elopement alone

"Who is Si Yuchen?" Wang Siyao asked in a low voice, tugging at the corner of the girl's clothes beside her.

The girl next to her showed a helpless expression, "Are you born in the 70s?"

"Post-70s? What happened to post-70s? Why do you have age discrimination?"

The girl's expression became even weaker, "Please—Wang Siyao, can you catch my point?"

"So what is your focus?" Wang Siyao continued.

"The point is," the girl said here, making a brief pause, as if to emphasize the importance of the next sentence, "Si Yuchen is a well-known t in the lala circle, and her ex-girlfriend recently attended the Zhang Yan in the singing show, Zhang Yan's boyfriend is Dayang, who was drafted by Mango Channel before. It's a pity, they were very affectionate at first, but now they parted ways. Si Yuchen also has a new girlfriend, who doesn't seem to be an insider. "

Wang Siyao nodded half-understood, "Oh... so, where did you know?"

"Weibo, Instagram, these are must-have apps for internet celebrities."

"Hey, you also know that I am semi-literate. With modern devices such as computers and mobile phones, I can turn them on and off to surf the Internet. Let alone social networking."

"In this way... You are born in the 50s, and even my mother, who is born in the 60s, has registered for Instagram for herself. Every day, she watches online red cats and red dogs and the like."

"..."

Chen Ningshu was still struggling with being recognized as Si Yuchen just now, how should he introduce her?

Of course, soon Chen Ningshu realized that his worries were unnecessary, because at this moment, Si Yuchen's friends suddenly sprung up like mushrooms after a spring rain, and surrounded Chen Ningshu.

Chen Ningshu felt that the current self was definitely no less than the monkey who sneaked up the tree in the zoo.

And the questions of Si Yuchen's friends are like giving monkeys bananas and melon seeds, rewards for correct answers.

"Si Yuchen, is this your new girlfriend?"

"Oh, you have a good eye."

"How did you meet?"

"It's hidden deep enough, no wonder I can't find you recently, so it's because I'm in love?"

These questions made Chen Ningshu a little at a loss, and there was Wang Siyao standing beside him. These "friendly" greetings undoubtedly made him come out of the closet in this bar.

Wang Siyao knew about her relationship with Zhang Congnan, and didn't know that she and Zhang Congnan had broken up.

So the most urgent thing is to ask Wang Siyao to explain clearly: I have separated from Zhang Congnan, and I am now in love with Si Yuchen.

In fact, there is no need to tell her, because I am not familiar with Wang Siyao, just a nodding acquaintance, but what if she publicizes this matter?

Chen Ningshu smiled wryly, isn't this considered coming out?

But the difference from being fleshed out is that the parents don't know about it.

So I went around in such a big circle, preferring to lose my peace, just because I was afraid that my family would know that I was gay.

Although he opened up the confusion in Yu Jie's heart, Chen Ningshu couldn't be happy at all.

When I said that I want to be with An Jing for a lifetime, I was just thinking about it.

I simply cannot give up everything I have, family, relationships, public opinion, work.

Although these are other people's opinions, I just can't ignore them.

I care a lot about other people's opinions, so my self-confidence and lack of communication are armor to protect myself from being seen through by others.

Love is not the only thing in life, and lovers are not 100% dependable. In addition to lovers, there are also social members such as friends, family members, and colleagues. In addition to love, there are also feelings such as family affection and friendship.

Chen Ningshu is trying to comfort himself, trying to tell himself that I am not a selfish person, a coward who dare not come out, or a coward who dare not give up his existing interests for the sake of peace.

"Ning Shu?" Si Yuchen's words brought Chen Ningshu back to reality from a brief distraction, and the greeting was kind and natural, as if it had been said thousands of times and hundreds of times.

"Ok?"

"Go and sit over there, by the way, who is this?" Si Yuchen looked at Wang Siyao.

"Oh, let me introduce you, this is Wang Siyao, my junior."

Chen Ningshu turned to introduce Si Yuchen to Wang Siyao, "This is Si Yuchen."

He didn't explain his relationship with him, but it was just a fluke mentality, and the ambiguous answer could make the other party not so sure that he was Si Yuchen's "girlfriend".

"So... sister, are you and Si Yuchen in love?" Wang Siyao's question was cautious, and Chen Ningshu could only secretly feel unlucky. Why did Wang Siyao know that Si Yuchen was T?

