Lofty future

Chi Xue's movie is called "A Lonely Happy Event", and the story is not complicated.

The male protagonist Guan Shan lived and grew up with his mother since he was a child. The memory of his father is only the temperature of his hands on his face when he was a child.

No one told him exactly why his father left, and he only had some clues from other people's conversations.

One day, he suddenly received news about his father.

Strong curiosity made him go to visit his father without telling his mother.When I came to the place where my father was, I found that my father was terminally ill and his time was numbered.

It was the father's young homosexual who found him and wrote to invite him to come.The other party hoped that he could persuade his father to hold a small wedding.

Chi Xue played Guan Shan, and I played the young lover.

The eyes and doubts at the beginning of the story were all on me—I was so young, why would I be with a middle-aged man who was neither rich nor handsome?Why would you take the initiative to ask for a wedding?

Guan Shan came with questions, and approached his father's last days a little bit, and also a little bit into his father's life.

In the process of getting to know his father, he was also able to re-recognize himself and unravel the most difficult confusion and pain in the process of growing up.Guanshan, Guanshan, and finally Yueguanshan.

Chi Xue picked out three scenes and asked me to choose one to try. I chose the scene where I met him for the first time.

In order to let me find the feeling faster, the location of the audition was arranged at the actual filming studio - an old building 1650 meters away from Guxu Road.

After all, this area is an old district, and all the houses have their ages, but not every house is lucky to have an owner all the time.The one chosen by the crew has basically been abandoned.

It should have fallen down a long time ago, because when I lived here since I was a child, when I stepped into the small courtyard, I couldn't remember who it belonged to before, and whether we had noticed.

But this kind of unfamiliarity is also beneficial, preventing me from being unable to enter the play because I am too familiar with the environment.

Chi Xue asked me to take a stroll around the house first to get familiar with its environment and feel its aura.

I walked in alone as I said, and wandered around.

The dilapidated house after the crew cleaned up still maintained a certain degree of dilapidation, and all the furniture was simple.A wooden stool with a broken leg was placed in a corner, as if the owner forgot to throw it away, or was unwilling to leave it.

The automatic kettle is the simplest one, and it looks like it has been used for a long time.I opened it to see that there was even white scale floating inside, and when I pressed the water boiling switch, it made a noise like noise.

Walking into the room, everything is more simple.

There were so few things in the room that there were almost only two beds, one for the terminally ill father who was running out of time, and one for his young lover.

On the bed that belonged to my father, the bed was comfortable and soft, and there was a vase of flowers on the window sill next to it, with fresh bellflowers in it.It is also the only bright color in the entire house.

I, the young lover's bed, is near the door.The bedside and the bottom of the bed are full of miscellaneous things, including daily necessities and simple medical equipment, obviously ready to take care of the person opposite at any time.

It is facing the vase of flowers.

Almost at the moment when I saw this display, I drew in my mind the spatial relationship between the window, the flowers and the bed of the young lover, and they formed a clear overall picture in my mind.

I walked out of the door, took out my mobile phone and turned on the camera. After a little adjustment, I found a suitable angle and took a picture of the picture reflected in my mind.

As expected, the three echo each other from afar, silently telling a story of mixed beauty and sorrow.

Walking back to the room, I sat on the bed that would be my own and looked out the window quietly.

It's amazing how, just sitting there and imagining that young lover, I feel an emotion that's not my own.

How does he feel in this humble place, taking care of an even humbler person day after day?

What was he for in the first place, and what came later?Does he harbor resentment and grievances, does he think about escaping, does he feel hopeless...

Whenever he sat and looked across, did the flowers on the window sill and the light outside the window fall into his heart; did he send that letter for a wedding, or... to see the light?

"Bang bang bang!" Suddenly, I heard a knock on the door, followed by Chi Xue's voice, "Excuse me, is this Mr. Guan's house? Is anyone there?"

——The audition started right away, and it wasn't Chi Xue outside the door, but Guan Shan.

I only dazed for a while, then got up and went out with the feeling and experience that didn't belong to me.I don't know why, but I'm really looking forward to seeing Chi Xue—no, it's Guan Shan.

I even felt anxious. When I went out, I tripped over the old-fashioned kettle at the door, and it fell to the ground with a gurgle.I looked back at it, but I was reluctant to waste a little time to help it up.

"Here we come!" I answered the door loudly, and finally dropped the kettle and ran out.

I'm sure that the door was open when I first came in for a stroll, so Chi Xue must have closed it.

I stopped behind the door, bit my lower lip involuntarily, took a deep breath, and stroked my hair again.

Thinking of the person outside the door who had been carefully invited, anxiety and uncertainty came to mind, so he could only hide it with a smile for the time being.

When I opened the door, the situation outside the door was beyond my expectation.

Several crew members had already prepared the machine to point to the door, and the camera was like a big black mouth hanging in the air, facing me from an angle I couldn't understand yet.

Chi Xue stood in front of me.

However, when I met his eyes, I found that he was not Chi Xue at all, and his eyes and expressions were like someone else I didn't know - it was Guan Shan.Yes, it is Guan Shan.

I collected myself, forced myself to ignore the shooting equipment, and looked up at Chi Xue: "Hello, this is Teacher Guan's home, you are... you are Guan Shan, right?"

