Spring time

When I heard the extremely familiar voice on the other end of the phone, I cried instantly, with tears running down my face.I held back my crying, and shouted anxiously to An Xin, "An Xin, where are you, I want to see you, I'll go find you, okay, let me see you, okay?"

On the other end, An Xin seemed to sigh slightly and smiled wryly.

After all these years, you are finally willing to see me, aren't you?

I just choked up and kept begging to repeat, rest assured, let me see you, okay, tell me the address, I will go to you right now, right now, don't refuse me, please.

An Xin didn't say anything, just gave me the address and hung up.

I almost ran out of the house, and before I could dry my tears, I took the keys and drove to find the address that An Xin gave me.An Xin seems to be sick, I can notice her coughing on the other end of the phone, intermittent, which makes my heart twitch inexplicably, now I just want to run to her side and take good care of her, and She said sorry, sorry for making her suffer alone.

Because it was working time, there were not too many vehicles on the street. I kept reading the address in my heart, and found the neighborhood where An Xin lived without any obstacles.

I kept shuttling on the green asphalt road paved with phoenix trees. There were very few pedestrians on the sidewalk, and they were all aunts and uncles returning from the vegetable market with ingredients.The community in this area is quite old, and many of the two or three-story buildings beside the road are covered with ivy and are lush.

I parked the car on the basement of the building, ran up to the seventh floor in three steps, and found the house number on the address.An Xin said on the phone that the key to the door was on the right side of the wooden frame of the door frame. I stood on tiptoe and fumbled for a key on the door rail, and opened the door carefully.

The living room in the house is simple in style, connected to the balcony, the door leading to the balcony is not closed, the cool wind blows into the room, rattling the floor-to-ceiling curtains.

I suddenly felt a world away, as if An Xin and I had never left, we were still in the hotel on that mountaineering trip, but I was not lying in An Xin's arms, nor was An Xin kneeling on the bed, helping me gently Just wipe your hair.

There is no peace of mind in the living room, she should be in the bedroom.

The door of the bedroom was ajar, I held back the uneasiness and excitement in my heart, and gently pushed the door open.

I saw that familiar figure at a glance, she was holding her knees with her hands, leaning on the window sill with her bare feet, her body was so thinly dressed, and the single-piece cotton pure white nightdress was empty on her body of.In these years, the years did not seem to have stayed on her body too much, she was still the same, but her black hair grew a lot, and the hairline in the middle had grown beyond her chin, and was scattered by the wind.

I could only see her side face, but I was still looking at her obsessively, and she also turned her head to look at me, but there were two lines of tears hanging on her pale and thin face.

My heart was hit hard at this moment, and there was a throbbing pain.Time flowed quietly beside us, we just looked at each other silently without saying a word.

I, who stood at the door, never took a step forward, and An Xin's tears flowed even more fiercely. She wiped her cheeks with her hands indiscriminately, desperately suppressing the tone that was about to cry, and jumped off the window sill, like the wind. The crumbling leaves that were about to fall came towards me with difficulty, I hurried forward to support her, An Xin collapsed in my arms, and wailed like a child while pulling at the skirt of my clothes. He yelled at me with a strong nasal voice.

Why did you walk away without saying a word; why I contacted you countless times, but you were stingy and refused to return me; why you avoided me inexplicably; why you came back, but you were so cruel that you refused to see me for more than a month I?You know, I have been waiting for you to come back and give me an explanation, but I have been waiting for more than a month, and you have never called me. I really can't wait any longer, but I dare not go to you, afraid that you will see me If that happens, I will turn around and flee like a monster, and I can only give up all expectations.But why did you break into my world again when I was already disheartened, disturbing my finally peaceful life, are you playing me like a puppet?Now that you have seen me, why are you standing at the door and refusing to come, are you here to see my jokes, yes, I look as you wish now, that's good, then you have seen enough, you go, you go.

An Xin tried to push me away, I hurriedly hugged An Xin tightly in my arms, as if if I didn't hold on, An Xin would disappear from my life.No matter how much An Xin struggles in my arms, I hold her tightly, refusing to let go and just keep apologizing.

An Xin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... because apart from these, I can't find anything else to say to An Xin.

In the end, An Xin was also tired, and gave up the struggle of hissing and biting, but kept twitching and choking in my arms until she calmed down and fell asleep with intermittent murmurs.

