Don't Hide From Me!

Seeing the smile on Lu Xun's face, Ye Yao was a little confused.

...Is it because he was too angry and laughed back after being stimulated, or did he simply lose the ability to manage his expressions?

Probably didn't hear clearly.

"Did you hear it wrong?" Ye Yao decided to say it again cruelly, "I like men."

"I heard, I heard, you like men—" Lu Xun suddenly paused, his eyes widened slightly, "You like men!"

At this moment, Lu Xun finally realized the meaning behind this sentence.

Lu Xun's hand tightened unconsciously, pinching Ye Yao's hand which was held in his palm.

Ye Yao wanted to pull out his hand, Lu Xun seemed to be awakened, and relaxed the strength of his hand, but he still held it, and did not let Ye Yao take it out smoothly.

"You said before that having physical contact with gay men, even just touching your fingers, will make you sick," Ye Yao said.

"I..." Lu Xun spoke with difficulty, and the temperature of his hands began to drop, but he still held Ye Yao stubbornly.

"Let me take it easy." Lu Xun said in a muffled voice.

Thoughts in Lu Xun's mind were chaotic, and he couldn't help thinking of those childhood memories that made him sick until now.

When Lu Xun was young, his parents' careers were on the rise, so they were too busy to take care of him.

Lu's father and Lu's mother wanted to hire a nanny. Grandpa Lu, who knew about this, took Lu Xun to his side to discipline him while cursing.

For a long time when he was acquainted with the world as a child, Lu Xun followed his grandfather and was instilled with all kinds of useful or useless knowledge, and a large part of it was about how disgusting gay men are.

Grandpa Lu's younger brother fell in love with a man when he was young, and ran away from home because of that man.The two brothers hadn't seen each other for a long time, and when the younger brother finally returned home after many years, he was terribly thin. Only then did Grandpa Lu realize that his younger brother had been cheated not only of his relationship but also of his money, and had been wandering outside for many years, so he immediately cursed in anger.

From then on, the old man hated the male vixen who would seduce men. He would never allow his grandson to go astray, so he frightened Lu Xun in various ways.

Lu Xun knew a lot of miscellaneous things when he was a child. For example, gay men are more likely to be infected with AIDS. At that time, there was no good way to treat it. Low resistance caused various diseases and eventually the whole body rotted.

For example, two men go to bed, and finally the whole room is filled with disgusting things, on the ground and on the walls.

Even now, when Lu Xun thinks back to the pictures of those smelly rooms, he still feels sick to his stomach.

For example, feelings that cannot be protected by the law are prone to scumbags. The one who cheats today and the other tomorrow, there are not many good ones.

After Grandpa Lu's various generalized guidance, Lu Xun succeeded in making him firm on the path of being a straight man.

It is not that Lu Xun did not raise doubts, but Grandpa Lu said to him earnestly: In life, what is important is the harmony of yin and yang. Only when they are in harmony can Dzogchen be achieved. What good end can two positive poles have when they communicate in depth?This is the truth passed down from the ancestors!

The best relationship between two men is friends, confidants, and the exchange of souls!Can anything be more intimate than soul-to-soul communication?

Lu Xun once thought it made sense, brothers don’t need so much physical contact, what they pay attention to is spiritual communication, when they want to make contact, it’s almost enough to hook their shoulders and shoulders, and it’s okay to go deeper.

Later, when he met Ye Yao, Lu Xun gradually began to feel that this statement was not necessarily correct.

If you are a good brother, you should try to understand each other as much as possible, and tolerate everything about each other.

If he didn't hold Ye Yao's hand, how would he know the temperature of Ye Yao's palm?If he doesn't hug Ye Yao's waist, how can he know if Ye Yao has been hungry and thin recently?If he didn't help each other with Ye Yao, how could he see Ye Yao's different expression when he lost his mind?

What the old man said may not be all correct, some experiences are outdated, and need to be viewed with a dialectical perspective.

He and Ye Yao are best friends.

But now Ye Yao told him that he likes men.

... Ye Yao likes men.

Fortunately, fortunately, he is not married to someone else.

