Ambiguous boundaries

Jiang Yi stayed up all night, and when he dragged his exhausted body downstairs the next day, none of his teammates had woken up.Cui Li sat on the sofa holding a video camera, and was a little surprised when he looked up and saw him.

"Hey, I didn't expect that we prospective college students were the first to wake up. We didn't sleep much on the first day of liberation."

Jiang Yi tidied up his tiredness, grabbed a handful of hair and lied: "Ah... I'm used to getting up early during this time, and my biological clock hasn't changed yet."

"Brother Li, are you going to shoot new material again?" Jiang Yi pointed to the camera in Cui Li's hand.

"I came here to shoot you. The whole video was cut and posted on Weibo today. During your retreat period, fans haven't seen you." Cui Li fiddled with the camera, "Everyone misses you very much."

Jiang Yi scratched his head embarrassingly, and was about to speak when Cui Li interrupted him.

"Xiao Qi? Did you come back last night? Why is your face still a little red?"

When Jiang Yi heard these words, he slowly let go of his hands, his body froze a little, he didn't dare to look back at Qi Zhen.He didn't even know what expression to use to face Qi Zhen.

"Well, I came back at eleven o'clock, and I was bitten by a mosquito on my face." Qi Zhen's voice sounded from behind, and it was much lower than it was a few months ago, and then he bypassed Jiang Yi and went straight downstairs.

Cui Li looked around between the two of them, obviously wanting to speak, but it was inconvenient to speak due to his current appearance, so he finally glanced at Jiang Yi and asked with his mouth.

Jiang Yi blinked, knowing that what Cui Li was talking about was not yet reconciled, but he pretended not to see it, and walked downstairs with his mobile phone in his hand.

Qi Zhen was sitting on the sofa looking at his phone, and Cui Li happened to go into the kitchen to see if their breakfast was ready.

Jiang Yi stood in the living room, a little restrained for a moment, not knowing where to sit.Now when he saw Qi Zhen, he remembered what he did last night, and that confusion and guilt clung to him again.

When he was struggling, Qi Zhen raised his eyelids and glanced at him, stood up without any expression, went to the yard to make a phone call.

Jiang Yi couldn't hold back his glances into the yard, he only dared to look at Qi Zhen's appearance openly now.Qi Zhen seems to have grown taller, his shoulders have become wider, and the contours of his face have become more defined. A few months have made him look more mature.

But before he could describe Qi Zhen's appearance any more, someone slapped him on the shoulder.

"What are you doing, getting up so early?" Zheng Yaoxing's voice sounded from behind, "Why are you looking so seriously?"

Jiang Yi turned his head and saw that Zheng Yaoxing was also looking in the direction he was looking at just now, and then he felt his shoulder was slapped twice again, Zheng Yaoxing shouted into the yard with a loud voice: "Xiao Qi is back! Did you come early this morning?"

Hearing the voice, Qi Zhen held up the phone and looked back inside, Jiang Yi unexpectedly met the person's eyes again.

"Oh, talk after you finish the call." Zheng Yaoxing turned Jiang Yi around, "Why didn't you say anything when he came back, wouldn't you still be in the cold war?"

"...Why did you get up so early today." Jiang Yi changed the subject stiffly.

"I can't sleep, I've been playing all night, and the melatonin is gone." Zheng Yaoxing raised his head just in time to see Auntie Life bringing breakfast to the table, so he touched Jiang Yi with his elbow, "Go ask Xiao Qi to eat, I'll go wake those two up."

After Zheng Yaoxing finished speaking, he ran upstairs without waiting for Jiang Yi to refuse.Jiang Yiheng was in a dilemma in the middle. He stood there for a long time and did some mental construction before finally walking into the yard hesitantly.

When Jiang Yi had just approached, he only heard Qi Zhen's last sentence: "Isn't it just you who used me?"

Then the phone was hung up, and when Qi Zhen turned around, there was still impatience and disgust on his face.It's just that as soon as he saw Jiang Yi standing in front of him, the expression on his face disappeared soon, and changed into a cold one.

"That..." Jiang Yi felt like opening his mouth would kill him, "The meal is ready."

