Cheating, but not quite

Bu Duping's surgery was scheduled for three days later.

In the past few days, Cang Xingyi has fully fulfilled the duties that a "prospective daughter-in-law" should have.Asking about Buduping's health, assisting medical staff as a family member, accompanying Buduping in various preoperative examinations, and managing preoperative diet and rest.The level of patience and carefulness made Jianhan feel ashamed, and began to seriously doubt who is Buduping's own son.

On the morning of the operation, after Bu Duping was sent to the operating room, Jian Han and Cang Xingyi sat on a bench in the corridor outside waiting for the results of the operation.

According to the doctor, the operation can be completed in as little as half an hour, and as long as three hours or more, which is within the normal time range. It is recommended that they do their own things.However, when Han returned to Chi County this time, he was here to accompany Buduping, and he didn't stay outside the operating room, so he didn't know what he could do for a while.

"Although I know very well in my heart that whether I sit here or not has no effect on the process and results of the operation." Bu Jianhan rested his chin on his hands and sat beside Cang Xingyi in a daze, "But I know that I have been sitting here all the time." Waiting here, until the moment before the general anesthesia loses consciousness, he will feel something in his heart."

Cang Xingyi unscrewed a bottle of water and handed it to him: "Dad has always been in good health, and it's just a minimally invasive surgery. Didn't the doctor say that the risk is not high, and the possibility of recovery is very high. If all goes well, the surgery After a week, I will be discharged from the hospital and return to normal life."

"Thank you for your comfort." Jian Han took the water bottle, took a sip, and sighed, "I just have a feeling in my heart, which is not very good. In fact, I often feel that I hate him, but when I saw him entering the operating room just now Look, I feel sad again."

Cang Xingyi: "He is your father after all."

"That's not the reason..." Jian Han said slowly in a low voice, "I'm different from Buduping. He attaches great importance to blood and geography. It is a matter of course and an obligation to treat them well in a way. But for me, whether it is blood relationship or geographical location, these things are not farts.”

"I can stay under the same roof with another person for several years and say no more than ten words, and I can also ignore my long-estranged blood relatives. I have a bad temper, and there is only one person, Buduhei, who makes me put up with him so long."

"I despise his stubbornness and paranoia, I am tired of his ignorance and self-righteousness, I hate him so much that he always threatens me, pushes me to give up my insistence on ideals, and blends into boring groups, and tries every means to make me a mediocre ordinary person. He felt the right life. When I was persecuted by him the most painful time, I even thought about why I have a father, if only he died when I was born, or suddenly died suddenly."

"But I have tortured each other with him for so long, and I have never once been able to really make up my mind and tell him to sever relations."

Seeing that Han said this, he screwed on the lid of the water bottle, put it aside, and buried his face in his palm.

"He is the only person in this world who loves me so much."

His voice trembled.

"When I mention him to others, I always say that he is unreasonable, how funny his stubbornness and rigidity are. But I don't think so completely in my heart." Bu Han sniffed his nose hard, "As it is now, Sitting outside the operating room, I seemed to understand a little bit how he was waiting for me to come out of the emergency room... I have never told anyone about this before, and I have no vengeance."

"When I was in high school, I was pranked by my classmates and locked in the basement. It happened to be the beginning of the long vacation, and no one noticed that I was trapped. I was locked up for six months in the dark basement alone. God. At that time, students were not allowed to bring mobile phones to school, and I couldn't contact the outside world. My dad was the first to find out that I was missing. He looked for me like crazy, and finally found the basement of the school... I don’t know how he did it, he is an Omega, he forced open the anti-theft door in the basement and rescued me from it.”

"I was passed out and didn't know what happened. My aunt relayed it to me later. She said my dad carried me to the nearest hospital, put me in the emergency room, and sat in the emergency room. Waiting for me outside, going in from me, crying until I was sent out. My dad is a very strong person. My aunt said that she had never seen my dad cry like that in her life. Even when he divorced my mother, When I was taken away by my mother, he never shed a single tear..."

Seeing Han took a deep breath.

"My aunt said that my dad was crying so hard that he couldn't speak clearly, and he still swore to God that as long as I could come back alive, he would support me for the rest of my life. He said that as long as I survived, I would do whatever I like in the future. Live whatever kind of life you want, and he will follow me in everything." Having said that, Jian Han chuckled almost mockingly, "Although he didn't keep his vow at that time, he always tortured me. Me, embarrass me and make me suffer, but I believe that every word he said at that time was sincere. Just like me now, after knowing that he has been cured, I still suffer from disagreements every day. Arguing with me upside down, forcing me to get angry at him, but I still think..."

"If he can come out of the operating room, I will listen to him for everything in the future."

Cang Xingyi comforted: "He will be fine."

"Sometimes I really hate him. It's not because he's sorry for me, but because I don't understand why he loves me so much, but refuses to respect me and understand me, even a little bit." See Han's voice choked up.

"He is kind to me, and I know it all in my heart. He objected to my art study and paid 10,000+ yuan to send me to the art test training, but he didn't frown. He said he would drive me out of the house to live on my own. Self-defeating, the pocket money that was given to me was more than any of my classmates."

"And he doesn't even love me for any other reason, unlike other parents who put their own wishes on their children, or use children as a tool to satisfy their own vanity...he loves me just because I am his only son. He doesn't care about anything, not even his own life, he just wants me to live well."

"Cang Xingyi, how can there be such an annoying person in this world?!"

Cang Xingyi silently patted Bu Han's shoulder.

"It would be nice for him to be sorry for me even a little bit once. In this way, I can at least comfort myself. It's not that I'm too willful, it's him who made the mistake first, but he never did."

"He gave birth to me, saved my life, fed me with good food and drink for me to study, even if he never recognized my choice, he finally let me go after what I want. Sometimes I would rather he not be right I'm so nice, it's as if I failed him... Every time I go home, see him, and quarrel with him, I feel like I'm going to drive myself crazy."

"I kept questioning myself, did I do something wrong? I enjoyed everything he gave me, but I didn't comply with even one of his requests, and even those requests were for my own good! Why do two people care about each other? The only thing that can be brought to the other person is pain? Is it because he doesn’t understand others, or he refuses to listen to me?!”

The young man who had always been tough and flamboyant, who thought he was invincible, was sitting outside the operating room door, crying uncontrollably.

"What should I do?" Bu Jianhan cried and asked, "What should I do, Cang Xingyi. I'm too useless, I'm ignorant, can't handle the relationship with him well? But they I really can't accept the ordinary life that generations have wanted to live, their dependence and stubbornness on the traditional connection between people. Why can't people put aside the messy entanglements of the world and live alone and freely?"

"I'm too weak, I can't give up the desire to be loved and understood, and I don't deserve to live the life I want?!"