pathological addiction

When he said start with mathematics, he really started from the beginning.Qu Boyuan could explain mathematics from beginning to end without reading a book, which made Lin Sheng truly feel the difference in the world.

The textbooks in private schools are very different from those in public schools, but there are all compulsory contents.Qu Baiyuan sorted out Lin Sheng according to his own system. Anyway, Lin Sheng didn't know what content his school didn't learn.

Qu Boyuan spoke very slowly, writing down the knowledge points on the draft paper while speaking.Each point is explained with a sample question, and when Lin Sheng doesn't understand something, he will stop and explain it to him carefully.

After finishing a point, he looked into Lin Sheng's eyes seriously, "Do you understand?"

Amidst the beating of his own heart, Lin Sheng nodded, saying that he understood.

The two were close together, and the bright sunlight shone through the foliage in front of the house and into the floor-to-ceiling windows, casting golden spots in the dining room.

During the long separation that followed, Lin Sheng repeatedly recalled the summer when they first met, and this picture was always in his mind.

Near noon, the people who went out to play in the water came back noisy.

Lin Sheng put away the book and thanked Qu Boyuan, then went upstairs.Bai Ji just entered the door, deliberately walked around the dining table, hooked Qu Baiyuan's neck and whispered: "How is the progress?"

Qu Boyuan pushed him away unhappy, "You guys came back too early."

"Damn, it's too hot outside, I can't stand it." Bai Ji took the seat where Lin Sheng was sitting just now, "Tell me quickly, he..."

In the middle of talking, Yan Leyan came over to get drinks from the refrigerator behind them, Bai Ji stopped, turned to Yan Leyan and said, "Give me a bottle of Coke!"

"It's right behind you, won't you take it by yourself?" Yan Leyan complained and handed him a bottle.

After Yan Leyan walked away, Bai Ji continued, "Does he have feelings for you?"

Qu Boyuan glanced at the direction of the stairs, and said vaguely, "It should."

"Kiss?"

Qu Boyuan squinted at him, "How could it be so fast?"

"Tsk, I haven't gotten started all morning, what are you doing?"

Qu Boyuan: "I'm helping him with math."

Bai Ji showed an expression of "are you kidding me", and gave thumbs up: "Brother Yuan, it's really you."

Before breakfast, Qu Baiyuan went to Bai Ji's room, asking Bai Ji to dismiss the others and let him and Lin Sheng be alone for a while.

Bai Ji's jaw was about to drop from shock, he had known Qu Baiyuan for four years, and he had never seen Qu Baiyuan take the initiative to express interest in anyone.

His conditions are so superior that others have always taken the initiative to post him.

"I think I might know what haveacrush means," he said at the time.

Only Qu Boyuan knew that he was lying, this was not crush, it was a reunion after a long absence, and it was one-sided.

Before he returned to City C, he had just finished a long and boring summer study tour, and when he got home, he had a very unhappy fight with his father over the matter of choosing a major.

He is the only son in the family, and his father hopes that he will stay in C City to study in business school, so that he can become an excellent successor in the future.And Qu Boyuan wanted to engage in theoretical physics research in the future, which is undoubtedly meaningless in the eyes of businessmen.

The father and son broke up unhappy, and Bai Ji just asked him to go to the B&B for a few days at this time, and he picked up the unopened suitcase and left.

To be honest, he was very unhappy these few days, but the surprise of meeting Lin Sheng made his depressed mood a little better, and he hoped it could be even better.

Qu Boyuan likes everything that is controllable, and he needs to have a clear goal and a clear plan even if he wants to move his heart.

Lin Sheng is very good, every point is in line with his aesthetics, and the smell of milk also makes him feel very good.If it is said that Lin Sheng on the field aroused his sexual fantasies, then this Lin Sheng now gave him a very strong desire to explore, and he couldn't help but want to explore his heart and soul.

Chamfort defines love as a feeling that creates the illusion of perfection, and Qu Baiyuan deeply agrees.In his view, everything in the world has certain rules of operation, and once it deviates from the rules, it will go to destruction, and love is precisely the human emotion that is most likely to be derailed, so it must be very cautious.

In order to obtain a controllable love experience, he took the Omega who liked him as samples, analyzed and established a perfect theory, and after continuous modification and simulation, he got his favorite rhythm, like a song Perfect piece, every note is in the right place.

He is looking forward to playing this piece of music on Lin Sheng.

The afternoon sun was dazzling, shining white in the courtyard.The few people who had been playing like crazy all morning seemed to have their souls sucked out, and they just wanted to lie on the sofa after eating.

Lin Sheng also felt that his brain cells had been emptied after studying mathematics for more than two hours, so he went back to his room to take a nap.

Downstairs began to play poker, the shouts of joy and laughter echoed in the yard, Lin Sheng didn't bother to get up and close the window, buried his face in the thin quilt and fell asleep.

Boom!Boom!Boom!

While half asleep and half awake, I heard the sound of punching sandbags... No, not punching sandbags!It was the sound of someone banging their head against the wall!

Waking up suddenly, the young Lin Sheng ran into her mother's room barefoot. Her mother was kneeling thinly on the bed, wearing a long cotton dress that was washed yellow.She was handcuffed to the iron railing at the head of the bed with one hand, and was smashing her head against the wall.

