filled

With words of blessing.

Shi Hao's gaze also turned to the pile of flowers.

"My father's illness hasn't been disclosed yet. Those who can be brought in are those who have a good relationship with the Shi family. They are piled up here. He likes it, and the smell is good."

Shi Fangman walked over, gently stroked the tender petals of a pink peony, pulled out the cloth strip and took a look, the signature was Luo Jing.And the big snow lotus next to it, on the fabric is also Liu Yizhou. In addition to writing the name of the head of the family, there are also those who directly write a certain group. , floated onto the fabric in his hand, and the black inscription "Yan Li" was written in a flying pattern.

Shi Fangman was not surprised by the presence of gifts from the Yan family here. Although the Shi family has been the leader in the local area for many years, the Yan family is already strong. A win-win cooperation between the two is better than fighting for strength. To save money, but to his surprise, he thought that the name of Yan Zheng's father, Yan Xiaoyuan, should be written on the signature.

Yan Li... that's Yan Zheng's brother.The relationship between Yan Zheng and his brother was naturally clear to Shi Fangman, so he smoothed the cloth subconsciously, lowered his head and read the words on it carefully.

"You know Yan Li?"

Before he could read two lines, Shi Hao appeared beside him.

"do not know."

Shi Fangman wasn't lying, he really didn't know him, he just heard Yan Zheng mention it.

"do you know?"

Shi Hao replied briefly: "I was in the same year as him, and we went to school together."

When Shi Hao stood beside him, Shi Fangman also lost interest, and simply lowered his body, intending to arrange the scattered bouquets by color.

Shi Hao stood by, not intending to help.The nurse had already pushed the cart out, and the person lying on the hospital bed in the other room was breathing heavily, and through the quilt covering him, he could vaguely piece together a thin body tortured by illness.Shi Hao stared at his father steadily, then turned his gaze back to see Shi Fangman's busy movements, and suddenly asked in a very small voice: "Do you remember what happened when you were a child?"

His voice is indeed small, but that kind of cold voice is very recognizable as soon as it enters the ear, and it is very easy to attract people's attention.Shi Fangman was stunned for a moment, and for some reason, he replied softly: "When are you talking about?"

"Before my dad found you."

Shi Hao said, "What was it like when the two of them were together?"

The rotten apple was eaten by the dirty snake, and after a meandering trail of blood crawled, I was born out of the leftovers.

At that time, the Shi family declined and took the surname of that wasteful head of the family.

Fang, when Qi Fang (fang) Fang (fang).

Full, the satisfaction of the two of them.

"It's full of the crystallization of the love between mother and father!"

The woman's laughing voice is like the crispest wind chime, while the man's laughing voice is an old bellows that is slowly being pulled open, so that two people who don't seem to match at all are exchanging a sweet kiss.

Shi Fangman was holding a puppet bear, and stood aside blankly, watching his mother and "father" end their daily kiss and get together to wave to him.

"Come here."

My mother would tell him bedtime stories every day, and then ask him if he hid from his classmates and teachers in kindergarten today and went to the toilet by himself.Shi Fangman did not dare to say that he resisted drinking water at school, even did not drink the pork ribs and lotus root soup at lunch, but managed to persist for a whole day without going to the toilet. He only begged his mother to continue telling yesterday's story, mother's story The protagonists in the novel are all angels who descended from the world, they are just like themselves, but on the contrary, what the teacher said today must be deceiving.

"Boys have dicks, girls have little sisters."

"Kids, these are normal."

Of course I'm normal, just like my parents are as normal as anyone else's.Shi Fang lay down contentedly. Although his "father" was a little bit older, "father" and mother had a very good relationship, and he still had a happy family.

What was it like when the two of them were together?

"What do you want to hear?"

"truth."

The man's eyes were firm, and he answered firmly.

"They..." Shi Fangman swallowed his saliva just after he said two words, and paused, his palms grasping helplessly. It wasn't until he touched a solid wall that he seemed to find some courage to continue talking. .

"Perhaps, it's... feeling... happy?"

Face to face, Shi Fangman could see clearly, Shi Hao's eyes widened after hearing the answer, he turned his head to avoid the other party's sight, his heart was pounding, his chest was heavy, and his stomach was also entangled, but This habitual physical resistance is a reaction that gives people a sense of security at this time.In front of Shi Qishu, he would never dare to say such a thing.The previous education was distorted and wrong. The two shameless people and the children with their dirty blood, those naked evaluations were all slapped on me as a child. I didn't dare to have a little bit of refutation and hesitation, I just kept wiping away my tears, cheering up and agreeing.

