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The next morning, Jian Zhan woke up slowly.

The curtains covered more than half of the window, but a lot of sunlight still came in and shone on the wooden floor.Jian Zhan got up and opened the curtains, the dazzling sunlight immediately shone on his pale face.

The city is still bustling, and even though the sun is just rising at this moment, that kind of vigorous vitality still hasn't faded because of the night.There is a lot of traffic, people are coming and going, looking down, you can see the slightly hot asphalt road, and looking up, you can see the blue sky.

Jian Zhan stood in front of the window for a while, turned his head, looked at the cabinet that he had locked, and walked slowly towards it.In the cabinet, the letter was lying there quietly, clean without any dust, only with a few beautiful folds.He opened the envelope and looked at the letter for a long time.There were not many words on the letter, and the ink on the pen had already dried up, but Jian Zhan stared at the letter as if he had seen something. After a long time, he took out the lighter and took the letter with him. The envelope was burned together.

The flame burned between his fingers, until the heat approached Jian Zhan's fingernails, and then he let go of his hand, watching the half-burned letter fall to the ground like a lifeless moth, and finally turned into paper ashes .

The sunlight outside the window is getting hotter and brighter, and it looks more flamboyant compared to the dust on the ground.Jian Zhan pursed his lips and smiled faintly.

What if you don’t have time, what about forcing me to do things for you?Since you guys are not willing to give me time, then I will make time myself!

It was already eight o'clock when Jian Zhan finished dressing and went downstairs.Yan Xun was waiting at the stairs, it seemed that he wanted to go out with Xu Shishi.Jian Zhan finished his breakfast unhurriedly, just in time to see Xu Shishi coming down in a suit.Even though it was a hot summer, Xu Shishi's suit was still flat, without any unevenness, and it was as clean as a newly bought one.This dark blue suit is like his temperament, it doesn't look too rigid, but it makes him more stable.The white shirt inside was buttoned with white diamond cuff buttons, making his temperament even more gentle.

"Xu time." Jian Zhan stood up slowly and stopped him, "I have something to tell you."

Xu Shishi looked at Jian Zhan, and after a while, all irrelevant personnel in Selan Shili retreated, and even Yan Xun consciously went outside to wait.Jian Zhan wiped his mouth with a towel, his eyes burning, "You and I will go to the hospital together in a few days."

"Do you want to see Yan Mei?" Xu Shishi raised his eyebrows. Looking at his appearance, Jian Zhan knew that he had expected it. The feeling that everything was under his control made Jian Zhan very unhappy, but he But he didn't say anything, just continued, "After all, she is my sister."

"It's fine if you want to tell me." Xu Shishi nodded, and after a few seconds, he straightened his tie with a smile on his face, "Have you decided?"

"I'm just evaluating who is qualified to ask me to help." Jian Zhan's eyes are not sharp, but there is a murderous intent hidden. Xu Shishi knew what he was thinking at the moment, and the corner of his lips curled up, and said softly, "You know .”

"Don't you find it ridiculous?" Jian Zhan sneered, "Where did you get your confidence? The Yan family has raised me for more than ten years, what about the Xu family? Xu time, you are too confident."

Xu Shishi was still gentle after hearing this, even the curvature of his smile didn't change, he just looked at the hot sky outside, his eyes were calm, "You will choose me."

After saying this, he walked towards Jian Zhan and whispered in his ear, "Just choose me."

That voice was too gentle, as gentle as a whisper between lovers, each sound penetrated into the atrium.Jian Zhan raised his eyes, but saw that Xu Shishi had already left slowly, and his back became blurred under the sunlight. Jian Zhan stood still and looked at him, but finally did nothing.

No anger, no taunting.

He just suddenly felt that he couldn't understand Xu Shishi, this man who had been gentle to him since he was a child, still regarded him as his closest brother.Let him do everything, pamper him in everything...Of course he knew that if Xu Shishi wanted to find himself and bring him back to the Xu family, it would be an easy task, but he didn't do it.

He clearly knew that he still had an inexplicable feeling for him, so he said confidently that he believed he would choose him.

He knew his resentment and resentment towards the Xu family these years, so he said, just choose me.

It was clearly summer, and even though the air conditioner in the bar hadn't been turned on yet, Jian Zhan felt icy cold all over his body, icy cold to the bone.

It wasn't until 2 minutes later that Jian Zhan slowly looked away. He knew that all of this was just like that dream. Some things can be treated as if they don't exist, but some things can't be avoided even if you want to.Jian Zhan suddenly thought of Gu Wei, smiled self-deprecatingly, and stepped out of the door.It was still early, just in time for him to see someone.

In the afternoon, when the sun was at its most vicious, Gu Qing, who was sitting in the room, never thought that someone would come looking for him at this moment.She yelled "Come here, come here" and ran to open the door, but the moment she opened the door, she froze there.

She looked at the tall figure at the door and shook her hand. She took a step back, pressed her hand on the door, and asked in a bad tone, "What are you here for?"

What are you doing here?He knew that the other party was ugly to him because of Gu Wei's relationship, but when he heard this sentence, Jian Zhan still felt a little pain in his heart.He looked at the long-haired woman who was much shorter than him in front of him, and smiled softly, "Let me... have a look at him."

