Short-lived cannon fodder A Yixin salted fish

On the first day back to school, Wen Yuan prepared her heart well, and faced Chu Yihan with an ordinary heart.

When Wen Yuan arrived in the classroom, she realized that Chu Yihan hadn't come at all.

This is also very good, to avoid embarrassment, but occasionally she will lose her mind for a moment when she looks at Chu Yihan's empty seat.

The next day, Chu Yihan still didn't come to school.

During evening self-study, Ji Xingyao invited Lin Meng to sit in Chu Yihan's seat.

Lin Meng refused at first: "Not too good, alpha will leave a smell on the oga seat, I'm afraid Yihan will not like it when he smells it when he comes back."

"I've asked Yihan, she doesn't mind." Ji Xingyao glanced at his phone and smiled, "She also said your lemon smells good."

Wen Yuan was doing calculations, the tip of the pen paused, the tip of her tongue touched the roof of her mouth, and her lips unconsciously pursed into a straight line.

The lemon fragrance is very light, very light, not aggressive at all, and astringent very well.But even the slightest bit upset Wen Yuan.

But soon, all the smells were covered by the smell of disinfectant.Before the pheromone was out of control, Shi Ranteng stood up and walked out of the classroom.

There was a lot of movement, Wen Yuan came back to her senses, she glanced at Shi Ran, and when she turned her head, she inadvertently met Ji Xingyao's lonely gaze, Ji Xingyao was stunned, and gave her a supercilious look.

Wen Yuan lowered her head and pretended not to see it.

At some point, she wrote the word "Chu Yihan" on the draft paper.

She has called this name many times and entered it on the phone, but this is the first time she has written it stroke by stroke.

I haven't remembered Mianmian's full name yet, but I engraved someone else's name here.

The word "Chu Yihan" on the draft paper fell into his eyes, causing a dull pain in his nerves.

The nausea of ​​self-loathing crept up again.

When Wen Yuan went to the bathroom and vomited and her stomach convulsed, she heard Shi Ran sighing outside.

"How long will it take for your stress response to heal?"

Stomach twisted very uncomfortable, and moisture slipped from the corners of the eyes.

It's no good, Wen Yuan said in her heart, this is what she deserves.

On the third day, Chu Yihan's seat was still empty.

During the big class, Lin Meng was called to sit by Ji Xingyao, and she and Ji Xingyao talked about Christmas gifts from discussion topics.

Ji Xingyao said: "I still have to prepare a birthday present for Yihan. I am going to embroider a cross-stitch for her. Help me choose which one looks good."

I don't know why, but as long as Chu Yihan's name is mentioned, Wen Yuan will unconsciously open her ears to listen.

Lin Meng asked, "When is Yihan's birthday?"

"February fifteen."

February fifteenth.

Wen Yuan and Ji Xingyao agreed in their hearts.

Lantern Festival, the same birthday as Mianmian, her death day.

Such a profound day, when Chu Yihan told her for the first time, she didn't have any impression due to lack of memory.

Now mentioning it again, a very subtle feeling welled up deep in Wen Yuan's heart.

It was quickly replaced by nausea again.

Shi Ran glanced at Wen Yuan's leaving back, she didn't know what to say other than sighing, she was afraid that Wen Yuan would have stomach problems sooner or later.

The word stomach cancer came out of my mind, like a pair of invisible hands strangling the throat, Shi Ran couldn't help shivering.

a week has passed.

Wen Yuan dragged herself to the classroom at the last second, and as soon as she entered the door, she involuntarily glanced at Chu Yihan's seat.

What you wanted to see didn't come.

Wen Yuan's eyes dimmed.

What kind of illness requires so many days off? Is it so serious?Or...do you deliberately not come to school and don't want to see her?

Wen Yuan was restless all day, and went to Qi Jin's office to get the test paper and turned it into a homework book.