But what he was facing was Shi Hao, and it was Shi Hao who asked this strange question first. Shi Fangman could not deny those facts. His own deformed body was the best witness of that shady crime. He did something wrong. He will be punished for the things he was born with. Everything is so just. Even now, Shi Fangman agrees with this point of view, but he can't help but want to tell others, except himself. Another person, another smear of truth about that ugliness.

Accompanied by the sins of running around and dogs, the happiness and satisfaction of those two people in my childhood memory existed at the same time.

He finally spoke out, waiting for what Shi Hao could say in response.During the too long silence, he suddenly recalled the past.It's hard to imagine that when he was young, Shi Hao took the initiative to hold his hand. The two people's palms were sweaty, and they stuck together to exchange each other's temperature, but they separated quickly in the darkness. A boy calmly said Woke up to another boy's fantasy.After walking out of the dark basement, Shi Fangman was exposed to the glare of the sun for an entire afternoon. No one answered him, and his eyes became dry from crying. In the end, it was still the key that Shi Hao threw beside him, which opened and kept tightening. the gate.

It seems that this is Shi Hao's attitude in the future, ruthlessly approaching the facts more than anyone else, and breaking the deadlock in the chaos and despair, Shi Fangman looked at this boy who was two years younger than himself, curious, quietly waiting.

Before he had time to wait for Shi Hao's answer, a hoarse voice from deep in his throat broke the silence that filled the room.

A corner of the thin quilt had been lifted at some point, the thin old man woke up from the pain, and opened a pair of cloudy and tired eyes.

"come here."

Shi Hao stepped aside, and Shi Fangman walked in front of him, heading towards the old man who was talking.Compared with the image in his memory, Shi Qishu is like two completely different people. In the past, Fangman always raised his head and secretly looked at his strong and majestic uncle like a superman, but now he is standing in front of him. In front of the hospital bed, with lowered eyes, he stared at the old man with sallow and thin complexion, whose neck veins twisted and twisted like tree roots.

The lifted quilt was piled on the loose hospital gown, pressing on the patient's chest. Shi Fangman leaned over first, fastened the buttons on the collar of the hospital gown, and then lifted the corners of the quilt up and tucked it in carefully.

Shi Qishu looked at him: "Do you want to change your mind now?"

He spoke weakly, and even his eyes drifted away in confusion. He closed them, opened them again, and looked straight at Shi Fangman: "It's been 28 years, do you want to live like this for the rest of your life?"

Shi Fangman was always habitually afraid in front of him, moved his lips a few times, and then said softly: "It's okay, I can live like this for the rest of my life."

"There are some facts that I don't want to change."

A slender hand handed over a cup of tea, and the slowly rising clouds filled with rich and mellow tea fragrance permeated the room.After drinking a cup of tea, Shi Qishu closed his eyes, opened and closed the door, stood in the corridor, and met a woman in her 30s and a nurse pushing a cart behind her.

Shi Hao obviously recognized her: "He fell asleep again."

"It's at this point every day that I take hormones. I guess I'm tired from talking to you too much today."

The woman gently opened the door, looked at it and closed it again: "Mr. Shi, I'll come back later."

"Thank you, Doctor Wen."

The woman and Shi Fangman also nodded their heads as a greeting. Shi Fangman nodded slightly in response, but his eyes drifted to the name tag on the doctor Wen's chest: Wenqing.

21:13:07

catastrophe

At the entrance of the hospital, Shi Fangman and Shi Hao separated, and each went in different directions. He could probably guess from Shi Hao's more obvious blue and black eyes than when they met last time that the other party was very busy recently, but he didn't. Saying something aloud, watching the black BMW car get farther and farther away, turned around and walked towards the subway entrance.

Before entering the community, he turned to a nearby convenience store and bought a pack of instant snail noodles. The weather was too cold, and the takeaway was only lukewarm. Why not cook a bag of noodles by himself and have a hot meal.The group chatted about the invigilation arrangement for the final exam next week. Shi Fangman climbed the stairs while watching the news, and walked to the corner, but heard the sound of fabric rustling, a few light footsteps on the ground, with a A black shadow appeared before his eyes.

The man wore a bright black short down jacket with rustling mirror reflective waterproof fabric, and silver-white loose sports pants and trousers on his lower body.