[Xianliu] Failed to break up

"I've checked carefully, and it was indeed an accident that you were shot in the apartment that night." Private detective Jason said to his boss Rukawa Kaede, and he flipped through the documents and photos at hand, "It's a gangster who has feuded with Zebei. It has nothing to do with immortality."

Rukawa sat on the sofa opposite, looked at Jason quietly, his expression was indifferent, his dark eyes flickered before he nodded, he said: "OK, thank you." He paused and said, "What about the other things?" ? Any news?"

Jason changed his posture slightly, coughed and took out an envelope pocket, under Rukawa's gaze, he said: "There is a little progress, but Rukawa, I want to ask you a question."

Jason is Rukawa's new private detective.

He was the boss of Zebei in the past. He saved money in the past two years and just went ashore to change his career. He became a private investigator because he had many friends in the past, so the news was very fast. Zebei introduced him to Rukawa to investigate the unsolved case many years ago. : The death of Rukawa's parents.

Within 6 years of his parents' death, Rukawa replaced countless private investigators to investigate the matter. The biggest unsolved case of a politician being shot in the city was once sealed up by the police, but Rukawa couldn't let it go, and repeatedly asked people to look for traces in private. .

However, while checking the old case, Rukawa asked Jason to check whether the incident of being shot in the apartment a few months ago had anything to do with Xiandao.It's strange that in this matter, he didn't find Zebei, who was obviously more suspected.

So, Jason asked him, "About your neck injury, why do you...why do you think of Cha Xiandao?" He added in Rukawa's slightly narrowed eyes, "I mean, he is your boyfriend...you... ...it's not easy being together."

This is a very honest and proper question. Xiandao is Rukawa's current boyfriend. The relationship between the two has been strong and beautiful since they got back together. In this world, all attempted breakups are like a miracle flower blooming on the top of a snow mountain, arrogant and happy , It is only for onlookers and cannot be copied. They cherish the reunion and cherish each other. They seldom quarrel and are considerate of each other.

Rukawa asked Jason to investigate Xiandao after the beautiful-looking breakup failed.

Rukawa frowned slightly, lowered his eyes and said, "This is none of your business."

In this world, all attempted breakups are like a miraculous flower that blooms on the top of a snow mountain. It is arrogant, happy, for onlookers only, and cannot be copied, but it may be frozen to death by the bitter wind and rain on the top of the mountain in the next second.

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Rukawa has always wanted to know why Xiandao has been suffering from insomnia.

Insomnia is an urban epidemic. If you want to find a spokesperson for the medicine to treat insomnia, Rukawa Feng may be the most suitable one. He can eat and sleep, he can't be shaken, and he almost never suffers from insomnia.

Rukawa didn't understand this fashion ill in his early years, until many years ago, his lover Akira Shindo staged a reality version, and he also experienced the torment of worry, suspicion and empathy during the day and night of the other party's tossing and turning.

You know, Xiandao began to suffer from insomnia six or seven years ago, the week before he drove the yellow crane for breakfast, the two of them started on the day of reconciliation in the heavy rain after the ball game.Although within a week from that day, it was the last period of sweet and harmonious good time between two people at the end of their youth.

Xiandao acted like the sweetest lover, with passion and endless kisses against the clock, even so, Rukawa still felt that he would leave, as if being beside Rukawa was like sticking a knife in his stomach , suffering and struggling, falling into endless insomnia every night, so unhappy, either get rid of it or run away.

On the morning of the day when he escaped, when the sky first dawned, Rukawa woke up and saw him holding a glass of water, staring blankly at the light outside the window that hadn't fully grown, and seemed to have been sitting for a long time.

Rukawa felt that Xiandao seemed to be embarrassing at something at that time, so he was extremely tired, almost not like him.

He stretched out his hand to touch Immortal Dao, and the silhouette of the other party moved slightly, then turned around, and suddenly leaned over to him.

Xiandao gently parted his bangs and looked into his eyes, brushed his fingers over his lips, as if about to kiss him, but he didn't move, just looked at each other and breathed alternately for a while.

At that time, both of them were so tired that they couldn't speak, so they were only a little bit unable to help each other.

Rukawa held his hand, "Why can't you fall asleep?"

Xiandao didn't answer, and lowered his eyes, "I'll buy what you want to eat. You can sleep a little longer."

He kissed the corner of his mouth, picked up the pillow strangely, and then disappeared for 6 years without looking back.

Rukawa remembered that the last words he said to him were: "I want to eat eel rice balls."

