Spring time

At the end of April, the feeling of spring has faded away. Only the slight breeze that blows from time to time makes people realize that this is the end of spring, and the lively summer is gradually appearing.

I have already found an internship in a Sino-foreign joint venture in the city, which is compatible with my major, but I don’t like to deal with economic work related to export trade; I don’t like boring data; I don’t like to work overtime from time to time. I don’t like the dinners that are deliberately pleasing to attract customers; I don’t like sitting in a narrow square all day doing similar jobs day after day; I don’t like the people around me who are doing their best to achieve their goals. Do things against your will.But this is life, and many people may choose to bear it silently, doing what they don't want to but have to do for the secular life.However, I don't want my life to become so dull.

What I don't like, I don't want to force myself. I have decided that the current job is not the type I like, so choosing another way out may well be a feasible way.Besides, I don't plan to stay in this city any longer.In this way, after finishing my own work in the company every day, I began to look for my favorite work unit on the Internet.And keep sending resumes.

Unknowingly, early summer came quietly, without warning.

June has passed silently, and there is already a strong parting sadness in the air. Everyone is lamenting the passing of their youth, feeling sad for the end of the carefree college era that only belongs to them, I feel terrified of the strange society I am about to step into.

Youth does not last forever, the original madness, youthfulness, and ignorance will be slowly smoothed and gradually disappear after stepping into the society.Maybe, ten years, 20 years, 30 years later, we will be polished by the whole world into a calm and philistine person who knows everything like our parents, and these may be the so-called adult world.

Although we have grown up, we are just children who are not growing up now. Facing a strange and unknown society, we will have fear and anxiety, and we don’t know what we will become in the next few years. How is it, is it flourishing, or being unknown, or gradually becoming a person that even oneself hates.

But everything is unknown, we can only stagger, move forward slowly, try to accept and get used to such a society that has to be adapted, maybe there are some unbearable worldly conditions, secular rules, and many things that were previously accepted. What you discard and what you dislike, you will be forced to pick up and try to learn it.Yes, we all hope that our future will be successful, we have all had visions, and we don't want the good things to disappear.It's just that college may be the best time in life. After you really enter the society, you will no longer have the same freedom as these four years, without a trace of trouble.All kinds of pressure from work, family, and parents follow, and it should be so oppressive that it is difficult to even breathe.

And I, in such an environment, also had to touch the scene, but after feeling sad, I thought of graduating, and the 16-year student days were over. In the days after that, I could be independent, support myself, and live the life I had imagined. When I was young, I didn't have to worry about my shy wallet when I was a student.Isn't it good to own everything, is it useful to mourn the past?After all, this will gradually fade with the passage of time, maybe in the end, I just laughed it off, and said lightly, oh, I used to be such a person too.

I have never been a person who remembers the past, maybe it is said that there is nothing worthy of my nostalgia until now.If so, let’s look to the future.Perhaps, there will be people or things worth remembering in the future.I smiled with relief.

When I put on my graduation gown and took graduation photos with my classmates; when we got together for the last class dinner; when I got my school diploma; when I packed everything up and mailed it home , and then looking at the empty dormitory, I knew it was really over.

That night, I sorted out the contact information of the people I met in college, familiar or unfamiliar, and deleted most of them. I just kept some and put them in a certain group, but I feel that it seems that in the following days Here, we will no longer be in touch.

Fortunately, the resumes that were constantly posted on the Internet finally got some responses. I chose a job in a travel magazine, which was similar to a copywriting job. In fact, I was an editor's assistant for a certain department, and my working location was in Shanghai.

Someone told me that it is not easy to work in Shanghai, not to mention that Shanghai discriminates against non-locals and the prices are quite high.But I have a good impression of the city of Shanghai. The key is that I like this type of work. I can meet different people and new things every day, and I can even travel around in the name of business trips.As for whether it is hard work or not, I think that for a job starting from scratch, it is impossible to say that the initial stage is not hard or hard.But I'm still young, and I have to go through all of these things, and I believe that although there were some bumps and bumps at the beginning, everything will gradually get better.

Not long after graduation, I dragged my light luggage and rushed to Shanghai with longing and anticipation. For this city where I lived for four years, I could only sit by the window of the train and watch it leave me. further and further away.Seeing the city's buildings and thousands of lights slowly disappearing from my sight under the darkness of night, I closed my eyes tiredly.

