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Entering the ward, the room was filled with the unpleasant smell of disinfectant, Qin Shi frowned subconsciously, and walked to Chu Xiyue's bedside.

After slightly moving the quilt on Chu Xiyue, Qin Shi sat down, fixed his eyes on Chu Xiyue's face, looked at her sleeping face almost greedily, and lightly brushed the corners of his eyebrows and forehead with his fingers, Eyelashes, across the tall and straight bridge of the nose, fell on the lips that were slightly dry due to lack of water.

He bent down, wanting to get closer and look more carefully.

The face that was once so infatuated with but now familiar and unfamiliar was enlarged little by little in her sight.

Qin Shi tragically discovered that until now, she still has no resistance to Chu Xiyue. No matter how much she has hurt her, as long as she gets closer, she will only want to get closer.

At this moment, there was a sound of something breaking in the depths of his heart. Qin Shi closed his eyes helplessly, and silently made a decision in his heart. When he opened them again, his eyes were already clear.

Glancing again at the person on the hospital bed who haunted him in his dreams, Qin Shi's mouth curled up in a gentle arc, he lowered his head, and slowly approached Chu Xiyue, closing his eyes, his lips were about to meet bump.

"Ashi."

Su Xun's voice came from behind, Qin Shi paused, did not stop his movements, still approached Chu Xiyue slowly and carefully, and finally touched Chu Xiyue's dry lips as he wished.

The moment I touched it, I was poked by Chu Xiyue's chapped lips. It didn't hurt very much, but it felt fluffy.

Qin Shi frowned, and lightly pecked Chu Xiyue's pale lips, and the man on the bed seemed to feel it, and kissed Tan.Sensing Chu Xiyue's initiative, Qin Shi felt joy in his heart, and the pecking gradually turned into sucking, until Chu Xiyue frowned and let out an impatient moan.

Seeing that Chu Xiyue's lips became rosy and shiny as she expected, Qin Shi stood up in satisfaction, covered Chu Xiyue with the quilt intimately, and held Chu Xiyue's hand again, Lift it up slowly, put it to your lips, and kiss it lightly.

Su Xun stared blankly at Qin Shi doing all this as if no one was there, as if he had just woken up from a dream.

No matter who is the first person to leave, once he leaves, he will never come back.

Just like Qin Shi at this moment, she at this moment.

During the time she was with Qin Shi, she intentionally or unintentionally ignored the conflict of distance and indescribable strangeness between herself and Qin Shi. She used to blame these on the fact that they had been apart for too long.

Because the separation was too long, Qin Shi was no longer the girl in her memory, and she was not in her memory either.

But she believed that since God arranged for them to meet again, after a long absence, it must be for them to be together again.

And it wasn't until now, seeing Qin Shi's undisguised love for that person with her own eyes, that she finally understood.

Maybe the reason God let her meet Qin Shi again was never what she thought it was, but to put an end to their fruitless relationship many years ago.

After thinking this through, Su Xun's heart was clear at this moment, maybe she didn't love Qin Shi as she imagined, maybe she loved the Qin Shi she used to be.

Instead, it belongs to Chu Xiyue, Qin Shi.

Looking at Chu Xiyue, who was on the bed, and Qin Shi, who refused to take a second look at Chu Xiyue beside the bed, Su Xun said again, "Ah Shi."

"En." Qin Shi was finally willing to look away, and looked back at Su Xun.

For Su Xun, Qin Shi will always feel guilty in his heart.

Ever since I ran into Su Xun on the streets of City B and was picked up by Su Xun, the two got along again until now.

She can feel that Su Xun's feelings for her seem to have never changed, and she can also feel Su Xun's relationship and care for her bit by bit, and she can feel that Su Xun's kindness to her is completely from the heart. Nothing impurity.

In the night when she woke up from that nightmare scene countless times, she didn't think about what happened to Su Xun again.But every time such a thought popped up, her heart was aching like a torrent of rivers and seas.

Once this step is taken, there will be absolutely no possibility for her and Chu Xiyue.

Thinking of this possibility, and thinking that she will have to accept the fact that Chu Xiyue will never be her again when they meet again in the future, she would rather be like this now, and still be able to fantasize about herself, maybe after she leaves, Chu Xiyue will never be her again. I can find that I love her.

Although, it's just a fantasy, but it's also a consolation.

No matter how decisive she was when she left, deep in her heart, there was always a deep love for Chu Xiyue, and even later sadly found that she never even had any hatred, and she was full of love for Chu Xiyue like.

