Unable to say beyond the GL-Sequel

After Lan and I knew each other's intentions, we didn't get too emotionally entangled. In fact, I didn't want to continue to be friends with her. After all, it is difficult to be calm when I really like someone.

"Let's not contact each other in the future." I sat on the bed and looked out of the window. The scenery outside the window couldn't catch my eyes, but my heart was slightly tugging.

"Why? Could it be that you can't even be friends?" Lan's voice trembled a little.

"Because I like you and you don't like me, it will be very hard for me to be friends."

There was silence on the other side of the phone for a while, and I heard Lan's cry, which was very low, but it broke the calmness I had been pretending to be. Since I knew her, this was the first time I heard her cry. Some guilt.

"Really, can't you even be friends?" She asked again, a little unwilling to give up.

I lowered my head and smiled self-deprecatingly. I was already a man riddled with wounds, so it wouldn't matter if I was a little bit harder on myself.

"I'm joking, of course. If I have time, I will go to see your mother."

"Okay, let's make an appointment when we have time."

Listening to the phone, the tone became more relaxed, and my heart relaxed a lot. After hanging up the phone, my heart sank a little bit, and fell to the bottom.

I got up and got dressed, it was already dark outside, because it was the weekend, the street was very lively, I casually ate fried vegetables in a small restaurant across the street, and rode a bicycle, the wind blowing in front of me was still sultry.

Summer in Shanghai is long. Although it is already August, it doesn't feel like autumn at all.

I still went to the old place I often go to "Sweet Paradise". It happened that Elvis Presley and Jian were both there, and they said hello. After changing the game coins at the cash register, they sat on a high stool to watch others play dance machines, and Jian blew for a while. Fan, come and sit next to me.

"It's been a long time since I saw you come out."

"Well, I broke up with my girlfriend."

"It's okay to split up, you're tired enough if you do that. Let's go out for a drink with the elder sister and the others later, let's go together"

"Okay, how about you? Do you have a boyfriend? Do you still like Xiao Pan?"

"Not yet, he, he seems to be coming today." Wang Jian's expression suddenly became lonely, and I didn't ask carefully. After all, it is difficult for people like us to find someone who likes each other, whether it is a lesbian or a man. same.

Jian and I talked for the first time, also in "Sweet Paradise". Everyone likes to play dance machines, and we have met a few times before, but I have always been indifferent to strangers, so there is no intersection.That day too, I stuffed coins into the machine. When it was my turn, I only chose the easy level. After all, I had just started playing and I was not very proficient yet. Then I saw a boy who looked like Chen Bolin came over and smiled at me. smiled.

"You can actually dance songs with intermediate difficulty."

"Yeah, I just played for a few days, try it later."

I was sitting drinking water after the dance music and he came over.

"Are you all alone?"

"Ah."

"It seems you don't talk much." I just smiled politely.

"Are you LES? I'm GAY."

"Is it so obvious?" I touched my nose, it was the first time that I was so straightforwardly identified by others.

"Hehe, it feels like it."

"I didn't see that you were gay."

He smiled, revealing shallow dimples, very sunny.

"We have a dance group, you can join in. My name is Jian"

"My name is He."

Afterwards, I often met and met other people in the group. There are people of various professions and ages. Everyone knows each other because they like to play dance machines.

After dancing for a while, almost all the people in the group came, and the group leader and sister also booked a seat for "Passionate Baidu", and seven or eight of us took taxis in batches.

Tiantian waved her hand and led us into the booth. She is also a member of the group and works as a lead dancer in this bar. She has a good figure, long hair and long legs, and she is a Scorpio sweet sister.Seeing that Xiao Pan was also there, I glanced at Jian and saw that he and the elder sister were discussing to buy wine. With the light of the stage, I looked at Xiao Pan carefully. Well, it's a disaster for a man to grow up like this!No wonder Jian fell in love with him at first sight.It's a pity to hear that Jian said that he is so straight that he can't be straighter. It is destined that Jian and him are destined to have nothing to do with each other.

A few people played dice, drank for a while, made a scene for a while, the lights were blurred, the rhythm of the dance music was just right, and we were slightly drunk. We entered the dance floor, formed a circle, and each went to the middle to show off the dance, and we were in a good mood When I got up, people made physical contact with each other, the ambiguous atmosphere provoked my heart and became restless, and I went back to the booth, only me, Tian Tian and Xiao Gao were left. Tiantian and Xiaogao were kissing. I didn't know when I kissed Tiantian. The unfamiliar lips were very soft, and the tongue was slowly entangled. My brain was short-circuited, and I only invaded by instinct.After waking up, Xiao Gao looked at us with slightly surprised and excited eyes.

"I've never seen a girl kissing a girl." Tiantian glared at Xiao Gao, and was pushed down on the sofa by me again.

When it was over, we took a taxi to send Tiantian home. When we got out of the car, she vomited for a while against the side of the road. The street lights were very dark. I handed her her bag. She took the bag and gave me a deep look, without saying a word. What, staggered into the corridor.

Instead of picking up my bike, I decided to walk home and looked at my watch. It was already 1am and the street was quiet.I just walked slowly, and scenes of stumbling and stumbling in the past with Lan flashed: I accompanied her mother to work for a day on weekends, waiting for Lan to come from work; the two sat on the steps of the museum to watch the scenery and chat; they rode a tricycle and drove her mother back home together. Their family; when faced with Lan and Hui's choice, Lan stayed out of it... I shouldn't provoke Lan at all, I have no right.

Then I accepted my heart to be with Hui, but my feelings are gone. I have no love for Hui. Even if I like it, it is because of guilt. From knowing to breaking up, then getting back together, and then breaking up completely, it took three years. I don't know how many times I broke her heart, Hui, I'm sorry.