The high-risk occupation is actually me

In fact, Hualei no longer wanted a miracle. He sent himself to a mental hospital, he didn't care about struggling, he just wanted to stay here so badly, so that his brother could be free.

It may not be him who is screaming in despair, but a child who has been afraid for many years.

The door of the ward was gently pushed open, and a young doctor standing at the door frowned and scolded in a low voice: "Get out quickly! You can't come in here!"

But when he turned his head, he saw that the madly struggling man on the hospital bed seemed to be frozen in place comically, his clothes and hair were messy, but he was motionless, his eyes fixed on the rather good-looking man beside him. .

The doctors and nurses in the ward were all amazed at what they saw before them, and they slowly tried to release the force in their hands. The frowning dean outside the door made a gesture, and everyone left lightly.

The door of the room was gently closed behind Huaci, Huaci was stagnant and did not dare to go forward to provoke Hualei, he opened his mouth to speak, but the circles of his eyes were red first.

Hualei's wrists were trembling violently, he was wrapped palely in the ill-fitting hospital gown, he had never been so embarrassed and pitiful.

Hua Ci tried her best to suppress her tears, and said with a trembling voice, "Xiao Yu?"

More than two years later, Hualei once again heard Huaci call him Xiaoyu, it wasn't in a dream, his fingertips went numb all the way to his heart.

A group of people outside the room watched the situation inside the room nervously. Hua Lei seemed to regain consciousness the moment he saw Hua Ci, and his eyes gradually cleared up. , but the corners of his lips curled up inexplicably, with a taste of indifference.

Let Huaci not dare to act rashly.

There were still tears of embarrassment on Hualei's face, he raised his hand to roughly wipe away the traces, and said softly, "Why did you come?"

He walked slowly from the bed to the ground, staggered a bit, and supported the bed: "How good, how good we are now, everything is clear, so many stinky things have been left in the sun, it is clear, it is clear , I don’t need to hold you anymore.”

Huaci's lips trembled slightly.

"I don't need to hold you anymore, brother." A slight smile emerged from the corner of Hualei's lips, "Do you know how scared I have been all these years? I'm too despicable brother, I can't grow well even if you work so hard."

He pointed to his chest: "I'm afraid of being alone, so I know the murderer won't tell. It's obviously our family's business, but I just want to drag you down to rot in this mud with me, all because I'm afraid, ridiculous Right? Because I'm afraid, I can cut off your bright future. I know the cause of the car accident, I know you have nightmares all the time, I know you feel guilty about me, and I just want to make you feel guilty , tied you by my side with my eyes closed, when you left me for the first time, I told you, are you worthy of my parents?"

"You were so sad at that time, I saw you crying brother, but I just wanted to not let you go. I am the murderer, the murderer who killed you for 11 years."

A thick fog rose in front of Huaci's eyes, and Hualei's expression could not be seen clearly.

"You are so kind to me, but I am so rebellious. I used your trust to drug you and molested you. I messed up your project and made you notorious and kicked out of Huashi. Whether it is me or Huashi, 11 years of hard work It's ruined." Hua Lei knelt down, touched her knees on the cold floor, and looked up at Hua Ci, "I'm a rotten person, I've been entangled with me for so long, brother, I can't get better, just throw me away .”

The spring wind blows softly across the cheeks through the window of Xiaoxuan, Hualei is cold all over, he suddenly thinks of the end of summer when Huaci left two years ago, he stood by the window, the evening wind only blew gently, he knew That is no longer the wind of summer.

"I won't pester you anymore, brother, don't be afraid, just go in your direction and throw me away."

He can barely see the skin on the outside, but the inside has long been charred and decayed, and the pain is deep into the bones.

A few minutes ago, he was crying "Brother, save me", but after seeing his brother, he calmly said "Throw me away".

Huaci's throat was so choked that he couldn't speak, and the sourness rushed to the tip of his nose. He walked towards Hualei who was kneeling on the ground step by step, raised his hand and rubbed it on his forehead hair, suppressing tears and evoked a smile .

"My little fish, why are you so thin?"

Hualei will remember this moment forever, like a demon being enlightened and baptized, the slight touch of the god made him tremble from the bottom of his heart in an instant, and he did not dare to look up.

Hua Ci caressed his thin side face, leaned over and hugged him tightly to his heart, rubbed the messy hair at the back of his head with one hand, still jokingly said: "Our little fish is so good, how could brother be willing to throw it away. "

Where Hualei couldn't see, tears fell down like strings.

Hualei used to say that he was afraid that he would leave him. He felt annoyed for a long time, and he obviously put his whole heart on him. He felt that it was not enough to make this little bastard feel safe. Later, he learned that Hualei understood from a young age. Hua Ci gradually felt that he could understand his nostalgia for himself, the only person he could trust.

But it turned out that there was an even more terrifying truth.

The elder brother he wanted so much to stay by his side was horrifying from the very beginning, and was almost pushed into hell by his own parents, but he still had to rely on lies and the guilt of torturing his elder brother to make him Stay with yourself.