I finally understood these vague and repeated words, and An Xin murmured, why, why, in the end, even you don't want me anymore.

I looked at An Xin in my arms, and my heart ached like a knife. An Xin, why did you become so thin, flimsy, with deep hollows on both sides of your cheeks, pale without a trace of blood, and my arms were covered by your thin bones? Chai's body hurts from coughing, and the body is still so hot and hot, and the forehead is wet with thin beads of sweat, and some scattered hair sticks to it. I even get burned by the scorching heat of your heavy breathing.

An Xin, aren't you recuperating at home when you are sick? Why don't you know how to take good care of yourself?

I hugged An Xin on the bed, carefully covered her with the quilt, and carefully wiped off the sweat from An Xin's forehead with a wet towel to cool her down.Gradually, An Xin's breathing was not so heavy, but fell into a slow and steady deep sleep.I gently closed the bedroom door and thought of the kitchen to cook some dinner for peace of mind.But I searched almost the entire kitchen, but I couldn't find any decent ingredients. There was nothing in the empty kitchen except for a bottle of expired milk in the refrigerator and some dry bread.I looked at the brand-new kitchen in surprise. In addition to doubts, I was more worried and at ease. How did you get here these days? Don't you eat anything?

I put on my coat and went out to the supermarket to buy some ingredients to cook some meals for An Xin. I must be hungry when An Xin wakes up.

Because it was dinner time, there were not many people in the supermarket. I bought pork ribs, carrots, rapeseed, yam, appetizers, a bag of Thai basmati rice, milk, oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, and some seasonal fruits rich in vitamin C. Snacks and daily necessities, the shopping cart was quickly filled by me, and I couldn't put anything in it anymore.

It was already 8 o'clock in the evening when I returned to An Xin's home, the room was pitch black, and An Xin hadn't woken up yet.Instead of turning on the light, I laboriously carried a few shopping bags into the kitchen, filled the safe refrigerator by category, and then put on an apron to start cooking.

I cooked thick porridge, stewed pork rib soup with yam, and made some appetizers.When you think about being sick, eating light food will make you more appetizing.

I stood under the range hood and stirred the boiling clear white soup with a spoon, staring at the rising smoke in a daze, I felt like I was dreaming, I never thought that after two years, I could still stand This cooks for peace of mind, as if our relationship never broke up.But now that we meet again, how will we get along in the future? You and I will never be able to return to the close relationship before. After all, there have been such big scars and conflicts in front of our eyes. Pushing so far away, will we give our hearts to each other again? No, we will all have grudges, distrust each other, and carefully maintain the broken friendship that has been put together with great difficulty, because I can't bear you, And you too.

I was suddenly a little afraid that when An Xin woke up, what would she tell me when I saw her sober, how would she ask me, and how should I answer.And I really don't know what kind of state of mind I should face her. My heart is full of mixed feelings, and I feel a little uneasy. I can't help but be distracted watching the tumbling flesh and blood in the pot, and my thoughts are thrown away.

But not long after, I was suddenly awakened, because behind me, I could feel a hot body lying on top of me, encircling my waist with both hot hands, and her head rested gently on her shoulders. Without saying a word, the shoulders slowly became wet and cold.

It's An Xin, she woke up, but why was she crying?

I turned off the fire, and held her hands on my waist with my hands. An Xin's hands were still very hot, and I realized that she was not wearing any coat. She was wearing a thin nightdress and bare feet, as if After waking up, he came over in a hurry.I immediately became anxious.

Don't you know that you are sick, why you ran out with so little clothes on.

I wanted to turn back immediately, but before I could turn around, An Xin suddenly hugged me tightly, sobbing softly, and talking in a low voice.

I thought you were gone.

The heart of blame suddenly softened, I turned around and wiped away the tears from the corners of An Xin's eyes with my hands, and told her with a smile, fool, how could I leave, you are sick now and need someone to take care of you.Be hungry, dinner is ready, go to the living room, ready to eat.

I took An Xin to the living room and sat down, then took the slippers and coat from the bedroom, told An Xin to put them on, and then went back and forth from the kitchen to arrange side dishes, porridge, soup, and bowls and spoons on the dining table. .I served a bowl of porridge for An Xin, and then I also served a bowl for myself, and I was almost too hungry.But when I finished eating the porridge, I found that An Xin was still eating slowly and methodically, the bowl of porridge in front of her hardly moved.

