Mr. Chen doesn't love me

I looked at the ring on my hand, the diamonds gleamed in the sun.

At this moment, I want to use this ring to trap this gentle man for the rest of my life.My chest was heaving a little, and my heart was filled with turbulent waves.

I want to talk.

I want to tell this man everything I think.

He was still holding my hand at this time, and his cold palm was even a little wet.I stared at his face and noticed that his ears were a little red.

For some reason, the atmosphere suddenly became a little awkward.

I made an inappropriate joke.

"Cough, Chen Yi, you're drowning for three thousand and just take one scoop. The ring was given to me. What about your other lovers?"

I know that his return to China means that he should get rid of those Yingyingyanyans in country M.

I looked up at him, his face was not very good-looking.

The vibe got weirder and I didn't think the joke was funny.

"Hey, it's okay, I know all about it. I know you have a woman outside—"

"Su Qing!"

He yelled this sentence.

It was the first time I heard him speak so loudly.He used to speak softly, like a little cotton.

He stood up suddenly, and the chair rubbed against the ground, making a loud noise.He tugged at his tie and pushed his hair back.

He frowned tightly.I was frightened, he was so fierce for the first time.

I have been afraid to speak.He just stood there.After a long time, he recovered and sat down slowly.

He stared at the rings on our hands, stroked my ring finger tenderly, and asked me softly: "Mr. Su, can we talk?"

I nodded immediately.

He drove the car all the way to Shenzhen Bay Park.

There are no people there, very quiet, suitable for talking.

I sat on a bench with him.The dog was tied to a telephone pole by me, and it was playing on the lawn by itself.

Looking at Hong Kong from here, the high-rise buildings become small dots in the field of vision.Breeze and clear water, a few seagulls hovering.The median strip between walkways is covered with flowers.When the wind blows, the petals are still swaying.

The views here are great.We also sit very close together.

He leaned back in his chair and lowered his voice to ask me, "Why do you think I'm having an affair?"

The seagull in the distance tapped the water.

I touched the ring on my hand.

I decided to tell it all.

"Chen Yi, to be honest, I have always felt that you don't love me. I have never met your colleagues and friends in country M. I don't even know where your company in country M is. There is no me in your circle of friends." And you always don’t come home, I sometimes think, where do you live if you don’t come home? Then I found a woman’s hair on your shirt, and I understood, I’m just your lover one."

"Besides, what hurt me the most was when Yuan Bao got sick, and you didn't let me get in the car. Are you afraid that I'll find out that you have another lover? That time when I was sick, I borrowed a car from you, and you left the car cabinet behind. Locked. Actually, I already knew it at that time. You really don't have to do it."

After I finished speaking, he was silent for a long time.

He took a cigarette from his suit pocket, but for some reason he stuffed it back.

After a long time, he opened his mouth to speak, and his voice was suddenly a little hoarse.

"Why didn't you tell me? You feel uncomfortable, why don't you lose your temper with me?"

I laughed and decided to tell him all about it.

"I dare not ask you, I am afraid that if I ask, we may say goodbye completely. I also dare not lose my temper with you. If you are not satisfied, you may not want me. Be a lover, be a lover. It's good to be around you."

"Chen Yi, I know you are rich. Not only are you very rich, but you are also proficient in everything. After all, if we divide by the standards of the past, we are not of the same class, and we are not in the right family. I am just a little teacher. The family conditions are also poor, and I don't know anything except teaching. Chen Yi, I have always been inferior, and I think I am not good enough for you."

He kept staring at me while I was talking.

After I finished speaking, he gently held my hand, and I noticed that his hand was shaking a little.

He leaned back in the chair, staring at the ring on his ring finger, wondering what he was thinking.

I guess he has something to say.

After a long time, he slowly closed his eyes.

At this time, another seagull came to the surface of the water, and the two birds were playing on the water. I knew they were a pair.

"Su Qing, what do you think of me?"

I froze, this question is quite stupid, I really don't know how to answer him.

He didn't make things difficult for me either.