Qi Zhen hummed vaguely, it was so small that Jiang Yi almost felt like he didn't respond.

Looking at the back of Qi Zhen walking out quickly, Jiang Yi still couldn't hold back the words in his throat: "Did something happen at home?"

Qi Zhen paused for a moment, but his footsteps still didn't stop, and he didn't seem to want to reply to him, so he walked straight into the house alone.

Jiang Yi stood there in embarrassment, he clenched his fists, his nails were so nervous that his palms were about to be scratched.He laughed self-deprecatingly, who would talk to someone who somehow alienated him?

If it is said that the fear in Jiang Yi's midst before came from the unknown, the fear of puberty, sexual orientation and same-sex boundaries, then the fear now comes from the panic that Qi Zhen no longer talks to him.

If time goes back to a few months ago, Jiang Yi feels that he will still do the same, he will still choose to distance himself because of confusion and fear.He is immature. My 18-year-old self can't seem to find a better way to deal with this adolescent same-sex relationship.

He didn't dare to face it squarely, dared not admit it, let alone respond.

But if he asks himself, who has calmed down for a few months, if he likes Qi Zhen, he still doesn't know.

Yu teammates like it, Yu friends like it, Yu brother likes it, but he also clearly understands that between these likes and love likes is the Chuhehan world.

He could tell the difference, but he couldn't understand it.

When Jiang Yi walked to the restaurant, everyone had already started eating.

"Why did you call me Xiaoqi? You came later." Zheng Yaoxing took a big mouthful of porridge and waved to Jiang Yi.

Jiang Yi didn't explain, and walked over to pull away the seat next to Qi Zhen. He saw that Qi Zhen was obviously stunned for a second, and then continued to eat as if nothing had happened.

When Jiang Yi raised his head, he met Yan Zhirui's ambiguous and probing gaze, but he quickly dodged his gaze. He tore a napkin halfway, and Qi Zhen happened to reach out to pick up a chopstick of food. It made his heart skip half a beat.

Because there are teammates around for a meal, it is not awkward to chat. Occasionally, Qi Zhen will make a few remarks, but the conversation is obviously much less than before.

"Speaking of Xiao Qi, why is your face a little red..." Song Yuan pointed to Qi Zhen's face, "It looks like you were beaten, you wouldn't sleepwalk and slap yourself last night hahahahahahaha. "

Song Yuan made a joke casually, but Jiang Yi's heart skipped a beat, he glanced at Qi Zhen from the corner of his eye, and pricked up his ears.

"How could it be?" Qi Zhen touched his face, "There were mosquitoes in bed last night, I scratched them a few times."

Song Yuan didn't care too much, he just mentioned it casually, and the rest of the people obviously didn't worry about it, and the topic was quickly shifted away.

"Jiang Yi, I will take a vlog of your day after eating." Cui Li walked over and leaned against the chair.

"Shooting so much?" Jiang Yi felt a little tired at the thought of having to face the camera all day.

"The planner just sent me a message, saying that this is the only way to report on your day-to-day after the college entrance examination. Fans are relieved after reading it, and you have made up for the exposure that you lacked before." Cui Li patted Jiang Yi shoulder, "The camera is placed next to you, remember to shoot the material well so we can edit it."

"There's not enough exposure... just take a test and a bunch of people are squatting outside to take pictures." Jiang Yi sighed, then nodded perfunctorily.

"That's different, you don't have stage events to expose, and Weibo is not open." Cui Li shrugged, "Take more pictures of your interactions with your brothers."

As soon as Cui Li left, Jiang Yi resignedly raised the camera, casually took a picture of the leftovers, and then took pictures of his teammates' faces side by side until the camera moved to Qi Zhen's face.

Qi Zhen stood up and avoided the camera expressionlessly, Jiang Yi turned around embarrassingly, and touched his nose in embarrassment.

The other three teammates went to do their own things after eating, and when Jiang Yi came back to his senses, Qi Zhen was no longer in his sight.

He didn't expect to see Qi Zhen again, it was when he went out to shoot a vlog in the afternoon to make purchases.