Ambiguous boundaries

Jiang Yi was lying on the bed, but he didn't get much sleep.

He remembered that one month after the cold war with Qi Zhen started, it happened to be Qi Zhen's birthday.Jiang Yi celebrated Qi Zhen's life with the company and his teammates without embarrassment. Apart from dry blessings, he and Qi Zhen didn't communicate much.

After this birthday party, Jiang Yi hardly saw Qi Zhen again, because he would be busy preparing for the college entrance examination and art examination in the next few days, so he hardly participated in the team's activities, and stayed alone at home study.

Occasionally, his teammates would make a video call to him to ask him how he was doing, only then Jiang Yi could take a look at Qi Zhen's appearance, but after a call they might not even look at each other.

Jiang Yi had a rough plan for his future development very early on. It is impossible to be an idol for a lifetime. He sings well, and he is also a vocalist in the team, so he also chose the music department as his first choice when applying for a major in the art examination.

During the period of the college entrance examination, he was under a lot of pressure. As a public figure, like his teammates, he was watched by countless pairs of eyes during the college entrance examination and art examination, for fear that if he made a mistake, he would be ridiculed by the crowd.Occasionally he would miss Qi Zhen, especially on a boring and boring night alone, he especially missed Qi Zhen who liked to share the bed with him.

If Qi Zhen was by his side, wouldn't he be so lonely and anxious.

On the day of the end of the college entrance examination, Jiang Yi and his family had a meal and were taken back to the company to celebrate his liberation.

Cui Li has been telling him since he got in the car how much your teammates miss you.When Jiang Yi just stepped into the villa, he was greeted by the cheers of his teammates. The room was also hung with colorful stripes. Zheng Yaoxing even blew the trumpet that he didn't know where he got it.

"Congratulations to our Yibao, who has become an adult and has finally become a male college student!" Song Yuan took the lead in applauding.

"The horoscope hasn't been written yet." Jiang Yi waved his hand, "I just finished the exam."

"It's okay, you can definitely be my junior." Yan Zhirui patted him on the shoulder, "School has started, I will protect you."

Jiang Yi smiled and punched Yan Zhirui's chest with his fist: "Then thank you Brother Yan in advance."

.......

Until the end of their pleasantries, Jiang Yi couldn't see the person he most wanted to see.He pretended to glance around casually, but there was still no sign of Qi Zhen in his sight.Unspeakable disappointment began to spread in his heart, but he was quickly restrained by himself.

Yan Zhirui noticed his gaze keenly, and after a while, when there were only the two of them in the kitchen, he said, "Qi Zhen has something to do at home, he should come back in a few days."

"Oh." Jiang Yi pretended to be indifferent, and avoided the topic, "What did you eat tonight?"

Yan Zhirui didn't argue, and looked at Jiang Yi speechlessly: "What's wrong with you two? It's inexplicable, and it's been almost a few months."

"It's nothing... what can there be?" Jiang Yi blinked innocently, avoided the topic and walked out the door.

Jiang Yi didn't see Qi Zhen until 11 o'clock in the evening, he stayed in Song Yuan's room and the four of them played games together all night.

He was a little thirsty on the way, and when he came down to pour water, there were car lights coming in from the window.Then he heard the sound of the car shutting down, and then the door was slammed, and he could vaguely hear the fierce quarrel outside.

But the soundproofing of the villa is very good, Jiang Yi didn't know what was going on outside, and didn't care much about it.

He poured some water in the kitchen, only to find that the water had just boiled and was too hot to drink.He remembered that there seemed to be half a jug of cold water in the living room outside, so he walked out.

When Jiang Yi just walked into the living room, the quarrel outside stopped abruptly, followed by a very loud slap like a "slap".He almost thought he had heard it wrong.

When he lowered his head to pour water, the light in the living room was suddenly turned on.

Jiang Yi was startled, and quickly raised his head——

What was reflected in the line of sight was a pair of red eyes, red and swollen cheeks, and a chest heaving up and down due to anger.

Jiang Yi clearly remembered Qi Zhen's appearance at that time, like a poor stray dog ​​who had been abused.

