Spring time

During that lunch break, I brewed coffee in the company's pantry, and by the French windows, the company's female colleagues got together to gossip.I didn't pay much attention, just when I was about to leave, I suddenly heard An Xin's name, my whole body froze in an instant, my heart was beating wildly, I couldn't help pretending to drink coffee, and stayed in the Not far from them, they eavesdropped on their conversation.

"Did you know that An Xin's boyfriend is getting married, and my husband received their wedding invitation not long ago. I thought they had lovers and finally got married, but Lin Sen's marriage partner is not An Xin, really Surprise me."

"No way, but they are a good match, and it seems that they have lived together for several years, which is a pity.

"This should be true. I seem to have heard people from Anxin Company say that they have been separated for a long time. Although I don't know how they broke up, Lin Sen seems to have given up the original house to Anxin, and An Xin sold it and found another place to live, An Xin should get a lot of money. This matter is still making a fuss in their company."

"These must be compensations. After all, An Xin has waited for him for so long, no matter who he is, he will feel guilty, but Lin Sen is able to form a new love in such a short period of time. He should have cheated a long time ago. Yes, but fortunately he still has some conscience, at least she can leave something when she leaves."

"Hmph, what are these material sympathies? Men are like this. They like the new and dislike the old. No matter how beautiful and considerate this woman is, they will get bored after staying together for a long time. They will look for wild flowers and weeds everywhere, without stopping for a moment."

"Because Lin Sen is a man, An Xin is now a beauty, who wants to be a yellow flower yesterday, what a pity for such a lovely man, it seems that women really can't wait, and they will grow old if they wait any longer How can you still get married?"

Afterwards, I didn't listen to what they said, my mind was already flying across mountains and mountains, crossing rivers and seas to An Xin's side.

Rest assured, how have you been living these years, how did you become like this, I have imagined many results, but I never thought that the ending would be like this.

I thought that no matter whether you and Lin Sen's final development is sad or happy, you will still choose to find someone to live on, whether you get married or live together, but you will not wait, let alone live alone.Because you don't have any right to wait any longer, you are already in your early years, besides, you don't like to be alone, you will eventually marry in this life, because you are a woman.But why are you so stupid.Knowing that Lin Sen had already changed his mind, he was still entangled in this dispensable relationship and refused to give in.There are many people who love you, why do you have to stay with someone who no longer loves you? The final withdrawal will only make you scarred. Not only did you sacrifice your youth for this, but you also became the subject of discussion in the world Object, why bother?

I suddenly wanted to see An Xin so much, I couldn't bear her to bear all this alone.The huge wound torn by the failed relationship, An Xin should still be licking the wound alone in a corner, not to mention the rumors and gossips around him are constantly sprinkling salt on the bleeding scar, how can it heal.

There is no one around her who can accompany her, no one can share the pain with her, how can she swallow the pain alone.

Rest assured, you must be in great pain now. Your best friend has left you, and even the relationship you worked so hard to maintain has no end in the end. You must feel that your life is a failure.I really want to fly to your side immediately, even if I can't do anything, but at least I can be with you, guard you, at least you don't have to be alone.

Without even thinking about it, I took out my phone and dug out your contact information that had been sealed for two years, but at the moment before I dialed it, I hesitated. I still couldn't press the call button. I can only droop my head in frustration, and the messy emotions in my heart are entangled like a mess.

After many years, I refused to contact you no matter what, and now I call you in such a special period, you will think it is pathetic pity and ridicule, not to mention what name I am calling you, As a friend's concern, but we don't have any relationship now.

Don't worry, what should I do for you?

That night, I tossed and turned in bed and couldn't fall asleep, staring at the hot phone in my hand.

Rest assured, I really can't ignore you like a stranger, I even regret that I left, I still make up my mind to contact you, no matter if you scold me or deny me, I will Don't care, I just want to know how you are doing now.

Only a handful of words remained in the deleted and deleted text messages.

