Love on the left bank, you on the right bank

I know that some problems cannot be avoided. No matter how many times I turn around, I will still encounter doubts that I can't resist. Moreover, according to the skill of the person in front of me, I can definitely hit my heart directly, and there won't be a moment show mercy.

Ajie asked me to stay at work tonight, and I had a bad feeling at that time, as expected, now when I sit silently in front of the counter and look at Ajie with a cold face, I have a feeling of wanting to escape impulse.

"Why aren't you with the teacher?" Ajie asked while wiping the glass, "You are with Xiaohai? It's ridiculous."

I was stunned, and my heart was ashamed by his heartache, "Do you think I don't want to?"

I said urgently and quickly in a low voice: "If we can be together...if we are suitable to be together, who is willing to let go of this deep love...who is willing..."

He looked at me coldly, "So, do you think whether you are suitable for this matter is more important than whether you love this matter?"

"...We often don't stay with the person we love the most forever...you must understand this truth...don't you?"

He remained silent, smiling sadly as if thinking of something, "It's true... There are very few people who can spend a lifetime with the person they love the most..."

I sighed and smiled.

Ajie turned around and stood in front of the coffee machine making coffee neatly. After a while, he handed me a cup of coffee with a strong aroma.

I looked down at the coffee in front of me and asked in a low voice, "This cup of black coffee is not coffee, but my life, right?"

"At first it was...but now I think...it's the 'regret' on behalf of everyone."

I have never dared to drink more than three sips of this cup of black coffee. Now, when I taste this bitter and strong black coffee, there is only a clear feeling of sadness. After I drank the coffee, it seemed like a scorching fire burned my throat. Choked to tears.

"Do you remember Mom? When I knew the teacher liked you, I gave you a cup of black coffee like this."

I nodded to show I remembered.

He looked up at me, staring straight at me with a pair of indifferent black pupils. "At that time, I just wanted you to understand the hardships of this relationship. In fact, I don't want you to be able to drink my brewed black coffee like you are now."

"...Because that means that you have tasted the bitterness and sadness of this relationship, so if you dare to drink it, you will no longer be as affectionate as before, so you will be afraid of the bitterness of black coffee."

Ajie's words went straight to the bottom of my heart, and it hurt like a heart-piercing lung.

"The teacher taught me a lot." I turned the coffee cup, thinking about the past, "Trust, tolerance, compromise, sweetness, pain...she made me want to be a better person" I have never forgotten the thought until now." I sighed softly, "Maybe, I will never be with the teacher again in this life."

"Xiao Zuo." Ajie took the coffee cup from my hand and said slowly, "True feelings can't stand waiting."

I froze.

"Regardless of whether you will be together or not, you still have to live, and you can't be downcast."

"I know that." "That's good."

I know that I still have to continue to work hard to live my life. I am willing to let the past slip away from my hands. If I let go, there is no room for turning back.

"You go back, I remember tomorrow is the graduation ceremony of the third year of high school, don't come to work."

I nodded in agreement, and when I turned my head, I saw Xu Haicen standing quietly at the door waiting for me. The dim light was like crushed stars, which made her soft and beautiful, so moving.

Xu Haicen, she is always like this.I can always see Xu Haicen's indifferent smile the moment I look back.There is no half doubt, always stay by my side without any doubt.

So, is it worth it?

"Zuo, what are you thinking?" Xu Haicen stood in front of me after some unknown time, and asked calmly, "Why such an expression? Did something happen?"

"Xu Haicen...is it worth waiting for me like this?"

"There's no reason it shouldn't be worth it." She replied coldly.The warmth in the eyes shimmered, "Even if you don't love me, I still love you, even if I'm just your temporary safe haven, I'm willing."

Heartache was unbearable, I hugged her tightly, thinking she was so stupid.

really silly...

"Do you think..." She leaned on my shoulder and whispered, "Losing a teacher is something that will happen one day. For me, losing you is the same."

"...I know that one day you will leave me, even if you hug me now, I am uneasy, but I am willing to accept this uneasiness."

"Xu Haicen..."

"Azuo, do you love me?"

I froze.

"I want to hear the truth, even if it's cruel."

I closed my eyes lightly, thinking about the beauty of the girl.There is endless tenderness under her indifferent appearance, and her seemingly indifferent words are full of infinite love.

Such Xu Haicen...

"I don't know, but it's true that I want to walk with you forever."

"That's enough, Zuo." She smiled slightly, a warm smile like melting ice, it was really overwhelming...

"Why did you pick me up from get off work today?"

"Didn't I say that?" Xu Haicen smiled meaningfully, "My parents are traveling, so there is no one at home."

".....so what?"

"Accompany me, you should."

"...Isn't it like this?" I swear I saw Xu Haicen's triumphant smile!

She raised her eyebrows, "If you have any dissatisfaction, just say it."

I was so scared that I broke out in a cold sweat and shook my head desperately, "Damn, of course not!" Then I was sadly dragged away by Xu Haicen.

Xu Haicen's home is very comfortable and clean, her room made me stunned for a while.The walls of her room are painted a beautiful light blue, just like a shimmering sea, so blue.

I sat on her bed, looked around the whole room and said, "Your room is pretty big! It's about [-] square meters?"

"Well, almost." Xu Haicen closed the door, took out a T-shirt and shorts from the closet and threw them in my face, "You are wearing this today."

The clothes covered my sight, and when I took off the clothes on my head, Xu Haicen's beautiful face was so close that I was stunned.

She straddled my lap, her finger had already stopped on the first button of my uniform, Xu Haicen narrowed her eyes slightly, and smiled slightly, "I, want to eat you."

...You woman also know how to be shy, okay?

Wait, there seems to be something wrong with this sentence!