Jiang Yi was a little embarrassed by the unexpected staring at each other, but it was more of an accident. Only now did he realize that the quarrel and applause just heard were all related to Qi Zhen.

There are a series of questions stuck in his throat, but unfortunately he doesn't know what position to ask now, they are still in a cold war, and it is Qi Zhen who is unilaterally cold and violent.

Qi Zhen probably didn't expect that he had already returned, wandering around in the living room by himself in the middle of the night.

It's just that when Qi Zhen saw that it was him, his eyes quickly turned from surprise to indifference, as if he had no emotion whatsoever, which made Jiang Yi's heart ache, and then closed the door as if he wasn't there. After that, he walked straight around him.

When passing by, Jiang Yi couldn't help calling Qi Zhen's name, but the boy's back just paused, but his footsteps didn't stop.

When Jiang Yi chased upstairs, Qi Zhen had already locked the door.He knocked outside twice, still no response.

Holding a glass of water, Jiang Yi sat down on the wooden floor, his mind was in a mess.

There is something wrong with Qi Zhen's family, it must be his family who sent him back, who is that?Why are you arguing?And why did you beat him?Thinking of the family matter that Qi Zhen mentioned to him before, Jiang Yi felt that this was not like a quarrel with children in an ordinary family.

In the picture just now, Qi Zhen's red eyes constantly stimulated Jiang Yi's nerves, because he knew at a glance that it was not from tears and redness, but more like irritation from anger.

As soon as Yan Zhirui opened the door from Song Yuan's room, he saw Jiang Yi sitting on the ground with a glass of water in his hand, he frowned a little scared.

"You're sleepwalking in the middle of the night after pouring water??"

"No, why are you sitting at the door of Xiaoqi's room?"

Hearing Yan Zhirui's voice, Jiang Yi came back to his senses. When he stood up, some water spilled out.Jiang Yi patted the ashes on his butt, and grinned unnaturally: "I didn't... think about anything."

He didn't intend to tell Yan Zhirui what happened just now, he felt that Qi Zhen should want to be alone more now.Besides, Qi Zhen didn't mention the matter of his native family with other teammates, and Jiang Yi wouldn't take the initiative to be the one who talks nonsense.

"Sitting on the floor thinking about things...?" Yan Zhirui raised his eyebrows, but he didn't pay much attention to it, and went back to his room while talking, "Did the time preparing for the exam make me feel stupid?"

After Jiang Yi returned to the room, he lay straight on the bed, but couldn't fall asleep after tossing and turning, all he could think about was the gaze he and Qi Zhen met.

He still didn't feel sleepy until early in the morning. Originally, today was the end of his college entrance examination. He should be happy that he was finally liberated, but now his heart is still sinking.Unable to fall asleep, he simply opened Weibo. He hadn't seen anything related to him and Qi Zhen during this period of time.

Click on the familiar Chaochat, which is full of posts celebrating him finally becoming a college student, and many people ask him when he can post on Weibo. In addition to the company using his account to forward some business activities during the retreat in the past few months, He has never sent a personal microblog.

He swiped for a while, maybe it was a retreat during this period, so there was nothing new to watch, all CP fans were eating some old food.

Until a fan article caught his attention, it was about what he and Qi Zhen would do after the college entrance examination. The writing style of the poster was very innocent, but the style of writing was very lingering, condensing months of longing into the final article The sentence that Qi Zhen buried in his neck: "Brother, I miss you very much."

There is no large-scale description, but this sentence, brother, I miss you very much, made his heart tremble uncontrollably.

He could clearly hear Qi Zhen speaking to himself...

What made him feel even more shameful was that there was a vague reaction below him. The moment Jiang Yi held it up, he closed his eyes as if resigned to his fate.

........

The gc ended with Jiang Yi's last movement, and when she came out, Qi Zhen's red eyes were all in his mind, buried in his neck, and his voice could not stop longing, telling him: "Brother I miss you so much."

Sin, distress, indulgence, confusion, confusion, wrapped around him tightly like vines.

Jiang Yi felt like he had fallen into a bottomless abyss.

The author says:

Some psychological transition~