"Wang Xin and I reported that you are not in a good state recently." Qi Jin replaced the homework book in Wen Yuan's hand, looked at her and sighed, "Do you need to ask for leave for a rest?"

"Thank you teacher, there is no need to ask for leave, I will make adjustments." After a moment of hesitation, Wen Yuan asked, "Teacher, how many days of leave did Chu Yihan ask for?"

"Her situation is a bit special, and she didn't say the specific time." Qi Jin closed the English textbook in hand, took a sip of coffee, and sighed thoughtfully, "Her mother and parents asked about going abroad, and she might go abroad after completing the formalities." Don't go back to school."

A fluttering sentence fell into his ears, and Wen Yuan's feet were heavy as if filled with lead.

At that time, Chu Yihan ran to the downstairs of the dormitory and told her face to face that she didn't want to be too far away from her and would not go abroad.

It’s different in the past.

Chu Yihan should avoid her now, and going abroad would be a better choice.

Wen Yuan felt as if a hole had been gouged out in her heart, a little hurt, and a little out of control and helpless.

After the evening self-study, Zhang Lili came to the dormitory to visit with a grapefruit in his hand.

Wen Yuan finally couldn't bear it any longer, and inquired about Chu Yihan's situation.

Zhang Lili sat down and peeled the grapefruit familiarly, and said: "I heard Lin Meng and Yihan talk on the phone, it seems that the cold hits the estrus period, and the pheromones are disordered. These days, I always have a fever repeatedly."

Wen Yuan frowned.

"But I have to ask Lin Meng for details, she calls Yihan every day." Zhang Lili peeled a piece of grapefruit and handed it to Wen Yuan, "I think Yihan may be on the mend soon, Lin Meng recently finished talking about her mood It's all good."

Wen Yuan took it and repeated in a daze: "Call every day?"

"Sometimes I still play videos, ask about homework, talk about daily life and so on." Zhang Lili urged Wen Yuan to take a bite of grapefruit, and asked, "How sweet is it?"

It was her every day.

Wen Yuan swallowed the sourness in her mouth, and said against her will: "Sweet."

After Zhang Lili left, Wen Yuan was absent-mindedly doing her homework, thinking of Chu Yihan again, thinking of those days when she and Chu Yihan communicated by phone, the soft voice of Chu Yihan patiently lecturing on the topic seemed to still ring in her ears.

In the next second, she began to fantasize about Chu Yihan giving Lin Meng a lecture.

By accident, Wen Yuan entered Zhang Lili and Lin Meng's bedroom under the pretext of asking Zhang Lili to borrow notes.

As soon as he entered the door, he heard Lin Meng ask, "How do you feel today?"

"Sister Bird, you think too highly of me, I never take notes." Zhang Lili scratched her head and asked Lin Meng, "Have you remembered?"

Wen Yuan naturally looked in Lin Meng's direction, and finally saw Chu Yihan on the computer screen. She seemed to have lost a lot of weight, her face became smaller and fairer, and there was a faint smile on her cheeks, revealing a faint smile. I see pity for the sick and weak beauty, but people don't want to appreciate it.

Maybe Chu Yihan saw her, through the screen, his sights seemed to collide but didn't seem to.

Wen Yuan's heart suddenly tightened, and she suddenly woke up.

Now that you have made the decision to die alone, wouldn't it be good to let the other person let you go?

Wen Yuan looked away in a panic, and quickly said, "No need, I'll ask someone else."

Almost fled.

On the computer screen, Chu Yihan's long eyelashes drooped down, the curve of her lips was stained with bitterness, and her eyes were red.

Back in the dormitory, Wen Yuan stood on the balcony in a daze with the cold wind blowing.

Wen Yuan also knew that she was becoming more and more inexplicable and unreasonable.Obviously she didn't want to disappoint Mianmian and rejected Chu Yihan decisively, but knowing that Chu Yihan might go abroad, and hearing that Chu Yihan was getting close to others, she felt uncomfortable.

