God knows

I will be out of the hospital soon.

Adversity sees the truth, Jeffrey provided heartfelt company during this time, and in the empty silence after Beth left, he tried to say some irrelevant words to maintain the previous atmosphere and try to make me happy.

He said that Browning had heard about my condition and asked Jeffrey in every class. Suddenly, I didn't appear in the classroom, but it became a comforting plot.

After being discharged from the hospital, I recuperated at home for two or three days, but to be honest, I would rather stay in a strange space, because there are too many traces of Phoenix in my own room.

I found a few feathers in the Injustice comic book, broke down and almost ignored my shoulder injury, and swept all the comic books under the bed, out of sight.

I asked my mother to install the curtains.

Because that window and the sunlight falling from that window seemed to remind me of the pain of loss.

On the third day of my rest at home, I had a visit from an unexpected person.

"install…"

Lisa poked her head into my door hesitantly, and called me almost unfamiliarly.

"Oh my god."

I stood up and faced her at the door.

The moment our eyes met, we laughed together.

"I figured it out."

"You finally figured it out, David is really not a good guy, right?"

She tilted her head to look at me and smiled brightly, "I don't think I like that Astraunut that much either!"

"...But what I really figured out is that you have to sacrifice sleep and commute to school for me. If you are not a real friend, how would you want to do this?"

I laughed and threw my arms around her, and Lisa reached out and patted my back, carefully avoiding where I hurt.

"I miss you."

I heard her whisper.

"Me too."

Because of Lisa, my life is on the right track.

Russell said it was great to see us going to school together again.There was some self-evident tacit understanding in that tone, and we didn't bother to look back on what he didn't point out.

Lisa and Jeffrey are in perfect harmony. They discussed outfits at the table in the student cafeteria at noon. When the handsome guys passed by, they giggled tacitly together. Sometimes I felt that I was the extra one.

When I met Beth on the road, the embarrassment was gone.Occasionally, she sees that I can’t get on the topic in the three-person group, and she will kindly share with me the chocolates given to her by Maggie, the kitchen aunt, and chat about comics and other people’s gossip. With an ambiguous taste, I finally learned to smile as comfortably and brightly in front of Beth.

"When did Ann come out?"

"Are you her BFF or not?" Jeffrey yelled at Lisa every chance he got, making her pissed off.

"So have you ever liked me?" Lisa glanced at Jeffrey and asked me with a gossip expression.

I frowned slightly.

"Oh, Beth's is Ann's favorite! A little cute and generous, a little glamorous and sexy..."

Lisa yelped.

"Damn it! I'm getting a little excited just watching Beth!"

Jeffrey heard it and followed suit.

"What should we do? Beth's level is not worth it! What should we do!"

"As long as no one of us loves the combination, we can send it to the red carpet by ourselves, woo woo woo..." Jeffrey and Lisa hugged each other in front of me and pretended to cry. I looked at them with my head up, unable to hide smile.

"Why are you doing this..."

"...Love, sometimes even Cupid himself can't figure it out."

I said with a wry smile.

Life goes on, but there's a part of me that just can't move forward.

Late at night, I was awakened by the creaking sound of the wooden floor in the room. Almost reflexively, I sat up and looked towards the door.It was a casual glance, but in the dark room, I stared at the man at the door.

Phoenix shouldn't be looking so haggard, I can't tell what's wrong, but she has that listless, haggard atmosphere that seems to be soaked in sadness and anxiety.

In my impression, she should be a proud and indifferent ice sculpture, even her sleeping face is flawless.

She looked down at me, those sky-blue eyes were familiar enough to make me want to cry.

"Is it a dream? You're back."

She didn't talk, and sat down on the edge of my bed.

"Since you have made up your mind to leave, you shouldn't come back."

I said, in a tone of anger that I would surely regret in the future.

"I almost forgot about you."

"You don't."

Phoenix responded calmly but decisively.

Always look at what I see most clearly, she was right.I don't even bother to refute.

My whole life, the whole life of this ordinary human being, is destined to be haunted by her figure, no matter whether she exists or not.

"Ann, I owe you an apology."

"You owe a lot."

I almost said angrily that I should accuse her and abuse her. The pain and grievances of so many days have been completely silent at this point in time.

Who are you lying to?How lucky I feel to be able to see her again.

Phoenix turned his head away to look at the window frame covered by the curtains I added, and finally turned his head and reached out to wipe the tears on my face as if he had made up his mind.

Such deja vu tenderness, she said softly.

"Ann, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."

My heart was tangled, and I couldn't help crying like crazy.

Such a familiar scene, in fact, she had already foreseen it.

"Phoenix, you...you...we, we are related, right?"

Finnis leaned forward slightly, her forehead resting lightly on mine, her hands resting on my sides, almost like a veiled hug.

"sorry."

This is the answer in the affirmative.

I closed my eyes, feeling that the tears were still uncontrollable.

It turned out that when we met for the first time, when I stretched out my hand to pull her back from the noisy road, the fear in her eyes was not because of abruptness, nor because of some little human being interacting with her, but suddenly, she saw me and her association.

"You know it, you already know it."

I said painfully, the feeling of being betrayed arises spontaneously.

"No, I do not know."

Phoenix whispered, reaching out to hold my face in his hands, asking me to look carefully.

"Ann, I see connections, but I see connections that exist alone, which don't make sense at all. It wasn't until I was with you long enough that I finally realized that it was me and you."

We are related.

The answer I was so afraid to hear before, but now when I really know it, there is only pain.