"Have you figured it out yet?" Ye Yao looked at Lu Xun's strange expression, and smiled without audible sadness or joy, "If you want to go out now, I won't blame you."

Lu Xun's palms were sweating finely, sticking sticky to Ye Yao's skin, making him very uncomfortable.

Lu Xun's voice was still muffled: "Is that why you alienate me?"

"Isn't that reason enough?" Ye Yao's voice was very calm, "I thought you would never be friends with a gay man, you would feel disgusted."

This is a fact, Lu Xun did not say a word.

Ye Yao continued to speak slowly: "...I want to keep it a secret, so stay away. I don't want you to think of all the contacts with me before, so disgusting that you can't eat. I appeared in your dream, and that dream become a nightmare."

Lu Xun held Ye Yao's hand tightly again.

Indescribable emotions surged in his heart, he seemed to watch Ye Yao step into the quagmire of his mind, that area was dirty and chaotic in his heart, and the stench was unbearable, he would never be with this area People on the swamp have a deep connection.

But now Ye Yao walked inside.

"If you have any thoughts, just tell me the truth, there is no need to hide it now." Ye Yao finally said.

"I..." Lu Xun raised his eyes with complicated emotions, and looked at the familiar face.

Every line on this face is memorized by him, making him happy when he sees it.

Just like looking at Ye Yao now, he couldn't ignore the joy in his heart.

Ye Yao is Ye Yao, even if Ye Yao rolls around in this swamp, he is still fresh and refined Ye Yao, not smelly at all, how can he be like everyone else?

Ye Yao was waiting for Lu Xun's answer, he was waiting for the result of his trial.

The judge who could pronounce his punishment was frowning in thought.

"You said before that you didn't want to hold hands with me. The reason is that my hands don't look like girls. Your excuses are all fake." Lu Xun frowned and said, "I can hold your hand casually in the future, right?"

Ye Yao: "..."

What the hell is this man thinking?

Ye Yao couldn't help it anymore: "Are you too stimulated, are you crazy now? Do you want me to call 120 for you?"

"I'm serious." Lu Xun said sullenly, "No matter what your sexual orientation is... I don't want the relationship between the two of us to be alienated."

Ye Yao was taken aback, his nose a little sore.

He got the only exception again, and Lu Xun was even willing to make an exception for him to this extent.

Ye Yao said it was impossible not to be moved. He was about to say something when he saw Lu Xun's face suddenly darken.

"Why did you find out that you like men? Since when did you find out that you like men? Did you like them since you were a child?" Lu Xun spoke quickly, "The damn male high school student still made a fuss and asked you to touch his abs, don't you like it? He is like this!"

Ye Yao: "... that's enough, don't use your power of association everywhere."

Ye Yao didn't want Lu Xun to misunderstand that they had been hiding when they first made friends, so he said frankly, "I didn't discover it until I was a child and went to college. I was indeed a straight man in high school."

What's the meaning?Doesn't this mean that after Ye Yao went to college, he met someone he was attracted to, and Ye Yao was so excited that he turned himself over!

Who is it!

Lu Xun was so angry that his head was dizzy, he stared at Ye Yao viciously, trying to see through Ye Yao's brain through Ye Yao's eyes, and beat Ye Yao out of his heart.

Lu Xun gritted his teeth: "Who made you realize that you suddenly like men?"

Ye Yao looked away a little guilty: "It's all over, don't think so much."

Ye Yao is even still defending that person.

Lu Xun felt like he was about to explode.

When Ye Yao was young, he liked girls who were as gentle as water, and the one who bent Ye Yao was probably a boy who was as gentle as water.

Because Ye Yao turned from a straight man, and his personality and various small details are too straight on weekdays, Lu Xun subconsciously classified Ye Yao as the top, and thus imagined the image of the boy who turned Ye Yao.

It must be white and thin, with eyes like autumn water, and he speaks softly and never fights. Anyway, he is the exact opposite type of him.

Lu Xun was feeling bored, he had an anger that came from nowhere, making him eager to correct this mistake.

Ye Yao used to be a straight man, but he was bent by a man, so he may not be able to go straight again.

How do you know if you don't try?In this society, it is much better to be a straight man than a crooked man.