Old and new blood stains were mixed together on the gray and white wall, one black spot and one red spot.

"Mom!" he cried, throwing himself on his mother's head.

That weak female Omega, her face has become distorted in madness, her thin cheeks are deeply sunken, and only a pair of eyes can see the beauty of the past.

Lin Sheng hugged her tightly, and she buried her face in Lin Sheng's chest, howling loudly, each sound getting sharper.

"what--"

"let me go!"

"Let me die!"

She yelled, and her bony hands clenched fists and hammered Lin Sheng's back one after another.

Lin Sheng opened his eyes suddenly, the scorching sun outside made people dizzy, and his back was already wet with sweat.He sat up, took off the T-shirt that was attached to his body and threw it on the bed, holding the quilt for a while before recovering.

When did that happen, Lin Sheng couldn't remember clearly, it was probably six years old, or a little younger.

He hadn't dreamed of his mother for many years.

For as long as he can remember, his mother has been locked in the room.When she wasn't crazy, she held Xiao Lin Sheng on her lap to tell stories, and stroked Lin Sheng's face with her uncuffed hand.

Grandpa said that my mother is a useless person, and she made herself like this for an Alpha.Lin Sheng didn't understand what that meant. He only knew what the final mark was when he grew up.But as if other people's parents didn't get divorced, they could just wash the marks off and start over.

Then one day, Yan Leyan and his mother came to the house.Mama Yan went to her mother's room to sit for a long time, then she opened the handcuffs with the key she stole from her grandfather and took her away.

Yan Leyan waited with Lin Sheng all night.

The next morning, my mother came back. She seemed to have regained her life. She hugged Lin Sheng and kissed her. She had never been so happy.

Lin Sheng saw gauze on the back of her mother's neck, and the gauze was soaked red with blood.Only after his mother passed away did he know that it was called glandectomy, and it was an illegal operation performed in a black clinic.

After my grandfather came back, he had a big fight with his mother. Lin Sheng cried when he saw his grandfather who was as hard as iron.For Omega, removing the glands would be tantamount to suicide, but the mother said that the time she waited to die was the happiest time of her life because she was free.

Three months later, she died.

Lin Sheng didn't quite understand her mother's choice. What kind of relationship could only be relieved by death?Grandpa said it was because she was too cowardly.

So every time Lin Sheng didn't do well in training, grandpa would shake his fist and shout, "Don't be like your mother!"

Don't be cowardly like your mother, don't be useless like your mother, don't turn yourself into a lunatic for an Alpha like your mother!

Lin Sheng covered his face with his hands, his mother's crazy appearance and her mother's normal appearance in the last three months flashed alternately in his mind. He also had the best mother in the world for a short time.

However, it is probably better to never be loved than to have it briefly and lose it forever.

He took a deep breath, holding back the tears that were about to flow.

The doorbell seemed to ring for a long time, but he ignored it.After a few seconds of silence, the door was knocked vigorously again.

Lin Sheng put on a piece of clothing and went to open the door. The person who knocked was Qu Baiyuan.

Seeing him open the door, Qu Boyuan seemed relieved, "If you don't open the door again, I'm going to call for someone."

"what's up?"

His voice was a little hoarse, as if he had just cried.Qu Boyuan looked at his red eyes, softened his eyes, lowered his voice and said, "I heard you yell in the corridor just now."

"Oh," Lin Sheng was stunned, "I may have had a nightmare."

Qu Baiyuan looked at the room brightly illuminated by the sun, and reached out to touch Lin Sheng's forehead.His palm was dry and warm, and he touched it on his forehead, "Is it okay now?"

Lin Sheng nodded and said yes.

Qu Boyuan looked at him for a while, hesitant to speak, and then asked him: "Do you need inhibitors?"

It was only then that Lin Sheng remembered that today was the second day of estrus, he forgot to take the inhibitor, and the pheromone in the room was already so thick that it looked like a milk jug had been knocked over.

Bai Ji's voice came from the corridor, he was making a phone call while walking this way.Before Lin Sheng could react, he grabbed Qu Boyuan's arm and pulled him in, before closing the door with a bang.

Lin Sheng's mind was in a mess, and after doing this, he felt a little baffled, so he explained palely: "I don't want Bai Ji to find out."

After a pause, he continued: "I called Yan Leyan and asked him to bring one up for me."

He dialed Yan Leyan's number, but Yan Leyan's cell phone rang in the room.

Lin Sheng: "..."

He was a little at a loss while holding the phone, Qu Baiyuan approached him, and lightly touched his shoulder, "I'll get it for you, okay?"

Lin Sheng's heart was very empty, and he has been dizzy since he had a nightmare.

To be exact, he has been restless since the first night. Now his mind is full of the smell of high mountain black tea, and every cell in his body is yearning for it.He doesn't want inhibitors, he wants Qu Boyuan's pheromones.

The longing frightened him, and he didn't know what was wrong with him, like a traveler stranded in a desert longing for water.But Qu Boyuan controlled the pheromone very well this time, making his unsatisfied heart feel empty.

"I'll get it for you." Qu Boyuan repeated, turned and walked out.

Lin Sheng grabbed his arm in a strange way, lowered his head, not daring to look into his eyes, and approached tentatively.The tip of his nose rested on the side of his neck, Lin Sheng asked in a low voice, "Give me some of your pheromone, can you?"