This city, which I have stayed in for less than 3 years, is drifting away from me.

Indeed, it is not easy to work hard in Shanghai, because I am a newcomer and I am from other places, so I am always the busiest.Catch up on manuscripts, search for material, translate, go out to contact relevant interviewees, advertising agencies, and even take out tea and copy errands.Every day when I returned to the small room I rented, I was so tired that I lay on the bed, and I didn’t even have the energy to take a shower.And this small house was also rented far away from the company in order to save more wages.Every morning, I have to get up early and take the subway for more than an hour to work.I rush to work every day, try my best to work harder, learn from what I see, and slowly accumulate experience.Even if I came home very late, I still insisted on reading the news and checking information every day; even when I was running around and my face was burned by the scorching sun, I just wiped my forehead with my sleeve and said to myself, it’s okay, Everything will be fine.

I don't regret the job I chose, but I like it more and more.Whether it is the layout and typesetting of the magazine, or planning the theme section by yourself, or going out to accompany the inspection.Seeing that what I have paid has finally paid off, the joy comes from the bottom of my heart.Although I am often too tired to look like a human being, although sometimes I am scolded bloody by my boss because of my carelessness and mistakes at work; although this kind of life is far from the happy solitary life I imagined at the beginning, although There are many though, but these are not important, I still have hope for the future, because I firmly believe that everything will be fine.

In this way, working day after day, spring and autumn come and go, and a few years have passed.

I stood by the floor-to-ceiling windows and looked at the busy traffic outside the window, small and dense.Now, I have been in Shanghai for more than 4 years, Shanghai seems to have no changes, but I have changed a lot.I said that hard work will pay off. Indeed, I am no longer as busy as I was when I first arrived, and I am no longer young and reckless. Instead, I was promoted to be an editor, which is what I dreamed of before I first came to the company. Position.

In 4 years, I used my savings to buy a car, and with the support of my parents, I paid a down payment to buy a single apartment. It’s not big, but I finally have my own place to live and my own home. .I still vividly remember when I got the keys to the house, I was so excited that I couldn't sleep all night, thinking about how to furnish this new house that belonged to me.The next morning I went to IKEA to buy furniture.In those days, it took a lot of time and energy to decorate, but when I saw the house was finally turned into what I expected, my only thought was that everything before me was worth it .

I just walked back and forth in the room, immersed in satisfaction and happiness.

Very early on, I imagined what my home would look like. I imagined that the whole house was filled with the fragrance of lavender. In the living room was a red sofa, which was soft and surrounded by a bed. The black coffee table with beige tablecloth, every day when the sun goes down, the golden sunlight shines in through the floor-to-ceiling windows, filling the room with a warm atmosphere.And I was lying on the sofa reading a novel I liked, and there was a pot of freshly brewed fruit tea on the coffee table.The background color of the walls is warm yellow, and some beautiful wallpapers have been carefully pasted in some places.The floors are not ceramic but wooden.There is a whole set of warm-colored cabinets in the kitchen, which include a coffee self-grinder, a bread toaster, a mixer for making soy milk, and a microwave oven for making cakes.The refrigerator is always full, and there are favorite seasonal fruits and vegetables, juices, and wines in it.The bedroom leads to the balcony, and there is a double bed that can be sunken when you fall asleep. The bed sheets are light pink, which is fancy in the Taobao hut.The thin bedding is full of the smell of the sun because it is often dried.There is a small Japanese-style wardrobe in the bedroom and a small floor-to-ceiling wooden bookcase.It was full of magazines, novels, biographies.There are also floor lamps in the corner, a small sofa by the balcony, a few small potted plants on the desk, and scattered CD albums.Shaggy rugs cover the floor.

I have realized all these imaginations. When I fell into the warm bed exhaustedly, I just thought about living like this. Just being alone is enough.

I was 25 years old that year, and I always thought that I would live like this.However, when I was 25 years old, I met the person I had been looking forward to appearing, which made my already calm heart suddenly set off thousands of ripples, and I could not calm down for a long time.But I didn't know that such a person already knew me before I knew him.

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