I asked An Xin if my cooking was not tasty, An Xin shook her head and replied that she has no appetite and can't eat anything.In a hurry, I snatched her spoon.

Don't worry, if you are like this, when will you recover from your illness? You must eat some. If you don't eat, I will feed you.

I took a sip of the porridge, blew lightly, and brought it to An Xin's mouth.

Come on, open your mouth, eat more is good for your health.

An Xin burst out laughing, opened her mouth cooperatively to catch the spoon that I had given, and finished the porridge in the bowl mouthful.

The dinner lasted for about an hour. Under my persuasion, An Xin ate a bowl of porridge and two bowls of soup, but couldn't eat any more.Gradually, An Xin's face flushed slightly, and her complexion looked much better than in the morning.Then I cleaned up the leftovers after dinner in the kitchen and living room contentedly, and went to the bathroom to prepare to take a shower after resting for a while.During this period of time, An Xin and I didn't say a word about the past, she didn't ask me any more, and I was able to breathe a little bit.

After I sorted everything out, it was already 11 o'clock in the evening. I planned to say goodbye to An Xin and go home, but An Xin refused to let me go, saying that it was getting late and it was inconvenient to go back, and she didn't want to stay alone in this empty place In the house, I hope I can accompany her.I could only take the pajamas that An Xin gave me, went into the bathroom and decided to stay here tonight.

When I came out of the bathroom, I was wearing comfortable clothes, with her familiar smell all over my body, I blushed a little.I embarrassedly asked An Xin where I would sleep tonight.An Xin pointed to the empty seat beside her.

Of course, you sleep with me tonight.

I embarrassedly asked her if I could sleep on the sofa in the living room, An Xin firmly refused my request, and I wanted to say something more, but An Xin finally said something, which made me give up my original rhetoric and lie obediently beside her beside.

She said, of course, I am sick, are you unwilling to satisfy me even such a small request.

I got into the quilt, turned my back to An Xin with a stiff body, not daring to look at her, the beating sound of my heart made me wonder if even An Xin could hear such a huge beating sound.

Sure enough, An Xin called my name and asked me to turn to her. In order to hide my uneasiness and guilty conscience, I could only pretend to be calm and turned around to face An Xin. An Xin rested her head gently on my right arm, and then used Take my face in both hands and tease me.

Of course, why is your face so red, and your heart is beating so fast, you thought I was a scourge that could eat you.

I felt a little embarrassed for a moment, and I just wanted to find a crack in the ground and turn in.My little thoughts were still known by An Xin, and I could only struggle awkwardly to remember them.An Xin hurriedly grabbed me.

Alright, alright, don't torment you anymore, go to sleep, you have to go to work tomorrow.

An Xin turned off the light, got into my arms and smiled maliciously, but, maybe, you will be infected by me tomorrow and catch a cold by accident.

In the dark night, I couldn't see An Xin's face clearly, I only knew that An Xin was lying in my arms, gradually falling asleep.I hesitated for a long time before gently wrapping An Xin with my left hand which I don't know where to put it.

The restless heart gradually calmed down, but was filled with complicated and tangled emotions.An Xin and I continue to get along in the same way as if nothing had happened, but just yesterday, I thought that An Xin and I were separated by two places, and we would never see each other again.But today, in less than 24 hours, An Xin and I not only reunited, but An Xin's attitude towards me was a little too indulgent. The reason, but to accept me again without the slightest guard.

I don't know what An Xin was thinking, but I really can't accept such a dream-like reality, because An Xin's actions are too weird and unreasonable. Could it be that I was easily forgiven by An Xin?Does An Xin really not care about my inexplicable reason for disappearing 2 years ago?Now that I appear in front of her without warning, does she really not mind the harm I caused her before, and accept me again as if nothing happened?

impossible.These are all endings that I dare not even think about. Now it really happened, and it happened so suddenly that I was caught off guard, so that I didn't know what to do when I got down.

I looked at An Xin who was sleeping soundly in my arms, and couldn't help frowning, unable to close my eyes for a long time.

The author has something to say: On New Year’s Eve, I have a New Year’s Eve dinner with my family, watch a Spring Festival Gala, and the bell rings at 12 o’clock, which really ushers in the new year. I hope everyone will be happy, healthy and happy in the new year! !