Gu Qing looked at Jian Zhan, and finally turned away to let Jian Zhan walk in.

The house is very small, that is, two bedrooms and one living room, with a total area of ​​just over seventy square meters.As soon as Jian Zhan walked in, he could see the sofa, with TV and tables on both sides.There is a photo hanging above the table, black and white photo, the person in the photo has a pure smile on his face, his eyebrows are curved, it just happens to be in his youth.

Everything here is still so familiar, as if it has never changed.He still spends the night here every day, and sleeps with him who is hot. The two of them keep chatting about their dreams and the future. No matter how hard it is, they still feel sweet.He still remembered that he and Gu Wei were sitting on the somewhat dilapidated sofa, watching the small TV and smiling at each other.

Jian Zhan shook his body and closed his eyes, trying to throw all these pictures out of his mind, but the pictures were as if they were sharply outlined by a pen, and they were as clear as hell.

"Why did you come to see him now?" Gu Qing's long hair reached her waist, Jian Zhan opened his eyes and looked at her slim figure, slightly absent-minded - it turned out that so long had passed.The young girl who was young at the beginning has already grown up.It really looks alike, looks alike, looks like him, looks like him...

"I'm sorry." Jian Zhan felt his throat dry, he smiled wryly, walked to the photo, and stared at the boy for a long time.He once thought that no matter who he once loved or hated, it would eventually pass with time. He also thought that he was just a man, and there was nothing he could not let go of.

But three years, three years have passed, whenever he wakes up in the middle of the night, he will always mutter his name, if he suffers from insomnia, this name is like a sleeping pill, it can easily bring him to sleep.

"I thought you would at least come to see him off for the last time when he passed away." Gu Qing said slowly, her almond eyes glistened slightly, "but you didn't. When I sent him away, the sky was just right It was raining, not too heavy, so I stood in front of him and told him in my heart that he would come, he loved you so much, he would definitely come... But you didn't come in the end. After I sent flowers, Countless people took turns sending flowers, you didn't see, all the flowers were white and pure, just like him. His friends and classmates all came, even if they didn't contact each other, they also came to send them, but you didn't come. "

"There are so many flowers, so white, so white, I almost can't see his face." Gu Qing lowered her eyes, trying to hold back her tears, "But you know what? I live with him For so long, I have never seen him so happy. I have done so much work in my heart to accept you, but in the end, you willfully and easily smashed everything into pieces. "

Jian Zhan didn't say a word, he clenched his fists, his eyes were slightly red, but from the beginning to the end, he never shed a single tear.Gu Qing was still reading it there, like the memories of her husband and wife, paragraph after paragraph.When he was a child, when he was a student, he worked non-stop to make money so that she could go to college...

"He won't be happy, I know." Gu Qing turned around and looked at Jian Zhan with a calm smile, "Even if we send him more lilies that match him, what he desires most is still the red rose you sent .”

"Why don't you talk? I feel guilty, I feel sorry for him?!" Gu Qing's mood suddenly became irritable, she walked in front of Jian Zhan, grabbed his clothes fiercely, and pulled him in front of her , stared at Jian Zhan fiercely with those red eyes, "Why don't you talk! You talk! Why didn't you come that day!"

"I'm sorry." Even though he wanted to say too much, at this moment, he was so choked up that he couldn't say a word.

"Can my brother come back just by saying I'm sorry! Is it still useful for you to say this now?" Gu Qing bit her lips tightly, breathing tremblingly, "It's been three years, can you imagine that every night when I fall asleep, it's his A figure? I really regret it, I really regret it... He loves me so much, if I had been more stubborn then, he would not have been with you, he would not have died!!"

"It's all your fault, it's all your fault!" Gu Qing took a deep breath, stretched out her hand and quickly wiped away her tears, she turned and ran towards her room, and threw an envelope inside on Jian Zhan's body. .The envelope was not sealed properly, and the money floating out of it splashed on Jian Zhan's body like rain, falling powerlessly on the ground.

"I won't ask for this money. Even without your help, I can go to college and be self-reliant." Gu Qing sat down on the sofa, scratching her hair in pain, her voice was cold and fragile, "Let's go , I don't want to see you."

"Xiaoqing..." Jian Zhan looked at Gu Qing, his lips twitched for a while, "I'm like you... For the past three years, I've been dreaming of him every day, dreaming of him smiling at me and talking to me..."

"enough!"

"I didn't know he died then...I really didn't know..."

"do not talk!"

"But I always dream of him lying in front of me, covered in blood... But I can't touch him, I want to hug him, but I can't touch him anyway... But he is still smiling ..."

"Stop it, I beg you, stop it!"

"I love him..." Jian Zhan leaned against the door and smiled softly, "He must not have forgotten me, and he must still remember me..."

"What qualifications do you have to say this?" Gu Qing stood up abruptly, the anger in her eyes seemed to be burning, and seemed to be slowly extinguished in the cold wind, "You know what he said before he died What? He was defending you till the end! He held my hand and said 'I love him, I love him' to me until his death. He walked away with a smile, how ridiculous, obviously he was the one who got hurt, But he... Jian Zhan, what right do you have to love him? You don't deserve my brother to love you at all!"

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