sunken square

Cold all over.

At the beginning, Chen Yuechi still had various complicated emotions surging in his heart, but after Lei Ge finished saying that sentence, there was only one thought left in his heart.How to face Guan Rong?

How to face Guan Rong?

He didn't know how he got out of the cake shop, but within two steps of walking out of the cake shop, he decided that he wanted to leave.It is impossible for him to face Guan Rong in this way.

Guan Rong would bend down to talk to him, and would stand up straight and walk away without looking back.Before seeing his back, Chen Yuechi felt that he should turn around first.

Chen Yuechi suddenly remembered many things from the past.What he remembered was not the things he had experienced in prison, not those people whose faces had been blurred, but many irrelevant scenes that had always been engraved deep in his mind.

The fungus-shaped traces left behind the prison wall after being soaked in rain for a long time, the dark blue hot water bottle that was deliberately kicked down in the corridor in winter, the edge of the iron railing of the bed that has been touched for many years is smooth, and the pedal of the sewing machine is worn out and a piece is missing in the middle. Embossed pattern.Night after night of scarlet nightmares.

No one knew better than he how lonely it was out there.

it's dark.

Walking to the middle of a nearby alley, Ah Gang chased him from nowhere. He blocked Chen Yuechi and said anxiously to him, "No. 462, do you still have any money?"

Chen Yuechi stopped and asked him seriously: "Didn't you get the money?"

Ah Gang was a little impatient: "It's almost New Year's Eve, for the sake of a prison district, give me some more."

"I have no money." Chen Yuechi said.

"Borrow it if you don't have one, don't talk nonsense? Will you give it?" The other party began to curse.

Chen Yuechi was very calm: "I have no money. My family still owes a lot of money. I send it to relatives in my hometown every month, but this month's wages are all given to you."

"I have no money," he said.

Ah Gang approached him, and changed his tone of viciousness: "Give me the money!"

Chen Yue remained silent.The other party gritted his teeth: "If you don't pay me, I'll tell your boss right away! Your surname is Chen is a fucking murderer! Damn murderer! You were number 462 in those years, and you will be number 462 all your life!"

"Didn't you already say it?" Chen Yuechi tilted his head to look at him.

Ah Gang frowned, as if he was a little confused, but turned his head and changed into a teasing face: "What did you say?" He grinned grinningly, and his words were full of malice: "I think your boss treats you well. Qian is good-looking again, why don't you ask him to go! Did he let you fuck your ass?"

Chen Yue made a buzzing sound in his ears.

When he came back to his senses, Ah Gang had already been pushed to the ground by him.His knees were on Ah Gang's wrists, and his hands strangled his neck regardless.

Ah Gang's throat could no longer make a hiss, let alone calling for help.The street lights in the distance were very stingy, but it was still possible to vaguely see that his face was swollen out of shape, almost terrifying.His feet kicked feebly on the ground, and while struggling desperately, one hand got rid of Chen Yuechi's control.He touched a stone on the ground and smashed it hard at the back of Chen Yuechi's head.

A stream of heat trickled down from his forehead, blocking his vision for a while.Chen Yue didn't relax his hands at all.The warmth reminded him of the 15-year-old when he stabbed his father's body with a fruit knife, and the blood splashed on his hands and face was the feeling.

He was amazed that he could still feel touch.

Maybe he will really kill Gang.If a person becomes a murderer once, he will be a murderer all his life.A murderer has genes, Chen Yuezhi thought, his genes were bad from the beginning.So he will be a murderer.

When he stabbed into the body of the man called father, he was relieved.At this moment, he suddenly remembered his state at that time.He felt terrible about it, but also relieved by it.His genes were bad to begin with, so he was able to kill the person who gave him the bad genes.If he could kill one, he might kill the second.

His eyes were filled with blood red, but his mind was blank. The portrait seemed to be standing on the edge of two worlds.He is very familiar with blood red, but blank is unfamiliar.Is it like snow?It doesn't seem to be the case. He stared at the blank space for too long, and it became a huge hole, swallowing all sounds and thoughts.

"younger brother!"

There was a very familiar voice shouting, it seemed to be him, Blank was caught off guard and a crack was torn out.

"Chen Yuechi!"

A hand passed through the crack, about to grab Chen Yuechi who was running away in the void.

"Chen Yuechi!"

Guan Rong didn't know when he appeared, Chen Yuechi's back collar was pulled by him.He was very strong, but he still couldn't pull Chen Yuechi. Later, Chen Yuechi's hand loosened a little, and Guan Rong was able to throw him away.

"You're fucking crazy!" Guan Rong yelled at Chen Yuechi.Because the blow just now was too hard, both of them fell to the ground.Chen Yuechi was half kneeling and half sitting, Guan Rong got up suddenly, grabbed his hair and pulled it back, forcing Chen Yuechi to look up and look at him.

Chen Yuechi was unconscious at first, but then his eyes gradually focused, and his perception of the outside world slowly returned.A great sadness filled his heart.

He saw Guan Rong's face, the expression on that face was usually impeccably lazy, or impeccably calm, and only occasionally had the luxury of showing him a little truth.That face was facing him now, without any mask of regret.

This is the most realistic face he has ever seen.

wrong again.

Chen Yuechi thought in despair.wrong again.

Everything seemed irreversible, and he had no regrets, but everything was wrong.He shouldn't have been here in the first place.If he hadn't been to this city, he wouldn't have seen Guan Rong's expression like this.

The wind was so strong tonight that it hurt his face.It was so cold that he shivered.

"Cub," Guan Rong suddenly called him at an inappropriate time, the expression on his face had disappeared, leaving only a blank space, and he whispered to Chen Yuechi, "You are crazy."

Chen Yue was stunned for a long time, and suddenly burst into tears.

He finally found out that since he didn't know when, he had a longing regardless of day and night. This day and night longing was saving him and wasting him.

He is afraid, he blocks, he retreats, and at the same time he wants to get closer and hold on tight.He was afraid that he would crush something.He suddenly understood at this moment, he exhausted all his strength with himself, it turned out that everything he could explain clearly, what he could not explain clearly, and what he could understand clearly, was all because he wanted Guan Rong to hug him.

The fungus-shaped traces left behind the prison wall after being soaked in rain for a long time, the dark blue hot water bottle that was deliberately kicked down in the corridor in winter, the edge of the iron railing of the bed that has been touched for many years is smooth, and the pedal of the sewing machine is worn out and a piece is missing in the middle. Embossed pattern.Night after night of scarlet nightmares.

No one knew better than he how lonely it was out there.

But all the loneliness added up is not as profound as this moment.

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