Lofty future

Indulging in photo editing, time flies by.It was evening in a blink of an eye, and Jasmine's voice pulled me out of the world of photos.

"Ah Cheng!" The little guy yelled out in surprise when he saw me before he had finished walking the stairs, and hurriedly finished the last few steps.

I put down the mouse, walked over to pick her up, and went back to the sofa by the window.

Obviously it hasn't been long since I saw her, but for some reason, I miss her so much.Maybe my uncle is too much into the drama.

"Isn't this where my grandmother's house is?" She pointed to the screen on the computer, "I remember, I have a friend who is still there!"

"You have friends everywhere, and you don't even know if they remember them or not!" Song Weiran followed her up and choked when she heard her words.

When it comes to educating children, she is not good at this point, and she is easy to get angry when she opens her mouth.But there is no way, the root of many subconscious behaviors of people is too deep, so deep that it cannot be controlled by subjective will from time to time.

She herself knew it was wrong. Seeing my disapproving gaze, she stuck out her tongue and said, "I'll take you there this Saturday, okay? Maybe I can meet your friend."

"Okay!" Jasmine cheered emotionlessly, not paying attention to the conversation at all, half of her lying on the table skillfully flipping through the photo album.

Before I had time to stop her, she had already turned over Chi Xue's picture, and exclaimed "Aww", "Of course, it's the uncle you like!"

Song Weiran glanced at the computer screen upon hearing this.

I have carefully cropped the photo and picked out Zeng Yuhan in its entirety.Looking at it now, it is just a snapshot of Chi Xue alone.

Song Weiran's expression suddenly changed: "What do I like...Song Moli, don't talk nonsense, go, go paint your picture card for today!"

As he spoke, he picked up his schoolbag with one hand and Jasmine with the other, and pushed her to a table at the innermost end of Lanting.

After a while, the little girl was settled, and she came back with an uneasy expression on her face: "Don't listen to the kid talking nonsense, I told her that I like Chi Xue, it's the way ordinary people like celebrities, nothing else. "

I subconsciously wanted to answer "what does this have to do with me", but when the words came to my lips, I felt inappropriate and wrong.

If it really doesn't matter, I should not be reacting now.

One cannot deceive oneself and others. No matter how clear-headed I am, Chi Xue's declaration and attitude have already had a great impact on me.

I can see this clearly myself. Song Weiran has known me for many years, how could he not see it?Or, as a bystander, she knows better than me.

"Wei Ran," I turned to face her, rarely asking for help calmly, "Do you really think that Chi Xue and I will take that step?"

As if she didn't expect me to ask so directly, she pointed to herself in surprise: "Huh? You asked me?"

"Ah."

"This..." She leaned against the edge of the table with a thoughtful expression on her face, and then her eyes fell on the computer, "You ask me so seriously, but I don't know what to say. All I can say is that this photo looks very emotional. Deep, not just any photographer can take pictures, nor can you take pictures of anyone's face."

I see what she means.

Photos can speak. Whether the photographer likes or dislikes the subject or not, it will be fully exposed at the moment of pressing the shutter, and will be preserved forever.This is why I love photography.

And it can even be said that according to my evaluation criteria, Chi Xue, which was photographed purely by intuition, is already one of my favorite works.

In the photos, both the visible and the invisible are vividly depicted.It's perfect.It is so perfect that I want to own it alone, but also want to make it public for everyone to appreciate.

Human desires are always full of contradictions, making choices seem lonely.

After a long silence, I turned off the photo album, and I didn't know whether to speak to myself or to Song Weiran.

"Yes, I love Chi Xue, but he is just a family member in my heart. Tell me, isn't it good for us to be family members? Why is he so selfish and always trying to destroy the situation, isn't it enough to make one mistake?"

Song Weiran hesitated: "Xiang Cheng, you mean..."

"He left in the first place because of my reasons. He couldn't hide his thoughts from Fang's mother's eyes. Fang's mother scolded him, but he couldn't stand it, so he wanted to leave. Fang's mother blamed herself until she died, thinking it was a I broke his heart and made him lose his family. But what about him? Who is he worthy of? Does he really care about the feelings of our family members? Heh, he only cares about his own self-esteem. "

Speaking of Xiang Meifang, and thinking of Chi Xue's resolute departure, I still couldn't control a surge of bitterness in my heart.

It has accumulated a lot of grievances and charged straight at Chi Xue, so that every word that came out of my mouth was poisoned.

Fortunately, the person in front of me now is Song Weiran, not Chi Xue herself.

This is also the first time I told Song Weiran the root cause of Chi Xue's departure.At first, it was an unspoken secret between me and Xiang Meifang, and later it became a secret for me alone.

Finally, with Chi Xue's return, I couldn't help letting it see the light of day.

However, Chi Xue went away in a fit of anger and returned capriciously, and dared to speak up in front of me about what to pursue or not, just because of her achievements and fame, it was arrogance.

Facing his behavior and attitude, I am not so much helpless as angry and contemptuous—what are you chasing after?What are you chasing after?