Hualei is like a bean caught in the middle of a stone, which has been repeatedly grinded. When Huaci can't sleep peacefully every night, he may not have escaped from nightmares, and he is always in a dilemma between selfishness and truth.

For the first time in his despicable life, he plucked up the courage to peel off his ugly skin and open up his corrupt insides to the one he loves, but he didn't have the thunder and rage he imagined, and he welcomed a warm embrace that was rarely seen in dreams , forcing him to still tremble as if being electrotherapy.

Hualei asked dully: "Do you feel sorry for me? Afraid that I will die? Are you going to use the rest of your life to save me again? Brother, I'm so disgusting, I seem to be using you again."

Huaci's heart ached like a knife, he hastily wiped off the tears on his face, first bowed his head and kissed the top of Hualei's hair.

"You, kissed me?" Hua Lei didn't dare to move.

Huaci straightened her waist, held his cheeks with both hands, lowered her head and kissed him on the center of his brow, and replied affirmatively, "Yes, I'm kissing you."

Hua Lei wanted to say something else, but the next second his lips were hot, he saw his brother tilted his head, his eyes were slightly closed with a pious face, and his trembling black eyelashes were like the wings of a butterfly.

He had never received such a gentle and tender kiss, as if he was patiently healing every scar in his heart, Hualei knelt stiffly on the ground, almost hearing his own heartbeat.

Maybe very long, maybe a long time, they have already lost the ability to tell time.

Hualei's eyes blinked lightly, and a large teardrop rolled down, and they were sucked into each other's mouths, as salty as the mood at this time.

Huaci was shivered by the tears, moved away slightly, took a look at Hualei, then pecked and kissed again.

Big and big tears fell from Hualei's eyes, very abruptly, a little panic slowly appeared on his face, his wrists trembled violently, and he couldn't control his movements.

"Why did you kiss me? Brother." He looked like a child who couldn't find a home. "You don't like me. This is the first time you kiss me, but you don't like me."

Huaci's heart was broken into pieces, he raised his hand to straighten Huali's messy hair, hugged him into his arms, and smiled with red eyes: "It's not the first time I kissed you, you forgot Is it? When you were young, my brother liked you very much and kissed you every day. "

Hualei stubbornly wanted to withdraw from his arms, and wanted to hide under the bed out of shame: "I liked me when I was young, but now I don't like me."

Huaci used all her strength to hold him in her arms, not letting him hide: "I don't like you now, but my brother loves you now."

When Hualei heard this confession, she had been looking forward to it for a long time, but she didn't see the slightest joy: "Don't lie to me, brother, don't save me, I don't deserve it, you have your own life."

When he said this, he seemed to think of something, and pulled out a necklace from his chest with shaking hands. A simple silver ring was hung on the necklace: "I will give you back your freedom, I will give you back your freedom .”

This silver ring that Hua Ci thought had been thrown away long ago, he pulled it out with all his strength and threw it out with all his strength screaming "you don't deserve it", was hung on the closest place to Hua Lei's heart, stained with his daily body temperature.

Huaci finally couldn't help crying again, he held Hualei's hand: "Brother, don't want to be free, Xiaoyu, do you still remember my wish at that time? I just want to be with you forever and never separate."

Huati's movements stopped in place.

Hua Ci held his hand on her chest, let him listen to her heartbeat, then held his face seriously, and looked into his eyes seriously: "Little fish, how could I not love you?" The first thing you saw when you were carried out of the delivery room was me, the first smile you showed was for me, the first time you spoke, the first time you ate, the first time you were coaxed to sleep, all of them were done by me .I have cultivated your way of speaking, habits of doing things, and even every hobby. How can I not fall in love with you? I have never liked anyone, because my only ideal type is created by myself. "

He bowed his head and kissed Hualei's cold lips again, and said in a low voice: "I created you with my own hands, and I created my lover with my own hands. My brother just woke up too late, but it's not too late to love you."

He is making a confession 20 years late.

Why should love in this world be categorized simply and roughly?

Before he and Hualei could not tell the difference between family affection and love, they were so anxious about each other, they didn't need to tell the difference, because they should never be separated, they were like two plants clinging to each other, sharing nutrients , sharing sunlight and air.

Hualei has never cried that much before. He used to cry often, but he always squeezed out a few tears symbolically and hypocritically for the sake of being coquettish and obedient. But at this moment, the tears in his eyes seemed endless, not lingering, just empty tears.

"elder brother."

Hua Ci hugged him tightly: "I am here."

"elder brother."

"I'm here."

Hualei's voice was hoarse, his dream for many years had come true at this moment, what was before joy was unbelievable, he raised his hand to hold Huaci's arm forcefully, and clasped her into his arms so tightly that it was hard to breathe. feel pain.

Hua Ci is like a stretched leaf, wrapping the sick child in his arms with infinite softness, giving him all the love.While Hualei's heart fell to the ground, her spirit also reached the peak of collapse, she lost all strength and fainted in his arms.

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Sweet, sweet, sweet.

Today's second update, to make up for yesterday's.

Cambrian's revision is quite fancy now hahahaha.