But why is she uncomfortable.

Why care about others, if Mianmian knew how sad she would be.

Such a self is too disgusting.

My stomach turned upside down again.

Just as Shi Ran came out of the shower, he saw Wen Yuan go in and close the door, and through the door, Shi Ran heard the sound of vomiting.

Wen Yuan hasn't vomited for a while, Shi Ran thought she was well, why?

Shi Ran worried: "Little bird..."

After a while, Shi Ran heard Wen Yuan's weak and choked response: "I'm fine."

Shi Ran twisted the towel to wipe her hair: "Tomorrow, I'll accompany you to the hospital."

Knowing that Shi Ran hated going to the hospital the most, Wen Yuan pinched the flesh on her fingertips and refused: "No need."

Shi Ran wanted to say something, but heard Yuan say inside: "It will be fine in a while."

Time will smooth everything out.

She didn't know what to say, so she could only change the subject and remind her to take a shower early: "Auntie the dormitory manager said that the hot water will be turned off at eleven o'clock today."

After halfway through the bath, the hot water ran out, and the cold water was poured over her head, so cold that Wen Yuan took a deep breath.

She didn't leave, she still stood under the shower, trying to cool and wash away her impetuous emotions with icy cold water.

It is a very good thing to study abroad, and it is also a very good thing to have someone to accompany Chu Yihan, to explain her and make her happy.

How wonderful that Chu Yihan let go of her, so she can have a better life.

Wen Yuan lowered her head and watched the water meandering and slipping away from her feet.

Without a sense of relief, Wen Yuan clearly felt that the hole in her heart was getting bigger and bigger.

Hollow and dark, like an abyss, engulfing her little by little.

In the middle of the night, Wen Yuan woke up again from her dream.

I don't know which bedroom's balcony door was left open, and it was creaked by the wind.Wen Yuan stared at the ceiling, feeling her nerves being pulled and rubbed.

Ever since she thought of Mianmian, she was very afraid of the dark night, afraid of the feeling that her emotions would be magnified in the dead of night, afraid of unconsciously recalling the past with Mianmian, afraid of unconsciously thinking of Chu Yihan.

I am even more afraid of facing myself who cannot let go of both sides.

Wen Yuan dreamed that she once talked with Mianmian about birth, old age, sickness and death. She always joked that she wanted to live longer so that she could eat, drink and have fun behind Mianmian's back before hooking up with new little old ladies.

She was afraid of Mianmian and cried emotionally, without telling the real reason——

Often, the one who is alive is the one who suffers the most.

"I want you to be happy and not be alone, but I also selfishly hope that you can be my widow, because just thinking of you falling in love with someone else makes me really... too uncomfortable."

At that time, Mianmian's candid confession was still in my ears.

At the same time, Chu Yihan's beautiful face and eyes full of steam and disappointment emerged in his mind.

In the next second, she recalled the scene of completely rejecting Chu Yihan in the hospital.

An empty pain spread from the hole in his heart.

When the most right, the best, and the most beloved person appears in life, the others you meet can only be passers-by.

Wen Yuan raised her hand to cover her sore eyes, tried to empty her mind, and kept hypnotizing herself.

I care about Chu Yihan because we used to be friends, I care about it because I made a temporary mark out of instinct, and I am attracted to Chu Yihan only because Chu Yihan is too similar to Mianmian.

So similar, so...

Wen Yuan's temples twitched suddenly.

When she first recalled Mianmian, it was too much of a shock for Wen Yuan. The concussion symptoms made her unable to think about it, and her self-blame and guilt made her suffer.

Of course, Wen Yuan chose to escape.

So many details were deliberately ignored by her.

The hand covering the eyes slowly lowered. In the darkness, Wen Yuan's black eyes were as deep as an ancient pool, with undercurrents surging.

She bit her lower lip to endure the stress reaction, forcing herself to slowly relax her tense nerves.