Don't worry, are you okay, of course.

But I was so cautious, I finally made up my mind to send a text message, but there was no response for a long time, and my anxious waiting heart became irritated. I made up my mind to dial your number, but my heart was beating fast. The tension and anticipation to the throat finally got me some mechanical repetitive voices.

You shut down.

I tried to contact you many times the next day, but your phone was always turned off. I panicked and rushed to your company to find you.But when I asked the front desk, I told them, is there any peace of mind, I want to find her.

I know they know me, because our relationship was so good at the beginning, I always come to your company to find you, so that people around me think that our relationship is closer than a pair of sisters.I thought you would be in the company, but Xiao Jing at the front desk told me that An Xin hadn't come to the company for a long time, and she seemed to be on leave.

I don't give up and ask again, when will Anxin resume work?

Xiao Jing replied to me that she didn't know, she explained everything with peace of mind, and left. She should be on vacation for a long time.

After hearing this, my heart suddenly became cold, disappointed and worried.I was disheartened and ready to leave, but suddenly I thought of something, I immediately turned back and asked Xiao Jing anxiously in a sincere tone.

Can you contact An Xin for me, I can't find her and her cell phone is turned off.

Xiao Jing kindly asked me to wait for a while, picked up the main station phone and seemed to want to call An Xin, a glimmer of hope kindled in my heart, I thought it was because An Xin changed her phone number that I couldn't reach her.But this last hope was also shattered. Xiao Jing told me that she couldn't get through either. Anxin's cell phone was turned off, and the company didn't have Anxin's home phone.

I asked again, do you know where An Xin lives now?

Xiao Jing shook her head and said that there was nothing she could do, and the company didn't know An Xin's address, so I'm really sorry.I tried all kinds of methods, but I still couldn't find peace of mind. In the end, I could only say thank you, and turned around and left in a daze.

When you only have one way to connect with another person, it can be frightening to lose that one thread.I regret why I couldn't contact An Xin earlier, so that I don't have to be at a loss like now, unable to do anything, but anxious.

These days, I tried to find out all the contact information about An Xin from the people around me, even if there was only a little clue, but in the end it was all in vain.I sat on the sofa dejectedly thinking that if I couldn't find peace of mind, I could only force myself to find Lin Sen and let him tell me.But I very much rejected such a stupid method, because I didn't want to see Lin Sen at all.

I frantically flipped through the phone numbers of all the contacts on my phone, and suddenly remembered in my mind that I had received an unfamiliar phone number from Shanghai when I was in Yunnan more than half a year ago.It was supposed to be late at night. After I picked up the phone, I didn't say anything there. After a pause for a few seconds, I hung up immediately.I didn't think it would be peace of mind, because she didn't know my new mobile phone number at all. I thought it was a prank call and didn't pay much attention.But looking back now, I feel a little strange. After I came to Yunnan, I changed my local number, and I didn’t have much contact with Shanghai, let alone a strange call from Shanghai.

But is this really reassuring? I didn't even think about it, and immediately turned on the computer anxiously to find a backup.Because this is also a hypothesis. Although the possibility is very small, it is the last hope. If I still can't find peace of mind, I can only go to Lin Sen with 1 reluctances.

Fortunately, I have the habit of backing up, and I also clearly remember the date of that day - it was Qixi Festival, because that day my brother told me that he decided to stay for Xiao Xin, and he proposed to Xiao Xin.

I kept digging through the messy phone records, and finally saw that strange number in an obscure corner.Trembling, I dialed one number after another, and then pressed the button to call.I became nervous inexplicably, my heart rate accelerated, and I prayed in my heart, An Xin, An Xin must be you.

Fortunately, there was no indication on the other end of the phone that it was out of the service area or that it was turned off. It was just a monotonous echo of beep, beep, beep, and the connection was delayed.

Just when I was about to give up and was about to hang up, there was finally a response. It was a female voice, hoarse, weak and slightly trembling.Ran... Ran, is that you? "

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