Therefore, in her life, she might never be sorry for Ah Xun.

Thinking of this, Qin Shi felt ashamed towards Su Xun again and again in his heart. He knew that she was sorry for Ah Xun, but he still hurt her like this just now.Is there no other way to make Ah Xun give up his heart? Is it necessary to do this?

Seeing Qin Shi frowning in confusion, Su Xun's heart softened suddenly. At this time, Qin Shi was the most like the Qin Shi in her memory.

Every time something happened, I would wrinkle my pretty brows, tilt my head to think about something, and occasionally bite my fingers like a child.

"Ah Shi." Su Xunrou lowered his voice, called out again, and then waved to Qin Shi, "Ah Shi, let's go out and talk."

"En." Qin Shi nodded obediently, stretched out his hand to tuck the corner of the quilt, and followed Su Xun out the door.

After she turned around, Chu Xiyue's eyelashes, which were as curly as butterfly wings, trembled slightly, moved her fingers, and then slowly opened her eyes, subconsciously looking for Qin Shi's figure, but only saw her and the man named Su Xun The women walked out of the ward one after the other.

Chu Xiyue didn't speak or even move, just watched Qin Shi gradually disappear from her sight, just like two years ago.

After a long time, Chu Xiyue closed his eyes until his eyes were sore and showed a bitter smile. Who is to blame?

Do you blame Qin Shi?From the beginning to the end, Qin Shi was the most innocent one and the one who was hurt the most. The little flower who was cared for in the greenhouse since childhood, everything changed overnight.

The father is not the father in memory, the lover is cheating on her, and the friend does harm in the name of love.

In one night, the sky fell apart.

If it is necessary to say that Qin Shi did something wrong, I am afraid that the only and biggest mistake is falling in love with himself.

Blame Qin Xu? Qin Xu did what a father should do. Although his actions were slightly extreme and inappropriate, no one could accuse him of not doing what he should have done.

Is it Han Jiajia's fault? She loves and protects Qin Shi, and all she wants is Qin Shi's happiness. If it weren't for a coincidence, she would never hurt Qin Shi.

Therefore, the person who should be blamed the most is still her.

It is her own selfishness, and now she is harming others and herself.

Looking back now, the past scenes are as fresh as yesterday.

In the small garden in the middle hall of the hospital, Su Xun and Qin Shi walked back and forth, Qin Shi looked at Su Xun's back and his heart gradually lifted. She didn't know what Ah Xun wanted to say to her, and she didn't know what to say. How to tell Ah Xun about the decision she just made.

Walking to the white bench, Su Xun stopped, took out a tissue from his bag and wiped the seat surface carefully, then sat down, patted the seat beside him, "Ashi, come and sit. "

Qin Shi obediently walked over and sat down.

Su Xun smiled softly, and leaned his head on Qin Shi's shoulder, "Ah Shi, do you still remember when we used to be in the small park at school?"

"Of course I remember." Qin Shi straightened his waist, his whole body was stiff, and he didn't dare to move.

"Ever since I went abroad, I've been thinking, when will I be able to sit in the same chair with my Ah Shi again, and then I can rest my head on Ah Shi's shoulders which are not generous at all."

Qin Shi didn't answer, she knew that Su Xun just wanted to say something, not her.

"Later, when you were in your senior year, I went back to China once, and soon, I left the next day. I went to school to find you, asked your teacher, and said that you went to City H for an internship. At that time, I thought, Then when I come back next time, I will definitely see you."

"The year before last, I returned to my country. I finished everything. I returned with a heart full of excitement. I wanted to give you a surprise. Then I saw you and her."

"Ah Xun, I'm sorry." Qin Shi was silent for a while, then he spoke slowly.

"There's nothing to be sorry about. Ah Shi, I never blamed you." Su Xun didn't open his eyes, but tears slowly flowed from his closed eyes, "I just blame myself, why do I have so much confidence in myself?" , why don't you take the initiative to grab you. As long as I grab you, you are still mine now?"

……

"Really." Qin Shi smiled bitterly and didn't say much.

A small autumn wind blew, and Su Xun couldn't help shaking. Qin Shi thought for a while, took off the windbreaker on his body, and gently put it on Su Xun, "Next time you go out, bring a shawl. gone."

Su Xun pinched the corner of the windbreaker, sighed secretly in his heart, and finally no longer regretted the decision he made and the words he said.

"Ashi, I don't love you anymore."

"Qin Shi, I don't love you anymore."

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