But think about it, it seems that there are really very few people who don't know what t is these days, right?

"Call your friends to come and play together?" Chen Ningshu chose to make a polite invitation in order to avoid answering the fact that she didn't want to admit.

"Okay, okay." Wang Siyao obviously did not expect that Chen Ningshu would invite her, and the joy was beyond words.

After drinking for three rounds, everyone at the table was having a good time, and Wang Siyao became more courageous.

Following the wine and lively atmosphere, Wang Siyao put his face close to Chen Ningshu's ear, "Sister, I didn't expect you to like girls, so are you bisexual?"

Chen Ningshu's blushing face became more obvious after hearing this sentence, "It should be."

"Then will you get married in the future? Or do you plan to stay with Si Yuchen forever?"

Wang Siyao's curiosity aroused a question that Chen Ningshu had deliberately avoided for a long time, and subconsciously replaced "Si Yuchen" in the sentence with "Quiet".

Will you get married in the future?Or do you intend to stay with An Jing forever?

"Of course I really want to be with her forever...but..." Chen Ningshu's hesitation made Wang Siyao understand her answer.

"Yes, the road of homosexuality is difficult, and it is normal for senior sister to have concerns."

Chen Ningshu wanted to refute: But no matter how difficult it is, I will still be with her for the rest of my life.

But she couldn't tell.

I don't think so, I just think homosexuality is difficult, I dare not make a lifetime commitment to my relationship, I dare not tell An Jing Yusheng firmly that I only love you.

Chen Ningshu's silence was a good substitute for an answer, and gave Wang Siyao a vague answer so she could persuade herself: I didn't say I wouldn't be with An Jing for the rest of my life, I didn't say I would let An Jing down.

Self-deception is the first choice for most people to avoid problems. Of course, Chen Ningshu will not take an unusual path.

"Then can you not tell others?" Chen Ningshu's request was very sincere, and he looked at Wang Siyao with a solemn expression.

"Well, I understand, don't worry, I won't tell others." Wang Siyao patted her shoulder lightly, expressing her understanding of her plea.

"But senior, your girlfriend is so handsome."

Chen Ningshu smiled helplessly, "Really."

Because of the participation of Wang Siyao and Wang Siyao, Chen Ningshu's "ugly daughter-in-law meets relatives and friends" Hongmen banquet was not as difficult as imagined.

Of course she didn't know that the mobile phone in the backpack that resonated with the deafening music in the bar was also vibrating constantly. After the No. 19 caller ID went dark, it couldn't light up again. Obviously, these [-] calls were missed. The caller came from the quietness that made Chen Ningshu dream about.

An Jing threw the phone on the bed and sighed heavily.

I have long felt that something is wrong with Chen Ningshu recently, probably something is hidden from me, but I, who has always been eloquent, just can't ask the question "What's wrong with you recently!".

I always want to show my best side in front of Chen Ningshu, not only because I don’t want to lose points for my image, but the reason is more important than this: I don’t want Chen Ningshu to feel pressured, I want Chen Ningshu to be happy every day. Had a great time.

If you don't tell me what happened, I won't ask you, and I should trust you to solve difficult problems.

Even though his reason told him so, An Jing was still upset.

This is not the first time she has had a relationship crisis with Chen Ningshu, but An Jing always feels that this time seems a bit unusual.

In the past, Chen Ningshu would never fail to answer his phone calls. Although Chen Ningshu was not clingy, independent, emotional and rational, he would never hide anything from himself, but this time, Chen Ningshu didn't tell himself anything.

Thinking about it this way, quietness made it even more difficult to fall asleep.

Instead of picking up the cell phone lying on the bed, how about making one last call?

Thinking of this, the phone lights up first with a tacit understanding.

Seeing the screen glowing with light, Quiet's mood suddenly became excited. Is it Chen Ningshu's call?

However, when she saw that name, her emotions suddenly dropped to freezing point.

After hesitating for a moment, he pressed the connect button.

"Hey."

"It's so late, haven't you slept yet? Will it disturb you?" The words in the receiver accurately conveyed the message that the other party wanted to tell me——

In the middle of the night, neither you nor I slept. I want to tell you something about me, maybe something that is difficult to say during the day.

"It's alright, tell me."

"Are you free? Come out for a drink?"

