Immersive performance [entertainment circle]

When Pei Lang woke up, his waist hurt a little, the sofa was too soft, he had been lying here to sleep before, and his body became uncomfortable after a long time.

In front of me was the same consulting room as in the dream, but the scene was obviously more real.

This kind of feeling can't be experienced in a dream, but can be felt when you wake up.For example, the sunlight coming in from the window produces the Tyndall effect, fine dust flickers in the light beam, and all the scenes are clearer than in dreams.

The tactile sensation of the cushion under his body is not as good as in the dream, as if there is always something wrapped around it, which makes people feel light and has nowhere to fall.

But even if he could have a clear perception, Pei Lang still couldn't recover for a long time.

Dr. Zhuo Hongwei, whose face was exactly the same as in the dream, was sitting across from him, but it was possible that there was no subconscious resistance after leaving the dream, and the doctor looked more kind in reality.

Knowing that Pei Lang needed some time to react, the doctor didn't bother him immediately.

After a while, Pei Lang took the initiative to say: "He still doesn't want to communicate with me directly, and has been playing Li Bai. I have several dreams, and the two of them are the same as before, and they repeat the cycle of the neighbor youth and Li Bai's death. The scene - he did it very successfully, I really felt so guilty towards Li Bai that I almost killed myself in my dream."

Zhuo Hongwei nodded approvingly: "You have created an extremely smart sub-personality."

"But this time there is a new dream." Pei Lang said hesitantly, "It's a white room. I don't think I've stayed in such a room before."

"Can you describe it in more detail?"

Pei Lang described the small white room again, and said again: "But I feel that Li Bai in the dream is a little different, that is... Although the body is the same as it is now, the behavior is a bit childish, like a child."

"Maybe it's a reminder from your sub-personality." Zhuo Hongwei said, "He has a clearer memory of your childhood than you."

"How can he be so kind?" Pei Lang recalled the scene in his dream, and couldn't help but sneer, "Just pretending to be pitiful, using Li Bai's face to accuse me of killing him, and then killing me when I let down my guard. .”

Zhuo Hongwei smiled noncommittally.

During the hypnosis process, Pei Lang actually communicated with the doctor. Every time he went to the hospital in his dream, he was reminded to communicate with the doctor, so Zhuo Hongwei had a certain understanding of his dream.

Pei Lang continued to answer a few questions, then closed his eyes and leaned on the sofa to relieve the fatigue and other complicated emotions brought about by the dream.

There is a small drip device on the small wooden table next to the sofa, from which there is a soft, rhythmic dripping sound.

Pei Lang felt very relaxed in such a voice.

But then the knocking sound from the door broke the calm, and then the nurse pushed open a crack in the door, saw Zhuo Hongwei nodding, then pushed the door open completely, and turned sideways to let the people behind go in.

"Is it over?" Liang Sheng stepped over, glanced at Pei Lang worriedly, and then looked at the doctor expectantly, "How is it?"

"Failed." Zhuo Hongwei shook his head slowly, "They even get along very well."

"Then what should we do?" Liang Sheng frowned, "If that's the case, can we try another method you mentioned earlier, let them fuse together?"

"No." Zhuo Hongwei shook his head again, "There are two very important reasons. One is that the secondary personality is quite cunning. During the communication process, he kept concealing his true personality, bringing the primary personality into nightmares over and over again, while trying to Leading the main personality to self-destruct, obviously unwilling to coexist with the main personality. Another reason is also the most important reason, that is, Pei Lang knows very clearly that Li Bai has passed away, so he is very repulsive to this sub-personality that imitates Li Bai."

After a pause, Zhuo Zhiwei continued: "It takes a very long time for personality integration, about seven to ten years, and the patient must cooperate for a long time. But Pei Lang has a strong desire to eliminate the sub-personality, even if he is temporarily persuaded, It's also hard to keep him thinking the same way for the next decade."

"Forget it, let's stop here today." Pei Lang pinched his forehead and got up from the sofa, "Thank you, Dr. Zhuo, I'll come back later."

"I suggest you don't try again before you make up your mind." Zhuo Hongwei smiled gently, but his tone was serious, "It's a very bad behavior to deceive a doctor, Pei Lang."

"What do you mean?" Liang Sheng slapped Pei Lang on the shoulder, his tone suddenly raised, "How dare you lie to the doctor?!"