He showed a surprised expression, his eyes hesitated for a moment, doubt and vigilance swirled in it at the same time, and asked me: "Who are you?"

"I'm the one who wrote to you—come in."

The script I have read many times seems to be printed in my mind, and the lines and descriptions of words and deeds on it are clearly remembered.

I didn't look at Chi Xue any more, and turned to pour water.

The water I boiled when I was just familiar with the environment came in handy. I filled it out and put it on the table, facing him from a distance: "This place is inconspicuous. It's not easy for you to find it, right? Did you miss the door?"

"Fortunately, I passed by once." He hesitated and stepped into the door, but he didn't come over. He looked around the room restrainedly, and finally fell back on me.

"The letter said, Mr. Guan... wants to see me very much? You are the one who wrote me the letter, so you belong to him?"

"I am." It turns out that Guan Shan is such a person——I thought to myself, let go of the tension and uncertainty a moment ago, and observed the person in front of me with interest.

He must have been obedient since he was a child, listening to his lonely mother.Maybe he often hears his mother complaining about his father, maybe not, but he is obviously considerate and considerate anyway, trying his best to fulfill every expectation of his mother.

He has grown up to look good and decent, and now he should be doing a job that makes his mother proud. He is often pointed out by the adults in the neighborhood to educate his children, "Look at Brother Guan Shan..."

He has long been used to suppressing his emotions, and he is not withdrawn and withdrawn when communicating with others, but he certainly doesn't talk much.He has always avoided conflict in his life, and even in the face of me, his unexpected father's lover, he tried his best to be polite and not show the slightest offensive look.

This is really interesting, how can he live so well?

"Although we seem to be about the same age, you can call me—little mom? Or little daddy?"

I said with a smile, then picked up the water glass and approached him, staring straight into his eyes for a moment.

At this moment, I am not Xiang Cheng, I am an underground sad person who is full of curiosity about my lover's young son, aggrieved and unable to see the light for a long time, I can't help but want to tease this guy in front of me.

"Xiang Cheng—"

Just when I walked in front of Guan Shan, and the steaming water cup was about to be handed to him, his eyes changed, and his face changed back to Chi Xue as if a layer of human skin mask had been peeled off.

"Okay, let's go here."

Hearing this, I was taken aback for a moment, as if my shoulders were suddenly taken away, something I couldn't see or touch.If it hadn't been drawn away, I wouldn't even have realized it existed.

What followed was an indescribable emptiness and confusion.For the first time in my life, I felt as if I was waking up in a dream.

It's amazing, I'm clearly awake and rational, and I clearly know that I am Xiang Cheng, but in the short period of time just now, I seem to be another person, carrying all his joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys.

So this is the feeling of acting?

Seems simple, but not easy.

"You've done a good job, better than I expected." Chi Xue took the cup from my hand, blew on it, and took a sip carefully, "Are you tired, do you want some water?"

I forced myself again, this time to cut off the strange feeling in my heart, and face the reality.

Glancing down at the rim of the cup he touched, I resisted not rolling my eyes: "Are you taking advantage of me?"

Chi Xue shrugged, with a smile in her eyes: "Where, you've already drank my wine, I thought you didn't mind."

"..."

Talking to him like this will only make him feel good, and he will have to make more progress in the future.I'm not interested in being beaten up by him one day, saying that I indulged him, so I simply don't take it now.

"That's the end of the trial, isn't it?" I walked out the door, with an indelible emotion still looming in my heart, and I only felt that I could take a breath by leaving the house as soon as possible.

I don't know how other actors reacted to acting for the first time, but I am very uncomfortable now.It seems that I don't belong to myself completely, and I feel a kind of discomfort of being cut off physically and psychologically.

"Xiang Cheng, Xiang Cheng, slow down!" Chi Xue came up behind me, and straddled her long legs beside me, "Let's go, I'll take you to eat something, you won't feel empty when you're full."

He had the face of someone who had been there, and I was not in a high mood and didn't want to talk, so I let him take him away.

Along the way, I didn't pay attention to my eyes and feet.Standing regularly, in front of me was an old house with the words "Private Restaurant". It took me a while to confirm where I was standing in this area.

There are too many such old houses on Guxu Road that have been transformed into restaurants, bars, musical instrument stores, galleries, flower shops, small exhibition halls and other business places. I rarely step into consumption, and today is the first time.

I didn't expect it to be with Chi Xue.

Sensing my gaze, he turned his head to look over, and said with a smile, "Let's go, this restaurant is the best on the street. Once you fill your stomach, everything will be back to normal."

After sitting down at the dining table, I finally couldn't help asking him: "Did you do the same when you first met?"

"Me?" He shrugged slightly, his tone meaningful.

"I wish I was, but I'm far behind you. Don't talk about empathizing with the characters all at once, it's hard to even understand the script. Three months. Director Xie Jing trained me for at least three months before I could Find a sense of understanding the characters. So, Xiang Cheng, do you know that you are very talented?"

When he said the latter sentence, his eyes sparkled.

I have seen this kind of light before, when Zhan Yunpeng was amazed by the viciousness of my fights and wanted to take me as a brother and "train" me well.

The author says:

It was before twelve o'clock, and I was moved to tears.