An Jing fell into hesitation, going out with other women in the middle of the night?

"Is it inconvenient? Is Chen Ningshu here?"

When she heard these three words, An Jing laughed at her own hesitation. Now that Chen Ningshu has disappeared, do I still have to watch for her?It's just going out for a glass of wine with the previous ambiguous partner.

"It's okay, I'll go."

When Chen Ningshu came home, An Jing had just left the house for 10 minutes, and the lampshade of the chandelier at the head of the bed was still warm. The casual touch let her know that An Jing had only left the house not long ago.

Open the backpack only to find that there are so many missed calls?

correct!

Chen Ningshu slapped his forehead suddenly, remembering that he forgot to tell Jing Jing that he was going out at night, so... Jing Jing must be very anxious and angry, right?

Did you go out to find yourself?

When I called back, the cold female voice on the phone reminded me, "The number you dialed is temporarily unanswered, please try again later."

It is a meaningful sentence.

Is it turned off, or not in the service area, or is it blacklisted, or is it hung up?

Chen Ning has no way of understanding.

What a cunning answer.

So Chen Ningshu naturally couldn't figure out An Jing's mood at the moment.

After Si Yuchen sent Chen Ningshu home, he said to Wang Siyao in the back seat, "Where is your home? I'll take you back."

Wang Siyao didn't answer her right away, but said something irrelevant, "How long have you been with senior sister?"

"Not long ago, the latest thing."

"Do you really like Senior Sister?"

"I really like it. Why, test me for your senior sister?"

"No, I'm just asking casually. But... how do girls fall in love with each other?"

"Huh? Just fall in love like that."

"Aren't you afraid that your family will know?"

"This one……"

Si Yuchen's deliberately protracted ending let Wang Siyao know: I asked a little too much.

"Didn't you mean to take me home? This road goes straight down, turn left, and at the intersection is my home."

Wang Siyao tactfully avoided his own question, which also liberated Si Yuchen.

Wang Siyao, who was sitting in the back, carefully watched Si Yuchen's back in the driver's seat.

Senior sister broke up with Zhang Congnan and fell in love with the woman in front of her. Why?

Will there be feelings between girls like that between men and women?

"is it here?"

Si Yuchen's words brought Wang Siyao back to his senses, "Oh yes, thank you."

"It's okay, go home early."

Wang Siyao looked at Si Yuchen's car speeding past, and stood at the gate of the community thoughtfully, refusing to go in.

Zhang Congnan is a very good senior, with good character, grades, and personality. Could it be that Si Yuchen just now is more attractive than the senior?

Hey, senior sister's life is really good, men and women take it all, wouldn't it be possible for people all over the world to fall in love with her?

It's so unfair...

Cen Ying opened the door for Jing Jing, and Jing Jing saw this woman whom she hadn't seen for a long time and had intimate contact with several times.

"Have you been drinking?" An Jing frowned, the smell of alcohol was already the best answer.

"Drink a little, I'm in a bad mood."

Cen Ying gave her the slippers, as if she realized that her actions were inappropriate, "Ah, Chen Ningshu won't suspect what else you and I have?"

She smiled quietly and speechlessly, "It's okay, she's not at home."

"Oh...so that's the case. Then when she comes home and sees you not there, will she be anxious?"

Quiet and silent, put on slippers, and put the bag you brought with you on the cabinet in the entrance.

"So I'll stay for a while and go."

"Would you like something to drink? Coffee, beer, cola, juice?" Cen Ying walked to the kitchen naturally, opened the refrigerator door, looked at the surviving food in it, and felt sorry for what she said just now, "Um, only iced coffee and beer are left."

"It's okay, just drink water."

"Afraid of your wife's inspection?"

When Cen Ying returned to the living room, she held a glass in her hand, which was filled with mineral water just taken from the water dispenser.

"Yeah, and it's so late, if you get drunk, it's bad. Ning Shu...although she's not good at talking, she's actually a very sensitive person."

The quiet and relaxed tone made Cen Ying mistakenly think that the two of them have always been so pure, and the friendly tone is even like a blank friendship.

"What are you busy with recently?"

"Work, relationship, dating. Hey, I'm not busy, I'm confused, it's no different from usual."

Cen Ying picked an orange from the fruit plate and handed it to Jing Jing, "Fruit?"