Lu Xun calmed down: "You like men, then have you seen love action movies played by two men? Do you know how they go to bed?"

Ye Yao: "...No, I don't know the details."

Lu Xun breathed a sigh of relief: "After you meet him, you may not like men anymore."

In the afternoon, Ye Yao will continue to make up lessons, so Lu Xun ordered two takeaways to have lunch with Ye Yao.

It's been a long time since they had lunch together, Lu Xun took a bite of his meal, and secretly glanced at Ye Yao who was opposite, his body was filled with the joy of regaining what was lost.

When it was time to make up lessons in the afternoon, Ye Yao and the others were making up lessons in the living room, while Lu Xun was sitting in the bedroom, listening to the noise outside and downloading some... double male love action movies on his phone.

Looking at the cover on the phone, Lu Xun closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths.

The food that he ate at noon seemed to pour into his throat again, and Lu Xun felt very uncomfortable. He seemed to have returned to his childhood, and returned to those disgusting and frightening news and pictures.

The mobile phone in his hand became disgusting because of browsing this website. In the past, Lu Xun would have quit quickly and replaced the mobile phone, but now he gritted his teeth and clicked download.

Ye Yao probably had the illusion that he could accept men because he automatically beautified the fact that two men had sex in his imagination because he didn't know or understand.

When he reads it with Ye Yao... Ye Yao will understand.

After a day of make-up lessons, after eating and taking a shower, Ye Yao went to the next door and saw Lu Xun again.

Lu Xun also just took a shower, and his hair was still wet.He is tall and handsome, he is the walking hormone in the eyes of countless people, and the object of his dreams.

When Lu Xun looked up and smiled at him, Ye Yao heard his own heartbeat in that second.

The reunion after being separated for a period of time is like a small farewell to a couple, and it is more like a firewood than a newlywed.For him, a crush, what's coming may be the next time he gets out of control.

He didn't tell Lu Xun all his secrets. Lu Xun made an exception for him and accepted him as a gay as a friend, but what happened after Lu Xun found out who he actually liked?

At noon, he was happy because of Lu Xun's willingness to accept, and deliberately forgot about this dangerous bomb that might be about to explode.

"Come on, I'll watch it with you." Lu Xun patted the chair beside him and called Ye Yao to come over.

Ye Yao walked over and sat down: "What are you looking at?"

Lu Xun put the phone on the table, between him and Ye Yao: "A small movie that can give you a lot of insight."

The movie plays slowly, this kind of movie will not pay too much attention to the plot, and will soon enter the main line that everyone wants to watch.

Ye Yao recalled what Lu Xun said before, and understood.

Lu Xun was thinking about straightening him up.

The homophobic straight guy he has a crush on, sits next to him and watches gay little movies with him in order to straighten him up.

This sounds like a ridiculous joke.

In the film, the two male protagonists met, one touched the other's Adam's apple, Lu Xun's face turned pale.

"Forget it, don't read it." Ye Yao said softly, "I don't think I'll come back."

Lu Xun didn't answer the question, he moved close to Ye Yao's ear: "Can you imagine, you touch that man's Adam's apple?"

When speaking, the air flow into the ears brought a tingling itch, Ye Yao turned his head slightly, and saw the protruding Adam's apple on Lu Xunxiu's long neck.

This is one of Lu Xun's masculine signs, of course he is willing to touch and feel the sliding of that Adam's apple when he swallows.

He also hoped that Lu Xun could touch his.

"...Yes." Ye Yao said softly.

Lu Xun turned his head and looked at Ye Yao briefly, with surprise and faint anger in his eyes.

"Yes?" Lu Xun suppressed his voice.

"Why not?" Ye Yao asked back.

"Okay, very good." Lu Xun suddenly turned his head, "Then look at the back."

The plot is developing rapidly, the male protagonist No. [-] has invited the male protagonist No. [-] to his house, they are drinking wine, the male protagonist No. [-] does not know whether it is intentional or unintentional, shakes his hand, and spills red wine on his white shirt superior.

The white fabric was soaked with red wine, and something could be seen under the shirt.

"Don't be afraid, I'll wipe it clean for you." The male protagonist No. [-] took a paper towel and put it on the wet part, and wiped it gently.