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In the following six years, Rukawa went through a lot of struggles and self-compromises, and decided to put aside the name of Xiandao Akira officially. He focused on the road to becoming an excellent basketball player, but the unjust case and the knot in his heart have always been There is no answer, so he hired many private investigators and friends on the road to investigate, but the truth is always on the 18th bend of the mountain road, and it will not be close overnight.

It's strange, these years, Rukawa thinks that he no longer expects Xiandao to return to him. The Rukawa Kaede who was with Xiandao in adolescence is already far away from him. The one who will listen to the other party's decisions and suggestions, and will rely on the other party The body and smile, and Rukawa who will change himself to adapt to the immortal way are forged and changed by time.

However, he still misses him, like he misses his former self.

Decided to get back together with Xiandao, on Valentine's Day night, he didn't go to the so-called reserved small stadium at all, flowers and chocolates, mobile phones and love letters, thanks to Xiandao, these small tricks even when Rukawa himself picked up girls all these years Can play dizzyingly, he doesn't love these passages, unless he wants to sleep with someone.

Therefore, without the candlelight candles and the retro stadium that Ayako imagined, he just went home silently that night, but in the space of thinking, he did not turn off the mobile phone sent by Xiandao, so that he picked up the phone at around midnight. To the other party's phone.

"Are you home?" Shinto asked.

"Ah."

"I'll go find you."

Rukawa sighed into the phone, "Don't you ask me if it's not convenient here?"

The other person seemed to be stunned for a while before saying, "I won't bother you for a long time."

At 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, at the gate of Rukawa's house, Xiandao was standing there, wearing a well-fitting coat and high-quality hair. The weather was a little cold that day, his hands and nose were a little red, and his face was a little tired.

Xiandao seemed to have just got off the plane, and he didn't go to the so-called small stadium at all.In dealing with the fools of the past, the two have a tacit understanding of the same purpose.

After staring at each other for a while, Rukawa frowned slightly, and looked at his watch, "0 o'clock is almost past, if you have any tricks you haven't used, just take them out together."

Immortal Dao smiled as if he didn't have much strength, and said, "Is there someone in your family?"

Rukawa cooperated and looked back at the room, "Why do you ask this?"

Xiandao didn't answer him, but calmed his expression indifferently.

Xiandao was very dignified that day, as if he had made a lot of determination before he walked in front of Rukawa, with a serious and calm expression ready to tell him a big secret, such as: I am a member of bin Laden’s al-Qaeda organization, I didn’t tell you, I have always been a International agent, I turned out to be a killer and had to live in seclusion. Would you like to come with me?I am terminally ill, and I just want to see you again.

But in the end, Xiandao still didn't say anything, so Rukawa said helplessly after 5 minutes: "Come so late, are you here to catch up with me again?"

Xiandao said: "I don't like to talk about the old days, Rukawa, believe it or not, all these years, every moment I think of a solution that will allow us both to move forward unscathed, but never separate .But there has been no good solution, so..." His voice seemed to be choked in place, unable to move forward for a while.

Rukawa said: "It's been a while since you came back, and you've shown such remarkable sincerity that even senior sisters persuaded me to forgive you. But I've always wanted to know, Sendo Akira, why are you so confident that , In the six years since you left, the whole world will wait for you in place, and everyone will continue to pamper and forgive you?"

Xiandao regained the focus of his eyes in amazement, and looked at Rukawa in disbelief, as if he couldn't understand his words right away. After a long pause, he said: "I don't need the whole world to forgive me. I don't care about the whole world. Do not forgive me..."

His expression at that moment was very calm, much like the summer we just met, his eyes without smiles and the corners of his mouth always smiling, he said softly: "I just want you to forgive me."

I just want you to forgive me.Rukawa could see how desperate and patient Xiandao was when he said these words. If he got closer, he might be able to hear the creaking of his joints.

At that moment, Rukawa suddenly became the one who was qualified to say "We can't go back. I don't intend to accept you anymore." He saw the well-stored and well-disguised tiredness and tension in Xiandao's eyes.

Whether love is long live has always been an old proposition. If we talk about chemistry, the best shelf life of fiery love is about 18 months, and the length of adjustment varies from person to person. several months.Perhaps the cooperation of time and chemistry made Rukawa remember Xiandao for a little longer, so long that even he himself forgot that he is not a long-term person.

From childhood to adulthood, except for basketball, the life he would choose is the most convenient, beneficial and convenient, the nearest school, the best brand to buy, the most broken bicycle, as well as those friends who are the most confusing, the most Challenging opponents, the most accessible girls and boys.

