Lofty future

"Only this time." I resolutely blocked his words, "I am not suitable for being surrounded by people, and I don't like the attention of everyone."

"Yeah." He agreed, with a smile in his eyes, looking at me with unclear meaning.

I intuitively feel that this guy is holding back bad ideas, or he will not open his mouth, and he will definitely not speak human words when he opens his mouth.

"Alright, it's enough for one person in our family to show up to the public." Sure enough, it took advantage of the words.

I glanced up at him, but didn't answer.

After a short wait, the food came.They are all local characteristics of Yangcheng, the appearance is exquisite, the presentation is exquisite, and the decoration is full of interest.Along with the dishes came a small bouquet and a vase.

The waiter opened with a smile: "Sir, this is your order."

"..." I pretended I couldn't hear it, and buried my head in eating.

"Thank you." He took the flower, and the waiter walked away, while he fiddled with it himself.After a while, put the vase next to me.

The distance will not prevent me from eating, but I can't ignore it, so I can only raise my head and face him: "Chi Xue, don't do this."

"Don't you like flowers?" He pretended to be crazy, with a silly smile on his face, staring at my eyes without blinking, the smile didn't reach his eyes.

Even if I have no emotional experience, I can tell whether a person really has a heart or is just joking and teasing others.Seeing him like this, my heart sank.

Why should he do this, I don't deserve it at all.

"In case you misunderstand, let me make it clear first." I put down my chopsticks to show solemnity, "I agreed to replace that actor with you because firstly I wanted to support your career, and secondly, it was indeed mutually beneficial, and I didn't." I’m very against this matter, and it’s okay to try. So in the next month, I will try my best to play this role well, and I hope you don’t arrange for me to participate in the future. It’s both work and life.”

Hearing this, his brows and eyes were bent downwards, his bright black eyes seemed to tremble slightly, and that face was a little more melancholy and fragile for no reason.

For a while, I couldn't tell whether it was his true feelings or his acting skills.

"Is that why you want to drive me away, Xiang Cheng?"

"That was not what I meant."

He lowered his head: "For so many years, I have wanted to come back many times, but I didn't have the courage. I didn't get along well at first, and I felt that I didn't deserve it. Later, I became famous and rich, and I was afraid that you would not be welcome... Now it seems that you really , very unwelcome."

After the words, there was a sigh that turned back and forth.

I don’t know if it’s because I have just experienced the performance, some things that I would never experience before, are now difficult to hide in my judgment system.

Chi Xue, you bastard, act in front of your grandpa!

A sigh of relief came to my heart, I wished I could poke the hairpin on the top of his head with my chopsticks.But of course it's unsightly, I won't do it - I hate to take the vase away from me and put it on the corner of the table farthest from me.

Continue to bury your head in eating, and ignore him again.

"...Xiang Cheng, Xiang Cheng?"

"..."

"Are you angry?" He held out his hand.

I didn't even look at it, I took advantage of the situation to avoid it.

After repeating this twice, he finally withdrew his hand knowingly, and muttered in a low voice, "As for?"You bastard, isn't it so that you don't know what to do?

No one spoke anymore, and An Sheng had finished his meal.

Just as Chi Xue said, after eating enough, the invisible hole in the body is filled, the sense of separation and loss disappears a lot, and people seem to have found themselves again.

My heart is at ease and stable, and my mood also improves.

Chi Xue watched me carefully, and when she saw my warm attitude, she immediately stuck to me again, paid the bill and went out, not forgetting to bring the bouquet of flowers with her.

"I'm going to make up a few scenes with others in the afternoon. Your part will start tomorrow. Go back and rest first—take this one." He stuffed the bouquet into my arms, stepped back, and stood half a meter away.

When we were kids, he was the more angry of the two of us, but it was me who was really hard to coax.Whenever this time, he would make some small moves and try many times on me.

At the age of twelve or thirteen, because of his long-term lack of experience in getting along with people normally, he is pitifully clumsy and cute in the matter of "pleasing", and he is willing to study hard.

Most of the methods are learned from TV, sending messy little gifts, getting up 10 minutes early to help me prepare toothpaste, toothbrush and towels, and doing homework more consciously and obediently than usual...

He didn't know which one would coax me well, and if he didn't coax me well, he kept pretending to be good. Anyway, I wouldn't be angry with him for the rest of my life-at that time, I could always easily talk about "a lifetime" as a reference, so naive.

However, his clumsiness was only shown in the first two years, and he has been able to do a job with ease since the third year of junior high school.

On the one hand, it’s because he himself has become cheerful, and on the other hand, we’re really familiar with each other to the point where we know what the other party wants to do as long as we hear each other’s movements.

Today, however, we have lost the latter.

He carefully handled my attitude and tried to coax me well.

I felt a dull pain of separation again.Different from the one of withdrawing from the play, the current split is the split between the past and the present, the split between instinctive resistance and forced soft-heartedness.

I had no choice but to maintain a good temper: "Chi Xue, I said, don't be like this. I won't play this kind of game with you. You should understand the reason. Don't make me speak so clearly. I don't want to be cold and blunt to you." , it seems that a Chu River-Han boundary must be drawn."

This time he no longer acted as aggrieved and pitiful, his expression was restrained, and he looked at me calmly across the half-meter distance.

