Immersive performance [entertainment circle]

Li Bai's behavior in the police station is completely different from that in front of Pei Lang.

He seemed to resist this place, and every time he entered the inquiry room, he sank limply into the chair, looking rebellious and gloomy.

After the inquiring scene was finished, Zhongqin needed a long time to rest and adjust, because he would be in a bad state when performing this part of the scene, and it would not be so easy to act.

This scene took a whole day to express Li Bai's gloomy, depressed, and even somewhat autistic character.

No matter what the police asked, he would subconsciously evade and never answer directly. He always answered questions in a very roundabout way, so it was more likely to arouse the suspicion of the police.

He seems to be very disgusted with others using tough methods to treat him, whether it is toughness in behavior or tone of voice.

So before Pei Lang communicated with him in a questioning tone, he would subconsciously push back.

Fortunately, the police officers are more professional. After realizing that he was soft but not tough, he changed to a kinder female policeman to do the interrogation work.

The subsequent investigation went relatively smoothly. A few hours later, Li Bai left the police station and saw Pei Lang waiting outside.

He took a deep breath, walked over slowly, squeezed out a smile and asked, "Why are you here? Didn't you leave with your cousin?"

"No way, why would I leave you there alone?" Pei Lang stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around him, "You boy... Really, what's going on?"

"Let's talk about it when we get home." Li Bai raised his head and looked into the distance.

The sky in the middle of the night is not all pitch black, there is still a gleam of deep blue light in the distance where the sky and the earth meet.

"Brother Lang." He called out suddenly.

"Ah?" Pei Lang asked, "What's the matter?"

"I'll tell you everything later, don't be afraid of me." After a pause, Li Bai said, "Don't force me either."

"Where did you start?" Pei Lang smiled, "Why am I afraid of you? When did I force you?"

"Yeah." Li Bai buried his head, "Don't tell others either."

"Hey, it's okay." Pei Lang patted him on the shoulder vigorously, "If you don't trust others, how can you not trust me?"

Li Bai didn't speak, but just gave him a deep look.

Pei Lang was terrified by that look, he was stunned for a moment, and when he came back to his senses, Li Bai had lowered his head again, as if everything just now was just an illusion.

At home, Li Bai went to the sofa to pick up the newly bought bath towel, unpacked it and put it in the washing machine, planning to wash it first.

Then he turned around and said, "You haven't checked in the bathroom today, have you? Go check it out."

"Ah?" Pei Lang followed him to the bathroom in a daze, "What's wrong here?"

Li Bai turned on the light and exhaust fan in the bathroom, and looked sideways at him: "Do you smell anything?"

"What?" Pei Lang sniffed vigorously, shook his head and said, "What's this smell? Isn't it the one you bought, the flower pasted on the toilet? The one that has a scent when flushed, quite a strong smell. "

"Yeah." Li Bai nodded, "I changed it last night, and the smell is really strong."

"Ah," Pei Lang wondered, "what's the matter?"

Li Bai looked at him quietly: "I use it to cover up the smell of blood."

Pei Lang's spine felt chills instantly, his mind was in a daze, and he asked after a while, "You, what do you mean?"

"It's my blood."

Li Bai raised his left wrist and opened the sleeve, revealing a sinuous and ferocious scar that was still oozing blood.

His tone was so calm that he seemed to be talking about other people's affairs: "Pei Lang, I have a tendency to self-harm, and it has been a long time."

Pei Lang recalled how he wanted to pull his arm before but made him feel like he was facing a formidable enemy, his Adam's apple rolled twice, only a dry and rough "you" came out of his throat, and he couldn't continue.

"There is a word you should be familiar with, it's called 'dissociation'." Li Bai put down his hand, his face became paler under the bathroom light, "Every time I wake up from dissociation, I will be wounded, last night too, I don't I know what's going on, when I woke up, I was covered in blood. You were still awake at that time, I was very scared, and I didn't want you to know..."

He pursed his lips, lowered his head, and said dejectedly, "I'll let you know."

Pei Lang opened his mouth: "So that bath towel..."

"I've tried my best to wash away all the blood here, and I've washed the bath towel...but the smell can't go away..." Li Bai closed his eyes and grabbed his hair tightly, "I've washed it with shower gel and hand sanitizer. Washed...but it's useless, it still smells..."

"Why didn't you tell me?" Pei Lang was out of breath, shaking his shoulders, "Why didn't you tell me?! We've known each other for so many years, why did you hide this situation from me?!"

