himself. The person he loved was such a big piece of wood, and he was so rigid. If he knew what he thought about him, he might not even recognize himself. This brother is gone.

Huo Zeyang started talking nonsense, "Huo Zejun, I made it clear today, if you tell your parents about this, I won't have you as a brother, and it's impossible for me to give up 'that person', I love him, So, no matter what, I won't give up on him."

"You will immediately turn around and go back there, and I will forgive you."

"Ze Jun, brother really loves him, so, you can help brother, don't tell parents, huh?"

Huo Zeyang was only focused on persuading Huo Zejun all the way, but he didn't notice that his home had arrived. Huo Zeyang slammed on the brakes, and Huo Zeyang didn't wear a seat belt. The car stopped suddenly, his body didn't sit still, and his head hit forward. For a moment, there was only one sentence in Huo Zeyang's mind, I'm done.

Huo Zejun grabbed Huo Zeyang's body and rushed forward, and he seemed to be a little scared.

"Huo Zejun, are you planning to kill me?" Huo Zeyang yelled at Huo Zejun.

Huo Zejun had a guilty expression on his face, but he still didn't speak.

Huo Zeyang smiled wryly. He originally wanted to make Huo Zejun feel guilty about himself and then gave up telling his parents about it. It seems that he thought Huo Zejun too softly.

"Huo Zejun, you dragged me into this door today, and I don't recognize you as a younger brother. Let me ask you for the last time, do you want to help my brother hide it from my parents?"

When Huo Zejun heard what Huo Zeyang said, he fixed his eyes on his brother. For the sake of an outsider, can he really not have his brother?

Hardened, Huo Zejun opened the car door, walked to the other side, pulled Huo Zeyang down, and walked into the door.

Huo Zeyang didn't try to resist anymore, his heart was ashamed.

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