"Then let me make it clear to you that what I said that day was serious. Since you have chosen to come by my side, at least this month is a chance for me. You can't face up to this, right?"

"..."

I almost forgot, besides being good at acting, this bastard is also very emotionally intelligent, and people don't know how to dismantle what he says.Especially when dealing with old acquaintances like me.

OK, I can't play it.

"It's up to you." I waved my hand, placed the bouquet on the potted plant at the entrance of the restaurant, and left.

When I moved into the crew hotel in the morning, I joined the main creative work group.A filming schedule that is said to have been made overnight has been sent to me by the assistant director Li Fan Xiaochuang.

The schedule for the first few days was not tight, and even "director's guidance" time was set aside separately.According to Li Fan, every scene that day was practiced by Chi Xue and me first.

The wolf's ambition is obvious.

I don't know whether to say that Chi Xue is naive, or that he used his power for personal gain too much.

If I just took his words as a joke and his purpose as a game, I might just feel dumbfounded.But now I know for sure that he really has a heart.

As for breaking his heart, I have to admit, I'm not that good at it.

This becomes a serious problem.

While the shooting arrangement is still relaxed, I don’t need to rush to think about anything today. I went back to the hotel room to get some belongings, and planned to go back to the spring breeze.

In the past three years, without knowing it, Spring Breeze Is Not Drunk has become a kind of refuge for me.Nowhere to go, back to the shop.Feeling uneasy, I went back to the shop.If you want to think about something quietly, go back to the store.

In the shop in the afternoon, only Jiajia, who is on duty, is there.

Seeing me suddenly push the door open, she was startled, and hurried out from behind the cash register and the coffee machine: "Brother Cheng, why are you here?"

"Come when you are free."

"Oh...well, Brother Cheng..." I went into the cash register to look for the camera, and she lay on the counter looking at me, hesitating to speak, obviously wanting to chat with me.

It is estimated that Song Weiran told her that I was going to film a movie. She can be regarded as Chi Xue's fan, and she has a lot of questions in her stomach.It's a pity that I don't have time for him right now, and I can't satisfy her curiosity.

"Let's talk when you have time, I'll go to Lanting to stay for a while, call me if you have anything to do."

"Ah?" She looked disappointed, "...Oh."

This month has been really chaotic, and the few photos I took when I went back to Guxu Road last time have not been edited yet.This afternoon has passed so far, which means that I have stolen half a day's leisure, which is just right for editing pictures.

After synchronizing the photos in the camera to the computer, I opened the software and began to pick and retouch the photos.

The thing that couldn't be ignored was the photo of Chi Xue that was accidentally taken.I maximized it on the software, and Chi Xue's clear and authentic eyes became scary clear.

I have always thought his eyes were beautiful since I was a child, especially in the first two years.

It is always covered with a layer of ignorance-like chaos, and it seems to be out of focus when looking at people.People who are not familiar with him will think that he doesn't take people seriously, and only when they are familiar with him will they understand that he doesn't know how to look directly at others.

For a long time, his eyes widened only when he looked at me.

Then I watched that layer of chaos dissipate, and finally saw myself reflected in his eyes.

"Xiang Cheng!" He would call me so loudly, grinning, shaking his head, the whole world in his eyes was me.

These days, even when I was alone at noon, I didn't think about asking him why he wanted me.In the end, I didn't ask.It's not because I'm timid and evasive, but because I should have known the answer.

——He likes me, has always liked me, and has liked me since he was a child, how could I not know?

Song Weiran thought that I was not enlightened and did not understand love in the world, and was worried that I would fall into the mouth of a tiger.But in fact, I am more worried that I have a hard heart, and Chi Xue really can't keep warm.

He likes me, maybe I noticed it earlier than he himself - when he was still Xiang Chixue, maybe it was the spring when he was 16, maybe it was the approaching summer, he exposed himself.

I don't know why, but I remember the scene of that day very clearly.

It was an unremarkable Saturday, I was lying down on the desk to write practice questions as usual, and Chi Xue was lying on the bed playing a game console.It should have come from Song Weiran, because there is a sticker of a certain Korean drama actor on it.

During a break, I turned to watch him play games.

He felt my sight and said briskly: "Why, do you want to play a game too? Let me teach you how to play, there are many games on this machine...hehe."

I've never played a game with him, but answered "Yeah" that day.

As soon as the words fell, the movement of his hands stopped.Then he got up and sat down, looking at me blankly.My smile was reflected in his eyes--except for my smile, there was almost nothing else, clearly.

I pushed the chair away and sat down, and his eyes followed me with my smile.When I propped my arms against him, he still raised his face unconsciously and continued to look at me, his eyes staring blankly.

There was no proof, no sign, I just knew suddenly that he wanted to kiss me.

Because he wanted to kiss me, that ordinary scene became ambiguous and unforgettable.

And since then, every time he shook his head with a smile and called my name loudly, I knew that he was confessing his love; I knew that behind every "Xiang Cheng!" was an unspeakable "I like you".

Unfortunately, I don't have the same feelings to return to him.Not then, and not now.

The author says:

The number of words added after twelve o'clock does not count, and my full attendance is still cut off!Woohoo, my perfect attendance award is gone, and I can't make a fortune!So sad, crawling all over the ground, I have no motivation to insist on daily updates this month.