The details of Chu Yihan getting along with her and the ten years of her and Mianmian broke free from the shackles, like the rushing river and the sea, interspersed and intertwined, surging in Wen Yuan's mind over and over again.

Some pictures began to overlap.

They are really similar.

The same gentle temperament, the same witty and playful, the same smile is sweet, the same is afraid of acid, the same can't eat too spicy, the same can't eat egg yolk, the same can help her pick coriander, the same lily allergy...

The lollipop that Chu Yihan gave her for the first time was the same as the candy that Mianmian gave her for the first time, with strawberry and vanilla flavors.

The way Chu Yihan made the wrong set of questions for her was the way she used to make the wrong set of questions for Mian Mian.

The house that Chu Yihan lives in is very similar to the first sketch she drew for Mian Mian, one room is used as a studio, the other is used as a study... It's just that her and Mian Mian's house is not so decorated because of the designer .

In Chu Yihan's studio, the painting of cats and dogs was clearly the same as that of Gang Beng'er and the money.

In the kitchen, the tacit understanding between her and Chu Yihan...couldn't be developed in a day.

In 9826, Chu Yihan used the home password lock, and Mianmian also used it as the mobile phone lock screen password.

It is the input sequence of the word "鸟" in Jiugongge.

February [-]th, the same birthday.

In the world of paper figures, with fixed plots and characters, are there really so many coincidences?Is there anyone like Mianmian?

Wen Yuan suddenly couldn't think anymore, and her heart beat faster and faster. She couldn't bear it anymore, and sat up suddenly.

"Little bird?" Shi Ran called her, "Are you insomnia again? Wen Yuan was panting, and after a while, she heard that Ran's voice didn't sound like she just woke up, so she didn't answer and asked, "Why didn't you sleep? "

The curtain of the opposite bed was pulled open, and the light from the mobile phone screen illuminated Shi Ran. She couldn't see her face clearly, but she could feel that she was depressed.

The smell of disinfectant seems to be absent.

"I fell asleep and woke up again, then went to sign in the game, and saw that my little apprentice was online."

Wen Yuan recalled Shi Ran's confession to his little apprentice: "Did she reply to you?"

"I'm back." Shi Ran laughed, "She told me that she is a student in Class [-], Grade [-] of Ningcheng High School, her name is... Ji Xingyao."

Wen Yuan's eyes widened slightly, and she opened her mouth, not knowing what to say.

"Does it look like a ghost story?" Shi Ran lay down again, and heaved a long sigh, "I think about it now, and I feel that I am stupid enough. The last time Ji Xingyao imitated the voice of an elementary school god and imitated it for me. It should have been expected, that Yu Jie's voice is exactly the same as my apprentice's!

I don't think I'm a Neptune, so why did I have a crush on two people at the same time? For a long time, what's so special is that she played two roles, and she rejected me, saying that she was even with me. ah……"

The more he talked, the more angry he became, Shi Ran's pheromones exploded with his emotions, and this floor seemed to have turned into a hospital, full of the smell of disinfectant.

The housekeeper aunt hurriedly arranged Shi Ran to the isolation room, and Shi Ran was picked up by the family 10 minutes later.

The pheromone in the dormitory was suppressed by the inhibitor, and Wen Yuan went back to the dormitory alone, sitting in the dark, clutching her phone and clicking aimlessly, not knowing what she was going to do or what to do.

The anime movie she and Chu Yihan watched is now available online.

The animation profile on the webpage is fixed in sight.

The lower lip was bitten off at some point, and the smell of blood like rust filled the whole mouth.

Wen Yuan felt as if she had been pulled in two, one was berating her for imagining that her situation was the same as Shi Ran to alleviate her guilt, and the other was playing those coincidences over and over again.

The thoughts in her heart continued to grow wildly.

Let her completely lose sleepiness this night.

In a villa three streets away from the school, Chu Yihan also woke up from a dream and suffered from insomnia.