Jing Jing took it, picked up the fruit knife, and skillfully cut a few marks that were just right, not too deep or too shallow. Holding the golden orange in his left hand, he quickly peeled off the skin of the orange with his right hand, and split the orange open, petal by petal. Put the petals on the plate, take out a few toothpicks from the toothpick box, and insert them on the oranges.

"Eat."

"Very skilled."

"Yeah, I like oranges."

"Well, I know." The answer was smooth, but An Jing fell into a brief embarrassment.

Cen Ying was also regretting her own stupidity, why would she inadvertently reveal the behavior of "I secretly investigated you" when she could pretend that the two of them were just ordinary friends.

Jing Jing continued to talk to himself as if he hadn't heard it just now: "Well, if you give me a catty of oranges, I can eat them all at once."

"However, you called me over at night, is there something wrong?"

Finally got to the point, but Cen Ying didn't know when she no longer had the desire to talk out before making a phone call.

"It's nothing important, but I feel a little depressed and want to talk to someone."

"Ah."

Jing Jing didn't ask any more questions, and Cen Ying got used to the lengthy silence.

The two quickly ate an orange, An Jing picked up another one, quickly cut the skin, broke it, and peeled it off.

There was a tacit understanding and they didn't say anything, as if they were saying goodbye to the past.

Do you say goodbye to the one-night love between two people by eating oranges?

Thinking of this, Cen Ying felt a bit of bitterness in her heart.

Our meeting was considered a very romantic event, but is the farewell so embarrassing and mediocre?

It is so mediocre that parents can only talk about useless topics in short.

Work, relationship, life.

Sure enough, he just regarded me as a passer-by in his life.

"It's getting late, I'm going back." The round clock hanging right above the TV sounded appropriately, and the hour hand stopped at the number "11". Jing Jing also planned to end this late-night date.

"Well, I'll take you downstairs." Cen Ying stood up, took out a tissue from the tissue box, and hurriedly wiped her hands.

"No, the car is parked downstairs at your house."

An Jing walked to the door while talking, put on her shoes, picked up her bag, and said to Cen Ying standing next to the shoe cabinet.

Cen Ying stood in front of the sofa. Although she wanted to keep the other party, she also knew that she had no position to say such words without shame and morality.

"Then, be careful on the road, and send a text message when you get home."

"Ah."

The door was slammed shut, and the room, which was barely alive just now, suddenly fell into a lifeless state.

He opened the door quietly and carefully, and when he saw the blue canvas shoes at the door, he knew that Chen Ningshu had come back.

"where did you go?"

Chen Ningshu came out of the bathroom, wearing a large bathrobe, with wet hair sticking to his head.

"I came out without drying my hair anyway. Turn on the air conditioner so I don't catch a cold."

Jing Jing kept silent about her whereabouts, and Chen Ningshu stopped asking, "It's okay, it's already June, and it's been so hot recently."

"Where did you go today?" An Jing sat on the bed after taking a shower, and said to Chen Ningshu who was leaning on his clothes and reading a book.

"Going out to chat with a school girl, I forgot to tell you." Chen Ningshu still didn't move his eyes from the book.

"Remember to tell me next time, I have called you so many times and didn't answer, I thought something was wrong with you."

"Ah."

Chen Ningshu put down the book, and finally set his eyes on An Jing.

"Sleep?"

"it is good."

Lying quietly beside Chen Ningshu, his right hand naturally wrapped around her waist, and his head rubbed against the other's shoulder.

When taking the next step, Chen Ningshu said, "Don't make trouble, go to sleep, tomorrow is Monday."

No further text.

Jing Jing didn't answer, and after Chen Ningshu finished speaking, he gradually realized that something was wrong with him.

For example, a cheating wife refuses her husband's request, a woman who has never used contraceptive measures proposes that a man should wear a condom, and the child in her belly is not the offspring of the man beside her.

When these thoughts appeared in his mind, Chen Ningshu broke out in a cold sweat.

"Good night." Quiet kissed her forehead in a very gentlemanly manner, and lay down on the pillow again. It didn't take long before the sound of even breathing came from beside her.

The cold sweat gradually receded, but Chen Ningshu was still terrified. For some reason, he just felt that Quiet understood.

Jing Jing knew her crime, even if Jing Jing didn't say anything, even if Jing Jing was as usual.