There are no couples on the road

CRE's lineup for the Spring Split is finally complete.

During these few days of training, Jiang Weichi also had a basic understanding of Mint's strength and operating habits.

Perhaps Meng Yingliu is not as nervous as before, and is slowly adapting to the rhythm of the LPL game. He tried his best to absorb what Jiang Weichi pointed out to him, and adjusted quickly.

In short, let his Chishen see him a little bit pleasing to the eye.

Jiang Weichi still couldn't sleep well, and was very tired every day.

It felt like I was suddenly thrown into a state of constant exhaustion, intermittent ambition.

The plans I set for myself are always difficult to complete. I thought I was just in a daze for a while, but when I turned on my phone, I found that half an hour had passed.

Is this the legendary lovelorn?Jiang Weichi thought to himself mockingly, and then denied an idea, he knew that he hadn't accepted that Shi Xun had really retired.

It is so difficult to choose him, how to deal with it.

He thought about it and said that he didn't actually respond.

It's like being stabbed, it's not fatal, and it's not a vital point. I know that it may hurt too much to bear when touched, and there may be nothing wrong, but I don't want to touch it.Just like that, covering up the wound with emptiness, he walked forward step by step.

But no matter what, after being stabbed, there is a wound, which is different from before it happened.

Jiang Weichi used to think that the word heartache was hypocritical and fabricated.

The heart will not feel cold or hurt because of emotions.But at night, he would be cold, and his heart seemed to be washed by cold water. He folded his hands and pressed his heart, and he couldn't cover it no matter what.

The heart seemed to be sealed in a piece of ice that could not be melted in his chest. He took out a shallow pan, sprinkled oil on it, and then put the piece of ice on it to fry.

White water vapor hissed from the ice cubes, and the heart felt the warmth through the ice layer, but it was burned with a dull pain.The outer layer of ice melted and quickly filled up, accumulating and licking the edge of the pot.

Finally, it overflowed and landed on the stove that had been heated by the fire, making a "stinging" sound.

But no matter how it melts, the ice is still there.With dull pain and endless vague thoughts flooding Jiang Weichi's mind, he was groggy and unable to fall asleep.

He had to turn out his mobile phone, searched for a cure for insomnia, and then ordered two bottles of melatonin.

It took two days to barely learn the names of some reconstruction equipment with the nurses, and Shi Xun's surgery date arrived.

Jiang Weichi still couldn't sleep well even after using melatonin, and started crying for some reason, so he couldn't help but dial Shi Xun's voice call.Shi Xun was being pushed into the operating room.

He looked at the rectangular recessed dome lights passing overhead, and felt that everything was unreal.

Will it stop hurting?Very subtly, Shi Xun felt that this kind of pain was closely related to his career, as well as kinesitherapy paste, traditional Chinese medicine, and acupuncture.

What is there to miss about this thing?Shi Xun listened to his nurse softly encouraging and comforting him, and it was nothing more than words like "don't be afraid" and "come on".

Shi Xun suddenly thought, it would be great if the little assistant was here.

He will really go to cheer, and he will not be afraid and don't know what to say like now.

To Jiang Weichi, he didn't have to say anything, knowing that he would be understood.That kind of silent tacit understanding and companionship is almost the best comfort, which can make him feel at ease.

Shi Xun was a little regretful and a little confused.Cut off the connection unilaterally like this, wouldn't it hurt the little support more?

The door of the operating room made a sound, and Shi Xun unconsciously moved his hand, only to realize that it was completely fixed.

If something really happened to the right hand, then there would be no way to use this hand to reply to Jiang Weichi in the future.

He hadn't realized that he was thinking more and more about the little assistants.

For the first time, I missed someone other than my family like this.

The operation indicator light came on, and something like a curtain was drawn in front of Shi Xun, blocking his view.

The operation has begun.

In the room, Shi Xun's cell phone was ringing.

The phone vibrates and beeps over and over again for voice or video calls.After it rang for a long time, the mobile phone placed on the edge of the bedside table had fallen on the carpet and was still ringing.

Jiang Weichi curled up on the bed, tears kept streaming down his face, which had nothing to do with his own wishes.There are already many water marks on the screen of the mobile phone, reflecting colored light spots.

He persistently called back again and again, only to get a final beep to stop.

Jiang Weichi looked at the opposite wall, there was not much light in the early morning, and there were only vague shadows in the room.That wall seemed to form a gray-black vortex, one circle, two circles, three circles... spinning, as if attracting him.

Hit it head on if you can.

Will it get worse? I can't do anything well, and I can't do anything.

He seemed to know this world for the first time, and he forgot all his previous cognition.He didn't feel his previous obsession with the championship, as if the only thing supporting him was to win the championship for Shi Xun.

He also seemed to never have any dreams.Shi Xun was like the sun, shining on him so naturally for so long, why did he leave so simply.

