God knows

"You guys have a great understanding," Phoenix commented after the first get out of class.

Phoenix was referring to Lisa and I’s consistent avoidance of each other: I avoided taking the school bus in the morning so we wouldn’t meet on the bus, and Lisa chose to sit elsewhere in class, leaving the seat we’re used to. I... everything is as natural and straightforward as it was said.

"Well, of course." I whispered back across the corridor, but couldn't be happier. "After all, we used to be best friends." Some things are self-evident.

It's just that it doesn't make me feel better, it just makes me sad.

"Hey! You broke up?"

As I was looking down in the locker, a boy named Jeffrey knocked on the door of my locker and asked me.

"Fuck you." I said without looking up, trying to find a book on contemporary literature, please keep this book in the cabinet, because I can't read the same book as Lisa today.

Jeffrey is a boy in the choir. All I know about him comes from the posters posted on the bulletin board and the results of out-of-school competitions. I actually don’t know or remember where I had contact with him, and I don’t know who he is How do you know me.

"Have you really been together? I just guessed, I didn't expect..."

Can't find it, can't find it, can't find it...Damn it!

I slammed the door of the cabinet, which was made of iron, so the sound was naturally loud.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" I growled, seeing Geoffrey startled and cowering over the row of cabinets, "Fuck your farts! Don't waste my Yi lost youth!"

Even though I was furious, Phoenix still laughed lightly behind me.

"No...no..." Jeffrey's voice restrained a lot, and he humbly muttered, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to..."

"It's noisy." I pushed him away, opened the cabinet and continued to search.

"Well, I'm sorry..." Jeffrey didn't leave unexpectedly, and stood behind my closet door and apologized in a low voice, "I really didn't mean to poke you like this after you broke up with Sally Louise Yes, sorry."

These words made me slam the iron door and stare at him again, and now Jeffrey's face turned livid.

"Me and Lisa?" I questioned, his cold tone made him wince again.

"You...you don't?" Jeffrey realized in horror that he had been wrong all along, and this time the apology was mixed with more regret and embarrassment, "I'm sorry...I'm...really sorry."

Lisa and I look like a gay couple?The imagination is too rich.

Turning my head to look at Phoenix, I don't know what the clown in front of me intends, but at least I can screen out some possibilities first.

Phoenix frowned at Jeffrey, and finally shook his head at me, indicating that he was harmless.

"Well, we're not, sorry to disappoint you."

I said hastily, preparing to open the cabinet and continue searching.

"Hey! If you are looking for a reading book for the next class, you can read it with me!"

Geoffrey suggested, which made my anger subside in an instant, and on the one hand, I was surprised, how did I never realize that we had a class together?

"Seeing one and loving the other is a bit greedy."

Phoenix was talking as I walked down the corridor behind Jeffrey.

"Who are you talking about?" I turned my head in confusion.

Phoenix pointed at Jeffrey.

I can't tell that such a boy has an unknown inner side.

"...And the targets are all men."

Phoenix commented, this made me not suppress my exclamation, so I just yelled at Jeffrey, "Gay!"

Fortunately, there was no one around. When Jeffrey turned his head and stared at me nervously, I could still put on a look that had nothing to do with me, pretend to whistle, and look at the scenery without feeling embarrassed.

"Ann, you..."

"Sorry!" I apologized, "You don't look like you anyway, no one will know I'm talking about you."

"You..." My words made him even more terrified, "How do you know who I am?"

I turned to look at Phoenix, the reason seemed inexplicable.

""Feel"."

I said, and Phoenix laughed because I was imitating her tone.

"Feel!?"

Jeffrey yelled even more horrified, but then sighed, "It's also possible, you might really be a very good gaydar..."

"That's why you care so much about Lisa and me?"

I thought about the connection, raised my eyebrows and looked at Jeffrey, is this a way to find a fellow traveler?

"right."

He admitted, and I shook my head and laughed.

"Is he related to anyone in this school?" I asked Phoenix in a low voice. This is a bad habit after meeting Phoenix. I want to grasp the emotional state of the people around me, as if I have the ability to know Just can't stand secrecy.

"No." Phoenix said, tilting his head as if trying to catch the slightest sound, "I haven't felt anything so far..."

"...However, he can fall in love with anyone in this school, anyone except women."

I'm speechless, my eyes on Jeffrey are already different, but when I think about it carefully, isn't everyone hidden in my heart a little bit unknown?I really shouldn't judge him casually like this, at least when we get along, I will admit that Jeffrey is a very good person.

"What a boring class." Phoenix was pacing in front of me, saying, his wings kept blocking my sight of copying.

Comparing the episode that happened in the morning, it can be concluded that Phoenix's nature gradually revealed after getting along with her—she likes to play pranks and play tricks on me.I think it was also because there was no one else for her to play with, and life was boring, and finally something different came out, and she started targeting me.It doesn't matter if she likes to play, I'm not afraid, the hateful thing is that I can't revenge her.

"Ann, is your back uncomfortable?" Jeffrey asked me, I shook my head frantically, and heard Phoenix chuckle.

I moved my eyes from side to side trying to avoid Finnis seeing the writing on the blackboard, but forgot that the others couldn't see her and could only see me swaying from side to side like a worm.

"Damn it," I muttered, and Jeffrey's eyes were even more confused. "There's an obstacle," I explained.

Jeffrey nodded half-understanding, maybe he thought I had dyslexia.

"Swengerson, it's very distracting to be moving all the time." Mr. Browning said slightly angrily, holding the textbook, "I can accept not bringing the textbook, but please don't affect the class order."

I nodded hastily, trying not to turn my head to stare at Phoenix when the teacher's gaze was still on my face, and the latter smiled too brightly to succeed.

I really don't know what to say about her, she is always indifferent to me, the most enthusiastic moment is probably ridicule and sarcasm, but sometimes she will show surprising concern, without any trace.The moments of smiling really make people forget that she is usually annoying, and I really don't want to admit that it is a smile that can make people lose, even if it is full of maliciousness and mockery, it is too good to be resisted, even if I have used various emotions to cover up, but I still cannot admit that I am not a failure...

I looked up at her condescending look at me. From this moment on, I found that I couldn't understand her expression.