"You once said that there are no bad people in this world, only good people who have gone astray. Then would you forgive a person who has gone astray?"

I nodded firmly.

"Chen Yi, if you are talking about treating me as one of many lovers, I have forgiven you the moment I put on the ring."

He smiled.

He wrapped his arms around my shoulders, and I leaned my head lightly against him.

The two seagulls on the water flew away, and I think they looked quite happy.

"Su Qing, you are right. I am a cold-blooded animal in human skin. I have been like this since childhood."

I trembled and quickly squeezed his cold hand.

"Su Qing, I'm not an entrepreneur at all. I'm just a beast in an entrepreneur's shell. I have money, but it's not real money. All I do is illegal."

I looked up at him in shock.

He wanted to reach out to rub my hair, but stopped in mid-air.He looked a little lonely.

I was really shocked, but it hurt to see him like this.

I quickly reached out and rubbed against his palm.

He smiled.

"The car cabinet is locked because there are guns hidden in it. Many cabinets at home are also locked, and the locks are very tight. I am afraid that I will scare you. When Yuan Bao was ill, I dare not let you get in my car. Everything in the car is locked." Yes. You will be sad when you see it. The people in this circle, on the surface, are the elites of the upper class, but behind the scenes, they are doing some deals that are not on the table. Most of the trading places are in the land of romance, so the clothes will always stick to women hair, but I promise I didn't touch them."

"Su Qing, in fact, these days are very tiring. Sometimes I worry that someone will harm you in my sleep. I can only sleep peacefully in China. I can't let them know you, I have to hide you. So I I can't take you to meet my colleagues. They have nothing to see, you will know when you see them, they are like me, they are cold-blooded animals in human skin, and they will only dirty your eyes when they meet."

"When I met you, I knew that I might fall into your hands, but Mr. Su, I am willing. Sure enough, after being with you for a long time, I got tired of this kind of life. So I went back to China and opened a A decent company leaves a way out for itself.”

"It's not easy to get out of there easily. I'm afraid they will threaten me with you, so you'd better not know anything. You can't hire a nanny at home because you are afraid that you will be in danger. The day you came to country M, I even Don’t dare to let the driver take you home.”

"My status in that circle is a little higher, and I have some power in my hands. So I also encountered danger later. But I have never thought about how to explain the injury to you. I am afraid that you will notice it. In fact, I lied to you. Without you, companies in country M don't have the problem of bankruptcy at all. It's just that I don't want those things anymore, and I gave up all of them."

"Su Qing, I'm not sad about Yuan Bao, but I also blame myself. I made you sad. I didn't want its death to happen, but there was nothing I could do at that time."

"You said you are not good enough for me, nonsense. You are an excellent teacher of the people who loves life. You are so optimistic, and all the dirty things in the world have a good side in your eyes. Your emotions are always so full, Obviously there are many people who have nothing to do with you in this world, but you still worry about them and shed tears for them. To be honest, I am returning to China now because of you. Probably because of your ideological and political education."

"I'm an orphan. I grew up in that circle and did a lot of things that violate social morality. After all, I'm just the cold-blooded animal you call me, a scum in a suit and tie."

"Su Qing, you are wrong."

"Su Qing, I, Chen Yi, are not good enough for you."

I hugged him tightly.

He buried his head in my neck.

His shoulders were shaking.

The sea breeze caresses us gently, caressing our lovers who are a bit bumpy in love.

The rows of buildings in the distance are lit up and colorful.The sun hangs in the west and does not set for a long time, the sky is dyed with red clouds, and the water surface is red.

The number of people in the park gradually increased, and there were sounds of children playing and chasing.

Chen Yi and I stopped embracing each other, but sat on the bench with our fingers interlocked. Neither of us spoke, but the atmosphere was not awkward at all. The smell of tobacco on his body was reassuring.

The glow of the sky enveloped us.

We sat for a long time.

Then I clasped his palm, "Chen Yi, don't keep that dog anymore."

I said this with a smile.

"Let me help you raise it."