The male protagonist No. [-] snorted softly, and fell forward, falling into the arms of the male protagonist No. [-].

The male protagonist Zero's eyes were blurred: "Why... are you so good at wiping? I like it so much."

This plot is too outrageous for Lu Xun, goose bumps came up watching him.Normally, he would have left quickly, and then poured ice water on himself to relieve his discomfort.

But now that Lu Xun's anger has suppressed other emotions, he approached Ye Yao again, and asked coldly, "How about this, can you accept touching other men like this?"

Under Lu Xun's gaze, Ye Yao slightly lost his mind.

Lu Xun has a good figure. He is diligent in exercising and doesn't like to eat junk food. He has no excess fat on his body. His muscles are smooth but he doesn't look scary.

The protagonists in the movie were replaced by his and Lu Xun's faces in Ye Yao's mind. He splashed wet clothes, and Lu Xun took a tissue to help him dry.

They will have some kind of contact, he likes this kind of contact, but as a friend, he is not qualified to ask Lu Xun to touch him like that.

Ye Yao pursed his lips, and said what was in his heart: "To be honest...I prefer another way."

Lu Xun's face softened slightly.

He knew that Ye Yao couldn't accept it, and this film was not in vain.

The two protagonists who have reached this level hugged each other and stumbled into the bedroom.

Seeing this, Lu Xun couldn't help himself. He drank two big sips of water to calm his shock, but it didn't help much.

Lu Xun subconsciously moved towards Ye Yao, his arm touched Ye Yao's arm, just a little physical contact relieved the discomfort caused by the little movie.

Lu Xun put his arms around Ye Yao's shoulders and put Ye Yao in his arms.

Ye Yao: "..."

"Don't move, watch with me." Lu Xun took a breath of the air around Ye Yao, feeling better, and then raised his eyes to look at the things on the phone screen.

The male protagonist Lingyi has already entered the topic, and Lu Xun's head hurts from watching it. He quickly looked away and continued to try to straighten Ye Yao.

"Think about it, can you really accept a man under you? They are tough, and you have everything on them, and there is nothing complementary." Lu Xun said, "What most of them pursue is not Spiritual understanding, but physical pleasure."

"...Only pursuing the body?" Ye Yao whispered.

Will it really feel that way?Just thinking about being with Lu Xun already made him very happy mentally, didn't he expect it to be even better?

If he can, he will also want to try.

It's a pity that he has no chance, Lu Xun is really a straight man.

Lu Xun felt that his efforts should have paid off, so he quickly struck while the iron was hot: "Yes, there is no noble spiritual pursuit, it should not be. Besides, men are not suitable, and they don't do that kind of thing there. It will definitely make you very tired. , how can it work?"

Seeing that Ye Yao's expression was fine, Lu Xun said what he wanted to say the most: "We don't like men anymore, okay?"

Ye Yao sighed.

He vaguely felt a little bit of Lu Xun's thoughts. Lu Xun probably felt that even if he was gay, he was still the one above. The difference between him and a straight man was that he was dating a man. No wonder Lu Xun accepted it so quickly.

But after watching this video, Ye Yao knew clearly that he was not.

As long as he speaks out, Lu Xun will be scared away.

That's good, so he doesn't have to work hard to hide his liking.

"Whether I'm tired or not...it's not a question I should consider," Ye Yao said slowly, "It's a question that another person should consider."

Lu Xun froze: "...what do you mean?"

"You made a mistake about Lu Xun," Ye Yao said flatly, "I like being the next one."

Lu Xun's expression went blank for a moment, he stared blankly at Ye Yao for a moment, and for some reason, the roots of his ears were stained a little red.

Ye Yao looked at Lu Xun in silence, and when Lu Xun came back to his senses, he stood up abruptly, and ran away in a panic.

Ye Yao sat in the room where he was alone, paused and quit the movie that was still playing on Lu Xun's phone, then stood up and walked out of the room where Lu Xun lived.

Lu Xun should not come to him again in the future.

Ye Yao closed the door, recalling the scene of Lu Xun leaving.

When Lu Xun finally left, he was so angry that his face turned red.