"I have told you very clearly before that before starting the treatment, I need to make sure that you have the ability to face the shadow of childhood." Zhuo Hongwei said, "However, you have not recovered that memory at all. The previous treatment In the process, you made up a memory to deceive me, didn't you?"

Pei Lang hung his head and didn't speak.

"The fundamental reason why you have a second personality is that you are afraid of your childhood experience, so you split into a stronger personality to protect yourself." Zhuo Hongwei explained, "Now you want to eliminate the second personality, but the former The damage still exists, you must first learn to face it, and then you can defeat Li Bai."

"Don't call him by that name." Pei Lang said coldly, "He doesn't deserve it."

"He calls himself that." Zhuo Hongwei said, "To be precise, you gave him Li Bai's characteristics, so he thinks he is Li Bai."

"He's not." Pei Lang said stubbornly, "I didn't think so."

Zhuo Hongwei sighed helplessly: "This is a fact, and it doesn't exist because you deny it. You were protected by Li Bai when you were young, and you regarded him as your savior. Subconsciously, you imitated Li Bai and fabricated a personality to protect yourself This personality was hidden for more than ten years because of Li Bai's life, and he didn't wake up until Li Bai passed away. He thought he was Li Bai, and he just survived in a different way."

Pei Lang raised his head, his eyes were slightly bloodshot: "Then why did he want to kill me?"

"First of all, you wanted to destroy him first." Zhuo Hongwei said, "Of course, this is not the main reason. The main reason is that he is not the real Li Bai, but a fantasy in your subconscious. Except Li Bai's Tolerant and strong, he also has the two characteristics of intelligence and ruthlessness, which are given to him by you. This is why I asked you to retrieve the memory first, because we don't know why you created him, and we don't know Why did you give him the characteristic of 'ruthlessness' which is the opposite of Li Bai. In your description, the real Li Bai should be a gentle and kind person, but your sub-personality is as calm and cruel as a robot."

Pei Lang was silent for a long time before he asked, "How should I retrieve my memory?"

"As I said before, you need to try to communicate with him." Zhuo Hongwei said, "The memory that you were afraid of and avoided is being borne by him. He knows everything in the past."

"How to communicate?" Pei Lang was a little annoyed, "I wrote a diary, but he ignored me."

"Then force him to come out—you can look for Li Bai's old things to see if there are any clues, or go back to the place where you were kidnapped when you were young." Zhuo Hongwei suggested, "Your current state is not suitable for being alone. Action, so be sure to ask Mr. Liang to accompany you, if there is an emergency, you can contact me at any time."

"En." Pei Lang nodded, "I'll try."

After leaving the hospital and returning to the car, Liang Sheng watched Pei Lang fasten his seat belt, and suddenly asked, "Are you still investigating the case in private?"

Pei Lang paused for a moment, then replied casually: "Yes."

"Pei Lang!" Liang Sheng said angrily, "Did I warn you not to investigate the case without permission? Did you ignore my words?!"

"Anyway, you've already closed the case. I'll find out who has been affected by myself?" Pei Lang said indifferently, "Don't worry, I won't bother others with this matter."

"Isn't that troublesome?!" Liang Sheng was so angry that his eyebrows stood on end. "Tell me yourself, you are in such a dangerous state now, is it suitable for you to go out and run around? I promised to take care of your illness." Why are you still so disobedient after hiding it from your mother?"

"Then what should I do?" Pei Lang turned to stare at him, "Can you check for me?"

"What else is there to investigate in this case?!" Liang Sheng thumped the steering wheel, "Just because of your doubts, uncle has already tried to extend the deadline for handling the case, otherwise the case would have been closed long ago! The result? We went back and forth I have been busy for more than a month, and I went through all the previous similar cases, but nothing abnormal was found, what else can I do?! Tell me, how can I still investigate? Can I be more patient than the entire police station? Or you Di Renjie reincarnated?"

"There will always be clues." Pei Lang held his seat belt tightly and said stubbornly, "It is impossible for Li Bai to commit suicide."

"How could he be impossible?!"

In the past, considering Pei Lang's ability to bear it, Liang Sheng always tried to comfort him when he mentioned this matter, but now that Pei Lang was becoming more and more obsessed, Liang Sheng got angry, and was a little unscrupulous for a while: "Li Bai has suffered from depression for so many years. , Isn’t suicide normal?! And your neighbor not only has a history of mental illness, but also has attempted suicide several times. Isn’t it normal to die the last time?!”

