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Lu Ci leaned against the wall and looked at him: "Why don't I like it? There is a person by your side to keep you warm, bring you clothes and meals, pick you up from the bed and gently put you in the bathtub with adjusted water temperature , he will smile at you with a blushing face, and carefully ask you if it hurts. If you frown, he will be stuck in the same place and dare not move. By the way, he will also set the phone, computer and house keys as backup Your visible password is always generous and considerate and always reserved, how can anyone not like such a boy?"

After he finished speaking, he lowered his head again, and said in a low voice that only two people could hear: "It's not that I don't like him, Tongtong, I just dare not like him, I don't think I deserve to like him."

"Oh." Shen Zitong heard himself speak, and his tone was so flat that no emotion could be heard, "Then you can figure it out yourself."

This is the first time they have talked directly about Chen Qianxia.Shen Zitong was sensitive to the fact that the boy who looked very sunny appeared by Lu Ci's side more frequently recently.At first he didn't care, he was the one who brought it up to Lu Ci on his own initiative, and just casually mentioned an innocuous little character; later he had to care, he was away on business trips for two weeks a month, and the rest Fifteen days later, I could still see messages from the same person on Lu Ci's cell phone.

This is definitely not a coincidence.

Shen Zitong didn't want to listen to Lu Ci's explanation, nor did he want to accept the comfort from that person.He knew that Lu Ci was not obligated to guard Shen Mingxi alone for the rest of his life, but there was still a huge gap between "understanding the truth" and "truly accepting it".After hearing that person's confession, Shen Zitong's only reaction was to evade.He grabbed his coat and ran out of the house to get into the car. For the first time, he drove the car more smoothly in the neighborhood at seven turns and eight turns than on the main road.

Once outside the park, Shen Zitong didn't know where to go.In all honesty, Lu Ci did nothing wrong.

Although even if Shen Zitong is driving all the way to other places along the highway, Lu Ci will immediately put down the work at hand and follow him to coax him.

After going around the neighborhood aimlessly for a few laps, Shen Zitong parked the car beside a path that no one passed by.In just a short while, Lu Ci has already made a series of phone calls to him.Shen Zitong didn't want to pick it up, and didn't know what to say when he did.He was the one who asked first, and he forcibly interrupted the chat.The cell phone that was thrown aside was turned to vibrate by him. When leaning on the steering wheel, Shen Zitong seemed to be able to hear Shen Mingxi's gentle and clear voice.

"Because Tongtong's mother doesn't like me, but it doesn't matter, my brother still likes us Tongtong very much."

After Shen Zitong ran into Shen Mingxi who had to finish his homework at the dining table for the 12th time, he finally couldn't hold back the little fire in his heart, mustered up the courage to raise his doubts to his always strong mother, and then Shen Zitong got an extremely good meal He scolded fiercely, but Shen Mingxi couldn't even keep his homework and exercise books.

Shen Zitong remembered that he was extremely wronged at that time, he stared tearfully at the back of his mother who slammed the door and left, and stubbornly refused to take the initiative to please that strict woman.So he could only turn his head and walk towards Shen Mingxi, to help his brother pick up the torn math test papers bit by bit, and with tears in his eyes, he hesitated and asked the slightly older boy: Why did my mother suddenly lose her temper?

Then came Shen Mingxi's answer, "Because Tongtong's mother doesn't like me."

Shen Zitong was still too young at that time.He has been beautiful, cute and heart-warming since he was a child, and he is the last son of the family who has been loved by his parents and elders. Even the neighbor's little brother will take the initiative to give away delicious snacks and the most popular toys when playing with him. Let him.All the unique advantages due to innate conditions have turned Shen Zitong into a starlet who is far less careful than his peers, and also made the world in his eyes full of honey, syrup, and bright colors that are always eye-catching .

For example, Shen Zitong only noticed Shen Mingxi's sentence "My brother still likes us Tongtong very much", but never considered why Shen Mingxi never called his mother "Mom".

It wasn't until later, in the endless quarrels between the parents at home and the hesitant eyes of the little boy from the elders, that Shen Zitong belatedly realized why his elder brother, who was exceptionally good in both appearance and grades, did not get the approval of his parents. pet.

Because their mother is not the same person.

As for Shen Mingxi's biological mother, she was a ticking time bomb whose name could not even be mentioned.

But there is no doubt that Shen Mingxi is gentle and absolutely reliable.When the math paper was torn into pieces, he asked the teacher for a new one; when faced with cynicism at the dinner table, he just smiled and pretended not to understand.At night, as if by magic, he took out colorfully packaged candies and toys he found from nowhere, and softly coaxed Shen Zitong to be better.

While being sneered at, he tried his best to play the image that his elder brother should have until he was admitted to a school in a foreign country and left the old house with his luggage.

