Spring time

The peaceful winter passed and spring came, and it was early summer in a blink of an eye. I received a call from my brother saying that he was on a business trip to Shanghai, and he stopped by to see me, whom I hadn’t seen in a year.I was very pleasantly surprised and happily told my brother that I would pick him up at the airport.

As for Yu Anxin, I didn't tell her anything about my brother, because these are all part of my life in southern Yunnan. Bad memories, and I don't want to use this as an opportunity to make An Xin ask again the reason why I left that I didn't want to mention.I didn't want to disrupt our hard-won peaceful and happy life, so I lied to An Xin and told her that I was going to a neighboring province on business and would leave Shanghai for a few days.

I skipped work for a few days, and after my brother was busy with work, we went to Hangzhou together, where we visited the West Lake and Wuzhen. Although I have been to these places several times, my brother said that after returning to Shanghai, he wanted to go to some places worth remembering. Aftertaste of the place again, this short business trip is not in vain.

We had a great time in Hangzhou for two days before returning to Shanghai.I still remember that we sat on a two-storey small building next to the Shiqiao river near Wuzhen, leaning on the bamboo bench next to the wooden railing, drinking a cup of Longjing, and overlooking the surrounding antique towns and buildings, small bridges and flowing water.At that time, my brother sighed and said that I really missed the days when I was still in Yunnan. We would always take a short trip aimlessly in our spare time, buy a ticket at the station, and then go to a place we never knew. Explore familiar places.At that time, we brought nothing but money and a thin heart of expectation.It's just that now we don't have the leisure and leisure we had before, we each have our own lives, he has a family, and I'm still single far away.

I smiled and replied to him, when did my brother become sentimental? Don’t you still have Xiao Xin, and you also have a baby who is just one month old. Isn’t this kind of life good?

Yes, my brother looked at me with a smile, and said with emotion, it’s just that time flies by, and it’s still so unpredictable, you never know what’s waiting for you in front of you, just like me, a few years ago, the future was still bleak and busy Wuwei, now not only has a family, his ideal job, but also became a father, it feels really a few years older.Thinking about how fast these years have passed, it’s just that the past can’t go back, it can only touch the scene and hurt the feelings. It seems that I really lost the passion of my youth.

I couldn't help smiling bitterly and thought that life might be as unpredictable as 30 years in Hedong and 30 years in Hexi.However, I am still the same person I was before, except for the faint tail lines around the corners of my eyes, I have hardly changed, whether it is my mood or life.

There is one day left before my brother will go back to southern Yunnan. I said that I would accompany my brother to visit Shanghai at night, and then I would sit by the Huangpu River and look at the glittering and resplendent Oriental Pearl Tower on the opposite side.After paving the road, we bought some beer, sat on the steps of the square, looked at the giant tower opposite without saying a word, and quietly enjoyed the evening breeze blowing from the river.Brother took off his coat, put it on for me, and then gave me a bottle of wine and asked, Xiao Ran, how are you and An Xin doing now, are you okay?

I took the wine, then leaned my head lightly on my brother's shoulder and replied, it's okay, I get along well with her now, but she is always going to get married.

Afterwards, I told my brother about every bit of An Xin and I during these time.I spoke very seriously, word for word.Brother listened very carefully, nodded from time to time, and gently patted my shoulder with the hand holding me.But in the end he was a little dazed and turned to ask me.

Xiaoran, will you wait? For peace of mind, is it worth it?

I laughed, and I told him that it was nothing unworthy. I don't know what kind of feelings An Xin has for me, but I know, just like her silently, and stay with her until An Xin finds something that she can entrust her to. I'm satisfied with the person I've been with for the rest of my life, and I have nothing to complain about, because these are all voluntary.

Brother asked again, what about yourself, have you ever thought about it?

I replied, I am still alone. I don’t know why after I met An Xin, I couldn’t accept anyone else. Do you think I have fallen into An Xin’s magic barrier?However, I still have my family, brother, and Qing, I still have you, you are the most cherished people in my life, with your company, even if I fail to reap love, I will have no regrets in this life .

Later, my brother didn't say anything, just took a bottle of wine and drank with me, and changed the subject while talking and laughing. I also listened with interest to him and Xiao Xin's baby who just turned one month old. Brother's new experience as a father for the first time.

