Drowning in a sea of ​​moonlight

"Can you come in for a while?...I have something to say to you."

Dazai lowered his head and spoke softly.

I could only see his hands tugging at my sleeves, the knuckles turned slightly white with such force, I couldn't see his expression clearly.

...Is there anything to say to avoid other people?

But I looked at his slightly trembling hands, listened to the cautious hope in his tone, and thought, forget it.

Anyway, I'm leaving soon.We won't meet again after this.

Well, it doesn't hurt to hear what he has to say.

So I said, "OK."

He smiled at me slightly, turned and opened the door.

There is no light in the house, and the room is full of clear moonlight.

Speaking of which, it was really a sunny night.

This kind of moonlight is not like the romantic night in the Mediterranean Sea, but like the moonlight that splashed on the porch like water in the night with shadows of pines and cypresses, the moonlight from hundreds of thousands of years ago.

When I shook my head, he suddenly turned around.

I didn't have time to avoid it for a while, so he bumped into me all at once.

I hadn't noticed it earlier in the banquet hall.But now, when the smell of various perfumes dissipated and the surrounding air cleared up, the faint fragrance of the person in his arms floated up like a lotus flower at the bottom of the water.

The same bitterness, the same coldness,

The same bewitching.

I hugged him, and for a moment I felt that I was haunted by the lotus essence, and I was going to drown in this softness in my arms for life and life, and I couldn't get out of my body anymore.

He said softly: "It's a beautiful view."

"Yes." I said.

"The moonlight is so beautiful tonight."

From this angle, I can see a small section of the back of his white neck exposed under his collar, which is as cold and hard as jade.

But I know that if I touch it, it must be soft and warm, and he will relax under my touch, like a small animal relying on me.

Only at that time, I will feel it, although he is so cold on weekdays.

But in fact, he is also a child.It is the age when you should be carefree, cared and pampered.

But that's all in the past.

I am not the "now" of the Port Mafia, but the "Kalanishi" of the Moonlight Society.

I shouldn't, and I can't, do that.

Even if that land of tenderness is real and not something I imagined, I can't let myself indulge in it after all.

So I held onto his body, pushed him away slightly, and said, "Let's talk about business first. What do you want to tell me—"

He smiled lowly.

"...That's how it used to be. You get distracted when you see a nice view."

He says,

before?

"you--"

He interrupted me, and continued speaking briskly.

"...Is that so, Mr. Ludwig. Or should it be Jinji-kun? Or... where is the kid?"

"Hey, tell me, what should I call you?"

He raised his head, turned his back to the moonlight behind him, and held something in his hand, facing his temple.

The moment I saw what it was, I felt my brain go blank.

"Hello, please," he said with a smile.

"Promise me."

——You said, what will happen if I shoot myself every time you don’t answer a question well?

——That kind of wonderful dilemma, that kind of guilt, must be terrible!I feel bad for you just thinking about it!

It was as if my consciousness had flown into the sky, and I looked at me without any feeling as I grabbed his wrist with one hand, forced his fingers to lose strength, let go of the gun, threw him to the corner, and snatched the gun with the other hand without even looking at it. thrown out the window.

Then, she walked over a few steps, grabbed him by the collar, and pushed him against the wall.

My hand was stuck around his throat, and gradually tightened. He barely stepped on the ground with his toes, and just looked at me like that, shrouded in a shadow.

I can't see his expression clearly.

......yes.

When did I see it clearly?

When will I see the essence of the person in front of me?

Up to now, I am still thinking about using this method to deal with me.

Still thinking, by hurting yourself, to hurt me.

You just, so. .....

"Is that why you don't want to live?"

When I said the next sentence, I felt pain in my heart and lungs.

"...Is this how you treat me?"

He was pinched by the throat by me, and his face was starting to turn blue, but he didn't seem to feel the pain. There was no unconscious resistance from anyone who was suffocating, and he didn't even struggle. He let me pinch him like a broken puppet. with.

It was only after I said this that he seemed to start to struggle slightly, the hand hanging by his side was convulsively grabbing my arm, the moonstone on the neckline was swaying, dazzlingly bright.

I suddenly had the urge to rip it off his tie and throw it into the ocean.

white blind.All in vain.

Everything that was invested in this person was in vain.Useless work.waste time.

Just don't love yourself that much.

Then why should I cherish you?

I want to know why I approached you, rushing to save you and take care of you, what is my plan for you, right?

......Ha ha.

Then you can listen well.

Furious emotions surged in my heart, and for the first time since we first met, I sneered at him.

"Do you think I have nothing to do and come here to serve as your pawn? So it doesn't matter if you shoot me with a gun or cut me with a knife?"

"For so many days, all I have done to you and for you is superfluous, right? You don't need it at all, and it doesn't matter if I die—no."

I laughed, "You're happy when I'm dead, aren't you, little cadre?"

"...want to know why I am? Tell you now."

I let go of my hand and watched him fall to the ground all of a sudden, clutching his throat, and coughing forcefully, until the corners of his eyes became watery.

"...The reason why I will appear in front of you and do everything for you is because your father is kind to me and entrusted you to me before he died. So I have to be optimistic do you understand?

"It's not because of some nonsense love at first sight. It's not about fate either. It's about causality, and the phrase 'repay with kindness', that's all."

"I don't know what you want to do with me these days."

I picked up the windbreaker that I had just put on him and now fell to the ground, dusted it off, and hung it in my arms slowly.

"But if you want to see the 'now' that follows you all the time, it's just an illusion. It never really existed."

He knelt and sat there, still coughing uncontrollably, and the gray of death gradually appeared in his eyes as he looked at me.

I looked at him and said the last words.

"...Now, I have paid off the debt I owed."

"From now on, there will be no relationship between you and me."

"Ah, speaking of which, let me answer the previous question as well."

Before turning to leave, I turned my head and gave him a small smile.

"Don't call me any of the names you said. You don't need to. That's it."

The author has something to say:

......Well.

It's just two chapters.

There will be a breakthrough at the end of the next chapter, and the two will reconcile in the next chapter.

The next chapter will also explode in word count, 6k+, the longest chapter of this article so far.

"You don't need any more" there.What it means now is, anyway, I won't see you later.You will never use these names again.

(face warning)

(Here Zai really didn’t intend to make a big death. Really, please look forward to the next chapter. In the next chapter, they will be...on the edge of sweetness.)

Everyone must know the meme that the moonlight is so beautiful tonight.

But it's westerners these days, so he doesn't mean that hhhhh

In the night where the pines and cypresses are shadows... That description is a cue to record the night tour of Chengtian Temple.

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!