The Canary's Trap

Lu Ling did suffer from insomnia that night. He was upset for some reason and couldn't fall asleep because of tossing and turning.

Xu Shi, he felt that he had rekindled his passionate love for Shen Yuchuan, but he couldn't admit and accept it.

He took a deep breath, sat up from the bed, afraid of disturbing Shen Yuchuan's rest, fumbled to turn on the lamp on the bedside table.

With a "snap", the warm yellow light lit up the room. Lu Ling stared blankly at the desk lamp, and then locked his eyes on the drawer of the cabinet.

After a long time, he rubbed his sore eyes, but his mind suddenly became clear at that moment.

Shen Yuchuan suffers from severe insomnia, and he suffers from insomnia just once, so what about him, how did he get through the countless nights of insomnia and nightmares?

At this time, he suddenly realized something, bent down quickly, and opened the last drawer of the cabinet, but was surprised by a large pile of medicines.

Sure enough, Shen Yuchuan's insomnia was still not cured.

Lu Ling trembled to get the medicine in the cabinet, feeling a great depression in his heart.

They were all sleeping pills with different ingredients. Lu Ling frowned, and when his eyes accidentally settled on a box of amitriptyline, his nerves collapsed suddenly, and he froze in place.

Amitriptyline is a drug for treating mental illness, why would Shen Yuchuan take this drug? !

Surprised and worried, Lu Ling hurriedly closed the cabinet, and rushed out of the bedroom without even putting on his shoes.

The living room was very quiet with the lights turned off. Normally, Lu Ling must have felt that Shen Yuchuan had fallen asleep, but it was not until this moment that Lu Ling knew that Shen Yuchuan was not as naturally relaxed as he usually appeared.

He was actually more scared and powerless than himself.

The living room was dark, but there were dots of flames that were faintly lit. Holding his breath, Lu Ling searched for the flickering flames and came to the sofa.

Shen Yuchuan seemed to be thinking about something seriously, and Lu Ling's footsteps were slow, but he didn't notice it.Lu Ling walked up to Huoxingzi, looked at Shen Yuchuan's blurred body outline, felt a sore nose, and suddenly hugged his waist from behind.

Shen Yuchuan paused for a moment, then turned his head, the flames fell on Lu Ling's curled long eyelashes, he opened his mouth in surprise: "Lulu?"

"Well, it's me." Lu Lingweng replied in a low voice.

"What's the matter, haven't you slept yet?" Shen Yuchuan said nervously.

Lu Ling shook his head: "I can't sleep."

Shen Yuchuan untied his hand, pushed the ashtray aside, got up from the sofa, squatted down again, and stroked his cheek with his hand, Lu Ling could clearly smell the tobacco on his hand: "How much have you smoked?" cigarette?"

Before Shen Yuchuan could answer, Lu Ling said again: "Have you been smoking behind my back like this these days?"

"deer deer……"

"Is it?!" Lu Ling's tone was suddenly severe.Lu Ling knew better than anyone else how Shen Yuchuan couldn't take care of himself. He was always hungry and full, and he smoked fiercely. He seemed desperate when he was busy.

"Yes."

Lu Ling was angry and anxious: "Also have been insomnia?"

"Yes."

Lu Ling took a deep breath, and opened his hand: "Shen Yuchuan, do you have any grudges against yourself? Why don't you know how to take good care of your body, smoke and drink, and can't sleep well, what exactly do you want to do?"

Shen Yuchuan froze for a moment, with a happy smile on his face: "Lu Lu, are you worried about me?"

There is nothing to deny, Lu Ling nodded: "I am worried about you."

Shen Yuchuan's smile deepened a little. He picked up his phone, lit it up, and turned on the light in the living room. Then he walked back to Lu Ling's side again, carefully watching the expression on his face when he was concerned about himself. Not willing to let go.

After watching it for a while, Lu Ling was a little annoyed, and he said, "Lu Ling, I am terrible like this, worse than before I met you, and it is because of this that I know how important you are to me. "

"I used to live because of the hatred in my heart, and I walked forward with that bit of obsession. If I hadn't met you, I would have come to an end, and my whole life would have been like that."

"It was you who made me feel that there was another way to live life that would not be too exhausting. It made me greedy, afraid, gain and lose. At first I only wanted you to be by my side, but later I felt that it was not enough, and you still have to be with me forever With me, I can feel at ease."

Accompanying and always accompanying, how many extravagant hopes are hidden in the middle.

"I'm too greedy, cheating you, hurting you, forcing you, and still expecting you to forgive me. I don't care about anything, rely on me and like me as before."

"I can't help but hate Lu Zhengan, but I don't want to push you away. I always think that if you show mercy in the future, you might not hate me too much. You are so easy to coax, so I will just be patient and coax you. After Shen Yuchuan finished speaking, he felt that he was really ridiculous, "I thought I controlled everything and could maintain the balance, but Lu Ling—"

"A person has only one heart, which cannot be divided into two halves, which can be loved and hated at the same time."

Shen Yuchuan's eyes were full of remorse, if he could have understood how good these things would be, he would not have lost Lu Ling.

In the end, he personally destroyed the shining little prince.

Lu Ling looked at him, his eyes filled with mist, and after a while, he raised his eyes and looked at Shen Yuchuan: "Brother Shen, I don't know why you hate Dad and what kind of secret you are keeping from me, but I hope you Live a good life and stop torturing yourself.”

Shen Yuchuan grabbed his wrist with a serious voice: "Lu Ling, you are torturing me, if you are willing to go back with me, if you are willing to return to my side, I am willing to promise you anything, whether my life is good or not , bad or bad, it all depends on you."

When Shen Yuchuan said this, there was a scorching light in his eyes, persistent, as if he could burn everything to ashes, but Lu Ling didn't avoid his eyes anymore, and just said softly: "Brother Shen, you are cheating. "

Shen Yuchuan smiled: "I learned from Lu Lu."

Lu Ling didn't argue with him, he knew in his heart that if he really said it, he might not be able to speak more than Shen Yuchuan, so he hesitated for a while: "Okay, go back to the bedroom and sleep."

Shen Yuchuan was so excited that he almost carried him on his shoulders, he endured and endured, and then forced himself down.

That night, he hugged Lu Ling quietly, and finally had a good night's sleep.

And after this time, Shen Yuchuan was completely freed from the sofa, and could sleep comfortably with Lu Ling in his arms.

The relationship between the two has also become closer.

Shen Yuchuan knew that he couldn't force Lu Ling to be too tight, so when he was sleeping with his arms around him, he would at most kiss his forehead, and the rest would disappear no matter how uncomfortable it was.

Lu Ling was afraid that he would sleep on the sofa by himself and would not suffer from insomnia and smoking. Seeing him sleeping in the same bed with him would at least give him a better rest, so he was willing to compromise.

They both knew that neither of them had really crossed that gap, so they couldn't really start over.

If you want the wound to heal, you must reopen the old wound, pick off the carrion with your own hands, and hurt again.