Halfway through, I received a call from An Xin. She asked me when I would be back, and I replied that it was tomorrow night.An Xin asked me again if I was happy and tired these few days.I lied guiltily and said that I had a very good time, and I am still eating barbecue with my colleagues on the street in Wuzhen, so I am not tired.

I don't know why An Xin stayed on the phone for so long, so that I thought An Xin hung up the phone. I was a little surprised, but later An Xin said happily that she would go shopping with her colleagues later, let's have a good time tonight. Take a break and hang up.

My brother and I stayed in the square until we drank all the wine, but we didn’t feel satisfied, so my brother asked me to buy some more drinks and chat all night in the hotel where he was staying, and I readily agreed.We bought some cold beer at the convenience store, bought some supper, and set off for my brother's hotel.We watched movies, chatted, competed in drinking, and finally tossed and tossed until 3 o'clock in the morning, before we fell asleep unconsciously.

When we woke up the next day, it was already 2 o'clock in the afternoon. At that time, we fell asleep on the carpet. The sleeping position was very bad, and the TV was not turned off. Deli boxes and some supper remnants.My brother and I woke up and couldn't help laughing at each other's disheveled appearance.We were all covered with an unpleasant smell of alcohol, so we had to wash up in the room in a hurry, then checked out and had the last dinner nearby, and I sent my brother to the airport.

It was already 7 o'clock in the evening when my brother left, and I was going to stop by to see Qing, whom I hadn't seen for a long time, and then headed home.

Qing and I were still chatting in the same place on the second floor. He told me about the recent interesting things that happened in the bar, and I told him about my life during this period. When I finally mentioned An Xin, Qing told me that he had some After hesitating for a long time, I didn't know whether to tell me. I was a little curious and told Qing, but it didn't matter. Qing then told me.

Do you know that An Xin often went to the store to get drunk when you left Shanghai for Yunnan, and asked me the reason for your departure and your recent situation, but even if I knew, I would have nothing to say, you like An Xin so much , so caring about her, how can I tell her your carefulness.

I was really moved, but also a little ashamed, looking at Qing.

Thank you for understanding me, Qing, I said.

Qing smiled and said, but I saw An Xin getting more and more painful, and I couldn't bear it. I could only implicitly hint to her the reason for your departure, but it had nothing to do with love. I don't know if she understood, but I really feel that An Xin cares about you, she cares about your heart and your people.In my opinion, her feelings for you may not be as simple as friendship.Maybe An Xin didn't even realize it herself.

Because there were more and more customers in the store, after Qing finished talking with me, she went downstairs to entertain the guests, while I lay alone on the sofa, digesting the content of the conversation between Qing and me just now.It's impossible for me not to be shocked by these things, and I can't calm down at all.

Does An Xin already know the reason why I left? How did she understand it?An Xin cares about me, but why, I broke her heart?What exactly are those feelings that An Xin has for me? Is it what I think?

After thinking about it for a long time, I still couldn't figure it out. I just fell asleep on the sofa because I was thinking wildly.I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been too tired these days or because of the alcohol. I didn’t wake up until 5:[-] in the morning, and found myself lying in Qing’s lounge. I rubbed my eyes, and suddenly remembered that I was supposed to go back yesterday. I should be anxious if An Xin couldn't contact me. I hurriedly bid farewell to Qing and drove home.

Because it's the weekend, I want to go home and wash off all the dust, and then make a phone call to say sorry to An Xin, and tell her that I was delayed by something, and I didn't come back until today, and my phone was dead, so she was waiting for nothing I will go there and buy some ingredients to her house in the afternoon to make the dinner that I promised her yesterday.

And by the way, I also cleaned up the house that I haven't returned to for a long time.

I practiced the lie I'd thought up in the elevator over and over to make myself appear more natural on the phone.I'm not very good at deceiving, which made me a little uneasy and nervous. I was worried that I would stutter and slur my words so that An Xin would see through my lies at once.

But my worries were unnecessary, because just as I left the elevator and habitually took out the keys from my bag and walked to my room, at the end of the long corridor, I saw a woman sitting on the marble floor, leaning on the Huddled against the door of my house.Although her face was buried in her knees and she couldn't see clearly, I still recognized this familiar figure at a glance.

This is peace of mind!

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