She stared at the ceiling for a while, and realized that this was not a house outside the school. She had been taken back by Han Yu for almost half a month.

It seems that I have a fever again, my head is groggy but I don’t feel sleepy at all, my whole body hurts, but it’s not as painful as my heart.

She dreamed again that she saw the scene of Wen Yuan's car accident with her own eyes. In the dream, she was pinned up like that, unable to move her feet, felt cold all over, and unable to breathe.

Heartbroken to the point of dying.

If Wen Yuan came a second late at that time and didn't help her block the out-of-control truck, it would be great if she was the one who died at that time...

The phone suddenly lights up, and there is an unread message notification.

Could it be from her?Chu Yihan wiped away her tears, unplugged the charger and picked up the phone.

Several messages popped up on the screen, all from Ji Xingyao.

The little bubble of hope pops.

Chu Yihan slid open the message to read.

[I read a book today. The heroine Shou is wearing a book. In Chapter 5, she told Gong that she was wearing a book. My God, this is the fastest article I have read. Gong actually believed it. I don't think she is crazy.Sweet text really doesn't need logic! 】

[But I can understand it, after all, Shou has nothing to do.Anyway, it's a death, and it's more comfortable to say it to Gong, who is a stranger. 】

[I've decided, tell Shi Ran to play games with her, and the one who calls her master every day is Miss Ben! 】

[It turns out that she confessed to me a long time ago... But when I think of her rejecting me, I feel angry, and I also rejected her, hmph! 】

Chu Yihan stared at the date prompted by the system on the screen.

It's August 12th.

It won't be long before we reach that turning point and start all over again.

Can you hold on any longer?

She seemed to be frozen, until the door of the room was opened, and Han Yu's worried voice fell into the empty room, did she react and turned around stiffly.

"Hanhan?"

The lights in the room came on, and Chu Yihan's tear-stained face came into view.

Han Yuxin was pulled hard, she walked up to Chu Yihan, hugged Chu Yihan into her arms, and asked with concern, "Are you having nightmares again?"

Chu Yihan didn't speak, she leaned on Han Yu's shoulder, tears fell more and more.

She thought she could be strong.

She thought she could hold on.

She thought it was different this time, and she even began to accept the family and friendship that should not belong to her, just waiting for the final love to wake up.

But the reality made her more and more tired.

"Don't chase me, I have someone I like." As if it was still in my ears, the obscurity in Wen Yuan's eyes when she watched the video today seemed to be still in front of her eyes.

Obviously many details can be inferred that Wen Yuan's consciousness should be awakened, but why is this the result.

Why can she say such things to her...

If there is no hope, there will be no disappointment. She can walk in endless loneliness with deep affection.

But giving hope and taking it back will lead to despair.

Why this time is like this.

So tired, if she gives up, can you forgive her...

For the first time, Chu Yihan let go of her indifference in front of Han Yu. She trembled weakly and helplessly, as if she was about to shatter at any moment. She cried so hard that Han Yu's heart almost broke.

At three o'clock in the morning on December 24th, Ningcheng ushered in the first snow,

Wen Yuan lost all sleep after opening her eyes again.

At five o'clock in the morning, she turned over and got out of bed, washed herself mechanically, and then sat at the table in a daze.

I don't know how many days it has been like this, I can fall asleep very late, and then wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall asleep again.

I can't help but think about those clues over and over again.

My soul wears books, so what about Mian Mian, who sacrificed her life, her soul?Will it also...

Such thoughts continued to ferment and swell, accompanied by a deep sense of guilt that almost drove her crazy.

Finally, she decided to let herself go.

Sitting until 05:30, Wen Yuan couldn't bear it anymore, and estimated that this time should not disturb Chu Yihan's rest too much, so she entered the request she had been thinking about but dared not make into the dialog box, and sent it out.

[Can you meet me and have a chat? 】

【Wen Yuan, can you meet me? 】

Two messages, one green and one white, popped up on the screen at the same time.

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