"Then is it normal for me to die?!" Pei Lang immediately yelled at him, "I am also sick! So it is normal for me to kill myself?! If I die, you will let me go like this , Say something normal?!"

"I..." Liang Sheng felt uncomfortable being blocked by him. After a long time, he calmed down, "I'm sorry Xiao Lang, uncle was a little anxious just now, and the words got off the rails. Calm down too. When did uncle let it go? We didn't Have you tried your best to investigate? But really... really nothing unusual..."

"I know you tried your best."

Pei Lang wiped his face vigorously, and gradually calmed down: "I just... don't know what else to do for him. Just think of me as comforting myself, Uncle, I have to find something to do for myself."

"...Okay." After he said this, Liang Sheng had no choice but to give in, "Then you have to promise me that you can investigate the case, don't run around, don't go to dangerous places alone, and you must contact me in advance if you have something to do. Me. Of course, it’s best for you to stay at home and look up information on the Internet.”

Pei Lang didn't bother to play around, nodded perfunctorily, then leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes to rest.

In order to eliminate the subpersonality, he had undergone hypnosis for the second time, but it still ended in failure.

Perhaps the doctor was right, he should first learn to accept the shadow of the past, so as to completely get rid of that disgusting sub-personality.

Although it was not long before he was hypnotized, the scene in the dream was already a little blurry, but the small white room in the dream on the second floor was more impressive.

The doctor said that hypnosis is to allow him to communicate directly with the sub-personality, and the sub-personality already exists in the subconscious, so the sub-personality has a stronger initiative in the dream, and the content of the dream will also be changed by the sub-personality's will.

Of course, there is a difference between hypnosis and pure dreaming. Most events and scenes will not appear out of thin air, nor will they be too imaginative, but basically alluding to reality.

The last hypnosis time was relatively short, and Pei Lang still couldn't understand it. This time the hypnosis time was longer and the level was deeper, so he understood the meaning of that sentence.

——Those scenes when being hypnotized have basically happened in reality, such as a neighbor committing suicide in a form that is more like homicide. After all, except for film and television works, few people would choose to commit suicide by stabbing a knife into the heart.Afterwards, things like being investigated actually happened, including the misunderstanding caused by Li Bai's separation and self-harm, and their brief quarrel before.

However, there are some discrepancies between the time in the dream and the reality. For example, the neighbor's suicide happened a year ago, while Li Bai committed suicide two months ago.

Some small details in the dream are also different from the reality, which is due to the guilt and regret in Pei Lang's subconscious, so he wants to change it through the dream.

For example, it was actually Li Bai, not Pei Lang, who saw the neighbor's suicide scene with his own eyes. Later, Li Bai said he wanted to move, but he didn't have time to look at the house, so he asked Pei Lang to do it.

However, Pei Lang was seriously depressed and didn't want to do anything at all, so he procrastinated again and again. Li Bai didn't bother to urge him later, so he continued on like this.

Pei Lang suffers from dissociative personality disorder and depression, but before Li Bai's death, he thought he only had depression and was receiving treatment.

He ate and drank at Li Bai's place, and lived like that for more than a year, never thinking about whether the suicide case would have any impact on Li Bai.

He knew that Li Bai also had the symptoms of dissociation, but he didn't pay attention to it, and he only lived in his own gloomy and decadent little world all day long.

He's been so heartless.

If it goes back to the earlier time, he didn't even think about it for so many years, they were hurt together when they were young, how could it be possible that he was the only one who had psychological problems.

Besides, Li Bai always remembered.

So he saved it in a dream.

He hoped that he was the one who saw the bloody scene, that he could pay attention to him all the time after learning that Li Bai had dissociative symptoms, hoped that they moved, that Li Bai was still alive, and lived happily with him. good.

However, no.

He didn't know what kind of psychological torture Li Bai suffered in that year, so that he died so peacefully.

The day before his death, Li Bai even specially reserved a seat in a high-end restaurant and asked Pei Lang to celebrate his birthday with him.

They chatted a lot about their childhood that night, Pei Lang was drunk a lot, and finally passed out, and was dragged by Li Bai to a hotel to get a room.

The next day, Pei Lang was woken up by a call from the police.

The method of Li Bai's suicide was exactly the same as that of the neighbor's young man, with a knife piercing his heart.

The author has something to say:

Part of the disease introduction comes from data, and more is fabricated. The treatment process is all made up. Please don’t substitute reality.