"What can I do if I tell you?" Li Bai looked at him with eyes full of water vapor, "Do you want me to see a doctor? Tell me to see a psychiatrist, and then reveal all my pain for others to see." I'm not you, Pei Lang, I remember everything... I've tried my best to pretend to have amnesia, don't force me, okay? You promised not to force me..."

"Why don't you dare to go to the doctor?" Pei Lang asked almost pleadingly, "Didn't you often encourage me to go to the doctor when I was sick? How come you don't want to when it's your turn?"

"Of course, people can only see clearly when they are outside the game." Li Bai murmured, "I am in the game... I can't do it. I know that going to the doctor is the right choice, but I can't do it, I'm afraid, Scared to death..."

"Don't be afraid." Pei Lang persuaded softly, "The doctor is very good and professional..."

"No matter how professional a doctor is, he has to understand the situation before he can treat a disease." Li Bai resisted, "I won't go...you want me to confess those things, why don't you let me die."

Seeing that Pei Lang didn't agree, Li Bai raised his head and said sadly: "I beg you, Brother Lang, can you just pretend you don't know about this matter? Let's continue as before, okay? Especially...don't tell my mother , she has suffered enough in her life..."

After he finished speaking, he was about to kneel on the ground, Pei Lang hurriedly pulled him up, moved him to the sofa half-dragged and half-embraced, and said compromisingly: "I promise you, I will definitely not tell auntie... Also, temporarily You may not be allowed to go to the hospital, but you have to promise me one thing."

"Say it." Li Bai wiped his face, "Say it, brother, as long as you don't let me go to the hospital, I'll agree to whatever you say."

"In the future, if the situation like last night happens again, don't carry it alone." Pei Lang frowned, "Dissociation is too dangerous, and you must tell me if there is a similar situation again, do you hear me? Work……"

Li Bai immediately retorted: "You can't lose your job."

"...Okay, then I'll go buy some kind of children's watch tomorrow, and you wear it, so that I can know your location at any time." After thinking about it, Pei Lang said, "Also, we'd better not stay here. , when someone died next to me, my heart is always in a state of anxiety, let alone you..."

At this point, he suddenly thought of something, grabbed Li Bai's wrist and asked, "When you went down to throw out the trash last night, did you see what happened next door?"

"...I don't know." Li Bai shook his head, "I lost my mind last night, I was unconscious, how could I pay attention to the side?"

"Well, it's fine if you didn't see it." Pei Lang breathed a sigh of relief, "It's scary."

The matter was clearly explained, and Pei Lang became more confident when facing his cousin. When Liang Sheng called later, he firmly rejected the other party's proposal to let him move.

Two days later, the case of the young man next door was closed. Because there was no trace of resistance, the knife stuck on the young man's chest had only his own fingerprints, and there was no other supporting evidence. In the end, it could only be ruled that the young man committed suicide.

Pei Lang didn't know why, but he always felt that that person didn't commit suicide.

But he didn't have any evidence, it was just an unreasonable intuition, not to mention that the police had investigated for so long and found no abnormality, so he would not be able to question it.

A week later, Pei Lang found a suitable house and moved there with Li Bai. The two lived as usual. As the days went by, they gradually forgot about the suicide case.

Apart from the absence of kisses and sex, the two are even closer than lovers. They go to sleep every day, sharing every tiny detail in life, and even every tiny change in psychology.

Pei Lang doesn't even play games very much, other than waiting for Li Bai to go home in his daytime life, he monitors Li Bai's location on the positioning software.

In fact, Li Bai's dissociation symptoms do not occur frequently, but Pei Lang's own depression seems to be getting worse.

He felt that his world seemed to be colored only by Li Bai, and he was not interested in anything else.Every time he lay on the bed, he would have an inexplicable thought, as if it would be good to close his eyes and never wake up again.

Two months after the suicide, Pei Lang went to see a psychiatrist for reexamination as usual, and by the way wanted to inquire about how Li Bai should deal with that symptom.

In fact, he wanted to ask a long time ago, but he never thought of how to ask.But yesterday when Li Bai was delivering food, he suddenly suffered from dissociation symptoms while standing on the main road, and was almost killed by a car, which made him realize that this matter cannot be delayed any longer.

When he entered the consultation room at the hospital, Dr. Zhuo was still writing with his head buried in his head, ignoring him for a long time.