He is not worthy of chasing after the friendship of the past.I don't bother to chase after today.

"Forget it, don't think about it." Song Weiran approached me, put his hands on my shoulders, and gently hugged my head.

"Let's go with the flow, as you said, this month is work, you are colleagues, live as you want, don't add unnecessary psychological burden to yourself."

At the end of the day, inside and outside the play, my mood fluctuated a bit, so I simply stayed at home for another night, and went back to Guxu Road early the next morning to go directly to the set.

The actor who will play against me today has already put on makeup and is waiting, and Chi Xue has also arrived.After introducing each other, they sat down and talked about the play while the scene was arranged.

It's not a difficult scene, it's all bits and pieces.

Chi Xue didn't follow this kind of play before, it was all directors from other groups.Because I am a complete newcomer and he brought me here, he only worries about me.

"Are you familiar with the script? Have you memorized the lines?" He asked me.

"It's all good."

"Tell me your understanding."

"Shanshan is a rare and sincere good friend of mine. Today's scenes belong to our daily relationship. She sympathizes with me, but I am not so willing to be sympathized by her, so I always show an optimistic side in front of her. My thoughts Yes, the natural, everyday feel of the performance is the most important thing.”

Chi Xue had no expression on her face after listening to it, she couldn't tell whether she was sure or not, she just said to my opponent actor: "Let's come and show him."

"Okay, Director Chi."

I backed away silently and stood far away.

The scene in front of them is naturally not the place used for the official shooting. They communicated a little bit to confirm each other's position.Then, the role was quickly put on the upper body, and the three scenes in the script were performed smoothly in front of me.

Teaching by example does help.

After looking at it this way, and comparing it with the performance scenes I had imagined in my mind, I can understand the difference between the two, and the flaws in my acting method that I took for granted.

Chi Xue turned to look at me: "How about it, do it yourself?"

He remained expressionless and looked at me the way he looked at other actors.This appearance is somewhat close to the "fierce" he had warned before.

"Okay." I stepped forward and bent over the opponent actor, "If you don't perform well, please give me your advice."

The other party smiled and looked up at me: "Director Chi said you are very spiritual, I think so, it feels right when you come up."

I turned to look at Chi Xue, but he looked away, lowered his head, and flipped through the script in his hand: "Let's start, go to the real scene for the first part, and arrange the rest by yourself."

"Let's go." The rival actor Nunu nodded, looking like he was taking me with all his heart.

I followed what I had conceived, combined with Chi Xue's demonstration just now, to carry out this rehearsal.Because it is simple, the completion is also quite smooth.After the three scenes, I can feel the satisfaction of my opponent.

At this time, the props team came over to say hello, saying that the scene had been set up properly.

Chi Xue nodded, and said, "Wait a little longer for the sun to shine on the well over there and start filming."

He also called a makeup artist, looked at me and told me: "You don't need to make it up, just highlight your fragility. Don't let him wear the suit that Lin Zitong used before. Use the one I brought in this morning."

"Okay, Xiang Cheng, come with me."

The powder room is in an off-camera room of the house.

Maybe because it is a realistic modern drama, there are not many costumes and props used on the characters, and a room seems too spacious.

The experience of sitting down and letting someone smear on your face just to transform yourself into someone else is still new.

Seeing subtle changes in myself in the mirror, it seemed that I was really possessed by another soul.

After finishing the makeup, standing in front of the mirror, I really couldn't recognize myself for a while.

That person—he told Guan Shan in the play that his name was Gu Bai, and the name was given by Guan Shan’s father. Not only that, everything about him was given by his father, and he has been living under his protection—also under the shadow .

The clothes that Chi Xue prepared for me were a very large T-shirt and a pair of shorts that were badly patterned. The T-shirt could almost cover half of the trousers.

I am 1.8 meters tall, which is really tall among southerners, but the wide T-shirt seems to cover me in a certain cage.I became extremely obedient and extremely vulnerable.

However, my eyes were turned into extra deep, the eyeballs were magnified, and they were very pure black, revealing a suppressed and heavy dissatisfaction and unwillingness.

I suspect that no matter who looks into these eyes for ten seconds, their heart beats faster, their hearts tremble with fear, and they will never forget it in their lifetime.

"The sun is coming, Director Chi asked me to ask, how is your side?" A staff member I don't know if it's a scene reporter or something ran up, knocked on the door and urged.

"It's ready." The makeup artist patted me and gave me an encouraging look.

I went downstairs with the people who came, and everything was ready in the courtyard.Chi Xue was talking to Li Fan with her back turned to me.

When the latter saw me, he raised his hand and waved, then pointed to the patio, motioning for me to take my place quickly.

Seeing this, Chi Xue turned around and looked over.

The moment his eyes fell on me, the ends of his eyes tightened visibly.Until I stood by the patio, I could still feel his gaze.

I did not start my first performance under the camera, but under his burning eyes.

The author says:

The next update should be Saturday night.The rest of this month should be based on the list tasks to update, although there are not many days left, and there may be no list tasks at all hahaha.