Unable to say beyond the GL-Sequel

"Haven't you seen "Tokyo Love Story"? What about "Don't Cry at 17"? What about "Reminiscence of Things Past"?..."

"I haven't seen it." I shook my head and watched her look at me with a surprised expression, suddenly a little ashamed.

"Isn't it embarrassing to see?"

"These have affected the outlook on life, love, and values ​​of our generation."

I was thinking at the time, when you read these, my tuition fees have not yet been settled, and when you read these, I am still saving money for meals every day to buy books and my stomach hurts from hunger.Thinking about it, I read it carefully when I got home. I want to know her.

Dong Ai is relatively realistic, but I don’t like the character of the heroine very much; 17 years old is the process of a typical urban teenager growing up, vigorous and sunny, even the ignorant first love is so beautiful, it is the campus I have always yearned for Life, it’s a pity that I have never really enjoyed it; reminiscing is too literary and artistic, people live for love and obsession to the end, and in the end they have to return to daily necessities, this up and down, return to mediocrity, wasting time, perhaps, the more taboo Love is more fascinating.

This is how 2012 came, and I followed in Yan's footsteps to catch up with various American dramas: "Queer as Mortal", "The L Word", "Grey's Anatomy".

On January 1, I won a very generous year-end award. This is the happiest time of the year.At the end of the year, our company had dinners one after another, but Yan still went to work as usual.

On January 1, Yan received the advanced certificate of Chinese as a foreign language. I was very happy. I watched the movie "See You or Be Square" recommended by her. I liked this movie very much.

On January 1, we quarreled again because she couldn't come out to accompany me during her break time. She always lied to her parents in order to come out. I couldn't understand it.

"I just feel that my rest time revolves around you, and your rest time is always shared. That's all. I am narrow-minded, and you dare not come out when you stay at home."

"Well, I want to say that I finally agreed to come out to play on Saturday, and now my mother is still sitting behind me, and she may see me writing about horses at any time."

"So it's an irreconcilable contradiction. I don't need to talk about the reasoning. I just feel upset. It will be fine after a while. You still have to ask."

"I don't want you to be unhappy"

"Sometimes I really feel helpless. You are such an adult, why do you have to report to your family. Maybe this is where you are filial. Understand Long live. I feel happy when I talk about it."

"You have to think of it this way, you are my family, and I have reported everything to you in detail."

I went to bed depressed, maybe, the reality is that there are always some things that you can't change no matter how hard you struggle.

Our office was cleaned up this day, and it was a prelude to usher in the seven-day annual leave. She didn't have annual leave, so she still had one rest and one rest, so I decided to visit her after work.

On the way to send her home, we chatted and talked about ex-girlfriends and so on.

"If I say: You are going to see your ex-girlfriend, we will break up. Do you still want to see her?"

"Yes, because there is nothing between me and my ex-girlfriend, why don't you go see her?"

"I mean, if we break up after you meet, do you want to meet?"

"Yes, my girlfriend won't be so unreasonable, and won't break up with me just because of this."

Then she got angry and didn't speak. I silently followed her buttocks, not knowing where she was angry, anxious like an ant on a hot pan.

"Yan, isn't it just a hypothetical? If this kind of thing really happens, if you are really upset, I may not go to see you."

"You said that even if we broke up, we would meet again."

"That's because I don't think you'll be so unreasonable..." I don't know what I'm talking about, the two of us are saying something completely different, I'm crazy, very crazy, extremely crazy!

"I'm just being unreasonable."

I heard what she said, and my temper also came up. I think that if I don’t see it, it’s because I can’t let it go. Without waiting for me, the more I thought about it, the angrier I became, so I walked across the road and grabbed her.

"Stop, and speak clearly if you have anything to say!"

"It's late, and it's near my house again, let's talk about it later."

Cried by her.

"Is there anything I can't say now, if you're like this, I won't be able to sleep when I go back."

Seeing me crying, she turned around and hugged me, sighing.

"It's my fault, don't cry, I'm just narrow-minded."

I sent her to the gate and took the subway home by myself. The next morning, I saw her message on QQ:

"Honey, I'm quite straightforward in other aspects. Maybe I'm afraid of the answer to this question, so I dare not ask it! We've only known each other for four months, and there were various running-in problems in the middle, and we didn't meet when we were young when we could fall in love like crazy. , how could it be the one you love the most? I know the answer, but I don’t want to confirm it from you, so all kinds of twists and turns are entangled and sad! This is self-abuse! I really despise myself like this, so I am trying to overcome In the middle, I should be able to overcome this hurdle, time will make the predecessor become a cloud, and the successor will disappear, hum! Oh, thinking of you alone, I feel all kinds of distressed, how can I not know, although you said nothing but ...I know what I can do but I can't do it, I am very painful. Baby, I went to bed, and my eyes will be swollen tomorrow."

Sighing, this friend, I feel sad, how much better will she be.

Now that I think about it, I was really dumb at the time. When I asked her, she said: "Shanghai women have one skill, which is to do it, and they do it repeatedly on one point until I give in." I don't admit it, I was made a concession by her, and I don't think it's necessary to quarrel over these insignificant things.