The voice invitation that was still unanswered stopped again.Jiang Weichi didn't call again, and there was a lifeless silence in the room.He wiped his face casually with his sleeve, which was wet and cold.

The eyes are probably swollen, wrinkled, and a little sore.

Jiang Weichi woke up, as if out of the state just now.

He knew that he might not be well.

Those thoughts were very unreasonable and inconsistent with his usual cognition.Of course he also has a dream, and his operation and awareness did not disappear overnight. The championship has always been the goal he and Shi Xun worked hard for.

Shi Xun's departure...wouldn't have thought about leaving him, but the injury is too serious, and he can't sacrifice the rest of his life.

But, he is still reluctant.

Champions, dreams, goals, career... none of these things mean more to him than Shi Xun.

They have long been one body, and Jiang Weichi couldn't help but feel confused if they were separated like this.

"...Shi Xun, can you just talk to me, don't leave me like this, okay?"

"I'm sorry, but I really need you."

Jiang Weichi sent a message.

After hesitating for a few seconds, he withdrew the next sentence.

He felt it was selfish of him to say "need" in this way.

It is a fact that Shi Xun doesn't like boys.But Shi Xun has always treated the feelings he gave tenderly, so when he told Shi Xun like this, Jiang Weichi understood that Shi Xun would not ignore him.

So what.

How can these things be used to embarrass Shi Xun again.

Jiang Weichi used to have a good relationship with NEA's former jungler Existing.

This person always tells stories that sound endless and frightening, and sometimes serious.

When NEA first hired a sports psychologist, players would have many different opinions when chatting, most of them did not believe it, and felt that depression and anxiety could be overcome by themselves, if they could not get rid of failure or other negative problems by themselves Come out, just not strong enough.

Jiang Weichi's junior high school can be regarded as an international high school similar to an aristocratic school. There are all kinds of people around him. Everyone is accustomed to the so-called "different" and "abnormal" and gives them enough respect.

He and Ying Guidi often do groupwork with another very quiet boy, and they gradually become familiar with each other.That was Jiang Weichi's first exposure to the disease "depression".

In the discussion among professional players, both he and existing remained silent.When chatting privately, Existing said, "These things are beyond the understanding of mentally healthy people, and you should not be angry because of this poor communication. In fact, I made the suggestion. Of course, a psychiatrist is very important, although I hope not. People who understand can never understand those feelings, but many things cannot be controlled by self-adjustment."

Of course, after Jiang Weichi knew that the boss of NEA was Existing, he was still very speechless at the saying of "making suggestions".

He sat on the bed for a long time, turned on his mobile phone to search for psychological counseling, looked at the relevant content and suggestions, and changed it to psychiatry.

He has no way to talk about this kind of problem with the psychologist in the team, and he doesn't have time to always ask for leave for consultation.

After thinking twice, he registered and made an appointment directly during the day.

Asking for a good leave, I went to the hospital to line up by myself, remembering that the last time I came to the hospital, it was because of Shi Xun that I came for emergency treatment.Thinking of this, his nose was sore again, and tears almost fell down.

He wiped it with a tissue, fought back his tears and went upstairs, looking at the waiting place of the psychiatric triage department, he did not expect so many people.

After waiting for a long time, seeing that the numbers behind him had been called into the corresponding consultation room, he couldn't help but walk to the nurse's service desk to ask, and only then did he know that he needed to scan the code for triage again.

Jiang Weichi finally sat on the chair opposite the doctor's desk, he said, "I... have trouble falling asleep."

When Shi Xun was pushed out of the operating room with the water hanging, he felt that the skin and bones of his right hand still had the feeling of exploring and operating medical instruments inside.

At this time, the effect of the anesthetic had not subsided, and his hand was firmly fixed on the custom-made fixing plate, and he was told not to use force.He felt fortunate that he still had those strange and terrifying tactile sensations, otherwise he wouldn't be able to feel his hands at all.

The surgery was a success, and stimulation tests performed proved to be devoid of any adverse effects.The constant pressure overload also dissipated with the complete cut of the transverse carpal ligament.

But, everything is as expected.

Including that he cannot use electronic products too much until his right hand is completely recovered.Not to mention that he forced himself to return to the game without hope.

Back in the ward, the doctors and nurses conducted a basic examination, connected various instruments, and told Shi Xun that he could eat a small amount and rest.

After Shi Xun took care of various physiological needs, he lay down on the bed under the care of the nurse and fixed his right hand.

He picked up the phone with his left hand, and saw a long list of voice call invitations from Jiang Weichi.

Turn to the bottom, it is Jiang Weichi's plea.

Shi Xun closed his eyes, and finally typed a word awkwardly with his left hand.

"Little assistant, don't be sad."

The author says:

I write depression real handy (no.