So what is immortality?So difficult and tactful, unpredictable and sad.

"Xiandao is the direct murderer who killed your parents."

Private detective Jason slowly raised the paper bag, and in Rukawa's rapidly dilated pupils, he said, "If you didn't think of checking him, I didn't think of it, we have been checking Nagai's house all the time. But in fact, every time it is consistent with the truth Passed by."

In fact, the truth is very close, but the truth is the most unpleasant thing in the world. People often say that it is best not to have deception in love, but sometimes when you think about it, it is best not to have the truth.

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Two weeks later.

The Nagai family has been involved in various case investigations, and countless principals have turned against each other. With the prosecution of Fujima, the various investigations of police officer Nan Lie, and the help of informants Zebei Eiji and Jason, everyone Large and small business cases, scandalous disputes that could get on the table, and improper transactions were all blown up in one go. The storm came so quickly that it was hardly real.

It is not surprising that Nagai Satoshi was also the target of the murder of Rukawa political officer that year, but it was also pointed at Sendo Akira.

At the age of 21, Akira Sendo and Rukawa's parents were attacked together, almost ruining half of his life and his basketball career. The investigation results presented and found by Rukawa Feng himself showed an astonishing result: Akira Xiandao was suspected to be the murderer back then.

So the most popular news figure and well-known doctor was detained for interrogation. Rukawa did not come forward, did not make any remarks, and did not contact Xiandao.

"So... when did you start to suspect him?" Because the evidence and proposals were submitted by the Rukawa family, Fujima asked Rukawa during the meeting with the prosecuting lawyer.

When did you suspect it?

The moment Jason put the findings on the table two weeks ago?Or the night when Xiandao happened to appear after he was shot, maybe it was when he woke up suddenly every midnight dream in the past six years, or when he rushed into Xiandao ward after his parents had an accident.Maybe even earlier, when the parents were alive and approved of their relationship...

Rukawa Kaede's parents have always known how to respect their son's choice and interests, and are willing to indulge his personality and willfulness to a certain extent. We must know that innate talents are burned with willfulness and arrogance.And Rukawa has never let them down. Although he speaks indifferently and arrogantly, and is even a bit arrogant and isolated from the world, he has a talent that leads to the hidden world-playing basketball.And the marriage of politics and sports is happy and beautiful, and some opportunities can be taken advantage of.

The only unplanned thing is Xiandao Akira in Rukawa's life.

More than ten years later, Rukawa recalled that he thought that his mother did not want him to associate with Xiandao. On the road to the top of the world, Xiandao and everything do not complement each other. He is just a weird existence in Ruchuanfeng's life. Not bad, not bad, unique.

But their parents didn't stop them dating back then. Rukawa's mother said to him: "Xiao Feng, when you were young, you always liked to touch the flames on the stove. I hugged you away every time, and finally you were burned yourself once." You will never go near the stove again. There are many things in this world that your parents can't replace you."

This time, Rukawa didn't intend to approach the stove any more, so he looked at Fujima quietly without answering.

"Rukawa." Fujima said, "As a professional lawyer, I know your determination, but as a friend, I want to say something for Xiandao, just as a friend, I believe in every inch of his character, you are his My dearest person, I hope you can respect him. When you hand over the case to us and the police, I hope you will ask him yourself. No matter what the facts are, no matter whether Xiandao did it or not, no matter what you know How much, how angry. I know it is very difficult to do this, but you are not a person who likes to go around, I think you should ask him yourself, it is good for you and good for Xiandao. "

Rukawa never likes to make detours, he goes straight to the point and speaks straight, but Xiandao is a person who turns back and forth, even when he talks to his mother, he keeps a polite distance.

It seems that it was the second or third year of high school. Xiandao was injured in a training match with Xiangbei, so Rukawa volunteered to accompany him home. Well prepare to meet a down and demanding mother.

But Xiandao's mother is an elegant and beautiful woman, who will receive Xiandao's friends politely, have conversations just right, keep a comfortable distance from people, and at the same time keep a decent distance from her son.

Xiandao's mother and her son's friend kept talking on the phone after smiling and nodding. They didn't notice the plaster cast on their son's arm, but they didn't forget to pour Rukawa a glass of water.

The Xiandao family belonged to the upper middle class. Even the divorced parents allowed their son to live a prosperous life. At that time, his house was as clean and tidy as a hotel, spotless, but an 18-year-old boy’s mess was almost perfect I couldn't find a suitable place in the apartment, so all of Xiandao's belongings have always been placed in his schoolbag, and he kept going to wander at any time, and that schoolbag stood in Xiandao's room, like a thorn that didn't fit in with the surroundings. Same.