Pei Lang sat quietly on the stool and waited for more than 20 minutes. The doctor finally put down his pen, led him to the sofa, and poured him another cup of hot tea.

"Talk about the recent situation?" The doctor said with a gentle smile. "You seem a little worried."

"Yeah." Pei Lang held the tea and said in silence for a while, "Let's talk about myself first."

The doctor pretended to be listening.

"I still have nightmares recently." Pei Lang said, "But the impressions are not very deep. I forget it when I wake up. I only remember that the dream was painful, as if I was about to lose something important."

"Is it difficult to fall asleep?" the doctor asked.

"It's getting better."

Pei Lang answered briefly, as if he didn't want to say more.

However, the doctor keenly captured his emotions, and immediately asked: "What caused the change?"

"I..." Pei Lang looked at the doctor's expression hesitantly, and said in a low voice, "Recently, I often chat with that friend of mine..."

"Oh, I remember, it's called Li Bai, right? I once advised you to stay away from him, because both of you seem to have certain psychological problems, and I have a strong objection to the fact that two patients live alone together " said the doctor, "so you think your insomnia is getting better because you often talk to him before going to bed?"

"Well, I think it's easy to chat with him..."

Pei Lang originally wanted to mention dissociation disease, but now the doctor took the initiative to talk about Li Bai's psychological problems. He was worried that the doctor would link dissociation disease with Li Bai, so he hesitated for a while, and dared not speak up easily.

"Why do you feel relaxed?" the doctor asked.

"Because...we will bring up things when we were young." Pei Lang replied, "You know we lived together when we were young, and we have so many wonderful memories. Every time we talk about our childhood, it makes me feel very relaxed."

"At this time, you will feel that your relationship with Li Bai is getting closer, right?"

After a pause of two seconds, the doctor slowed down his speech, and said quietly: "Even, you feel almost like a person with him, because you grew up in the same environment and have similar personalities, don't you?"

"...Yes, that's right."

After Pei Lang answered, he was suddenly startled.

He remembered that he had a dream within a dream two months ago, and had a conversation with Li Bai after waking up. At that time, he felt that something was strange, but he couldn't figure it out.

At this moment, he seemed to have suddenly realized - because the tone of Li Bai's speech that day was very similar to his own.

Although Li Bai is not as gentle to him as he is to others, sometimes he will hate him and get impatient, but Li Bai's words are always very elegant when he speaks.

He rarely expresses his emotions directly. If he feels irritable, he will show it more in his demeanor and will not say it out loud.

All in all, although Li Bai's grades are not good, his language expression is not rough, but Pei Lang himself is careless and doesn't pay much attention to these aspects.

"I..." After a long time, Pei Lang said as if to comfort himself, "I think it's normal for two people to become similar after living together for a long time?"

"You have not become similar, but he is trying to make you think that you are similar, even inseparable, and can almost be regarded as the same person." The doctor's tone did not fluctuate at all, "He is often in danger of life, but he still struggles to survive. But you always have the idea that it doesn’t matter even if you die. It seems that his symptoms are more serious among you, but you are actually the one who is in danger.”

Pei Lang was stunned: "How do you know..."

"Think about it carefully, are you pampering him too much? You will compromise no matter what he asks, and you will choose to believe no matter what abnormalities he has." The doctor ignored Pei Lang's words and spoke faster and faster, "You You rely too much on him, and let him rely on you. After you have been in contact with him for a long time, you have almost cut off all external contact. He'll live in your place, won't he?"

Pei Lang's breathing was so rapid that it was like an overrunning machine, which made people worry that he would stop working due to overload in the next second.

After 10 minutes of silence, Pei Lang spoke, but his first sentence was still a retort: ​​"I think...you shouldn't say that about him."

The doctor sighed, took off his glasses, and shook his head in disappointment.

Pei Lang didn't notice that, and said to himself: "You don't know him, Li Bai is a very good person, he is very kind, gentle, and strong, he..."

The voice stopped abruptly, and Pei Lang suddenly realized that the image of Li Bai in his heart seemed a little too thin.

Apart from these few adjectives, he couldn't recall more.

"Yes, it is undeniable that Li Bai is indeed a very good person in reality."

While speaking, the doctor raised his hand, clenched his fist and hit Pei Lang on the back of the head twice, and said slowly: "But he is no longer here, Pei Lang."