Shen Mingxi left the house on the day of Shen Zitong's mother's birthday, a day he chose himself.At that time, Shen Zitong had grown up and matured a lot, and he understood that Shen Mingxi deliberately chose this day not to cause trouble for his family, but to try his best to reduce Shen Zitong's burden.If it were any other day, Shen Zitong who wanted to see him off would definitely be forcibly detained at home to restrict his personal freedom, but choosing this day would allow Shen Zitong to stay in the old house in a legitimate way, without having to quarrel with his parents for a chance to see him off .

Shen Mingxi didn't like that powerful strange woman at home, but he also didn't want to make Shen Zitong too sad.So he chose to set off alone with his suitcase during the busiest time at home, leaving behind the noise and warmth that did not belong to him.

What Shen Mingxi said to him also gradually changed from "you want to be a happy child" to "I hope you can do what you like in the future".

At first, Shen Zitong didn't understand what these words meant. He didn't want to grow up, and he didn't need to grow up. He had a solid and reliable elder brother and a gentle and kind elder brother next door. No matter what Shen Zitong did, Shen Mingxi and Lu Ci would always be together. will appear behind him.

Until the reliable elder brother suddenly collapsed, the pillars of support and responsibility became Lu Ci and him.When Shen Mingxi and Lu Ci stood behind him, Shen Zitong only needed to keep running forward, but when he opened his arms, he was not sure whether he could catch his teetering brother.

Shen Zitong realized long ago: Shen Mingxi looked at Lu Ci differently, so warm and gentle yet so cautious.Shen Mingxi is used to forbearance in every possible way at home, and is used to becoming mature in front of Shen Zitong. Only when facing Lu Ci, the habitual obedience and peace in his heart will cause some waves.

When she first found out, Shen Zitong was still a little reluctant about it.He doesn't understand feelings, and has never been in love, but he simply doesn't want any intimacy between those two people that has nothing to do with him.There are three people who grew up together, so there should be three people who have an equal relationship.Until later, after Shen Mingxi was repeatedly made things difficult at home, Shen Zitong finally gave in from the bottom of his heart.After all, he was too young at the time, so he didn't dare to completely resist his mother.If being with Lu Ci can make Shen Mingxi happier, it's not that he can't accept the two people forming a separate small circle.

Shen Zitong managed to build up his heart, and finally witnessed Shen Mingxi's confession to Lu Ci.

Maybe that wasn't a witness, because Shen Zitong thoughtfully didn't bother Lu Ci and Shen Mingxi who were whispering in the backyard alleyway.But he never expected that the next meeting of the three of them would be outside the operating room with the emergency light on, and the elder brother he relied on the most has collapsed since then, and has never been able to struggle out of the abyss of intertwined illnesses. .

"Don't be sad, Tongtong, brother will feel distressed when he sees it."

"Study hard, don't miss out in class anymore, I don't have the energy to tutor you now."

"This matter has nothing to do with Lu Lu, you must, please don't blame him."

Especially the last sentence, which Shen Mingxi and Shen Zitong emphasized many times.Even though she was lying on the hospital bed, Shen Mingxi's eyes were still clear.Perhaps because he has suffered too much grievance in the living environment of the first 20 years, he also quickly accepted the physical pain.Or because Shen Mingxi himself is such a person, he habitually endures and works hard every second.

Shen Mingxi will put in [-]% of effort, and will also achieve [-]% of humility. Only the friendship with Lu Ci can barely be regarded as the only "competition" in his life.

He wanted to win a more important position than Shen Zitong in the heart of this neighbor's boy.Finally he did it, in a way that was unacceptable to all.And Shen Zitong also became stable and mature overnight, began to put away his childish face, and began to try to resist his parents.

Shen Zitong will always remember that day, the air in the corridor is filled with the smell of disappearance and farewell.He stood outside the ward, watching Shen Mingxi's emaciated body covered by a white cloth, his facial features were blocked bit by bit, and finally turned into nothingness.

At this moment, Shen Zitong really realized that this person who was very important to him was completely gone.Shen Mingxi no longer needs to face the lonely ward by himself, smell the choking disinfectant, or act as a poor person in the eyes of death, and at the same time cheer up to deal with them who are also struggling.

He finally got real relief.

"I thought I was going to cry, at least a few symbolic tears." He still remembered that he fell into the same trembling embrace in a low voice, "I really thought so, but now ...he's gone, I..."

I still have a hard time.But I know that this is the relief for you.

"Brother, I'm really sorry, I'd better do what you said, and only do what you like in the future." After finishing the last page of the courseware, Shen Zitong saved the files, put down the computer, picked up the photo of him and Shen Mingxi on the desk, and said softly Said.

"But I've done something that they don't like me to do now, so it's not a particularly failure." Shen Zitong carefully put the photo frame back to its original place, and then went to reply to Lu Ci's messages one after another.That person always treats him like a child habitually. Among the messages in the communication column, eight out of ten are inquiries and exhortations.Shen Zitong thought that the messages he sent were too many and long, but he would still read them carefully before replying, and then pick out some interesting content and memorize them carefully, so that he can tell Shen Mingxi someday.

Brother, look, we are all fine, and we are all seriously missing you.

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