For some reason, Rukawa suddenly picked up the schoolbag in the corner, and he asked the immortal without any detour: "Go and stay at my house for a few days."

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Today, many years later, Rukawa packed Xiandao's things at home into a schoolbag similar to that of the past, and took them to the interrogation room, where Xiandao had been staying for a week.

When Rukawa entered, Xiandao was reading the newspaper, his brows were tightly frowned, and his expression was a little dazed, but his eyes were full of urgent focus, as if he was thinking and considering something. The more he understood Xiandao, the more Rukawa felt that this expression was actually It suits him better than a smile.

Fujima asked him when he started to doubt, maybe it wasn't doubt at all, it seemed to appear coherently in Rukawa's mind like a script.

He ran to see Xiandao as soon as his parents and Xiandao had an accident. At that time, Xiandao was out of danger and had just entered the detective guard. Rukawa was looking at him outside the door. At that time, he had this kind of expression, vigilant and dangerous. , Weird, empty, but indescribably desperate and dull, as if to vomit in the next second.

Rukawa suddenly came up with this script at that moment, but it took him many, many years to let himself abandon it, and then he believed and made it clear.But he didn't ask Xiandao personally, he seemed to keep some kind of hope for himself.

After he stood at the door for about 10 seconds, Xiandao saw him.

Xiandao put down the newspaper and looked at Rukawa sitting in front of him. He looked like he hadn't slept for many days, just like when he decided to leave six years ago: tired, clueless, numb and dazed.Six years later, they still can't help each other.

Rukawa thought: If he hadn't missed him, he wouldn't have left a line of phone number in the classmate record.If he didn't miss him, he wouldn't call off the engagement and come back from America all the way.If he hadn't returned, no private investigator would have tracked him down.

If they hadn't attempted to break up, Zebei wouldn't have come back to find Rukawa, and if Zebei hadn't come back, then maybe there wouldn't have been an accidental shooting.If Jason hadn't been with Nagai before, he wouldn't know about the Nagai family so well. If it wasn't for the tense relationship between Zebei and the Nagai family, Rukawa would not have thought of investigating Xiandao...

Like the butterfly effect before the tsunami, it all came from the attempted breakup.

If he doesn't come back, he and his love and truth will pass by, will they be sadder than they are now?

Rukawa said: "I know I do this, you are very sad. But you know my style, I will not do it without full assurance, from the beginning to the end, everything I told you is the truth, so I want you Answer my next question truthfully, if you avoid or lie to me, you will never see me again in your life."

He is so polite, not because he thinks that he can love Xiandao like he did back then, he would run to him in the pouring rain, and naively ask him what the truth is; nor does he feel that he is reluctant to ruin the other party, he is just a little scared, he I am afraid of his script, and I also know my immortal way. They have always been each other's double-sided mirrors, and they have been fighting and loving each other since the first day they met.

If that's the case, Rukawa felt that he was stepping on the self-esteem of both of them, and said the following.

"When my parents had an accident, you were at the scene. You were an outsider who was implicated and injured, so no one has ever suspected you. However, I know enough now. There are evidences and methods to keep you from getting out. Here. It’s just that I still want to hear you tell me, did you kill them?”

Did you kill my parents with your own hands?

Rukawa Kaede is 30 years old, he never thought that he would ask Xiandao this question.

He knew that if he asked, the previous love and hard work, the hard work and never-forgiveness, and the rare and rare attempt to break up would all disappear.

But he thought, he doesn't care, at least no Xiandao cares.

Yes, insomnia is a common disease among urbanites, and Rukawa has never understood the reason for it. After he asked this question, when he saw Xiandao's blood-red eyes and speechless expression, he suddenly felt amused that he could Like the Terminator T-800, read the classic line: "I finally know why you have insomnia, but unfortunately I never will."

Because you have unsolvable desires and anxieties, as well as secrets and past events that you can never tell.

When he solved the mystery, it was a year and a half after they broke up and tried to reconcile.

New year, new weather, I bought breakfast and came back, dear friends, there is not much left in this story, and the ideas and enthusiasm are a bit different from the past, but I really want to finish it. I don’t know if I have written clearly about the inside story of this case... (I shouldn't be reasoning

Of course, what I'm updating now is just a little of the previous inventory. As for the latter, I'll think about it when I'm at the breakfast shop.

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